(aspiring side show freak)

🕷️ Avi, 23, they/them ||| mad, queer & proud ||| certified oxymoron (with emphasis on moron) and professional human-imposter

[deathgasmic]

“kill them with kindness” wrong. saw trap.

[dwkinternational]

Minor characters: Koyote Karl-Heinz, die Schamanin der Wölfe

Wenn ich erzähle, ist das Fest vorbei. 

Dann war alles umsonst, 

dann ist dieser Pott nicht mehr wert als eure alte Bratpfanne.

[neacle]

Koffi Missah as Electra the Electric Engine, Bochum 1991, German TV show ⚡⚡

[avicularia-phantasmagoria]

Suddenly getting back into StEx content is just… genuinely confusing.

My weird obsession with Starlight Express began almost a decade ago (the "how did people not realise immediately that I’m apparently neurodivergent" kinda weird, the "I used to only listen to one very specific StEx song on repeat for literal months almost without break" kinda weird), it saved my sanity for a while… now, wanting to come back feels more than strange. I didn’t even intentionally disengage but I guess one could say I went off the rails in multiple ways… not like I remember a lot.

It’s the only fandom I’ve ever been active in, and to this day, it’s the only one I’ve ever perceived as mostly positive.

Okay but anyway, I hope I’ll be active once more and have the opportunity to meet more amazing people.

[nauticaltrain]

sacred relic

[avicularia-phantasmagoria]

It’s gone…?

[duckdotcom]

brb gotta to go splash water on my face in the mens bathroom and look haggardly at myself in the mirror

[avicularia-phantasmagoria]

I know they’re like… cyber/retro-futuristic and stuff, but Electra & Components would absolutely rock leopard print.

[avicularia-phantasmagoria]

Ah well, Disordered Brain lost discord Info somewhere somehow... and I’m about as lost as I was back in 2014 (?) when I first joined the fandom, as I haven’t been here in quite a while...

So, the question I originally wanted to ask on discord - which has been rudely interrupted by my own chaos - is:

While I’m from Germany, a new friend of mine mostly speaks English and I’ve gotten them interested in StEx kinda by accident, is there some video or playlist on YouTube that you would recommend to "get to know" the show?

(Oh, and I hope that everyone I used to be closer to is still doing well. <3)

[sadiepickles]

Who else is sick of their rude trash brain making them think terrible things all hours of the shitty trash day

[the-witches-black-cat]

[workofthediesel]

each performance of starlight express is unique in so many (vaguely bizarre) ways but nothing will ever top the show that got put on in the middle of a desert in utah where the actors had to deal with bats, scorpions, tarantulas, snakes, and crickets on stage and electra made his stage entrances on a zipline

[x7s018y3fhigoxg]

[catchymemes]

[markdavidwaites]

35 years ago today Starlight Express opened in London. I loved working in the lx department of this show from 1998 to its close in 2002.

[queereyegifs]

x

[japanesebonustrack]

“i can’t do simple hygiene bc im depressed” that’s easy babe! just do simple hygiene

[hundondestiny]

Y’all always have to wallow in your misery instead of considering maybe, just maybe, the encouragement people like this give is just telling people to do one, easy thing instead of worrying about a whole routine. Can’t make yourself shower? That’s fine, just brush your teeth. Don’t have the energy to do your hair? Okay, just brush your teeth.

Making 1 small change that can start improving your mood leads to other small changes. When I couldn’t make myself shower I would make sure I changed underwear every day. And then I started using baby wipes to keep myself fresh. And then I worked my way back to trying to take showers every day. My record might not be perfect but I’m getting better.

It’s really unhealthy to keep the mindset that anyone who isn’t miserable and suffering under their mental illness or emotional problems doesn’t know what they’re talking about. Maybe they’ve just grown to learn how to love and care for themselves in spite of what they’re going through.

[christiangothdotcom]

I don’t know what any of you people think professional help looks like, but when you walk in and say “i’m too depressed to do anything” they don’t just nod and say “well you’re broken forever i guess”. they don’t say “here take this pill and it’ll fix everything”. they work with you one step at a time and explain to you that you CAN in fact do simple things even though you’re depressed. it isn’t easy, but it’s not impossible, it just happens in small steps, but it isn’t getting any easier when you react to every instance of someone trying to help by refusing to listen.

[libertarirynn-deactivated202006]

The advice he gives is seriously so solid. A lot of times it’s hard to motivate yourself to do something because it seems too daunting to commit to a full routine, so doing one simple thing can help you get motivated for the next simple thing and so on and so forth. Other posters are right, therapists, at least the ones worth anything, don’t just throw pills at you and tell you you’re never going to improve oh well, they give you simple manageable tips to improve your situation.

[ghiraheeheeheem]

Recovery is about baby steps at a gentle pace, not using it as a crutch to never ever try to make your situation better. No one said recovery is easy, but it does take at least a smidgeon of willpower/effort on your part. You have to want it enough to be willing to try. I’m not saying you have to Just Do It and fix your life overnight but if you aren’t willing to try then no one can help you. 

[thatsaltysmallhuman-deactivated]

PRAISE THE LORD

[janiedean]

also clean your teeth because you’ll regret it sorely if you don’t and then your paychecks will disappear in your dentist’s account and you don’t want that

[boy-and-girl-crazy123456]

Necessities: Gaming consoles, convention tickets, gaming merch, tactical red and black gamer chair, body pillow

Luxuries: soap, water

[sammyclassicsjwfan]

or maybe because some people are depressed

[sheepgirlwizard-deactivated2025]

like i get its a big meme to laugh at people for “haha you cant do basic hygiene” but its extremely ableist not only bc of depression but there are also autistic people who have texture issues with water on their skin, and there are autistic people whose mental schedules may not accommodate a shower every day! im in the later category! stop making fun of people for “not taking showers” and maybe actually fucking go after actual shit you should like the misogyny, homophobia, transphobia and ableism in gaming!

[newt--x]

As a depressed person, I hate this kind of reflexion. I barely can fucking survive and you except of me to get naked, to stand up for 10 minuts, to take that soap, and to put in on every part of my body, to still stand up to wash it, then to get out of the shower without falling, to dry myself and to get dressed again???

I don’t have the energy to do that. Actually, most of time, I don’t have the energy to roll on my bed to take something.

So:

Stop. Making. Fun. Of. People. When. You. Don’t. Even. Know. Their. Situation.

[dracofangxxx]

stop bragging about and romanticizing continuing unhealthy behavior & get some therapy and coping skills. obviously people who don’t do the bare minimum of personal hygeine have maladapted coping skills. this isn’t something to encourage or reinforce as unchangeable.

[newt--x]

I am not fucking romanticizing this. I am explaining this because making fun of people who can’t do something bc of some reasons is shitty and in my case I don’t have the choice.

I can’t get therapy, too. And go, give me some healthy coping skills, I don’t see how it’s going to give me the energy to use my muscles until I don’t feel them anymore but go.

[boy-and-girl-crazy123456]

Hi everyone OP here I’m an autistic person with depression who has gone entire weeks without showering before and i’m just gonna reiterate if you can go to a fucking gamer convention you can take a 5 minute shower beforehand also all of you are incredibly annoying

[thebaconsandwichofregret]

Yes, showering is really fucking hard. Do you know what I used to do when I could barely get out of bed? I used to take a wet wash cloth and while I was sat on the toilet I’d take my shirt off and wipe my torso.

And it helped. Some days doing that would kickstart my desire to take a proper shower or a bath.

My buddy got a plastic folding chair and would just sit in the shower on it for 5 minutes. He doesn’t use soap, but he doesn’t smell because he cleans himself regularly.

I shower before bed so that when it’s hard to get up in the morning I’m already clean. And so that I can just sit and disassociate for an hour in my bathrobe after I’ve washed. No need to rush and exert energy when I can just sit and dry off slowly. Also then I don’t have to dry my hair.

Showering is a coping skill. If you’re depressed and then you’re also dirty and you smell then you will feel worse. If you take the time to clean yourself you feel better.

And you don’t need to shower every day. I manage fine on twice a week. But wash your face and brush your teeth every day. And no you don’t need eight cleansers, just get clean water on your skin.

I have another friend who can’t use regular face cloths so ended up cutting up a t shirt that he found he could cope with the texture of and he uses the squares of that to wash his face. Just soaks it in warm water and wipes his face. It’s all you need to do.

Depression is like any other illness, you need to actually treat it for it to get better! And being clean is a big part of that!

[action--cats]

bold of you to assume people on tumblr actually Want to get better and not spend their days wallowing in their misery

[thebaconsandwichofregret]

The angry people in this post might be a lost cause but I have three thousand followers and maybe one of them is really struggling and needs the advice of the people in the notes who are sharing their tips about how to get through the day.

I don’t give a fuck about the people who take pleasure in their own misery, I do care about that one person who needs this help though.

[gentlekirk]

uterus culture is forgetting all the weird symptoms that come along with your period every month and wondering why you’re feeling some kind of way until you Realize