Looking at My Life

25 years old. writer. reader. fangirl. anything else, just ask.

[pagets-archive]

Okay, so uh, H.G. Wells is actually a woman. I’m gonna have to process this. 

Warehouse 13 “Time Will Tell” Original air date: July 6, 2010

[astradanvers]

Do you still write fic?? You were my fave author back when you wrote Swan Queen :)

I try but honestly have written anything in awhile, it kinda sucks. My muse hates me.

[disabilityhealth]

evidence suggests that I am too tired for this shit

[technoskittles]

I keep forgetting that NT people don’t do math the same way people with ADHD do it until I try to explain my thought process and get weird looks from people who are like “how the FUCK did you do that?”

whoops

[technoskittles]

and for those of you who DON’T know what I’m talking about I’ll give you an example

42 + 29 = 71

for neurotypical people, they use the method we were all taught in grade school where you add 9 + 2 to get 11 and then move the extra one over to make 4 + 2 + 1 which equals 7 to give you 71

but the way I do it (as many other people with ADHD as I’ve come to find out) is this:

okay so you have 42 + 29. if you take 1 away from 42 and give it to 29 to make it an even 30, you now have 41 + 30 which is an easy 71

or, another problem: 53 + 88

round that 88 up to 90 and take the two from 53 so you have 51 + 90. but wait I can make this easier. take 10 more from 51 to make 90, 100 and now you have 41 + 100 which equals 141

it’s just…so much faster? and makes so much more sense to me

[technoskittles]

also? the math teachers that always took off points for kids not showing their work?

fucking HATED that. as someone who could get from point A to point D in my head in a split second, I felt like showing my work was often a waste of time when sometimes it felt like I just automatically knew the answer

or, if I did put down my work, I went through a process that wasn’t taught and would get points reduced anyway because it wasn’t the way we were taught just because my brain worked differently than the rest of the class. my answer was always right. they just didn’t like how I got it

never did like that much 

[technoskittles]

also, this is another way of doing it that I just saw on facebook that I’ve also done before

because I do things to that extent too

so if you give me something like 37 + 45 I’ll go “well 30 + 40 is 70 and 7 + 5 is 12 so 70 + 12 is 82″

there’s just…so many ways to do math that make more sense than the way I was taught

[technoskittles]

this post got a lot more popular than I was expecting wow

I’ve seen some people reblogging this saying they don’t have adhd but have autism and yes! People with autism do this too! I’ve learned that a lot of people with adhd and/or autism do things that overlap and this is one of them!

[technoskittles]

i’m sorry but these are the only valid tags on this post

[untitled74285]

HOLY SHIT HOLY SHIT IVE DONE THIS MY WHOLE LIFE HOLY SHIT. Im an AP Calculus student and i was trying to explain to the other kids that i have trouble with mental addition and subtraction and i have to do it that way and they all look at my like im stupid but it was ADHD the whole time???? Oh word??????

[whynotzoidbergdotorg]

IVE DONE THIS FOR SO LONG HSHSGH IM GLAD IM NOT JJST WEIRD

[kalex-corner]

I just assumed that’s how everyone did it… 😟

[alexdanversdaily]

I came because I wished to see you again, Alex. To say goodbye. You have brought me much joy in my time on your Earth, Alex. You and your friends showed me strange and wonderful things.

[astradanvers]

Do you ever regret something to near unbearable proportions?

[beckettmariner-deactivated20200]

A few weeks ago a 15-year-old called me “Grandma” for being able to remember when the first Twilight film came out, and I still haven’t mentally or emotionally processed this

[breakingisabella]

tag the age u were when twilight came out (2008) i was ten

[yarikvadila]

this meme is danvers sisters

[astradanvers]

Pro Tips Beehives

Pro tip #1: making nectar sucks.

Pro tip #2: nectar is important.

Pro tip #3: in a 1:1 mixture of sugar and water the sugar will never fully dissolve, stop trying to make it.

Pro tip #4: nectar is needed so keep making a 1:1 mixture of sugar and water and shut up about it.

That’s it, that’s my pro tips.

[idreamofhazel]

My mood currently.

[astradanvers]

Guys!

I know all of you have so much more going on than to worry about anything I have going on but if you could please just take one second and give a small prayer/thought to my little sister I would greatly appreciate it. She’s 8 and has Cerebral Palsy and this morning between 6:15 and about 30 minutes ago she’d had a total of 9 seizures. My stepmom has her at the ER but good vibes always help.

[greenteacology]

Lesbians are so good at pointing out romantic chemistry between women on TV but in real life it takes 3 years of friendship and an entire peer reviewed scientific paper to convince us that a girl might like us back.

[feministtalks]

[thatadhdmood]

I asked my friend whether she has a constant inner dialougue going on, and she said no.

And I’m like?????? How can you not??

Are peoples heads silent most of the time????

Are they not constantly singing and talking and wondering and imagining bullshit in their heads 24/7

So then I asked around, to some other people and they all agreed!!! 

No nonstop inner talking!! 

They said for them, it was more pictures or not fully formed sentences then full speech.

So now I’m just trying to figure out if this is an adhd thing???? Because no one is an individual in their actions due to probability and stuff so I can’t be the only one.

I’ve tried researching it, and in psychology its called ‘inner speech’!!

Theres a lot of text and I’m getting bored of reading about this,,..,.,

So instead I wanted to ask, what any of your experiences with inner speech are? 

Because I’m curious about other peoples first hand experiences with it!

[intrepid-inattentive]

I have 2 songs, movie dialogue, a story I’m writing, and at least one conversation on the go at all times. It’s no wonder people with adhd are prone to substance abuse. I can see how appealing it would be to use something that would just make it all quiet

[the-adhd-society]

……….. I didn’t know silence was an option lmao.

[teckmonky]

My brain never shuts up, constantly either bombarding me with Drawing ideas, story ideas,or songs/movies

I wish it would at least shut up when I try to sleep

[trite-propaganda-deactivated201]

Bitch my brain as obnoxious as a YA MC opening chapter inner monologue

[emeraldmercury]

My brain is like having 20 tabs open in your browser and all of them are mp3s or youtube videos. 

[milfkarlmarx-deactivated2021081]

My inner voice is literally samuel l jackson narrating everything that happens to me and also three green day songs and mr brightside are playing at all times

[shitposting-hobbits-to-gallifrey]

Wait this is an adhd thing? Normal people don’t do that?

[soda-soda-pop-deactivated202005]

what??? you guys dont make stories??? think out alternate universes?? talk to yourselves????

your head,,,is silent??? all the time??????

[powerfulweak]

Honestly this is why Yoga and meditation never worked for me.

“Now turn off your mind.”

Me: The Fuck you say???

[sealie-seolh]

Yo @missslothy @narkito @ariestaurus21 @bgharison @thekristen999 @lavvyan everyone

are your minds quiet – I don’t mean 100% of the time 80% of the time? You’re not doing music, dialogue, stories, imagining, figuring out what to say to person A+B, that  event which went horribly wrong ten years ago…?

[lavvyan]

When I’m at home, I play video games or read or watch stuff on Netflix. When I do some cleaning or cooking or even just take a bathroom break, the mp3-player provides podfic or an audiobook. Music in my car, the news on my phone during breaks at work, a different mp3-player, dedicated to music, when I go for a walk.

I can’t deal with the racket my brain makes without distractions, so I avoid having to do that at all costs.

[darklightluna]

In 7th grade, my teacher told me my math had to be off because no one could listen to that much music per day.  My mom had to send a note that said yes, I do basically have the radio on every single waking moment when I’m not in school.

The other day, i found out that my mom doesn’t have a constant running dialogue in her head and I’m honestly kind of baffled.

But yeah, it’s also why meditation and yoga don’t work for me very well.  I have found that for meditation, a podcast or calm video while I cross-stitch works wonders.  For yoga, since I do it for bendiness and not calming reasons, it doesn’t really matter.

[unsuspectingfish]

I legit thought that was normal…

[doofnoof]

@ekdeans

[astradanvers]

Oh crap! This makes so much sense now. I’ve never been diagnosed adhd but know I have tendencies, and this is apparently one of them. It also explains why I sleep way better with noise.

[astradanvers]

Do you ever miss someone so badly you don’t know what to do? You know how easy it would be to send them a message. How easy it would be to fall into the illusion that you could be friends. But you also know how much it would hurt.

[kedreeva]

Today the lady behind me in line at the grocery store checkout politely tapped my shoulder and when I turned around she motioned toward my giant bundles of kale and asked: “what do you do with your kale? Do you cook with it, or make juice, or…?” And i admitted there in front of god and the world “oh I feed it to my peacocks.” And she just looked so taken aback that I said “I’m sorry that’s not the answer you were hoping for”

And that’s how I learned other people don’t really know what to do with kale either. We’re all pretty sure it’s edible, though.

[kedreeva]

People are sending me kale recipes like they honestly believe I will try to eat bird food

[astradanvers]

I have had this happen to me before, except my answer was rabbits, my rabbits love kale, it’s their favorite

[astradanvers]

@writebethany we have it recorded from back before Christmas