A Weak Dependent Woman Who Needs Her Man

Hi I’m a 25 year old woman. I decided to make a Tumblr account to have a place where I can post stuff that’s on my mind and reblog any posts I like. My life is shitty enough so I can’t handle any kind of hate or disrespect. So you’ll be blocked immediately if you send me hateful comments or death threats. Please be respectful and kind and remember: treat others how you would like to be treated.

[kyanixx]

Ts frying me gng😭

Why does the 2nd one have more members help???

[bitchchan77]

cause the 2nd group isn't a toxic community of brainless assholes who lack media illiteracy and who don't have the self awareness that they're brainless assholes lmao

[bitchchan77]

Do you know what happened to that one user Paperfool? Did she actually kill herself? Sounds like whatever was really going on with her was way bigger than some people being mean on discord or whatever.

She's still alive. She's just in a really really bad place mentally right now. I got an opportunity to talk to her and she explained what she's going through and it's tragic.

The people being mistreating her used to be her close friends and she loved them. I don't know the details but what I gathered is that: she had a psychotic episode and did something that disturbed and scared them. She apologized to them and tried to make it up to them, but they decided to torment her and convince others that she's some sort of monster.

So not only did they not forgive her and stop being friends, they decide to ruin her life and make her mental health worser by gathering other people online to gang up on her(they could've just stopped using social media and lock themselves in their homes to avoid getting in contact with us mentally ill people if they hate us so much, instead of trying to push people to suicide).

That's why the bullying and harassment is taking a toll on her and why she deleted her fanfics on ao3.

It's truly horrible what her old friend group is doing to her. Nothing hurts more than when people who are suppose to love and care about you deliberately hurt you(whether that's physically or emotionally). What makes this worser is that they know that her mental health wasn't in a good place and they're making it worser. It's so sick and wrong.

Like, what's the fuck is wrong with them? I don't know what she did but if she apologized and tried to make things up with them, they should either forgive her and understand that she's only human. Or not accept the apology and, idk, live on the moon so they don't have to deal with people with imperfections.

Do you tell someone who's screaming in pain cause they're being stabbed repeatedly to shut up and that they deserve to go to hell?

Do you torment someone cause they're grieving for the loss of someone they loved because they want them to get over their death instantly?

Do you get upset with someone because they were kidnapped and tortured so they're naturally traumatized from their experience?

Do they have nothing else to do with their loser lives other than torment people? Do they want people to treat them? Cause anyone mental health can become bad. For example, when your loved ones die or if you go through something traumatic, your mental health will be affected drastically. So, if something like that happens to them, I guess they want others to treat them like they're subhuman. Cause karma exists and will bite them in the ass one day.

Plus, she told me that some people get irritated with her when she explains what she's feeling and say things like she's being whiny or some other BS. People can be so ableist and uppity. Not everyone is like that(many people are kind and loving and compassionate), but too many people are like that.

That's why she did thank me for listening to her without judging her and without being a douche to her.

I really hate this(and I'm mad for her behalf) because I know what it feels like. You put yourself out there(like you're suppose to) and people try to break you even more by stomping on your heart until it explodes.

I get why people(including me) feel the need to isolate themselves from others and mask what we feel; socializing with the wrong kind of people can lead to your mental health get worser. It's not good to forever isolate yourself, but it sometimes helps to take some time for yourself and not want to socialize. I still remember the break I had( the one between graduating high school and starting college) helped me because attending high school triggered my depression.

Then at some point, some old bitch(an English professor) almost made me go back to that dark place. But now I'm getting out of topic lmao

I do wish I could do more for her, but unfortunately, I don't even know how to heal myself. I'm not in a good place either too cause a certain piece of shit individual (who I shall not talk about because it's too personal) deciding to hurt me deeply.

[artificalnightsky]

Orion is a great and meaningful name for Curly/The original Greek myth of Orion and Artemis mirrors Curly’s own story with Jimmy.

I don’t get the hate some people still have about the reveal that Curly’s full name is Orion Carling. All of the names in the game were either placeholder names or pure fan canon.

The name Orion is not only a great, prissy, pretentious white boy name, which fits Curly nicely (and designates him as just a “part of a set” with his brothers) but the most famous myth of Orion the Hunter has a lot of similarities with Curly’s own story.

Basically, Orion the Hunter was a great marksman in Greek mythology. He fell in love with the goddess Artemis and wanted to remain at her side forever…and in every version of the tale, Artemis kills Orion. In some versions Artemis never returns Orion’s affections and sends a scorpion to kill him, or she does return his love but, while trying to prove her skill at archery and brag to the other gods, she shoots Orion by accident, killing him. Either way, out of bitterness, guilt or love, Artemis refuses to let Orion truly die and immortalises him as constellation. (And sometimes Orion doesn’t want this but is unable to tell her no.)

It feels very similar to Jimmy and Curly’s own dynamic. Curly loving Jimmy (in either a platonic or romantic context depending on how you interpret them) essentially killed him, and how Jimmy himself refused to let Curly die; putting him in the cryo-pod and forcing him to live.

If it wasn’t a meaningful naming choice, it’s certainly a very interesting coincidence. Especially considering they could have used any other constellation or “space themed” name for Curly.

[zzoupz]

i miss jirai jimi

fuckin purble alt i cant decide which one i like more

[diabetiklovers]

freckle laito is so cute but what if his entire face was covered in them hehe 🤭

I was going for a home made movie sorta aesthetic 🎥🍿

[dogpuppy]

[bitchchan77]

I wonder if Curly would choose to wear a prosthetic face mask like Sally Fisher from Sally Face

Not only is he someone who puts a lot of effort to make himself look good, but he's also someone who's not comfortable expressing his inner turmoil since he planned out his answers for his psych evaluations to cover up how mentally unwell he's feeling(Jimmy being the exception. Maybe also his family.)

Wearing a mask would not only cover the scars(not everyone has a right to look at your scars if you're not comfortable with that cause some people can be so judgmental and like to stare at you like you're an anomaly), but only cover up how traumatized and emotionally scarred he is due to his horrific experience up on the Tulpar. And wearing a prosthetic face mask can be stylish and cool. think about how masked men trend on TikTok and other social media platforms, and in dark romance books.

[scarletdreamers]

I recently came across a take about the Fall being metaphorical, something Will made up in his head to symbolise his ''fall'' from grace/into darkness and him accepting that he has ''fallen'' for Hannibal. And though I love love love that take, I can't help but love a canon in which the Fall was real more. Like, that fact that Will actually pushed them off that cliff, actively deciding he'd rather die with Hannibal than ever suffer a life without him again, that's romance. A sad yet magical brand of hopelessness and desperation that feels very fitting for the episode and Will's situation. Will was married, he actually tried for a new life, he tried to be a father, he did everything he could to ''escape'' from his feelings but he couldn't. He knew he still loved Hannibal and he always did, enough to come back to him in the end after saying he never wanted to see him again. Even worse, he didn't just come back to see him, he set him free, just to have H to himself one last time! Will made an escape plan for them just so that they could have one more night together! That's as good as it gets. Will really just left everything, everyone, behind to be with Hannibal. To keep them together the only way Will knew how to: by plunging to their deaths in each others arms.

There's no way Will could have thought they had a chance of survival, not with their injuries and the height of the cliff. He also knew the FBI would find them if they stayed in the house and tried to flee, so he chose the only option he felt was left for them: dying together. Mind you, if Will had stayed ashore, he wouldn't have been arrested. He could have handed H to the FBI without thinking twice. He was also in the position to just shove Hannibal off the cliff, carrying out the plan he promised would work: kill Dolarhyde, then Hannibal. But he didn't. He couldn't! He didn't have a plan. He thought that their embrace on the cliff was it. Will chose to spend his last moments with his head on Hannibals chest and his arms around him, listening to his beating heart. He couldn't stomach the idea of living without Hannibal, not again, not after everything that happened, so it ended up in Will pulling them over and Hannibal letting him do it! If he wasn't ready to die there with Will, he would have stepped away from the edge moments before. They both knew, and they were satisfied with their ending. Maybe it wasn't happiness, but it was beautiful. No greater ending than that for a pair like them.

[rotund-squirrelmeister]

i’ve never seen someone verbalise my thoughts on this in a more perfect manner so THANK YOU!!

[my-cup-of-tears]

I feel like whenever people talk about mouthwashing and its story, noone really mentions the TV scenes, like at all. I didn't understand all of them, but I'll try to go briefly over them

1. Basically Pony Express / Job propaganda, assuring the individual that they are well taken care of and well paid enough to focus on the familly

2. Galaxy turning into a Supernova / Black hole (not sure which, I'm not good at these things). Basically shows how a little mistake can doom everything

3. Promotion for some sort of tonic. Didn't understand the words enough to comment

4. Skeletons and creepy effects, basically foreshadowing how they all will die in the end

5. Mouthwash ad, basically lying about everything that the product actually is. By Anya's verdict, that thing is too full of sugar to be even slightly effective

[artificalnightsky]

You can’t fix your mistakes - that’s the whole point of the game.

It really pisses me of when people say things like “Anya could have saved Daisuke if she was still alive”, or “Curly should have found a way to take Anya to a hospital so she could get an abortion, and then she’d be happy”, or “Swansea should have just killed Jimmy with the axe the second Anya told him what he did to her.”

Nothing could have fixed those problems. They couldn’t be brushed aside, buried or “made right”. If you think they could’ve been, you’re just as delusional as Jimmy.

Had Daisuke managed to somehow survive, he would have likely been left in a catatonic state the same as Curly (they already had very few resources left and antiseptic can’t treat electrical burns)

Had Anya somehow made it to a medical facility (and Curly diverted course to do so - as the cost of everyone’s pay) why would that have fixed things for her? She was still hurt physically and emotionally, plus I don’t think some of you realise how traumatic an abortion can be. Even if the pregnancy is unwanted…it doesn’t magically make the memory of the child disappear. (And you will have to live with the knowledge that you ended a life that had all the same potential to hope, dream and live as you do)

Why would Swansea kill Jimmy, even after finding out his crimes? It wouldn’t solve anything, and if they somehow got rescued Swansea would immediately be arrested. (and even if you know a person is a criminal, it’s very hard to “just kill them” unless they are directly attacking you, and your life is on the line.) He had no idea that Anya would lock herself in the med-bay and that Jimmy would send Daisuke though the vent. He should have been watching Daisuke instead of giving up and getting drunk - that was his mistake and it’s why he didn’t care about Jimmy killing him afterwards.

In real life you will make mistakes that you can’t fix, say and do things you can’t take back, things you will regret; and you’ll have to live with them.

[bitchchan77]

At least Jimmy has the excuse that he lost his mind and his mental health went down to the negatives due to the many MANY fucked up things he did to the crew and his best friend ( and due to him putting a lot of effort to push away his guilt and remorse, and distort reality).

That’s why, in the end, his mind convinced him that him and Curly fixed everything( which implies he still thinks Anya, Swansea, and Daisuke are alive and that they’ll be rescued).

What are these people’s excuse for believing that everything could’ve been fixed.

Here’s the thing: even if Anya didn’t lock herself in the medbay( which lead to Swansea having to mercy kill him and then Jimmy shooting him afterwards. Then Jimmy imagining everyone is alive and puts Curly through more hell by cutting up his part of his leg with a knife while he’s still conscious)

They probably would’ve died due to starvation, dehydration, or due to lack of oxygen. Jimmy’s flaw is that he convinced him that he can fix his mistake of crashing the ship by being their captain. He was trying to convince himself that if he tries his best as captain, they’ll survive long enough for them to be rescued and taken back to Earth. And if they’re rescued, Curly would be taken to a hospital with professionals who’ll fix up Curly’s wounds and make him good as new.

But even he knew the mindset is BS cause he knows he doomed them all.

Pony Express isn’t going to sent help because they don’t care about them. The fact that they haven’t been found immediately means they’re in the middle of nowhere, where there’s no intelligent living beings or ships, in space on an asteroid.

They would have to be the luckiest people if a ship driven by a human( or nonhuman intelligent life form that wouldn’t want to kill, torture, or enslave them) passed by their ship, sees the crashed Tulpar , and helps them get back to Earth.

I’m also bring up this line of dialogue:

The way I see it: Anya isn’t saying that Curly doesn’t care about her when she ask him “what would you have done”.

She’s saying that there’s nothing anyone can do to help her. Unless Curly has a Time Machine so he can prevent Jimmy from assaulting her and getting her pregnant, curly can’t fix this. Even if he drops kicks her in the stomach to make her have a miscarriage and kills Jimmy, she still has to live with her traumatic memories that won’t ever go away. Actually doing all that would make things way worse for her.

If she can’t delete those memories, she at least wants to be a thousand miles away from Jimmy ( doesn’t want him to die; just wants to be far away from him since he terrifies her) so that she can eventually heal. But she has to wait til the haul is over. For the time being, she’s stuck with a dangerous man who terrifies her.

Again, curly can’t magically teleport them to their destination and teleport them again back to Earth. But Curly doesn’t know about the assault.

( based on how genuinely surprised he is when she tells him she’s pregnant and how he was about to ask her who she was sleeping, she didn’t tell him the whole truth. Probably only told him that Jimmy keeps hitting on her. Or maybe Jimmy talked about his attraction towards Anya to Curly or talked about being sexually frustrated. Point is, Curly knows that the only person who would sleep with Anya would be Jimmy. He just doesn’t know it wasn’t consensual cause why the hell would you assume a woman has been raped cause she said she’s pregnant and sad. I think he didn’t get why Anya wanted to prevent Jimmy from getting hold of the gun. He’s dealing with depression, possibly suicidal thoughts, hallucinations, exhaustion due to lack of sleep, regret over his life choices, insomnia, the responsibilities of being a captain, etc. He needed her to explain everything bluntly and she didn’t for multiple reasons. Or maybe he just thought she was just mad at him for having terrible pull-out game and convincing her to have non protective sex with him and now has the irrational fear that Jimmy is going to hurt her. This has nothing to do with the main discussion, sorry lmao)

So of course he believes he can make things better for her.

Okay okay, im done lol but not really cause I can keep going on and on. But I spent way too long writing all this

[qqchurch]

[bitchchan77]

This reminds me of how, years ago when I was in high school, i listened to particular maretu song only once in my life. It’s been so long that I don’t even remember what the song is called.

It hit way too close to home with me and it was just a song about a high school girl who’s really lonely and shy and showed signs of depression( that’s the way i Interpreted the song. Others may see it differently). That song broke me psychological

But I recently listened to the maretu song Binomi and holy fuck, I love it( just like I love the other maretu songs like Mind Brand and SIU) And it’s a song about eating people. But damn it’s a bop and the girl sounds so happy eating human meat

[radrush]

[bitchchan77]

This is how I imagine Curly and Jimmy behaved, pre-crash, when it’s just the two of them alone. Like they would literally do some freaky ass stuff together and later claim that they’re just friends and two heterosexual guys

[me----irl]

Reblog if you think the person you reblogged this from deserves to be happy.

[mmelete]

The Tumblr Experience

[kajameow]

Jimmy fans(and haters actually too), do y'all have any recommendation for media that reminds you of Jimmy? Like movies, manga, maybe even music? Idc if it's a character that is like him or just the vibe or maybe something he himself would like? Anything? :3

[bitchchan77]

This song makes me think of Jimmy and his character arc in the game, which is him descending into madness, doing some pretty fucked up things, and losing most of his sanity in the end

[thekingsconsort]

"Wow, Iron Lung opened my eyes. it's horrible what we do to criminals in our justice system, and how we subsequently treat them even if they seek rehabilitation. Even if their actions were horrible, no one deserves to be isolated, dehumanized, abused, ruined, and turned into cannon fodder. we need to be better. Simon didn't deserve to be trapped in an iron tomb of blood, to be tortured by forces outside of his understanding, and to be driven further into madness and agony via the devices given to him by those in power that saw him as nothing more than a means to an end. They wouldn't even call him by his name, to reduce him to nothing but his prior actions, so they could easily dehumanize him as to not risk feeling any more guilt, or risk understanding him as a person, rather than a monster. Empathy and understanding even in the darkest places are what will help humanity survive"

Awesome! I absolutely, 100% agree entirely. I'm so glad you feel that way. Now, can you apply that to Jimmy Mouthwashing