my beloved was weighed down

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This is an indie rp blog for Maria of Silent Hill 2 (original.) I’m Mango, I live in Canada. My timezone is PST and my pronouns are she/her. 

This blog will contain triggering themes. Subject matter includes illness, body hororr, gore, violence, depression & suicidal thoughts.

Please read these ( one and two). They are important on how I view Maria. | memes | carrd 

[bloodvic]

Под впечатлением от сцены где Пирамида схватил Джеймса за шею на крыше , я сделал ЭТО На самом деле когда я проходил игру , то реально забыл что он появится на крыше +играл я поздно ночью так что да, сердце мое чуть не остановилось хаха (но совру если скажу что не понравилось) Impressed by the scene where Pyramid grabbed James by the neck on the roof, I did THIS Actually, when I played the game, I really forgot that he would appear on the roof + I played it late at night, so yes, my heart almost stopped haha (but I'll be lying if I say I didn't like it)

А это просто еще одни варианты с другим фоном (хз зачем , тк это не изначальная задумка, но пусть останутся тут хах) These are just some more options with a different background (I don't know why, because it's not the original idea, but let's keep them here, hah)

[shatushka]

Кокетка 💅

[belovedweighed]

end the shitty demonization of maria 2026.

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you'd think I'd have so much muse because of how many times I've played sh2 and I'm on another play through rn but no.

[belovedweighed]

𝙰 𝙲𝚁𝙴𝙴𝙿𝙸𝙽𝙶 𝚁𝙾𝚃 𝙾𝚅𝙴𝚁𝙲𝙾𝙼𝙴𝚂 𝚈𝙾𝚄...

Mercy

They never wanted to hurt you. It was a kindness that brought you into their care. It was with gentleness that they tried to sway destiny's cruel hands. They never wanted to hurt you when they watched over every mistake like a hawk. They never wanted to hurt you when fear flashed in their eyes every time you dared to be unkind. Maybe, at first, you didn’t want to hurt them either, even after all their lies crumbled away into painful truth. And maybe, when the dust is settled, you weep over what could have been.

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She pauses from searching through racks of clothes. A small grin spreads over her lips as Ramona holds up a skirt. "Cute."

One upside of this very abandoned town was one could do whatever they wanted. No one around to judge or stop you, you could be as free as a bird, though sometimes it got painfully lonely. It wasn't often she got to share moments like these with someone. She much preferred it to sorting through things alone.

"We could or we could strip here." There was a slight suggestive edge to her tone as she leaned closer.

[treerie]

the suggestion emits a giggle past ramona’s lips, painted a dark crimson, like blood. the town is full of fog & misery, too much dread here & there, lying heavy on her body like an anchor tied around her neck. so to be able to freely explore & take advantage of its empty shops made her feel happy, especially when all this stuff is free for grabs! ( or so she hopes, she hopes she doesn’t piss off whichever entity is watching down on them currently. ) “you’d… probably like that, wouldn’t you?” ramona grins, noting the suggestive tone dripping in maria’s voice, & does her best to match it. “you know, i wouldn’t mind doing that.”

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Her voice was nothing more than a suggestive whisper. "Then do it." Maria slowly unbuttoned a button or two on her cardigan, letting the thing free. Underneath was a lacy black bra. "There's no one here but us." Her lips were so close to Ramona, just barely touching.

Maria's eyes glanced towards the racks and sauntered back to them, hips swaying every so slightly as she picked out a hot pink camisole. "Who do you think would wear it better; me or you?"

[treerie]

"you're strange and unusual—i like that in a person."

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"Is that so?"

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"Don't you get it? I can never leave. I'm trapped here."

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screams into the void.

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Null moon is hitting particularly hard tonight.

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the acting in the remake can be so damn inconsistent.

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screaming internally bc I am so excited for ww.dits season 6.

[cetra-deactivated20221207]

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more remake bitching.

still can't really get past the voices. the game itself seems way too action oriented. I don't like how spacious everything is, it takes away from the more claustrophobic feel of the original.

not a fan of how the radio doesn't go off for every enemy. the whole point of the radio is to let you know when enemies are near. making it go off only here and there feels really silly.

despite bloober's best efforts to make stuff disgusting and dirty, it still feels way too clean. there's a certain grittiness that is not present and was such a big part of the SH aesthetic and it not being there really throws things off.

the lighting is not right and it can make certain things look artificial and plastic-y which again not a fan of. also in some areas, such as first PH encounter, have way too warm of a lighting. in the og it was more cool and neutral. also the overall scene is so mehh and it doesn't feel as impactful as the original.

the original just throws you this horrific image of PH doing violent and sexually suggestive things to this mannequin creature (which I feel symbolic of james' sexual repression and issues and idc what ito worshippers say), and the remake just..gives you this lacklustre kinda anti-climatic scene and it just does not hit the same. I did not like hearing james' heavy breathing, I feel it took away from the scene and was too b horror movie. it just didn't fit.

everyone stands out way too much from the fog. the fog feels like a background prop and not like something that eclipses everything in the original. the characters blend in with it and are surrounded by it, but in the remake they stand out and it's all behind them, thus making them feel green screened in.

also not a fan of the constant talking. I know that's a thing in modern games for characters to talk out loud and have little conversations but I don't want that in a silent hill game. I play silent hill for the story as well as the ambience and a big part of the ambience is hearing creepy noises, hearing the music and other auditory details in the background. I do not want to hear people talking all the damn time.

so yeah, the whole game feels very mid to me and I'm frustrated because there is a part of me that wants to be as excited as everyone else but I am just not. the game feels way too action focused and it's been modernized in a way where it feels not like silent hill anymore, and there's some stuff I struggle to articulate because it's this vague feeling of being off.

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been watching bits of the new remake, mainly cutscenes and uh..

voice acting is fucking terrible. everyone sounds so damn flat.

the models are weirding me out. maria's head looks a bit too big. or maybe it's just the angles. idk. anyways I find all the models vaguely off-putting.

I watched the cutscene of the first encounter with the lying figure and it's kinda unintentionally comedic. the way it just falls and flops. like bruh.

everyone looks kinda..green-screened in. maybe it's the way they stand out so much from the fog. it always looks like it's behind them instead of around them.

I think the first encounter was scarier in the original personally. also the combat feels a bit too over the top to me. it's too much.

also watching the cutscene with the first encounter with maria and the pacing is so awkward. the way she interrupts him so abruptly, and it feels like she's just rushing through her lines. just. no. hard pass.

and the music?? the music in that scene sounds so..wrong to me. like Ilu akira but this track ain't it.

[omurizer-draws-things]

some practice