so i think what i have to do here if ever i really do come back to elena, is that i need to either a. archive this blog and make another one to start with a completely clean slate, or b. delete everything on this blog, including all interactions/relationships built up and hereβs why:
I love elena, sheβll always be one of, if not my absolute, favorite video game characters ever. I love this blog and i love all of you, but for reasons that are my own personal ones, i always feel somewhat....uncomfortable???? coming back to this blog??? and i donβt know exactly why that is, but i always get really squicky and nervous and uncomfortable and it kills my muse, which sucks because i truly do want to come back to elena and do fun stuff. for that reason, i think iβd need to move blogs and keep this as an archive.Β
furthermore ( and absolutely no guilt to them if they see this cause shit fam i encouraged your decision ), whether i like it or not, i lost my main shipping partner on here, and while this blog is not at all just here for ships, the relationship ember and i developed between our characters was a really large part of the reason why i stuck around as long as i did. It was one of the few non-canon relationships i built here that honestly really resonated with me, and it was the one i had invested most of my time into on here. itβs been a big reason why iβve been so discouraged here, too, considering most of my threads were with ember.Β
i havenβt fully decided what to do with this blog yet, if i want to erase it all and start again, or simply hop ship to a new blog, but as it is, iβve got one thing left for school and then iβll be able to better decide where to go from there. iβm sorry for just kind of rambling and stuff but iβve just been really conflicted with the fate of this blog and i donβt want to be. but these are decisions for another time, and this post is just to kinda...explain the absence and such i guess.