i want to feel lethal

they/them - tw trauma/ed⚠️

[lovelornnn]

MIRROR POEM - @lovelornnn

[dismal-orange]

[bloodsweatandfears]

nothing angers me more than pity

take your pity and go sit with it

find another victim

please hate me

[behold3nn]

dude it hurts so much to know someone loves you so much and you want to love them just as hard back but your feeling just don’t seem to ever be enough

[exhaustedborderline]

[wingedbeings]

this should be your burden to bear!

[tobpdornottobpd]

the sexy thing about me is that i close myself off from other people because i’m afraid of intimacy then hurt my own feelings over not being as close with people as i’d like to be

really played myself there

[ryantippery]

[heartshop]

Anne Sexton, ‘The Addict’

[geniuss-loci-deactivated2021052]

Franz Kafka, Letters to Felice

[imnotreal-iswear-deactivated202]

Who am I? God of course.

[behold3nn]

WHAT ARE YOU DOING???? THE ONLY THING I CAN CONTROL IS HOW TO DESTROY MYSELF AND YOURE TAKING THAT AWAY FROM ME???? WHO THE FUCK DO YOU THINK YOU ARE???????

[ojibwa]

[behold3nn]

i wanna be beaten into a pulp in a non sexy way

[cxma-baby]

[okaytrue]

me: *refraining from self destructive behaviour* me: this is boring me: *engages in self destructive behavior* me: i am an idiot and regret this immensly

[fairycosmos]

in all seriousness it's very alienating knowing theres Something Wrong With You. like seeing your mental illness come through in your behaviour and thought processes and knowing it's irrational and unhealthy, knowing other people are reading you as weird or stupid, and not being able to do anything about it is such a lonely experience