Not the geek you’re looking for. ❄ Pro LGBTQIA+, human rights, choice, common sense & pizza.
♓️ Late 40's ♡ She/They ♡ Queer ♡ Cancer patient ♡ 📚🟦🎧🍿🐈😴
*TERFs can GTFO*
Looking for updates on my cancer and how treatment is going? Skip all the way to the end!
WAIT, HOW DO I KNOW YOU?
If this is a question you find yourself asking when I start replying to your posts, or reblogging you, well, that’s not surprising. I tend to go through phases where I change the username I use for different places. Currently, it tends to be Branfeather, Banesidhe (or Banesydhe if the other spelling is taken) or Maleficently. For the quick and dirty, or for the lazy, here’s a rundown on where & who I am in most cases:
Branfeather @ PlayStation, Twitch, Twitter, Bluesky
Banesidhe @ Minecraft/Tumblr/Dreamwidth/Wordpress, etc.
Etchedglass @ LJ/Deviant Art, most other creative/graphic profiles
adozenpapercuts for Roleplay of the InsaneJournal kind.
Former handles include Maleficently, Tygress and Snowtigrez, none of which are used for much anymore.
WHAT DO YOU BLOG ABOUT!?
My tumblr is a mishmash of fandoms, gaming, feminist issues, LGBQT issues, gender issues, pretty photos, BJDs and cute baby animals.
Some of the things you’ll find that I like/reblog:
Animal Crossing ◆ Ball Joint Dolls ◆ Books ◆ Cat Pictures ◆ Comics ◆ Corsets ◆ Cute Animals ◆ Disney ◆ Dragon Age ◆ Dragons ◆ Fat Positive ◆ Feminism ◆ Final Fantasy ◆ Food Porn ◆ Geekery ◆ Genderfluid & Trans* Support ◆ LGBTQ Rights ◆ LOTR ◆ Maleficent ◆ MCU ◆ Minecraft ◆ Nerdfighteria ◆ Nostalgia ◆ Photography ◆ Pirates ◆ Sexy Peoples of all Genders & NB◆ Sex/Sex Worker/Sex education Positive ◆ Star Trek ◆ The Sims ◆ Video Games ◆ Werewolves ◆ World of Warcraft ◆ WTNV ◆ X-Men ◆ Anything Else I Feel Like Posting
SOME OF THE THINGS I’LL INSTA-BLOCK:
TERFs ◆ Nazi's ◆ Ship Hate & Character Assassinations (yes this includes the antis and purists) ◆ Intolerant Hate of Any Kind ◆ Ageism ◆ Animal Abuse
WHAT ARE YOU SHIPS?
YES I AM A SHIPPER. NO, that doesn’t mean I support SA/CA, and anyone who can’t tell the difference between fiction and reality worries the hell out of me.
I am not an exclusive sort of person when it comes to ships and if there are ships I don’t like, I just quietly blacklist them thru Xkit. However, if you want my attention, all you have to do is post some:
Steve/Bucky, Steve/Sam, Steve/Tony, Bucky/Clint, Pepper/Tony, Bucky/Natasha, Bucky/Natasha/Steve/Sam, Remus/Sirius, Blackcest, Charles/Erik, Jean/Scott/Logan and Nightcrawler/Anyone. Also Rookanis, Rookerich, Clive/Cid, Clive/anyone, etc.
GAMING:
Primarily I tweet about gaming, on my PC. Games you’ll find me talking about include Balder’s Gate 3, Dragon Age, Final Fantasy (especially 14-16), Mass Effect, Sims 4, Skyrim, Animal Crossing, Tomodachi Life, Guild Wars 2, Borderlands and role-playing games. I also play on Chicken Smoothie. I used to play Wajas and Flight Rising, but I only log in on there occasionally. Check for my profiles in my bio or ask.
WORK:
I also tweet/blog about work. I’m a law enforcement dispatcher and answer 911 calls for a large agency, and while I won’t be divulging things that could get me fired, I’m always up to offer advice or answer questions on how to deal with law enforcement. Just keep in mind, I’m not a sworn peace officer, or lawyer, so don’t expect me to give you legal advice. I also rant a lot about stupid 911 calls.
LIFE:
I am one of those “old”, aka over 40 Tumblr users, and you are on my lawn. ;) So in some cases, if I know you are underage and/or am uncomfortable with the content you blog, I may pre-emptively block you. This is nothing personal. My blog is occasionally NSFW, and I want to keep my job. I am supremely protective of my privacy in this regard and ask that you respect that. In this case, it’s never personal. I don’t mind talking to younger people, I am just hyper aware of the hazards that come with on both ends of the spectrum. Also, I am an internet old and I do not share specific personal information about myself, including my exact age, location, name, etc. Neither should you!
Also I do not check every blog that I interact with for their bio, so I likely won’t see your DNI. If you don’t like my stuff, feel free to block me, without fuss or announcement. Curate your own internet experience like the rest of us.
I try to tag appropriately when possible, and am constantly trying to educate myself on social and political issues. If I misstep or misspeak, please let me know and I will try to make amends. My opinions are my own, and informed by my own choices and life experiences. I am trying to be better!
I am not someone who actively seeks confrontation and drama, and I’d rather just block/ignore then draw something out forever.
THE CANCER:
In October 2022, I was diagnosed with endometrial cancer. After a very long surgery where they performed a full hysterectomy, scraped a great deal of my pelvis from smaller tumors, removed a 22cm tumor, repaired a hernia and removed my ruptured (and septic) appendix, the actual diagnosis was Stage IVB, grade 2, endometrioid adenocarcinoma of the uterus.
What that meant practically was a jump start into menopause at 46, a two week stay in a nursing home for antibiotics through a PIC line,and chemo for four months. I lost my hair and bought a lot of pretty scarves from Temu and Amazon and people were very supportive.
Scans showed me to be tumor free as of April 2023, but due to my stage and diagnosis, recurrence was inevitable. It shows up October 2024 (yeah I’m aware of the irony) and I am currently being treated by a hormone blocker. The cancer has metastasized to my lungs and lymph nodes. I am still undergoing treatment and not giving up yet, but the exhaustion and side effects from the medication feel like a super-menopause, chemo would almost be easier. I do another CT scan at the end of January to determine if we need to start chemo again or not.
Update 5/8/25: January CT showed that the meds ARE working, not only slowing the growth, but actually seeming to be shrinking them a tiny bit. This was reconfirmed at the end of April when I had a non-related medical issue and ended up in the hospital and they did a ct scan of my chest to confirm it wasn’t another PE. Oncologist contacted me after and said they’re still shrinking so we’re continuing the medication. A side note- severe magnesium deficiency is a A Bad Thing!
Update 8/13/25: it looks as if the hormone blockers are no longer being effective. My CA-125 has almost doubled since February and the ct scan I did late July shows there’s growth and at least one more tumor in the lungs. No new growth in the lymph nodes. I have an appointment with my oncologist tomorrow so I guess I find out what we do next. I suspect it will be chemo again.
Update 8/22/25: Finally got to talk to my oncologist today about my most recent CT scan. The cancer cells in my lungs are definitely growing again.. One's gotten larger, one's developed it's own child (offshoot, whategver), and another has popped up. They're all still very tiny, measuring in mm still, mostly. The ones on the lymph nodes have not grown. So although it is definitely not working as well, we're staying on the hormone blockers for another three months, and will see then. Not as bad as I thought it was, most of my crappiness feeling has been my body being over stressed and depressed. So. Still Stage IV, still terminal, still metastasized, but not dying any quicker than I was before, so… yay, I guess?
Update 3/14/26: Cancer Update: for those unaware, health took a severe downturn in November- December, and after getting the runaround with telehealth and urgent care, finally got an appointment with my oncologist in January.
Long story short, the tumors more or less tripled in those months and has spread to both my kidney and my spine, in addition to the pelvis and lungs. Pelvis is strangling a nerve which is what’s killing the strength and mobility in my left leg, spine has not gone thru bone to the sheath or nerves yet. Have a nephrostomy bag from a stent they put in to keep that kidney functioning until chemo hopefully kills the tumor and they can take it out.
Started chemo and immunotherapy in February. Two rounds down, four to go, then continuing the immunotherapy every six weeks after I think. With the mobility issues and the bag, and overall fatigue and weakness, I’m now more or less wheelchair bound, and currently in an assisted living home as the house wasn’t really equipped for me to live in it. My sister in law is helping with that, and looking after my cats and I can hopefully go home in April.
This one is a lot harder and there may be some hard decisions coming up for me. Not gonna get into it, but I will say I am allowed visitors and they are welcome, please text me if you’d like to come out, I’m in Redlands right now. Starbucks and Bakers fries with hot sauce most welcome!
I’m generally okay, trying to be positive, and still fighting, even if it’s mostly mentally and emotionally, my body doesn’t have the energy to do much more than keep surviving. Hit my 50th on Monday, and it wasn’t spent like I’d hoped, but good friends made it special, so I’m happy.
“Have courage, and be kind.”
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I don’t need much in the way of things right now although I do have a “Fuck Cancer” wishlist of things that would be helpful, make things easier, or bring me some joy/seratonin. My venmo is (at) Maleficently, if you feel generous. Mostly I need things like so,some to come clean my house or someone to bring me healthy meals because I have zero energy, a ton of fatigue and I get out of breath walking to the restroom sometimes. Since the internet can not help with those, I’ll happily accept your good vibes, well wishes, prayers and cute animal pics. I’m hoping to make it to 50 and maybe make that lifelong dream trip to Disneyworld.
I’ll continue to update this section as needed.
STILL READING?
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