austistic-uni-gremlin

first year uni student trying to figure things out ! asks are open if anyone has questions or advice <3

[autistic-uni-gremlin]

hello there ! i’m a first-year uni student (in the uk if that wasn’t clear) trying to figure out how to cope with a demanding course at a top university while juggling everything that comes with being autistic & adapting to a completely new place. this blog will be a lot of documenting that journey, collecting study advice, and posting about my work. the occasional autism meme might slip in.

some general facts about me:

you can call me K, she/her :)

i’m diagnosed ASD Level 1, have been since i was 14

main special interest is star wars, i’m sure that’ll come up at some point

i’m starting a course called PPE at the university of oxford !

super down to chat if anyone is willing to approach the bars of my cell (i don’t bite. it’s for my safety more than yours)

[stealingpotatoes]

i don't know what older adults were on about when they said being a teenager was good <3

[illmadekn1ght]

every day it gets harder to have a relaxed jaw and decent posture

[deathtokillian]

Ideas are cooking for my pride outfit.

[summertimeroses]

the thing is, trans rights ARE gay rights. the freedom to be who you are, unrestricted by gender norms and what men and women “should” be in society, is a fundamental cornerstone of the gay rights movement. and feminism, if we’re being honest. rolling back trans people’s rights will, definitively and without question, roll back the rights of other queer people. and women, eventually, too.

gay transphobes, on their high horse of being palatable to bigots, forget that we’re all the same. they twist themselves into desperate shapes trying to avoid being associated with what the lgbtq community actually is, which is queer. always, every one of us, will trigger a deep-seated repulsion in people who can’t stand the strange. there is no amount of distancing yourself from ‘bad’ queer people that will make you immune. they tolerate you, for now, while they go after trans people, and you believe, wholeheartedly, that you are correct. that your conformity will save you. that you are the ‘good’ kind of queer.

i know this post was a reference to history, and how completely inseparable the gay rights movement was from the efforts of trans people, especially trans women, but i’d like to posit that gay transphobes aren’t really traitors — they’re cowards and rats. hoping against hope that if they join the witch-hunt now they’ll get to stay where they are.

read the writing on the wall. they’re coming for you too.

[badbatchenthusiast]

always, every one of us, will trigger a deep-seated repulsion in people who can’t stand the strange.

read the writing on the wall: they’re coming for you too.

[autistic-uni-gremlin]

university is so rough but i’m being brave

[autistic-uni-gremlin]

being brave is getting harder

[podcastwizard]

you don’t realize how important lunch is until you’re wandering around thinking about how unloveable and untalented and uniquely cursed you are and then it’s 4pm and you finally eat lunch and you go Oh. oh right.

[batsandboba]

“scientists don’t want you know” is a phrase that always cracks me up because if you actually meet a scientist they will be shaking and crying like an overstimulated chihuahua with the need to let you know

[scramratz]

I think people would be less suicidal if they were allowed to talk about being suicidal without risk of being sent to the Torture Dungeon

[asynca]

I watched an insane amount of TikTok and other short form videos for the story I'm writing right now. I gotta say, afterwards, I found myself picking up my phone and opening the apps, almost unconsciously. I was walking and I thought about watching some vids at the same time. I was on hold to the ATO... maybe some videos.

I also happen to specialise in gambling addiction (although I'm not practicing in that area right now), and all I could fucking think about was how these fucking apps were conditioning me in the same fucking way gambling apps do. To be constantly plugged in, consuming. To not even think about just picking it up and having a look. To feel bored when I wasn't watching them, to think about watching them when I wasn't watching them....

That shit is fucking evil.

I deleted it. I'm not exposing myself to that.

That shit will fry your dopamine/reward system so fucking bad you will never read a book or watching a movie again without it.

Love yourself and your potential enough to put that fucking shit away. Watch longer form things that require focus and engagement. Listen to podcasts and audiobooks. Read books. DO ANYTHING BUT CONSUME SHORT FORM CONTENT IN AN UNSTRUCTURED WAY.

If you MUST consume it (I'm sure people will be like 'but my classmates' or 'but my own channel'.... etc), do it in a siloed and structured way. 30 minutes between x time and x time on x day. Focus on it. Don't eat and do it. Watch each short form video to completion. Engage critically with the content. ANd never watch them first thing in the morning or last thing at night.

PLEASE. From a gambling professional, short form videos ping your SAME circuitry and you will fuck up your life and your brain so badly if you don't put up guardrails for yourself.

[autistic-uni-gremlin]

university is so rough but i’m being brave

[boycritter]

"unbecoming" is such a great word. bro that shit was so rude you no longer Are

[gigi-b]

God forbid a girl be both whimsical and full of rage

[mamawasatesttube]

the thing about media literacy is that understanding why the author chose to specify that the curtains are blue is the same skill set as understanding that the way the author characterizes all black characters as angry or all chinese characters as meek and silent is racist. it is the same skill set as being able to identify when a news source is biased or when someone is feeding you propaganda. the ability to ask "why did this person choose to present this premise in this specific way?" is a critical skill in a world full of misinformation. why are the curtains blue? maybe it's a characterization detail. maybe it's extraneous worldbuilding. why is this character written as being right all the time? maybe you're intended to disagree with them. maybe it doesn't matter. maybe you should still ask why.

[handsomeboymodelingschool]

Hey, Im the train. I decided it would be fun to stop moving for an undisclosed amount of time just before we arrive at the station. My idea..

[the-seelie-court-official]

"that doesn't sound sincere- it sounds rehearsed" is one of the most devastating and fucked-up statements you can make to anyone in the neurodivergent/ADHD/Autistic/Schizophrenic/Disordered Personality sphere. yeah bitch it's rehearsed. because i wanted to get it right when i said it

[beanthebugboi]

I’ve recently discovered how much better life can be when we normalize this. My best friend and I have started saying “hang on, I’m scripting” when we need a minute to mentally rehearse during big conversations (and “bear with me, I’m doing improv” when we’ve reached the end of our script and start to struggle with words lol)

[fandom-trash-goblin]

we've got a life to love living.

[teaboot]

advice that has literally saved and improved my life

[trueautisticrevolution]

Decenter yourself when it comes to autism

Autism is a spectrum and therefore autistic people are going to have radically different relationships to their autism. This is because the neurology between autistic people is different because it is a spectrum disorder and because there is a massive socially constructed element to autism that people are going to feel differently towards autism.

Just because a anti ableist talking point doesn't apply you doesn't mean it not is true for lot of people. Instead of accusing people of internalize ableism for low support needs people or Aspie Supremacy for high support needs people maybe you should decenter yourself and admit that it just doesn't apply to you.

No, we should not center low support need people or high support need people when we talk about autism. This makes the neurodiversity movement weak and not in line with material reality. The autism community need to compromise between the support levels. Saying disability is 100% socially constructed ignore the fact that extreme impairments exist, that there are people who have chronic pain, that there are people with extreme sensory issues or extreme emotions that are painful to live with like in BPD. Saying autism is inherently disabling centers high support need autistics and is ableist toward low support need autistics it also infantilizes society and enables ableism and eugenics, your ultimately saying society is prefect and doesn't need to change.

We can only destroy ableism by decentering yourself by compromising with people of different support levels. Nuance is important.