Dire need of peace

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‪“I let the emptiness take over, I let the darkness swallow me whole. I let all the rage consume me from within, I didn’t fight it, i let them win” ‬

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Truth is, everyone will say they love you when you’re already dead

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I still hope that maybe there would be a time where I won’t feel anything. I am just exhausted will all of these.

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Since no one ever asked, how are you today?

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I yearn for that one person who would make me appreciate every flaws and insecurities that I have; how I longed for someone to say that I am perfectly imperfect.

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20.11.2017;12:02

As the sun begins to set and the horizon turns into grey

All I think are the whys and ask if should I still pray.

Years come and gone and my heart begins to turn cold

is it my brain telling me yes, you are indeed getting old

Friends passed by some choose to stay but many turned and walked away

Again, my heart begins to turn cold as it build a mighty wall

I think of the whats and asked if I have done bad

is it me or the world is indeed just mad

numbers piled up continues and fast

I sit here thinking should I just look away and leave it all in the past

The sun sets and up came the moon

Here I am thinking again is this the start of my doom

wanting to move forward but every step made felt odd

i’ve been looking more down, more lost than found

[besoindepaix]

Today I let my demons steer me away.

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I have been sad for quite sometime that being happy is so foreign to me

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I miss it, the feeling of being genuinely happy.

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Is it possible to feel tons of emotions and still feel empty inside

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. . . . #alphatagg #forumsession #tagitfeature . . #paulcezanne #paulcézanne #gettymuseum #wheninLA #artoftheday #oiloncanvas (at Getty Museum)

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. . . . #wheninUSA #sandstone #sandstonepeak #mountallen #forumsession #vscomoodss #legitstags #ustrip2017 (at Sandstone Peak)

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Little by little it all adds up

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Madness is just around the corner, i can't see it but i can sense it. It is like a monster that creeps out and will pull you by the hands into a depth of nothingness. It is like gravity, it will pull you towards an endless downfall. A never ending feeling of falling

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Emotionally and mentally traumatized. I need Help. Someone?

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I've been crying out for help, yet no one hears it

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. . . . #mtallen #sandstonepeak #sandstone #bnw #bnw_captures #bnwphotography #bnwmood #blackandwhite #blackandwhitephotography #forumsession #forumsession_2017july9ditoako #fs_9sundae (at Sandstone Peak)