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First post! Hi i’m Mickie. I’m 16 yrs old. I’m a singer (grunge,rock,blues,metal,etc). I have a passion for music so lmk your song recs. I’m driving the struggle bus. This is mainly a vent blog so listen to my bullshit and give your thoughts and opinions if you want.

EDIT: i’m 17 now 🎉

EDIT: I’m 18 and graduated now 🎉🎓

#first post #vent blog

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How I Manifested My Dream Life (Updated & Remodeled)

♡ hello my loves ♡

if you’ve seen my previous posts, you know i’ve consciously redesigned every part of my life~

• master of reality shifting • abundance & wealth • ideal family, friends & lifestyle • soulmate partner • self-concept + identity • ideal body + desired face •perfect physical health and nervous system • effortless creativity • beautiful social circle • emotional peace & balance • exploring the world • purpose & inner alignment • joy as my natural state (and even more ♡)

i planned a new post, but decided to refresh this one with more details and clarity instead~ i’ve been part of spiritual communities since 2017, deeply exploring shifting since 2020/2021. along the way, i’ve experienced two profound manifestation breakthroughs that changed everything for me. sharing them with extra insight this time, especially the second (with lester levenson’s 6 steps + living awake like a lucid dream)

first breakthrough: upgrading my current reality (2024)

life felt heavy back then. i had an uninspiring job, draining relationships, negative body changes, ongoing money worries, no real excitement, no friends, horrible health and multiple chronic illness’s and crippling depression/anxiety. i began trying core law of assumption practices: visualizing, affirmations, scripting, subliminals, void state and so so much more.

after consistent months, shifts came after years of trial and error and I shifted to my better cr. I had a higher-paying job manifested suddenly, reconnected with loving friends, upgraded living space, revised appearance & family bonds and a lot of money. my current reality became so much brighter, and i felt pure bliss ♡

yet i could not really manifest a shift when that was my real goal and replicating it took time. soon complacency crept in, and old doubts returned. was it luck? just life getting better?the success was genuine, but true depth was needed to make it last.

second breakthrough: lucid living. awake reality as a conscious dream (2025+)

this elevated everything. i embraced “lucid living”: treating this reality as flexible as a dream. just like knowing you’re dreaming allows control, i applied that wakeful awareness here. intention directs it all instantly.

it was drawn from lester levenson’s 6 steps (sedona/release technique). releasing the three wants: approval, control, safety. dissolving them restores natural freedom & limitless possibility which is ideal for true manifestation.

the 6 steps ♡

desire inner freedom above all external things

choose to release & claim that freedom immediately

spot the emotion → link to approval/control/safety → ask: could i release this? would i? when? (now!)

release habitually, in every moment

if blocked, release the want to fix the block

feel the growing lightness, clarity & joy after releasing

my practice: deep relaxation, affirm “reality is consciousness projecting, dream-like”, sense any resistance, apply the steps. everything became beautifully fluid. synchronicities bloomed. soon: perfect career, loving partner, effortless abundance. my reality transformed into my dream one. peaceful, expansive, abundant. then one moment it shifted fully. all previous desires appeared naturally, including ones i hadn’t named ♡

to anyone doubting (sent with kindness): please stop seeking outside approval!! this is your reality. why hand your joy to skeptics? void states align with ancient śūnyatā in buddhism/hinduism, echoed by modern voices like joe dispenza & tom campbell. countless shared experiences across communities… consciousness creates. you are the creator.

even skeptically, these are powerful mindfulness tools. less stress, better emotional balance, clarity & peace (proven by studies). beautiful benefits regardless ♡

how it feels now pure liberation. soft love. reality feels magically gentle, radiant, serene. i protect my peace fiercely. every dreamed detail is real: appearance, connections, family harmony, adventures, recognition. past me believed it “impossible”. yet it flowed in through simple remembrance of truth.

ella’s soft reminders ♡

🌷 this knowing is precious. you are the source. hold it gently, fully. 🌷 outer circumstances are echoes of past assumptions. rest in awareness; they shift. 🌷 the feelings you seek are your essence. claim them here & now. 🌷 no endless persisting needed. when it feels true, consciousness sustains it. rest as pure I AM. 🌷 you’re not separate from the play… you are the entire play. imagine joyfully, like childhood wonder ♡

all techniques point back to the same truth: there is only You. as neville goddard said, there are as many ways to apply the law as there are people using it, and i could not agree more. the obsession with one “right” method or arguing endlessly about whose technique is best is just another misunderstanding. let go of that too ♡

ending with this beloved quote: “to be identified with your mind is to be trapped in time… both [past and future] are illusions.”

— eckhart tolle

just remember: you are so, so, so loved. i promise you: you would not be here if God/Infinite Consciousness/The Source did not choose to divide itself eight billion beautiful times just to experience life through you, as you, for you. you are divine expression in human form: cherished beyond words, held in infinite love every moment. loved in your doubts, dreams, becoming. the universe conspired for you to exist and awaken. rest in that love. live from that love.

your desired life is already yours. you are already whole.

endless love always ♡ ~ ella

i have a bf now :)))

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how it feels waiting for another season of a show you’re genuinely sickeningly obsessed with

istg i unintentionally manifest so many things

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This Habit Helped Me Reach the Void State After Like 5 Days

So basically, instead of doing the usual reality checks for lucid dreaming, I started doing reality checks for the Void State.

I constantly asked myself if I was in the Void State. Things like: "Am I in the Void?" or "Is this the Void State?"

And I would answer myself : No, you won't be able to feel, hear, or see anything if this was the Void State.

I kept doing this for about 5 days. Then, last night, I decided to formally try to enter the Void State. I lay down on my bed and started counting from 0 to 100 with affirmations, but it didn't work. I wasn't even getting sleepy! So, I went to the toilet. When I came back to bed, I started scrolling on my phone, doing some casual Void State checks in between. I began to get sleepy and started to drift off. Then, boom, my mind suddenly performed a Void State check, and just like that, I was in the Void.

I didn't manifest much while I was there, besides cake. I'd been craving cake earlier while scrolling through my phone. So, while in the Void, I just said "cake" and focused on the image of a Castella cake. When I woke up, I actually totally forgot I'd even entered the Void. I walked outside my room and saw this big box. I asked my mom what it was, and she said it was cake. I was like, "OMG, I manifested cake from the Void!" And it was Castella cake too! There were six big blocks of Castella in the box, all different flavors. There was chocolate, strawberry, the popular Japanese cheesecake style, matcha, pistachio, and a pumpkin one (which I gave to my mom). She said my uncle got it from the supermarket bakery while doing his morning errands.

I feel like now I should have manifested more things. But, to be honest, when you are in there, you won't be in a state to rattle off a whole list at least, I wasn't. You will be so at peace that you honestly won't even want anything. I've been really overstimulated lately, and I simply didn't care about manifesting when I was there, but I did manifest some good cake.

So here is my tip if you are entering the Void: Make a list beforehand. That way, once you're in that peaceful state, you can just say: "I have everything on my manifest list" or just say "List" like how I said "cake" and think about the full list you wrote on your book or note app. This will keep you from forgetting everything you want.

Also, this habit can be very useful for lucid dreaming too. A lot of people become lucid in a dream but forget to enter the Void State. Since you'll be doing reality checks for the Void State every day, your mind will automatically ask if you are in the Void State while dreaming, helping you enter the Void state easily.

[Edit] The reason this habit works is simple:

If you constantly ask yourself the same question over and over throughout the day, your mind will have the tendency to bring it up while you are sleepy or dreaming.

I should have taken a picture of the cakes, but I ate 4 of them and my mom ate 2 so fast cause you won't feel like your eating anything too heavy when you are eating castella cakes. So light and jiggly.

oh floplor get upppp

#taylor swift #the life of a showgirl #charli xcx #taylor swift showgirl

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Being passively suicidal is funny as fuck like yeah i don't plan on doing anything and knowing me i never will but the idea of a gun to my head sounds really fucking good right now.