beaten and defiant

I am many things. This is a blog about my worst. Polyphilic, pan-spirit, asexual, otherkin, feminist, pursuer of social justice. I don't expect acceptance, but I hope for understanding.

[princepuma]

it infuriates me when people tell me “lifes too short to not forgive people!” like NO lifes too short for me to continually allow abusive and manipulative behavior in my life and live in a constant state of anxiety bc I want to be “nice” or whatever

[jervae]

fucking fuck yes.

[lvl91-deactivated20150804]

hhhh i was upstairs in my sis’ room and i suddenly felt this jabbing pain in the upper left part of my chest and then i felt pressure inside my nose whats going on im scared„„„„„„„,

[beaten-and-defiant]

Air bubble got stuck in your throat and popped up into your sinuses. It'll go away in a few minutes. The reason you felt it in the upper left is because your stomach is right under your heart, so if you were sitting down or anything then it would have felt like it was at your heart.

It's just a burp that didn't come up the right way. Or, it could be heartburn or something. Either way get yourself a glass of milk, kick your feet up and relax.

[coastaldragon]

Ahhh I want a kin partner so that we can stay up late snuggling in bed listening to calm music and talking about and blogging about kin stuff and just relaxing…

Oh if they’re were a dragon too we could even share our hoards and pine about our treasures together!!

I can only dream right now.

[beaten-and-defiant]

This post awakened something in me I haven't felt in a long time. That is, the sense of lacking. Other than Tumblr I really have no one to talk to and I just kind of realized how great it would be to have a kin partner. I mean, insofar as they could deal with me being the sort of kin I am.

There was once a time, when I was way younger, when I took for granted that surely, I could eventually talk to someone close to me about this and not be told I'm crazy. Now that that hope is gone, thinking about it makes me nostalgic for days long past when I could spend all day outside in the trees and no one would care.

Anyway, thanks.

[wrecksaucemcgee-deactivated2014]

[beaten-and-defiant]

This person isn’t worth your time. You’re giving them the rise they want.

As good as it is to see actual text on my feed for once, it’s kind of disillusioning to see how far we have yet to go for people to stop whining about everything we do.

[coastaldragon]

I hardly consider it a...

[beaten-and-defiant]

I appreciate it, but please don't do anything like that on my behalf. I'd rather see it than be oblivious to it.

If it doesn't bother you, I won't let it bother me.

[wrecksaucemcgee-deactivated2014]

You know that old adage about assumptions right? You sure look like an ass mate :^)

I honestly don’t care, I’m looking for the trigendered pyrofox kids anyway :^)

[coastaldragon]

Observations and assumptions are two very different things. :^)

I guarantee that the “trigendered pyrofox kids” you’re looking for are fake blogs.  Have fun bickering amongst your own kind though. :^)

[beaten-and-defiant]

This person isn't worth your time. You're giving them the rise they want.

As good as it is to see actual text on my feed for once, it's kind of disillusioning to see how far we have yet to go for people to stop whining about everything we do.

[justawolfchild]

It’s late but it’s raining outside. The dark is never absolute here, there’s always some sort of light no matter the time. I curl up beneath my covers, listening to the water gushing down beyond my bedroom window. I am safe. My thoughts slip into a dream. My small body is curled beneath...

[beaten-and-defiant]

I wish I had this sort of clarity of identity, even if it is in dreams only.

[beaten-and-defiant]

I don't know why, but I think my dad might be cutting down that old tree soon. I guess he doesn't want the extra leaves blowing around into their neighbor's yards. I can't stop him because I don't live there anymore. And I can't explain myself to him because he thinks I'm deluded.

I've lost loved ones before. I think I can bear this. It just makes me angry to know it hasn't happened yet, but I can't do anything about it. Nothing I do can possibly change his mind.

I think I've said before that I've lived under its shade all my life, well over twenty years. I could feel its comfort even after I moved. What happens when that goes away? What'll happen to me?

I need a drink. And some seeds, maybe. I've got a patio; I'll plant them in the dirt underneath. Maybe no one will notice.

When I was a kid, I would sit under a mountain maple, playing on my Game Boy, or doing whatever else, until sundown. It felt like it was caring for me as my parents did. When I got older and suffered from depression, it was one of the few things I had to look forward to each day. Maybe this is my way of repaying the favor. I've always taken a piece of it with me, but this time I'm planting it, and raising it myself. One day I'll have to let it go. But until then, maybe it'll give me some absolution.

In several ways, I was hiding all my life. From everyone, and from myself. I suppose I still am, and if I plant this seed, it'll be hiding too.

I guess I just don't care anymore. Hiding's just what I do.

[yuuichxro-blog]

reblog this if you’re otherkin and want to be friends, and i’ll follow you! i’m very new to the community, i’m nice and won’t bite!

[beaten-and-defiant]

I could use some of that.

[gingerautie]

At this point the ingroup has already determined that: 1. Autism is the enemy. 2. People with Autism are ‘absent’, ‘stolen’, ‘soulless’ and otherwise subhuman. 3. Autism makes people dangerous. 4. Anyone with Autism who denies that Autism is the enemy is also the enemy. 5. Autism can “get you”, any time, any where, any one- it must be stopped. 6. Autism must be eradicated, by any means necessary. And, in its twisted logic, the conclusion is clear: the life of a person with Autism is not equivalent to the life of a person who does not have it. How, then, is it difficult for them to conclude that: 7. Violence towards those with Autism, in the efforts of eradicating Autism, is justifiable. And just like that, the moral paradigm has shifted, and what would have been considered horrific under any other circumstance is considered completely “understandable”.

http://autismorsomethinglikeit.blogspot.co.uk/2014/02/violence-and-autism-moral-justification.html (via autisticfandomthings)

This is why I stopped going on reddit (among other things).

[slutblood]

Wtf is an otherkin wtf is with these perfered pronouns wtf is with tumblr

[beaten-and-defiant]

Lately everyone I've seen ask this seems to have already made up their mind. But I'll give you my perspective.

It's something that grounds me. It explains a bit about who I am and so I take the label and all the consequences of that. For instance, the disbelief and the ridicule and all that, but also the peace of knowing myself that much better. It's a worthwhile deal to me.

The preferred pronouns, is from transgendered people preferring the pronoun of their identifying gender and not the one they were born with. So if you meet a transman, you'd (for example) see a female body, but the person inside is a "he." Maybe Tumblr blogs just tend to... have that now? I don't know. All the otherkin I know personally know they're human, so I don't see the need for it myself.

[beaten-and-defiant]

Hey :)

Howdy.

[beaten-and-defiant]

Need stuff to follow!

Reblog if you want a follower. My dash is kind of bare.

Tagging otherkin because I feel I'm most likely to find friends there, but hell, anything will do. I can't sleep and I need something to do/talk about/read.

[susitar-deactivated20181205]

Look. Therianthropy is not a gender, not a sexual orientation, not a religion, not a lifestyle choice…

But I think we should be able to talk about how therianthropy, this part of our core selves, can affect and influence all above. Therianthropy is a part of our selves, of our lives, and it’s...

[beaten-and-defiant]

You’re only making it worse.

[coastaldragon]

Explain to me how.

[beaten-and-defiant]

It's not your fault. It's just how internet trolling works. If they read a lengthy complaint about them, they can tell what they're doing is effective, and so they do it more. At least, I assume you're addressing people who are making fun of otherkin.

[coastaldragon]

"Friendly reminder" that if you make fake otherkin posts as a joke you are actually actively harming the reputation of an innocent community that has done literally nothing to you.

The people on this site are idiots and half of them will not know you are joking about or parodying us and will...

[beaten-and-defiant]

You're only making it worse.

[keyosul]

spacekin how the frickle frackle do u identify as space

[beaten-and-defiant]

From what I've seen, it's essentially pantheism without the god. You identify with a sense of connectedness. I'm not sure it's comparable to most otherkin, but I can certainly understand why you'd want to identify as space.

I mean, provided you don't mind the emptiness.

[otherkin-specialsnowflakefu-blog]

Almost all houses are made of wood you’re living in the husks of your people and i hope it hurts you mentally, and if it doesn’t thats good too cuz you’re not bullshitting yourself

[beaten-and-defiant]

There are such things as starkin, and by your logic that means literally everything made of matter used to be "their people."

Point is, either you're misunderstanding something, or otherkin literally think genocide is being committed simply because the universe exists.

One of these things is conspicuously more likely than the other, and I'll let you guess which one.