Just Some Thoughts

Random things I think of throughout the day as someone with adhd

[audhd-thoughts]

So last year I had a near miss getting hit by a car while crossing the street. This year I actually got hit by a car while crossing a street. I’m completely fine, nothing broken, no lasting injuries, I was very lucky. However, I do have a follow up appointment to just make sure everything is well and good and I realized that I couldn’t remember what date I got hit so I searched “hit by a car” in my message history since I knew I texted my family chat right after it happened. Turns out that near miss was on January 22, 2024 and me actually getting hit was on January 23, 2025. What kind of weird ass coincidence is this??? How the hell did I get hit by a car exactly one year and one day after almost getting hit by a car???

[audhd-thoughts]

You know, streaming services are so stupid. I use my parent’s streaming services still and we have 5 of them, plus one that I pay for, and 9 times out of 10 I still can’t find the show or movie I want to watch. Then even if it is on the streaming service, I still have to pay for it or watch ads while watching it. I swear streaming services are barely a step up from cable at this point

[audhd-thoughts]

TIL that there’s a thing called a sunflower lanyard that people with hidden disabilities, like autism and adhd, and physical ones like EDS and POTS, can wear to signal that they have a hidden disability. Here’s a link: https://hdsunflower.com/ and my friend said that the airport in Portland, Oregon in the USA gives them out for free (saying USA just in case cause I have no idea if there’s another Portland, Oregon in a different country lol)

The Hidden Disabilities Sunflower is a discreet sign that the wearer has a hidden disability and may need additional support

[audhd-thoughts]

So no idea why my brain thought of this, just the ADHD I guess lol. We have a word for involuntary celibate, incel, but I think we should have a word for asexuals who have never had sex, voluntary virgins, or volvir. What do you guys think?

[audhd-thoughts]

Gotta love that moment you realize that your adhd is why you’re accident-prone. In less than 24 hours I severely bruised my knee by accidentally hitting it on the bottom of a bus seat and got at least a second degree burn on my finger by brushing it against the inside of the oven while taking the temperature of the chicken I made for dinner. Pretty sure both accidents happened because adhd impairs your proprioception (the sense of where your body is in relation to other things in space, it’s what stops you from bumping into things, tripping, slamming things, etc)

[audhd-thoughts]

Just gotta say, figuring out your romantic and sexual identity should not be this hard. First I didn’t think about it, then I realized I really liked someone of the same gender as me so I was like “oh, I must be gay”, then I liked someone of an opposite gender so I figured I must be bi, but now I’m realizing that while I admired them and liked them and wanted to spend time with them, I wasn’t attracted to them. So now I’m thinking maybe acearo? Idfk.. but I’m also a hopeless romantic and want a romantic relationship, and my friend introduced me to the term “cupioromantic” where you don’t experience romantic attraction but still want a romantic relationship. So I guess maybe cupioromantic asexual? I feel like it really shouldn’t be this hard to figure out my own identity, but here we are. All of this to say, how do I get a romantic relationship if I don’t experience romantic attraction??? Like it feels counterintuitive. If anyone has thoughts or advice that would be greatly appreciated lol

[audhd-thoughts]

You know what’s great? What I just absolutely love? Couldn’t get enough of it. Some random ass delivery guy coming into my work and demanding to be let behind the counter because he only sees a woman behind the counter and OBVIOUSLY a MAN has to be the one to carry the boxes of NAPKINS AND TRAYS that MAYBE weigh like 10-15 pounds. Oh sorry, are my double X chromosomes too weak to carry a fucking box? Do I need a big strong Y chromosome with a dick to come save this damsel in distress? Fucking hell. I hate people who try to hide misogyny behind chivalry. Implying I’m a weakling who can’t handle carrying fucking 15 pounds is not chivalrous, it’s insulting

[self-loving-vampire]

Problem #1 regarding child abuse is that a lot of people seem to struggle to imagine normal, respectable-looking parents and other authority figures ever doing it despite the statistics so instead they do the stranger danger panic and completely overlook some of the greatest threats.

Problem #2 is that even when people understand, even if in an abstract way, that parents can be abusive they just... don't seem to actually register that as something that can apply to real life. It's just hypothetical to them and doesn't actually guide their ideas of how to prevent child abuse.

Problem #3 is that even after overcoming the above biases a lot of people have a very narrow image of what abusive parenting is where they imagine like... people doing violent things basically out of sadism and without provocation. They don't seem to think it's "real" abuse if the victim did something that "justifies" punitive violence, like disobeying the parents.

In fact, most people think parents have a right to do a whole lot of awful things to their children beyond just hitting them, like violating their privacy, controlling their access to information, and deciding what/when/if they eat, among other things.

[audhd-thoughts]

I was talking to a coworker at work who’s an older lady and telling her how my mom used natural consequences as punishment. Like, you ate a cookie without permission, now you don’t get cookies when others have permission, or you lied to me, now you have to work to earn my trust back and I’m not going to just believe what you tell me automatically anymore. My coworker started talking about her nephew who lied and she smacked his head and he hasn’t lied to her since and how in the Bible it says “spare the rod spoil the child” and all that bull. I tried to come and meet her halfway and asked her “do you think maybe the rod is a metaphor for punishment in general and not just corporal punishment and that a kid that never has negative consequences is spoiled?” And she immediately shot me down so I decided to just stop contributing to the conversation because she obviously was not going to allow herself to accept input from me.

[audhd-thoughts]

Ever made a password for a sight with frankly ridiculous requirements? This one had to be more than 15 characters, upper and lower case letters, numbers, symbols, no spaces, etc. after way too long I decided to cuss it out in the password and finally that one took XD

[audhd-thoughts]

Welp my allergies decided to make an appearance now that it’s getting pretty close to my allergy season. Time to wash all my bedding and take a Benadryl fueled nap for 10 hours lol

[audhd-thoughts]

I swear my cat knows when I’m going to work and when I’m staying home, and she knows when I have to leave soon, because she will ONLY cuddle with me in the mornings on a day I have to leave and right before I have to get going. Then I have to figure out how to get up without pushing her off me. I usually just start clipping her claws and she usually will get annoyed enough from that that she’ll leave on her own but sometimes she doesn’t and I get through all her claws and have no idea what to do now.

[audhd-thoughts]

Last year, my mom broke her ankle. Right as it was healing, I broke my ankle. Now this year, my mom broke her foot, and today, not even a week later, my cat dropped a heavy wooden object on my foot and the corner hit the top of it. No one who can drive is home so I haven’t gotten it looked at but I swear to god if this happens again next year I will riot

[audhd-thoughts]

Got a kitten recently, she turns 1 in June, got her at 6 months, and I have this inexplicable urge to just burst out laughing every time she adorably curls up next to me and flexes her front paws into her face. She’s amazing and I love her and I would die for her

[remanence-of-love]

[audhd-thoughts]

I don’t think I’ve ever seen anything that summed up how I feel about my bio dad more than this

[audhd-thoughts]

Ya know, sometimes adhd is sitting in the bathtub because you know you should take a shower but still watching a bunch of YouTube shorts until 2 hours have passed and you realize “oh shit I’ve been in here a while doing basically nothing” and you just keep watching YouTube shorts because you actually cannot disengage your brain from this task it has chosen for collecting dopamine.

[audhd-thoughts]

I took a neuro-psych eval three months ago and I finally got my results and an official diagnosis for both adhd and autism! I’m so happy to finally have a thing to be like “this is why I’m like this!!! I’m not a horrible person!!!!” And I can finally use things like Loops in the workplace because I have a diagnosis to back up the fact that I need them! Finally, this three year journey that started with my audhd friend being like “ya know, you’re most likely neuro spicy and should probably look into that” and finally I feel like I’ve made it somewhere significant that will be able to help me live my best life. God it feels like a weight has lifted off my chest with the knowledge that I was RIGHT. That I am, in fact, NOT neurotypical. AAAHHHHHHHHHH

[audhd-thoughts]

Question for other audhd people: so problems like executive dysfunction that make doing things difficult.. when you know there’s a task that your executive dysfunction will just be like “nah that’s never happening” but you decide to give it a try anyway even though every time you’ve tried to do something like it in the past you just couldn’t because “this time will be different! I’ll finally be able to do the thing without any problems!” And then inevitably you don’t do the thing and end up hating yourself for not being able to do it cause you were so confident this time would be different… anyone else do that? Or is it just me…