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Let the sin begin. Who says the devil can’t smile?

[arcusxx]

[adarkdiary]

[adarkdiary]

[adarkdiary]

[the-moon-whisperer]

[bittersweet-agony]

What goes through your mind as you look in the mirror? Do you see your flaws or think about past regrets or maybe even not recognize what you see anymore? Truthfully, all I feel is completely emptiness and hatred at everything I see and feel. Hatred for this life and hatred for nothing. Hatred for everything. Exhaustion and sarcasm for what I know is a waste of space and time. A fucking nuisance to all that come across me. Worthless and hollow. A fucking speck in a word full of beautiful and painful things. No matter how far I get I will always inevitably fail. One way or another this life will find a way to pull me under and watch as I drown alone. Not so much as a single ripple of disturbance on the surface as I flail and fight underneath. Each struggle can line up and no matter how many I knock down they will always continue to swarm. An inexplicable disdain for my existence. One I never asked for to begin with. No amount of pain or suffering seems to be enough. No matter how deep it goes there is only nothing. Nothing but a cascading flood of nothingness with a heavy downpour of self loathing. No escape no matter how long I sleep or how long I stay awake there is only static and screaming in my head.

It is so loud it’s physically painful. All I do is stare blankly as I’m spoken to only to ask what was said as I attempt to listen when all I truly hear is words of disdain and chaotic noises in my prison of a mind. I’m destined to be trapped here with only one escape and even then am I really worth the effort and tbh don’t I deserve this anyway? Even as I look into his beautiful eyes and the warm feeling overwhelms me I still hear the noise. Only now I’m waiting. Waiting to the inevitable time comes when even he realizes I’m not worth the effort. That I’m this broken and tortured waste of time. Everyone and everything I have ever loved will always be taken or will leave. It’s why I care so little about everything I have and why I’ve always closed myself off. Why I’ve always been so guarded. Still never helps. Never gets easier. Instead I’m dragged and kicked while everyone around me doesn’t even notice. If there is a god he’s laughing. It’s amusing to see me at his feet angry and tortured. Why not one more step to pile I top of me? I afterall have a sense of humor as well. It’s pretty funny to watch me squirm. So I take it. One pound at a time. One bad day, one failed attempt, one insult, one piece of bad news, one knife in the back, one cigarette put out on my skin, one gun to my head, one drag of the blade, one bottle, one scream, one fight, and one pathetic reflection at a time. I hate you. I hate myself. I hate this app, this place, this feeling, that fucking reflection, and every fucking memory. I fucking hate this.

[selfhxtredkid]

100000 times

[nothing-but-a-depressed-teen]

[bulimicbunnny]

[valentina-poem]

[bittersweet-agony]

Pickles.....

[bittersweet-agony]

Ahhh the life of HRT #trans

[bittersweet-agony]

So this is an update and a fuck you all at once. A fuck you to all of you who said I would make an ugly woman and a fuck you to all who told me it was a waste of a hot man. As time progresses so will I. Leaving all of you negative motherfuckers behind. I’m no son of yours. I’m no brother of yours. I’m not you’re cute guy friend and I’m not your wannabe girl friend. I’m a daughter. I’m a sister. I’m an aunt. I’m a woman. So while you pray to your god to smite this abomination and continue to watch me flourish remember that. It takes a real woman to know that you don’t put down your sisters. You lift them up and you support them. All of you on my friends list are beautiful. You’re powerful. Let nothing, no one, no negativity, no bridge burning, no condemnation, let nothing ever stand in your way of being who you are. Man or woman or my amazing non-binary and gender fluid friends. All of you are fucking amazing. Own who you are and step on anyone who says otherwise. 🖤 Happy Trans Pride Month to all of you.

[bittersweet-agony]

Hm pectorals to damn near DD’s, bulky to feminine and powerful. Tone to curvy. I’ve come a long way. Sometimes I don’t always see it, i question whether I pass or not. Will someone clock me or start something? In the end, I’m here and I’m strong. I’ve fought through a lot. Put up with just as much. I allowed weak people to pull me down with them. I sometimes miss those who’ve hurt me when I should have knocked them down where they belong. I’ve lost so much, gained even more. I often let myself decay from overwhelming past emotions. I often get angry and let that motivate me to do better. I hate everything while loving everything simultionusly. I am a beautifully complicated woman. I have baggage. I have flaws. I am worth more than trash to be thrown away. I am better than the failures of those who put me here. I am more than a regret. I am greater than delusions. I am a sister, daughter, granddaughter, musician, a song writer, photoagrapher, an artist. I am a person with loves and passion. I am a person who’s creative, kind, loving, compassionate, respectful, and driven. Fuck these doubts. Fuck the ignorance and hatred. Fuck the disgust. Fuck the fear. Fuck the delusional scams. Fuck the greed. Fuck the selfishness. Fuck the lies. Fuck the sadness. Fuck the depression. Fuck anything, everything, anyone, and everyone who doubts me, condemns me, abandons me, throws me away, holds me back, and puts me down. Fuck you if you disagree. 🤬😑

[bittersweet-agony]

Fucking finally got my blog back smh fuck this explicit content bullshit.

[sunwukxng]

When you throwing it back but then your top starts backseat bottoming and telling you to arch your back and how to properly get fucked and throwing out tips like you didn’t spend the latter half of your formative years face down ass up getting bred behind the dumpster at your local truck stop-adjacent McDonald’s

[starlightandtears]

Adam….

[sunwukxng]

#sir….that lion is a jesus metaphor (via @cinnamontographyismypassion )

Did Jesus not get nailed too? Was he not hammered? Pounded into submission? Laid bareback for all to see?

[cephalophor]

JC was a top so keep his name out of your mouth

[sunwukxng]

Bottom erasure and historical revisionism. Typical top nonsense. You think a man who was born man-free and only had a mother could possibly be anything but a bottom?

[cephalophor]

HE WAS A SERVICE TOP

[bpdcassidy-archived-deactivated]

Jesus was a verse; he became flesh and blood for the good of mankind at large, as you would understand if you paid attention to the liturgy. Wasn’t his body “given up for you and for all so that sins may be forgiven”? It’s fair to say then that he knows no top/bottom dichotomy - his flesh is for everyone.

[sunwukxng]

Jesus took in lepers and whores and all those trodden down upon by society. Took in.

You know what else takes stuff in? Bottoms.

He also had companions. Aka fuck buddies aka tops who used him and his holes.

Stop trying to push the narrative that erases important historical figures for bottoms to look up to, when we have so few!

[bpdcassidy-archived-deactivated]

You’re right, he did take in the most downtrodden members of society. But he also gave back.

Remember the loaves and fishes? If he could so freely and compassionately feed so many, could he not also feed the horny the same way?

[sunwukxng]

He gave head

[pettydavis]

do we have to pull out our jesus was trade scriptures in this the year of our lordt 2018

[pumpkinspicepunani]

Reading this thread gave me a first class ticket to hell

[queernigga]

i really wanna go pray after reading this but you know what? we need to unpack “backseat bottoming” because that sent me REELING

[sunwukxng]

#i need to be baptized again this sent me straight to hell (via @gaysnailed)

[coat]

Jesus was obvi vers because he treated Judas like DL top, and treated Thomas like a shameful daddy-chasing bottom. He was whatever you needed to be and thats truly HER impact.

[bittersweet-agony]

Little update on my translation. I’m now going on three months in and I’ve had insane results. Also to any of you who don’t like guns I carry it because I’m trans and live in the south where ignorance and stupidly run ramapant and Im done dealing with stupidly brave people.

#transgender