I’m not crying you’r crying
I’ve been crying all of 15x20 not because of Dean’s death or even cas’s (even though that actually broke my heart). But because Sam, whose life was based on being abandonned, alone, ended up alone once again. He lost his dad, his mom, twice, he lost Jess, Eileen, Jack and Cas, then once again, it’s just him and Dean, brothers on the road. But at the end, when Dean dies, in front of him, in his arm, he realizes that he his alone, like for real. His brother, father figure, best friend, role model, died in his arms. And what broke me, is that during the funeral, sam was standing there, with miracle, and no one else.Â
They saved the world several times, they saved people, cities, lives, families, but in the end, he dies alone....
(I know that covid had a role in that ending but it broke me anyway)
Even if they are happy ever after in Heaven, he still spend a life time alone without his brother. He had to live every day, wake up, pretend that they didn’t live that life that they had. All the traumas, the adventures, just being memories with someone that isn’t there anymore...
Even at the end of his life, after having a child, a family, he is not portrayed as happy... Our boy was never happy until HE DIED.... WAS SORT OF LIFE IS THAT?!
Anyway... I’am so overthinking a tv show....