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Thinking about my Lolo and how much he would have loved all the things that I’m baking now. Miss him a lot.

Guess who’s freaking out bc she’s not getting the attention she wants again

we are all in our early 20′s beating ourselves up for not having perfect beautiful apartments and wise carefully curated hobbies and self image! there is no rush!

Since I actually have time to sit down and write something for once....

Not that anyone uses tumblr anymore or actually reads what I write when I decide to do long ass posts like these, but hey! How are you? I think the last time I did one of these was like 2 years ago when I officially decided to end contact with Adrian and when I started talking to lex again.

Anyway, since then I’ve made it official again with Alexis (like that wasn’t fucking obvious. [that happened in like February 2017, if you were curious]); graduated from San Diego State with a BA in Journalism (this happened in May 2017); had an existential crisis (due to the fact that I graduated and wasn’t doing anything with my life but chilling at home); finally decided to get a job even though it wasn’t in the field I studied for (shout out to Starbucks [late August 2017]); found something a better job that’ll look good on my resumé (Human Resources wsup [march 2018]).

Life’s pretty cool. I’m still having a hard time figuring out what I really want out of my life, but I’m content. Of course I still have those times where I’m over reading into all the experiences I’m taking in, but what’s new? I have to read into them to learn lessons, right? I mean sometimes their unhealthy thoughts, but it’s something I’m hoping to grow out of.

But yeah, there’s my little life update for myself when I decide to go look at old post. Hope you’re doing well future Joyvey.

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On my mind a lot more than usual lately. Hopefully it’s just a phase, but who am I kidding? I know it really just comes in waves.

Well baby you're the best.

I know it's the hella clingy side of me saying this, but you alwaaaaaaaaays pull this shit

"Broken down, I've had enough. If this is love, I don't want it."

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I'm so fucking upset.

leoascendantgirl

I’ve come to the point in my life where I’m not sure who I am anymore. I feel like I’ve lost all sense of who I am and living every day in a fog. I don’t know if it’s because I’m still unsure of what I want to do post-college. I know I definitely need to get a job, but I’m so uninterested in all of it that I don’t even know what route I want to go with. I can go with the medical route, since I have my pharmacy technician certification; or I can do something in the complete opposite direction, and do something more free and open ended, since I have my degree in journalism.

Regardless of what I choose, I’m going to have to pick something and I have to pick it fast.

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