• shorn and scarred and yours (50k) enemies to friends to lovers wolfstar, slytherin Sirius
• The West Tower (50k) snupin, depressed Remus
• The Last Summer (series 20k) In the summer of 1975, Sirius writes to his friends to let them know how things are when he's at home
One shots
• My place of refuge - prongsfoot, religious trauma, teen romance
• The Events That Started on the Evening of Sirius Black’s Nineteenth Birthday - Sirius is saved from a homophobic attack by a young man called Remus, who has something to hide
• Consequences of Boredom - moonchaser, getting together
• Holding Hands - In the summer between sixth and seventh year, James suddenly notices Remus
• Someone to Watch Over Me - wolfstar raising harry, angst w/ happy ending
• How was your cuddle session today? Leave Sirius B. a review! - wolfstar, Remus requests a "Spooner," a professional who comes to his house to cuddle with him for an hour
• your diamond eyes, my hoarse howl - wolfstar, The castle has known about Remus’s lycanthropy since he stepped in here First Year. He’s used to being alone
• Summer Breeze - Sirius goes to lie low at Lupin's and receives a welcome surprise, Mpreg
WIPs
• Remus Lupin’s guide to falling in love as an old man - old wolfstar, chronically ill Remus, getting together
• A Squire's Tale - wolfstar and jily, AU medieval, secret identity
• some things last a long time - wolfstar, unhealthy coping mechanisms
• do not go gentle - Death meets a stubborn human soul named Sirius, Death Remus
• All Through the Night - canon divergence, Sirius raises Harry, ttriwizard tournament
• shake me to my core - friends to lovers, disabled Remus
• Mean Wizards - marauders mean girls au
Published books
• The Necronomicon by H. P. Lovecraft - (not finished)
A perfect match- Tom gets love potioned and becomes obsessed with (y/n), thankfully she gets him the antidote but he is now genuinely interested. romance, and murder, ensues.
Switching worlds-(y/n) gets into an accident and ends up switching with a Harry potter version of herself, who is somehow dating the young dark lord. Tom does everything in his power to make sure his (y/n) comes back. smut included
The girl who shattered time-Long fic! (y/n) gets sent back to the 40's by a broken time turner during the battle of Hogwarts. She cant get home on her own, during this time-she develops a rivalry with Tom Riddle, the Slytherin Prefect; then they fall in love, then she finds out he's Voldemort (Happy end)
Through time and space, you're mine.(The girl who shattered time alt end); (y/n) goes back to her time instead of staying with Tom, but he followers her in an unexpected way. But there's no dark lord so....yay???
Through time and space; you're mine (Part 2!); (y/n) eventually meets Core Tom and Thomas(Voldemort and his 'son'), ending up at the Riddle manor for the whole summer. she eventually comes to terms with this new reality and allows herself to love him again. (SMUT)
New perfume? Smutshot- (y/n)'s perfume gets tampered with Amortentia and Tom goes hogwild for it.
A Fathers love-less of an X reader(but still has (y/n) included) and more a story about Mattheo Riddle and his father Voldemort. Mattheo calls out for his dad-needing to be saved. Voldemort doesnt disappoint.
Happy Memory- Tom tries and fails to produce a patronus, its not till his favorite nuisance helps him find a powerful memory to make one that matches hers.
Vamp! reader x Tom- theres a vampire that is lurking around the forbidden forest, Tom doesnt really care until he notices a fellow student looking ill, and has a hunch. smut included.
Salted caramel, metal, strawberries, vanilla, and ink.- Tom takes a whiff of Amortentia and discovers a load of scents he didnt know he liked. he figures out all these scents actually belong to his best friend.
Panic- DADA class has a practical lesson with Boggarts. Tom has a panic attack in reaction to his boggart and (y/n) helps.
fuck you(my pleasure) Fem Tom x Fem reader- Tiana Riddle hated (y/n). she really did...right? (shorter fic, smut included)
Stupid with love-more of a funny fic/platonic x reader- Tom thinks love is stupid-he just doesnt get it! (y/n) on the other hand is just like 'dude you're ace, not broken.'
mommy? sorry. mommy? sorry. mom-; Tom Riddle is a simp for his buff hufflepuff quidditch player of a girlfriend. (blurb)
teaching-(y/n) thinks her boyfriend Tom sucks at kissing. Tom takes it as a teaching moment. (blurb)
Weirdo- (y/n) bites Tom. he thinks his girlfriend is weird. (blurb)
stained- Tom let (y/n) buy new lipstick. big mistake. (blurb)
Cheated- Tom's girlfriend cheats on him with (y/n)'s boyfriend. on valentine's day no less. Tom and (y/n) get their revenge and end up falling in love. smut included.
Craving-smutshot; (y/n) is craving her boyfriend. he obliges.
The bet- (y/n) bets Tom she can make him whimper within 5 minutes. he thinks otherwise.
imagine-you're a fashion designer and Tom is your personal model.(art included :D)
Herbology Detention, smutshot- Tom somehow gets detention and ends up knocking into a plant that is a natural aphrodisiac (wonderful idea in a school full of hormone-ridden teens), (y/n) is with him, and his only option.
imagine-a relationship with Tom. (how you (blank) fic)
Golden hour- Tom is utterly in love with (y/n) before they're even together, and also while they're together. just shit ton of fluff with smut at the end, mostly Tom just being a dork.
Truth or Drink(and spin the bottle), smutshot- Tom gets dared to admit who he wants to snog-he doesn't, but he does get a kiss from the girl hes wanted to snog. he kisses her back. They have sex in the common room.
his musician-Tom overhears the violin music of a fellow student, one he doesn't catch a glimpse of till much later.
Haunted- Tom uses the basilisk to make his first Horcrux-except something else latches onto his diary, and then-to himself.
playing house- (y/n) and Tom meet again after many years, and very quickly-things change in her life.(stalker Tom)
his right-hand woman-(y/n) is Voldemort's closest follower, Bellatrix gets jealous.
meeting the mother - Tom has (y/n) meet his mother.(blurb less than 800 words)
Bunny Bunny- (y/n) accidentally uses bunny hair in her polyjuice potion and gains bunny ears and a bunny tail. Tom cant keep his hands to himself.
Odd Pair- Tom and (y/n) Lovegood are...odd together, but good, her easy going airy demeanor easing his troubles, even when he's buried in school work.
No innocents- The order takes Voldemort's wife in an attempt to make her betray him-to give up information. She refuses. her death results in Voldemort taking revenge for his wife.(inspired by castlevania)ANGST
Morning distraction- Anon request; (y/n) distracts Tom from his morning workout with a kiss.
Once upon a Time- (y/n)'s children request a story about a villain she once defeated.
i would take a bullet for you(just to prove my love)-(y/n) has been murdered, Tom is haunted by the whispers of her voice, mocking him.
Big brown puppy dog eyes- Tom is so down bad for a girl that he lets his followers turn him into a puppy.
Day at Hogsmeade- you drag Tom to hogsmeade, and make him carry your bags AND make him try a shit ton of candy.
Unbreakable vow- Tom forces (y/n) to make the unbreakable vow with him.(Anon request)
The dark lords lady- you're his love, his only soft spot, and even though you're mostly soft spoken, it means no lack of respect for you from any Death Eater. (anon request)
Everything- you'd been taken, why? you weren't completely sure, it was for some sort of information, but they'd gotten nothing from you. weeks go by, and finally-you're saved, but not by someone from the light side, no, its someone you thought you hated since you met. Tom Riddle, son of Voldemort.
Tomcat- Feral cat(Tom) meets animal lover(you)
A dream or a nightmare? - Anon request; all horcrux toms BUT it’s her first time(Smut!)
You deserve Better- anon request; after being left behind by your friends, again; Tom speaks up.
Sick day for mom - Tom Riddle is a man of many skills, he's also a father and husband, and when his wife gets sick; he has to brave the forces of his three children all alone.its not as easy a it seems, even for Tom Marvolo Riddle.
Always there- (y/n) hurts her arm and Tom comes to her rescue quicker than anyone can say 'jinx'. he vows that he'll be there for her always, from minor bites to breaking bones. (hi i got hurt and needed to write about it)
Yapper and Yapper Jr- Tom Riddle's youngest daughter is a yapper, just like him-even if its just babbles and noises. he, of course, 'understands' every word, providing translation to his wife who fondly watches on.
Trying new things- Tom gets pegged <3
Runaway with me- Tom asks (y/n) to run away with him after discovering she's pregnant and her parents are trying to marry her off and abort the baby within her.
Makeup - (y/n) is prepping for her halloween look, Tom, her boyfriend, doesnt get it, and gets makeup'd
Multipart fics
Change(Man in the mirror)
You are Harry Potter's cousin, thrice removed(something like that.) and there was only one person you hated in the whole world. Tom Riddle. yet it seems...he doesn't feel the same way anymore.
Goblet of fire era, you and Tom are 17, lots of fluff, angst, humor, a bit of smut, and YEARNING on Tom's side, you hate his guts and he loves it.
Part 1 Part 2
The diary of Tom Riddle(just a link to the main masterlist for that, im too lazy to go through all them lol) 6 parts Total with 3 different endings.
The dark lords Nanny
(y/n) becomes Tom Riddle's, or lord Voldemort's, nanny for his two-week old son since no other nanny seems capable of handling the boy, or at least seem capable of NOT trying to seduce the dark lord. as she grows attached to Mattheo, and Mattheo to her, another relationship blooms between her and Tom.
Part 1 Part 2 Part 3 Part 4 Part 5 Part 6 Part 7
The summer of 1942
Tom's orphanage chooses to send its children into the countryside for the summer-that includes Tom. He ends up going to a classmates house and they run a dog shelter. He ends up having the best summer ever, making new friends, and developing a new appreciation for animals. And beignets.
Part 1 Part 2 part 3 part 4 part 5 part 6 part 7 part 8 part 9 part 10 part 11 part 12 part 13
Wild Uncharted waters
Tom gets saved from drowning by a fellow student-he doesnt remember their face-only their voice. it becomes his mission to find this-siren.
Skeleton-part 2 to wild uncharted waters.
Tom found his siren, now its onto (y/n)'s pov. and someones stalking her.
Rumor has it
Rumor has it Tom Riddle has a crush, on who? no one knows but him. but it wont stay secret for long.
Part two- they're married and in love now and have a kid. so much fluff in both parts.
Not sorry for loving you
Tom and (y/n) are childhood friends, they fall in love, but Tom is doomed to have a tragic story, leaving (y/n) to suffer alone.
Part 1 Part 2 Alt Part 2 (happy ending)
How did we get here?(i used to know you so well)
Old story! 2023; Tom and (y/n) have a hidden relationship at hogwarts, he falls for her hard, she cant help but to fall for him to, but Tom is doomed for tragedy, and she's forced to watch him fall into darkness, refusing to follow.
Part 1 Part 2 Part 3 Part 4 Part 5
From birth
you'd been promised since birth, the both of you-to each other. marriage, children, the works, all before you were even born; you were set to marry the dark lords son. Tom. Both of you arent quite sure how to do it, any of it, but...you'll make it work.
'i kissed a girl' but with a down bad mattheo riddle... i was literally kicking my feet the entire time hehe
honey and venmon @riddlesrizzler
something about the almighty mattheo riddle being so down bad does something to me, maybe its also because i live in the south now idk this fic is just so adorable
mlb mattheo @hotweirdgirl
live love baseball players... ifykyk
before dating mattheo @hotweirdgirl
just love love love this awww
fuckcraft & rizzardry @kittyminion
literally so obsessed with this story. its perfectly soft, the build up is amazing, i love the overly protective father, ugh its so adorbs. especially the hint of like a domestic/suburban mattheo is so fun
mutual humiliation @yasministration
literally so cute, we love an embarrassed mattheo during quidditch lol
soft!mattheo headcannons part 2 @iamgonnagetyouback
ugh my favorite, love the detail and theyre just perfect
pretty boy problems @iamgonnagetyouback
self care night ft the slytherin boys
ghosts don't knock @serpentskissed
slytherin boys helping take care of your baby and then lost hope of him ever coming back... 10/10
he's got a staring problem @dearggntlereader
so cutsey & who doesn't love his eyes anyways
part of you knew @cipheress-to-k-pop
literally gut wrenching, sobbing, biting my nails the entire time. not what you think it is but so much better than anything i imagined. love love love.
he's a little unhinged @writingsbychlo
the fights, the impulses, the loyalty, the protectiveness we love to see it
neighbor trope @cipheress-to-k-pop
so cutsey, love the build up. nothing better than having mattheo living next door and an overly outgoing dad lol
wicked hearts @sunnyluna
they're both cruel but like theyre perfect for each other. we love a guard dog couple
ties @wbellab
this is easily one of my favorite concepts
mattheo x slytherin!reader headcannons @riddlesrizzler
obsessed with the detail and the spice at the end. literal perfection, fed into all my delusions about this man hehe
amortenia @cipheress-to-k-pop
so cutsey. reader is literally allergic to mattheo and their feelings about each other come to light in potions class
laundry mixup @redeemingvillains
had me biting my nail and kicking my feet, the ending makes me scream hehe
how the mattheo riddle loves @riddlemelater
fantastic give me 20 more just like this about this man
tattoo artist!mattheo @girllblogging777
i would set myself on fire for this to be real im not kidding.
quidditch jersey @redeemingvillains
im basically a fan page for her atp but i love this concept and i love this piece!!!! so adorable, i love drabbers about a quidditch player mattheo it brings me so much joy
toxicbf!mattheo @pizzaapeteer
i hate how much i love these teeheheh
hands @suugarbabe
ferrari @s1ater
the whole relationship runs on hypocrisy and toxicity but the ending makes my heart flutter and my eyes water lol
warning. the content down below contains explicit scenarios and porn links attached. if you're underage/minor, don't interact nor open this post. it's not meant for you; wait until you're older. it's for your own good.
MATTHEO RIDDLE ⋆ P LINKS
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𓆙 ’ impatience is a trait that mattheo inherited from his mother, in opposition to the usual cunning of a riddle. impatience can be shown like this, hushing you to take off your clothes as mattheo sits down, greedily groping your ass to get you hovering his mouth just right. yes, your mouth feels amazing—but mattheo can let you play around later. for now? he's got it. just keep your pretty legs spread and let him prepare you with his tongue, getting you wet enough so he can wreck your shit properly later.
𓆙 ’ for all of his flaws, you can't say that mattheo riddle isn't an attentive boyfriend. because he is—damned good at observing and noticing the telltale signs of your mood swings, recognizing when your day is being shitty, getting you all bratty and pissed off. but hey, it's okay; before you can whine about being sleepy or academic stress, mattheo is already taking you to his dorm room. just relax and let him fold you just right to fuck that shitty day out of you. mattheo knows exactly what you need—broad shoulders were made to support your legs, right? mattheo will take care of you. talk you through it, get your thighs sore—and kiss them better once there's not a single thought in your mind.
𓆙 ’ from pansy and other girls, mattheo discovered that most witches don't share the same love he does for cowgirl. maybe, that's what makes this moment even more special; watching you, with lustful hunger and undeniable awe, turn your back to him to ride mattheo in something that betrays the usual eye to eye motto. mattheo throws his head back, having to bite his lip before he said something stupid — how could he not? mattheo could cum from the view alone, watching you sink onto his cock once more, hands reaching out to explore and savor each second. he knows you're tired — mattheo coos reassurances that he's almost there, just a little longer — but god, what a view. his thumb rubs your rim in blissful wish that someday, he'll see you do this again, but to stretch out your other hole.
𓆙 ’ it took weeks and long conversations to convince you. mattheo almost jumped in happiness the moment you told him that you could try anal, kissing your shoulders and collarbone as he worked on stripping you out of all of those troublesome clothes. mattheo promised that it'd feel good; it wouldn't hurt that much, that he'd have you moaning sooner than you think. as usual, he did not disappoint—deep inside you, fingers rubbing, pinching, fingering your other hole, then turning your head to meet his lips. mattheo didn't want a piece of you lacking his attention; he just needed to curl his fingers, angle his hips a little more, and... there. you can feel him grinning against your cheek, because once again, mattheo truly did not disappoint.
𓆙 ’ pansy was the culprit and the one who bestowed this traitorous blessing, having cheered for you to take another shot, and another, and another... just wanting to know how spicy things got with mattheo. turns out that the alcohol forced a bratty—and a little unfair—truth, reaching mattheo's ears once your whiny tone complained that his fingers lacked a lot on where you needed attention. needless to say, the room spinned a little before you noticed that your body shivered from the lack of clothes, mattheo's hardening length forgotten as your lower back slumped on his pelvis. so he could do better with his fingers, huh? you can squirm, buck your hips, whine all you want. doesn't matter how hard mattheo got, you're going to sleep tonight wishing you hadn't complained to pansy — missing his cock even when you wake up all messy from last night.
𓆙 ’ you have to be quiet, the window had to be opened and mattheo's muscles were a little sore from climbing to your roof and sneaking inside your bedroom. your parents are sleeping, blissfully unaware that the wizardy society's most feared young menace is stripping off his pants before properly thanking your hospitality. mattheo isn't one for patience, he really isn't, but after long days of not seeing you? yeah, he had to jerk off to the view and properly appreciate what he could only imagine this last week. besides, he might have forgotten to bring condoms... so just be quiet and let him feel you a little, okay, pretty girl?
𓆙 ’ and although forgetting condoms was a pretty dumb thing to do, mattheo can't bring himself to be any more responsible than he already isn't today. just the tip—he promised. coaxing you with a husky tone, murmured right below your ear as he sucked new hickeys to replace the fading ones. all sweet words and desperate pleas, rough hands roaming your body as if to memorize every curve. come on, you want it to, don't you? all wet for him. you know his fingers won't be enough, and yours, even less. just the tip. just a little bit. except that mattheo finds promises a little harder to keep than the average person.
𓆙 ’ moodiness clings to mattheo, making him even more insufferable than theodore whenever the italian is grumpy. when it reaches a point where not even blaise can handle him, reinforcement must be sent — that's how you find yourself in the castle's dungeons, brought by theodore and lorenzo, one on the edge and the other too smug for your liking. just from seeing you, mattheo's bad mood softens into something more vulnerable and less dangerous. he just needs to take the edge off; and like the wonderful girlfriend you are, you arrange it for him. mattheo just has to lay down, enjoy the show, and try not to cum inside. his thumb massages where he's been trying to convince you for a few weeks already, but hey... he can feel that you're slowly warming up to the idea.
𓆙 ’ mattheo is a burst of raw emotions. that, of course, includes the frustration he feels whenever slytherin loses a quidditch match, rage that wasn't totally expressed through redirecting bludgers with his bat. he just needs some relief, you know? to release his emotions, just to take the edge off. actions speak louder than words, whispering huskily as he undresses you with promises of properly returning the favor, manhandling your nape to crook on the edge of his bed, hand around your throat. come on, you can do this—just open your mouth a little more for him, yeah? mattheo won't disappoint later. just let him fuck your throat calm down first.
𓆙 ’ belonging to anyone without a home to return to, mattheo is used to see his friends enter the hogwarts express and leave him behind for christmas. this year, however, mattheo discovers that the emptiness of the castle is rewarding in its own way — allowing some risk with little chance of terrible consequences. the slytherin common room is abandoned by the usual crowd, and for that, mattheo enjoys watching your expression — parted lips echoing his thrusts with wanton moans, furrowed eyebrows in hurry and eyes darting out in fear that someone might see them — while he pounds into you with little care for what's proper. mattheo will definitely miss having the dungeons for himself.
𓆙 ’ mattheo isn't sure if he'd rather stare at the mirror in front of him or watch his thickness disappear between your lips, dirty talking his way deep into your throat. hey, no sore losers; a bet is a bet, slytherin won, and your house was left to cry defeat while mattheo makes you swallow your cocky words down with his precum.
𓆙 ’ there are days when mattheo needs to feel the closest to you. telltale signs would hint the sudden neediness rising within him; languid kisses that rip any train of thought from your mind, shamelessly venturing beneath your clothes with murmurs of needing you so bad. being close isn't enough; mattheo needs to merge with your skin, fuse into a single being, running through your veins like a vital ingredient.
𓆙 ’ with your mind turning to mush, legs shaking and hands unsure where to land on, you weren't quite sure why mattheo got so upset with your insecurities. isn't it normal to be scared to sit on your boyfriend's face? mattheo's mood soured into something dark and almost dangerous, when you suggested that you might be too heavy to handle. in no time, mattheo stripped you off of your lower clothes, ripped panties as he manhandled you to hover his face. grumbles are heard from him, something about showing you that he's no weak ass little boy — pleased to handle whatever weight you sink on his nose, lips and chin. and if you try to run away from his tongue... well, his hands shackle your thighs into place.
𓆙 ’ first of september reunites friends, lovers and nemesis. after a long summer break with short visits and extended days without seeing each other, mattheo ditches the party earlier to bring you to his dorm. it doesn't matter how much you beg for it — tugging his boxers down, trying to tempt mattheo to just fill you up already — but the youngest riddle is unrelenting. he has to prepare you properly, remember? it's been too long since the last time, and mattheo is sure that he'd leave you sore if he doesn't take these extra minutes stretching you out, biting his lip each time you clench around his fingers. merlin, mattheo is so hard it hurts.
𓆙 ’ this is your fault. you know that, right? not that any dignity or shamelessness returns to you after asking, no, almost pleading your experienced best friend to teach you some things. mattheo has fucked around and found out, so who's better than him to practice riding someone? mattheo swears he never got hard so damn fast. his palm meets your ass every single time you falter, mocking you with that boyish grin every time your thighs feel too tired to move once more. didn't you want to learn? come on — make him cum. he dares you. or are you all bark and no bite?
𓆙 ’ silence lingers at this late hour of the night, honoring the promise that mattheo grumbled to a sleepy theodore, grumpy draco and weary lorenzo. sleeping over isn't a big deal whenever the dorm room isn't full — and even though mattheo tugged the green courtains to keep some privacy for him and you, well, blaise threatened to hex both of you if he woke up to moaning and panting. it was a matter of honor now. did they really thought so little of mattheo? that he can't just cuddle his girlfriend? well, fuck them. they were right. mattheo couldn't hump his concealed erection on your backside without making the bed grind against the wall, so... you and mattheo had to improvise. you'd be lying if you said that the sight of mattheo biting his lip, flexing his abdomen and kneading your chest everytime your hand closes around his tip isn't hot. it's almost too fun to torture him.
for you, killa. 𓆙 ’ mattheo isn't afraid to get some blood on his sword. if anything, he's so down to try it — however, he knows that you're not comfortable with it, at least not yet, and mattheo evidently respects your wishes. no fingering, not even humping, to his sadness. well, riddle knows to not upset you when you're cramping and bleeding... but come on, today has been especially hard—can't you, literally, lend him a hand? mattheo promises to take care of your sore nipples in return.
── 𝓲. 𓏲 bonus : a few mattheo riddle edits because he's too hot to handle. · ⭑ ★
* All fics are ones I have read in their entirety. This list does not include ANY snarry or snarry elements to the stories. This list does not include WIP fics that I am following, solely completed stories (but may include incomplete series that can be read as-is). I might make another post for WIP fics because they deserve love too!! This is also just a few ones I really enjoyed and not a comprehensive list of all I have read, so I might make a part 2?? *
A Patchwork Family by aspionage
O Mine Enemy by Kirby Lane
Harry Potter and the Seven Years of Chaos series by JessalynMichelle and Severitus812
The Heir to the House of Prince by elph13 (Privated Fic, look up by title and author)
Another Mind Game by May_May_o_o
To Trust by clairedeloon
Some Bonds Won’t Be Broken by Acewriter2022
Practicing Liars by Lomonaaeron
Bruised Words by starknjarvis
The Cloak by Moonflowermorningglory
Leo Inter Serpentes series by Aeternum (Privated Full Series Rewrite, look up by title and author)
And my personal favorite of all time, That Awful Boy by paracosim!!
series status: under construction – here's the link to the remastered series!!!
summary: it was only meant to be a purely transactional relationship. he would help her strengthen her abilities in return for her getting his friends out of his father's nasty path. he didn't mean to fall for her, but loving her was the easiest thing in his dark world.
“serendipity is the phenomenon of discovering something interesting or valuable by chance”
pairings: mattheo riddle x fem!ravenclaw reader; platonic!slytherins x fem!reader; platonic!golden trio x fem!reader
no use of Y/N, but your general nickname is Meadow. All characters are aged up to be over 18. and Bellatrix isn't Mattheo's mother in this fic (just fyi)
general warning(s): 18+ content, angst, fluff, some canon compliance, some canon divergence, typical wizarding world violence, war, torture, drugging, hospitals, familial problems, mean!harry, mean!ron....
** indicates smut warning
~∞~ chapter one
chapter summary: on the trainride to your sixth year, your friends give you a proposition that you can't refuse.
~∞~ chapter two
chapter summary: it's your first day back as a sixth year student. Classes are more intense and your first lesson with Mattheo ensues.
~∞~ chapter three
chapter summary: the first Hogsmeade trip of the year has a rather unpleasant ending.
~∞~ chapter four
chapter summary: after you end up confined to the Hospital Wing, you're surprised when Professor Dumbledore pays you a visit.
~∞~ chapter five
chapter summary: Mattheo has been avoiding you. You find and confront him after a frustrating week.
~∞~ chapter six **
chapter summary: the growing tension between you and Mattheo snaps. He reveals something about yourself that you has scarcely any prior knowledge of.
~∞~ chapter seven
chapter summary: joyful dinner parties and a switch in point of view. Two juxtaposing starts to the christmas holidays.
~∞~ chapter eight **
chapter summary: you're given plenty of revelations: all equally as daunting as the other.
~∞~ chapter nine
chapter summary: Ginny ambushes you in the library and Ron's birthday is off to a delirious start.
~∞~ chapter ten
chapter summary: in the aftermath of Ron's poisoning, Harry learns a thing or two about where your loyalties lie when he overhears your private conversation with the headmaster.
~∞~ chapter eleven
chapter summary: intent on avoiding him, you underestimate just how desperate Mattheo is to be around you.
~∞~ chapter twelve
chapter summary: new friendships are formed and you finally learn to control your abilities. Mattheo comes to a life altering realisation.
~∞~ chapter thirteen **
chapter summary: idk how to summarise this but i will say it's pure smut...enjoy
~∞~ chapter fourteen
chapter summary: friendships are rekindled and you save Draco from certain death in Moaning Myrtle's bathroom, igniting your powers in the process.
~∞~ chapter fifteen
chapter summary: now fully recovered, Draco has a task to complete. The fate of the Wizarding World hangs in the precipice of his actions.
~∞~ chapter sixteen
chapter summary: after a startling and gutting discovery. secrets are revealed and alliances are questioned as Voldemort's tyranny begins to fester into the beginnings of another war.
*invisible string fits into the plot here!!*
~∞~ chapter seventeen
chapter summary: Dumbledore's funeral reveals new allies as you navigate a world without its protector.
~∞~ chapter eighteen
chapter summary: with his new role as a secret spy of the Order, Mattheo begins to grapple with the consequences of the horrors that occur at his father's hand.
~∞~ chapter nineteen
chapter summary: there's a spy in The Order and you make a decision that Mattheo is vocally against in every way.
~∞~ chapter twenty
chapter summary:
series oneshots/headcannons:
~∞~ tulips & starlight – valentines day drabble
~∞~ serendipity hcs (mattheo) – a glimpse at his life pre sixth year
~∞~ invisible string – bonus scene from chapter 16 **
~∞~ snippets of navigating fifth year with fred weasley
Sneak peek: Reader is recently off of a long-term undercover operation (similar to Emily’s) that left her in a bad way. Director Cruz reaches out, assigning her to the BAU. After speaking to her therapist and expressing her concerns, they come up with a solution of how to inform her new boss of some of the horrors she endured on her mission. Hotch keeps a close eye on her, being careful not to trigger her…until one day, he accidentally does in the worst way. ITALLICS ARE FLASHBACKS! BOLD ARE THERAPY SESSIONS.
Aaron Hotchner x (Fem) BAU! Reader
Angst/Fluff
Word count: 5605
REQUESTS ARE OPEN - not edited - please be kind. Requests are open and feedback is welcome if it's constructive!
Warnings: My blog is 18+, minors DNI,YOU ARE RESPONSIBLE FOR YOUR OWN MEDIA CONSUMPTION. age gap (reader is in their 20’s and Hotch is in his 40’s), explicit language, mention of canon typical violence, mention of therapy, reader attends regular therapy sessions, mention of a toxic previous “relationship”, mention of a previous dom/sub dynamic, murder, talk of trafficking, forced consent (reader is working the undercover op) mention of previous abuse and manipulation, some use of y/n, Hotch accidentally triggering the reader, let me know if I missed anything!
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“Y/n it has been three months since you returned from your undercover op, it’s time. The BAU needs an additional agent, and you’d make a great addition. It’s really not up for discussion.” Director Cruz ended with finality.
“I really don’t think I am ready. Director Cruz, I know it has been three months, and you guys have been so gracious with the paid leave, but I’m still working through everything I went through when I was under.” You explained.
“Your therapist and the FBI issued psych eval have both cleared you to return y/n. You’re joining the BAU. You’ll begin next Monday.” Cruz decided.
“Okay.”
With that you stood and exited his office. It’s not that you didn’t want to work for the BAU, in fact, under normal circumstances you’d have been begging for this placement. But after everything you endured while undercover, you weren’t sure you could handle being on a team, especially not one run by Aaron Hotchner.
--
“You were recommended to me by Sheri, did she tell you anything about me?” He questioned.
“She mentioned you were looking for someone who knew how to follow rules.” You answered.
You had been assigned to an undercover operation in which a very powerful man would finally be brought to justice. Emilio Alvatorre, one of FBI’s most wanted. This man did unspeakable things and lucky for you, he was in the market for a new submissive. Normally the FBI wouldn’t jump at putting an agent in this kind of situation, however, in this case Emilio was known to keep his subs knelt at his side in his office. That would mean that you would be privilege to information that could take him down.
“So, are you good at following rules?” Emilio said in a voice meant to be sexy, but it was truly repulsive.
Leaning in to whisper in his ear, “The best.”
--
“I’m worried that Agent Hotchner is going to give me a directive and that I will follow it whether I agree with it or not. I am terrified that I have completely lost myself, and that I will just blindly follow.” You explained.
“Y/n we’ve talked about this, you are strong, you are capable of making decisions and speaking up for yourself.”
“Yeah but being at the BAU with Agent Hotchner, he’s a very commanding and dominant man, what if I fall right back into…” You trailed off.
“He is commanding and dominant, but he isn’t Emilio. I am going to give you some homework, and then I’d like to see you again on Thursday so we can go over it before you join the BAU Monday.”
“You’re right. What’s the homework?” You asked.
“I want you to first come up with a list of coping strategies for when you begin to feel anxious or overwhelmed on the job. Then I want you to write a letter to read to Agent Hotchner giving him some insight as to what you have been through.”
“Absolutely not! Sylvia I can’t do that!”
“Y/n I am not asking you to give him all the details, just a little bit that might help him to know you.”
“Fine.”
--
You had a hard time figuring out what to put in the letter to Agent Hotchner, debating what was too much versus what was too little to say. How much did he need to know, how much were you comfortable sharing…it was all becoming a bit much.
Ultimately, you’d written something up along with a perfect list of coping strategies that you knew would satisfy your therapist.
After meeting with her on Thursday and going over what you came up with, and allowing her to help you tweak a few things, your body filled with dread, anxiously awaiting Monday morning when you’d have to go into the BAU.
--
Director Cruz escorted you to the floor that houses the BAU, bringing you into Agent Hotchner’s office for introductions. You felt like you had just walked out on a stage completely naked with the way all the other agents were looking at you.
“Hotchner, this is Agent y/n. I sent over her file last week. She is going to start with the BAU today.” Director Cruz announced.
“Yes, I saw your email. It is nice to finally meet you.” Agent Hotchner greeted.
“Y/n would you excuse us for just a moment, I’d like to speak to Hotch here.”
Without another word you followed the director’s order. You stepped out of the office and stood patiently waiting for their conversation to end.
--
“She’s anxious.” Spencer mumbled.
“Wouldn’t you be?” Emily replied.
“No, look at her, she’s digging her nails into her palms, a light sweat has broken out on her neck, her heartrate has increased slightly, and she hasn’t looked up at us once. She’s probably suffering from severe anxiety.” Spencer rambled.
“Don’t profile the newbie Spence.” Emily scolded, patting his shoulder.
--
“Alright, y/n go on in and Hotch will fill you in on what his expectations for you are.” Director Cruz headed off.
With a light knock, you awaited Agent Hotchner’s approval before entering his office once again. Mentally chastising yourself for your submissive actions.
“Agent y/n, please, have a seat.” Hotch gestured.
You sat in one of the chairs across from him.
“It says here in your file that you’re recently returning from a twelve-month assignment. I noticed the assignment isn’t labeled as classified, but quite a bit of it was redacted. Can you speak on that at all?” Hotch inquired.
“Agent Hotchner, if it is okay with you, I have somethings I’d like to discuss. Some of which is relevant of that case, but it is primarily regarding the effects that case had on me.”
“Go ahead.” Hotch nodded.
“The undercover op I was working put me in a position in which I was forced and manipulated to blindly following directions from someone. I had to do this for twelve months, and since then, I have had a pretty hard time finding my voice again. Certain things can be triggering for me, so I wrote up some things for you, with the help of my therapist. There are coping strategies that I may need to utilize and there are somethings there for you, to navigate situations that may come up.” You were worried that this was all going to lead to Hotch doubting your ability to do this job. “I also want to make it known that I told the Director that I wasn’t ready to return to work.”
“Thank you for sharing this, I think it’ll help me to make your transition back to work smooth. As for you being ready, I think you sharing that information shows a lot about your strength and I think you are more than ready to be here.”
--
“Kneel.” Emilio ordered with a snap of his fingers.
You slowly dropped to your knees, sitting back on your heels and resting your palms on the tops of your thighs, your gaze focused on the frayed rug that covered the hardwood floor in front of you.
“Bring him in.” Emilio spoke into the intercom that connects him to his security.
The guards drag in a man who appears to be near death, clearly beaten. Emilio rests a hand on your head, gently petting your hair before speaking in a tone you don’t recognize.
“I heard you’ve been snooping around. Talking to Jeremy and his guys.” Emilio spat.
“I haven’t sir I swear!” The man was begging for his life.
“I don’t like snakes.” Emilio raised his gun and shot the man point blank.
You couldn’t help but flinch at the sound. A strong hand was quick to grip your chin.
“Flinching is a sign of weakness. I can’t have a pet that is weak.” His grip tightened “Are you weak?”
“No sir.” You reassured.
“Good.”
--
Working with the BAU had been going well, Hotch had truly been incredible. He’d encouraged you to share your thoughts and theories while on cases. He also reminded you to use your coping strategies when the cases became particularly overwhelming.
Like today for example. The team was working on a case that was taking a toll on you, mentally and emotionally. Women were being kidnapped then brutally tortured and left for dead in the street. It was becoming increasingly difficult to detach yourself from what these women must’ve been feeling.
Hotch was quick to notice the change in your demeanor and he made it a point to assign you with Spencer at the precinct. You were tightening up the victimology while Spencer worked on the geographical profile. You had come to the conclusion that the unsub was targeting victims primarily on their looks, they had all been of similar height, had same color hair and eyes. Worse than that…they all kind of looked like you. The sound of Derek and Emily approaching made your stomach sink. Spencer had clearly picked up on your anxiety since you’d been with the BAU, but the others, not so much.
“Hey guys, what did you find out?” Emily inquired.
“Well, I’ve narrowed down the geographical profile. This area right here…” Spencer gesture to the map covering the screen “this is his comfort zone, all the abductions and dumpsites fall within this five-block radius.”
“What about you new girl?” Derek nudged you gently.
“I looked into all the victims, and they all were approximately the same height and build, same color hair and eyes. I spoke to Penelope; she confirmed that all of the women frequented the same coffee shop.” You explained.
Hotch, Rossi, and JJ all entered just in time to hear Derek confirm your thoughts…which led to a suggestion that made your heart sink.
“Y/n these girls all kind of look like you...” Derek walks over to where their pictures are pinned up to the board. “Maybe we should send you to the coffee shop undercover. It could help us find this guy.”
You heart was pounding, causing a loud whooshing sound to drown out your hearing. You closed your fists and dug your nails into your palms. You could feel the sweat breaking out along your forehead.
In and out…deep breaths. You reminded yourself of the coping strategies you’d come up with for instances like this. One, two, three, four, five, six, seven…
“Absolutely not!” Hotch commanded, shaking you from your thoughts while simultaneously distracting the others from your very obvious panic attack.
“Hotch man come on! She fits the victimology perfectly; it could end this case if she could catch his attention.” Derek argued.
“It’s not up for discussion. I will not send a new agent undercover, not until she is more comfortable on this team. Undercover ops like that require a significant level of trust, one that she may not have yet.” Hotch shut Derek down.
“We know he must go to this coffee shop; JJ and I could go in and watch. Keep an eye out for a man acting suspicious.” Emily suggested.
“Good, first thing tomorrow.” Hotch said before dismissing the team for the evening.
--
“Sir, is it safe to be talking about this…with her here?”
“Are you questioning me?” Emilio sneered. “My pet is well behaved. I wouldn’t have her here if I thought otherwise. Who are you to question my decisions?” His voice raised.
“I’m sorry sir! I didn’t mean to insinuate anything. I just wasn’t sure.”
“Don’t let it happen again. Now I’ll ask again. What is the update on the shipment?” Emilio demanded.
“There are going to be three crates in the shipping container. The boat is set to anchor Friday at midnight.”
“And everything we were promised will be there?” Emilio asked.
“Well, not the girls. This shipment is just the weapons.”
“Excuse me?” Emilio’s expression turned sinister.
You were knelt by his desk like always. This conversation had been one you were banking on; it was hopefully going to allow your team to pick him and his associates up. Only, this conversation had taken a turn that you weren’t expecting. His shipments thus far had only contained drugs and weapons, so why was he asking about girls?
“I was assured that everything would be included. How fucking hard is it to follow orders?” Emilio shouted, his fist slamming onto his desk.
You sat still, silently taking in the situation. That night you’d check in with your team and fill them in on the new information. You just needed to get the logistics of when the second shipment would arrive, and honestly, you were scared Emilio would kill this guy before you got that information.
“I know boss. They told me that the girls would be here soon. There was an issue getting paperwork for some of them. But it should all be worked out now.”
“I need a date and time. By the end of the day. Otherwise, you’re done.” Emilio hissed. He then brushed his hand over your head. “C’mon pet, let’s go to bed. And you, I’ll be expecting your call.”
Going to bed with Emilio had initially been the worst part of this assignment. Thankfully he’d had you STD tested which meant you were both clean, and he’d ensured you received birth control shots. The sex had surprised you; you had expected it to be rough and painful but, it had been soft and gentle. Emilio whispered sweet nothings to you, and he held you close, and he’d carefully bathe you afterwards.
It may be sick and twisted…but it didn’t bother you, having sex with him.
--
A light knock at your door had startled you. You made your way over to check the peephole, and there he was waiting patiently.
“Hotch, is everything okay?”
“I should be asking you that. Morgan was out of line suggesting we send you in.”
“It’s okay, really. He doesn’t know any better.”
Hotch gave you a sympathetic look. You could tell he was doing everything in his power not to profile you. You appreciated his effort, and it truly was endearing. Around Hotch, you’d started to feel more comfortable, and his consistent care of you and your mental health had been the thing that drew you in. He cared so much, and it meant the world to you.
“You seemed nervous earlier, does that have to do with the undercover assignment you worked?”
“Yes.” You sighed.
In the last two months of being with the BAU, you and Hotch had been teetering this fine line of coworkers and more. It wasn’t necessarily leaning toward something romantic, at least that’s what you were both trying to convince yourselves of but, it had definitely become a friendship. Hotch had allowed you a safe space in which you were starting to feel like yourself again. He had never pushed you for information about your past and he continuously checked in with you to make sure you were comfortable and okay. More recently though, as things like what happened today occurred, you have felt like maybe you should tell Hotch a little more about what you endured.
“You know, if you ever want to talk about it, I am here for you. I don’t want you to feel pressured or like you have to tell me anything! But if you should choose, I’d listen.” Hotch admitted.
“I was sent in undercover to investigate Emilio Alvatorre…” You began.
“Emilio Alvatorre? He was one of FBI’s most wanted! Lucrative arms dealer, importing drugs…I heard he was ultimately brought down for sex trafficking.” Hotch was stunned.
“Yeah, that was me. Emilio took part in a certain lifestyle; he is a dominant and he was seeking a new submissive…and I guess I fit the bill. He essentially owned me, and he referred to me as his pet. It was my job to follow his orders blindly, and I did.”
“What was it like?” Hotch questioned.
“Well…
--
“Good morning pet.” Emilio purred pressing a kiss right below your ear.
“Mmm, good morning sir. Can I make you breakfast?” You offered.
“No darling, the cook will prepare our meal. I think it is sweet you still ask.” His kisses travelled down your neck.
“Do you have meetings today?” You inquired.
“Today is all about you pet. We are going to get you some new clothes, shoes, and maybe a new necklace. I want to spoil you today! We are celebrating!” Emilio gushed.
It was the moments like this that fucked with your mind the most. Emilio could be so kind and gentle, he wanted to take care of you and in the time you’d been with him, it had been increasingly easier to let him. But then there were moments when he turned dark…the other side of him came to light and you couldn’t help but question your mind.
“Boss…” Emilio’s associate barged into the office, only to find you bent over his desk while he pounded into you from behind.
“Not now!” Emilio growled.
“But boss!” This guy really couldn’t take the hint.
Emilio wasn’t one who took well to being interrupted, in any aspect of his life. So, when this associate decided what he had to say was more important than Emilio’s time…you knew it would be bad.
Emilio’s hips never faltered, not upon the initial interruption and certainly not when he leaned to the side, grabbed his gun, and shot the man standing in the doorway. You pinched your eyes shut, knowing better than to react to the horrific sight before you. Emilio continued thrusting, his grunts becoming more erratic, and when he finally finished, he leaned down and pressed a kiss to the back of your neck.
“Go run a hot bath. Get in and wait for me. I need to go see about this issue and get this cleaned up.” Emilio stated as he assisted you in standing upright.
“Yes sir.”
--
“It was really hard for me to deal with the two sides of him. I became confused and my mind was so foggy as to whether or not he was truly awful. And I know that so much of that is the manipulation of being his submissive, but I was with him for a year, it was easy to forget what things had been like before Emilio.” You trailed off.
“I can’t even imagine all the things you must’ve seen and gone through in that time. I can understand why you weren’t sure about joining the BAU initially…but I am really glad you did.” Hotch expressed, placing his hand atop your own.
“I’m glad I did too.”
--
The next morning Emily and JJ were sent into the coffee shop that all the victims frequented, and they couldn’t track the unsub. Either he was far too subtle, or he hadn’t shown up. The team was currently in the precinct trying to figure out the next steps, when Derek suggested it again.
“I still think y/n should go undercover, it’s our best bet in finding this guy. What do you say new girl?”
You were taken aback; your mind was screaming at you to decline. You weren’t ready for this, going undercover, blindly following team orders. It’s for the greater good though, isn’t it?
“I could do that.”
“Morgan, I already said it’s not happening. She isn’t ready.” Hotch commanded.
“Hotch, we have all had to go undercover. There is no reason that she can’t go into the coffee shop and order a freaking latte. We will all be there to keep her safe, just like any other case!” Morgan was practically shouting.
“It’s okay. I can do it.”
“Y/n you don’t have to do this. Not if you aren’t comfortable.” Hotch was obviously trying to profile you based on his expression.
“I’m okay. I’ll do it.”
--
You were ordering a coffee, meanwhile Spencer was sitting in the back of the café reading a book and Rossi was in line, about three patrons behind you. Hotch insisted on sitting at a table just outside the entrance to keep a close eye on everyone coming and going. JJ, Derek, and Emily were all in the surveillance van parked across the street, waiting for the signal.
After you received your coffee, you found a seat at an empty table. It wasn’t long before a man approached you. He was tall and clearly strong; he had a very sinister aura that gave you the chills.
“Mind if I sit here?” He asked.
“Oh, sure.” You agreed.
The man sat, but only after he moved the chair closer to you. He was talking to you, but you were having a hard time listening. You were silently begging the guys to come to help and get him away from you.
“You know, you’re really pretty. Why don’t we get out of here? We could go get lunch.” The man suggested.
“Oh, I’m not sure I should.”
“C’mon, be a good girl and get up.” His tone became more aggressive.
You stood up without a second thought, much to the unsub’s delight. He grabbed your arm in a bruising grip and began leading you out of the café.
“They’re on the move. Why is she going with him? This wasn’t the plan.” Derek exclaimed.
Hotch’s demeanor instantly changed. After you opened up to him about your previous assignment, he understood now why you had seemingly always followed orders willingly, only your willingness had been conditioned. Instilled in you through the manipulation of a very dangerous man.
“I got it.” Hotch
Hotch stood up and turned abruptly, purposefully plowing into you and the unsub. He made a move that shifted you away from the unsub and placed himself between you.
“Oh, I am so sorry!” Hotch feigned innocence.
“Are you fucking kidding me? Watch where you’re going asshole. Let’s get out of here.” The unsub reached for your arm once more.
“She’s not going anywhere with you.”
“You want to bet?” he said, pulling a gun from his waistband and pointing it directly at your head.
You didn’t flinch, in fact you didn’t move a muscle. All the while everyone else sprung into action. Hotch tried to talk him down while the rest of the team surrounded him on all sides. You had stood there completely disassociated while this man threatened your life and ultimately met his untimely end via Emily’s weapon.
--
“Y/n would you please come to my office?” Hotch requested.
You silently followed Hotch to his office. You were wringing your hands, hoping that he wouldn’t reprimand you for your behavior today. You couldn’t handle disappointing people.
“You didn’t even flinch. You had a gun pointed at you and you didn’t even blink. You also willingly left the café with him, which was not a part of the plan we had discussed.” Hotch stated, his tone calm.
“I’m sorry Hotch. He told me to get up and I just…I wasn’t sure what to do. I know we needed to catch the guy.”
“I don’t want you getting hurt.” Hotch admitted. “I don’t know what I would do if you got hurt. I also don’t want you to agree to do things simply because someone tells you to. Like agreeing to go undercover.”
“I don’t know how to do that. Disagree I mean. I’m not sure I have that in me anymore.” You did everything in your power to keep the tears at bay. “I don’t want to disappoint you.”
“Y/n I’m not disappointed. I do think that it is very important you continue to work with your therapist.”
“I will.”
--
“…and I just stood there.”
“Y/n you we conditioned for over a year to sit still when any sort of firearm was shot, you watched people die right in front of you. You were covered in their blood and forced to remain kneeling until instructed otherwise. I can’t say I am entirely surprised that you didn’t react to having a weapon pointed at you. What does surprise me though was that you agreed to going undercover.” Sylvia finished.
“I knew it was our best option to finding this unsub. I fit the victimology, and I was able to fish him out. It was a no-brainer.” You shrugged.
“Now that sound like someone making a rational decision.” Sylvia smirked.
“Yeah well, after the case Hotch called me out and I felt like a child being scolded. I could barely hold back tears.”
“Why do you think that is?” She pressed.
“I don’t know. I guess, I’m afraid of not being good enough and worse, disappointing him.”
“The only person you should be worried about disappointing is yourself. Y/n you have made huge strides in the last five months and as long as you stay true to yourself, you will continue to do so.”
--
The months went on, as did the cases and your therapy sessions. Oddly enough, you had started to feel more like yourself. Things with the BAU have started to become easy, you were opening up little by little to the others and you were getting better at making your own decisions.
Hotch had also noticed the change. It had warmed his heart to see you really coming into your own, to really get to know the real you. Which had only strengthened his feelings toward you, causing him to work extra hard to shove them down. Rossi knew simply from the look Hotch gave you, but that’s a story for another time.
The team had been working back-to-back cases all over the country for the last few weeks. It had been exhausting and the team were getting to a point where everyone was snippy. Lack of sleep had led to a horrible lack of patience, and the local officers weren’t making matters any better.
“What if we were wrong, I think the unsub is a woman. I mean look at the attention to detail in the clean up and at how the bodies were presented.” You offered.
“Y/n could be right; a woman would take the time to be precise and it would explain the…”
Before Spencer could finish his thought, Officer Riley decided to provide his own theories.
“There is no way it is a woman. They don’t have the courage to take care of people like this. That’s why the statistic proves that the unsub is a man.”
“With all due respect, women are just as capable of murder as men, and when they do it they are often far more meticulous which is why that fits better here.” You explained.
“Well, with all due respect ma’am, I’ve been doing this job longer than you could walk.”
“Excuse me?” You couldn’t bother hiding your surprise.
“All I’m saying sweetheart, is that perhaps you’d be better off getting us some coffee.” Officer Riley sneered.
“Last time I checked, I’m the one working for the FBI and not some Podunk little police station in the middle of nowhere, Idaho. So how about you back off and let us finish our…”
“Y/N TAKE A SEAT.” Hotch demanded.
Despite your shock at Hotch’s tone toward you, you took a seat without hesitation.
“Officer Riley, please let my agents do their work. We have much more important things to be doing than arguing about the duties of a woman.” Hotch chided.
“Well, you clearly agree with me given the fact that you gave her an order. If you’d been on her side you’d have probably told me off.” Riley turned to you, “and you clearly do know how to listen to a man in charge. Perhaps I misjudged you.”
With that, Riley made his leave with a low chuckle, and you sat there considering what had just happened. Hotch had commanded you to sit down knowing full well you’d comply, that way he could deal with Riley without you continuing to tell him off. He used what he knew about you against you, despite all the conversations you’ve had with him. Despite him knowing full well your fear of blindly following orders.
“I can’t believe you.” You stood up and walked out, heading straight for the precinct exit.
“Y/n wait!” Hotch followed you.
As you landed on the sidewalk just upon the exit, Hotch’s had made its way around your upper left arm in a desperate attempt to slow you down and hear him out. Only you were in no mood to listen to him or anyone else right now. All you felt was the sense of betrayal blooming in your chest.
As he swung you back around to face him, you did something that shocked even you. You right arm followed around, landing a harsh slap to Hotch’s cheek. Your breathing was ragged, a look of surprise painting your features…a look of guilt flooding Hotch’s.
“I’m sorry, I didn’t…” You paused.
“No, Y/n I am so sorry I shouldn’t have-” Hotch pleaded.
“I need to go. I can’t do this. I’m sorry.” With that you left, calling a taxi, and heading back to the hotel.
--
“YOU STUPID BITCH! HOW COULD YOU?” Emilio Screamed, lunging toward you.
“Emilio I didn’t, I just…I”
Emilio wrapped his hand around your throat, harshly choking you as SWAT swarmed the shipyard. They quickly made their way to you, removing Emilio from his position over you. As they pulled him away you couldn’t help but watch him.
“Kneel Pet!” Emilio commanded.
You couldn't help but follow his order. Immediately dropping to your knees, resting your hands atop your thighs and letting your gaze fall to the ground.
“I will always own you! You will always be my pet, perfectly broken in!” Emilio hollered as they put him in the back of a vehicle.
“Y/n you’re okay, lets get you up and checked out.” Your unit commander suggested.
Only you didn’t move. You couldn’t get up, not without his permission.
That night, the paramedics had to sedate you to get you into an ambulance. And after that you were placed in a psychiatric facility for 30 days to help undo the brainwashing you’d endured.
--
“Sylvia, I slapped him. My boss, I slapped him right in the face!”
“Y/n you reacted to a situation and based on what you just explained to me, it seems like he knew he was in the wrong. You shouldn’t be blaming yourself and honestly, you should talk to him.”
“I wouldn’t even know where to begin.”
“Maybe tell him how you feel.” Sylvia suggested.
--
You spent the afternoon practicing what to say to Hotch, Spencer had been texting you updates of that case as it progressed. He’d let you know that they caught the unsub and were headed back to the hotel. So, as you opened your door to make your way to his room, you came face-to-face with the man himself.
“Hotch.” You gasped.
“Y/n can we talk?”
You moved aside to allow him access to your room. You couldn’t help but feel nervous about the conversation that was to come.
“Hotch, I am so sorry for slapping you! I was just-”
“You shouldn’t be the one apologizing. Y/n I am so sorry, I heard you going off on Riley and I knew that if you kept talking he’d report you and I’d be forced to suspend you, only I hadn’t considered the effect that me demanding you take a seat would have on you. I need you to know it was not my intention to take advantage of you like that and even worse, I shouldn’t have put my hand on you the way I did. You had every right to slap me.” Hotch explained.
“You were trying to protect me?”
“Riley had made threats of reporting our staff for going against orders of the precinct. I knew that he’d report you for your behavior, despite him clearly being in the wrong. I didn’t want to suspend you.”
“I didn’t realize. But Hotch telling me to take a seat, in the tone you did, it felt like I was right back there. Following orders without thinking. With you, I can’t explain it, I would do anything you asked me to and that terrifies me. My feelings for you only add to that need to do anything you say, to do anything to please you. I can’t help it.”
“You have feelings for me?”
“Aaron! Is that all you took from what I just said?”
“Please say that again.” He whispered.
“Aaron.”
He let his eyes close and took a deep breath. You could tell he was holding back and though part of you was begging you to walk away, the other was telling you to jump in. You thought about what Sylvia would say, and you couldn’t help but release a breathy laugh, knowing full well that she would tell you that only you can make the right decision, and it is okay to trust yourself.
“Aaron, I am terrified…and it is going to take me some time to fully trust myself again, but I really like you and if you’re up for it, I’d like to give this a shot. Unless you don’t feel the same way, then please ignore what I just said an-”
Aaron pulled you in and pressed his lips to yours in a searing kiss. One that told you everything you needed to know.
“I’m scared too, but I want to try this Y/n. I know that you’re still working to find yourself, I am willing to wait if that is what you need, but I am also willing to be by your side every step of the way.”
Thanks to everyone who's participated!! Also please let me know if I've missed anyone 🩷
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THE LIBRARY by @moons-and-mobility-aids (remus lupin x f!reader)
BROTHERS BSF/ROOMMATE!MATTHEO by @aur0ral1ghts (mattheo riddle x f!reader)
ETHICALLY by @obsessedwithceleste (mattheo riddle x theodore nott)
BEST OF BOTH WORLDS by @riddlesrizzler (mattheo riddle x f!reader)
ANGEL ON THE COURT by @ur-local-wizard (mattheo riddle x reader)
SPEED DATING by @pizzaapeteer (mattheo riddle x f!reader)
BLOWING OFF STEAM by @amongemeraldclouds (mattheo riddle x f!reader)
BURN WITH ME by @foolexby (james potter x f!reader)
WHO'S YOUR FRIEND by @g1rld1ary (james potter x f!reader
WINNING GAMES (james potter x f!reader) | DINNER AND DESSERT* (mattheo riddle x f!reader) | DEDICATED TO MY LOVE (sirius black x f!reader) | THE OTHER BROTHER (fred weasley x f!reader) ON BREAK TREATS* (theodore nott x f!reader) | COLD CUDDLES (james potter x f!reader) | SWEET TASTES* (enzo berkshire xf!reader) by @etclouie
𝘞𝘦𝘦𝘬 𝘛𝘸𝘰 ♡ 𝘔𝘢𝘺 9 - 16
MEETING AT MOONY'S by @etclouie (remus lupin x f!reader)
LA LLORONA by @foolexby (regulus black x mexican f!reader)
Title: Sharp Tongues, Soft Hearts (Severus Snape x Female!Reader)
Summary: You were chaos wrapped in lip gloss. He was the quiet boy in the corner until you pulled him into your glittery world of mayhem. Years after Hogwarts, fate reunites you and Severus Snape at the castle—but time hasn’t dulled the tension between you. Not even close. Now both professors, old memories clash with new emotions in a story full of sharp banter, aching glances, unsent letters, and the slow unraveling of everything you never said.
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