Soulform

Who am I kidding, I'm otherkin as hell. Just the journal of a raven whose wings can only ever be astral. It's a long story. But my soul has ALWAYS astral projected with wings... and I'm happiest when my soul is Projected into the air. It's the closest I'll ever come to really FLYING. Human body: agender, demi-gray everything, 33, shadow witch, neurodivergent, "gothesque". Kintypes from Earth, SU, Yugioh, TLT, HH, and myriad synpathy sources. Main blog: beyondthetemples Personal: beyondthetemples-ooc Mystic blog: rwt-mystic-corner

[blackwinged-soul]

Hello! I've recently learned that mobile app users can't access custom info pages, so I decided to pin the basics.

First of all, I'm Zira! Please use nonbinary pronouns, my favorite set is xe/xir but I'm also fond of xe/xem and ey/em. They/them is fine if you must. (Just don't use it/its, please.)

Secondly: This blog is a sideblog to @beyondthetemples. (It isn't listed in that blog's pinned post because I'm in the 'kin closet with most of my roleplaying buddies.) But that's me!

As for the purpose of this blog: It's to journal experiences I don't want the 800+ followers on my personal blog to see, and connect with others in the otherkin community.

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Main kin experiences:

* Therian: raven (species uncertain) * Fictionkin: - Blue Diamond (Steven Universe) - Harrowhark Nonagesimus (The Locked Tomb) - Lilith Clawthorne (The Owl House) - Ryou Bakura (Yu-Gi-Oh! season 0, manga) - Sera (Hazbin Hotel)

Hearthome: Azarath

Synpaths: Raven (Teen Titans DCAMU, 80's comics, '03 cartoon), Malachite (Steven Universe-- it's complicated)

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I don't use a DNI, but I don't mind using the block button when it's warranted.

Custom links with more detailed information below the cut!

Nexus Roll-Call [x]

In-depth list of my kintypes, "Nexus" experiences (connections I have to other beings that aren't quite on the kin axis), and past lives that aren't kintypes.

About the Blog [x]

Information on who I'd like to interact with, as well as a brief list of tags this blog uses (currently under construction).

Abbreviations [x]

Mostly for my personal reference, this page lists my kinfeels tags on my main personal blog (@beyondthetemples-ooc).

[blackwinged-soul]

I woke up from a long stream of emotionally difficult nightmares this morning, and the first thing I did was curl in, and I felt my wings wrap around myself.

That's one of those postures the wings rarely take, so I thought it was worth recording.

(Also, the wings are so permanently present, I can feel them responding to my emotional state even before I even open my eyes.)

[collared-pacific]

R o g u e C a n y o n P a c k

EST; 7/07/26

Your tired paws leave deep imprints in the snow as you trudge through the forest, your collar weighing heavy on your neck...

In the near distance, you hear howling. You approach cautiously...

A pack of canines suddenly emerges from the trees; they wear the same type of collar secured around their necks.

They guide you towards their territory, welcoming you...

⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀Created by @collared-pacific, @wulfbones and @otherbodied, this server hopes to create a safe space for radiocollared canines to share their experiences and be with likeminded beings.

⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀This pack has no tolerance for discourse or discrimination and is open to all. Whether you are just curious about radiocollars or have been collared for years, this pack will welcome you.

⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀We have a short verification process to deter bad actors and active leaders to ensure everybeing's safety. We look forward to welcoming you to our pack.

Be sure to check the other blogs mentioned in this post, 1813M could not have made this server without them, nor would he have known that other radiocollared canines even existed in the first place.

When/if they post about the server, check those posts out as well. A Tumblr community was also made by 1227M, so those without Discord can be part of the pack as well.

[hellaversx]

Do any other hazbin hotel fictives / fictionkin enjoy singing?

[blackwinged-soul]

Absolutely, yes! I get voice shifts that are especially strong in my singing voice, so it's fascinating hearing my voice become so much richer in the lower alto range as Sera, when I'm usually a mezzo soprano who struggles to even hit those notes, let alone sound GOOD there.

I'm so glad our source has such good songs to sing along to.

[zamvza]

Actually insane to me that you can genuinely face persecution based on what you did in your source

Both with kins and introjects

Obviously not on as high a level you’re not gonna get sent to jail but

- being banned from servers simply because of who you kin, or being told “it’s okay to kin them but you can’t talk about it you’re not allowed to proxy you can’t use your name and you have to acknowledge that you are a horrible person”

- in systems, being targeted by other alters due to source memories (if you share a source) or having other alters be scared of you

- being forced into source separation because your source did horrible things

Feel free to add more in notes as long as it’s related

Fucking stupid

[blackwinged-soul]

I think I might've figured out why my posts meant for this blog kept going to my personal, despite selecting this blog from the drop-down.

The URL I was posting from!

The link I usually follow when I open a new tab on tumblr isn't just to the dashboard, or the default "new text post" editor.

Probably from when I was queueing my Hazbin commentary on my personal and queued like 50 posts in one day, the "most used" tumblr link on Firefox's New Tab page actually links specifically to the "new text post on beyondthetemples-ooc" page. So the URL reads as this:

You see the tumblr domain, you see the new/text specification, but THEN you see the "context" addendums that not only sends it to my personal blog, but the queue too. Except of course when I post, I change it from "Add to Queue" to "Post Now". That seems to work.

But apparently the URL overrides the drop-down menu on the actual page?

That's my theory anyways. Tumblr sure is a website.

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[blackwinged-soul]

Updated my pages+post to enshrine the S.era experience here. I'm unsure why it took me so many months to finally do it, since it was one of my quickest kinfirmations (even if the nature of it remains unclear), but it's done now.

[mrsmayor]

! Rosie! Hello, this is Sera. I was curious, what kind of spellwork do you perform? From one witchy Hazkin to another.

Signed, someone who tries to keep xir 'kin-relevant sundries separate from the main blog, but has a kin blog, a personal blog, and a witchy blog, and practically had to draw straws to decide to sign with the 'kin blog, @blackwinged-soul.

Ohh, whatever I'm feeling at the time! I love to light a candle, put some things together, crush them up. Craft a special tea, turn on a song, settle into shufflemancy... I love a ritual! I don't do it incredibly often, but I love intention. I love to put things out there, into the world, and attract them back to me!

Wealth and protection are common ones, but I'm also a mover and a shaker, so I also always welcome change if it'll guide me towards the better. I love a little guidance. A card, a sign, a catalyst. I have a lot to still get in tune with still, if I'm honest, but I appreciate what I have thus far!

What about you dear? What sort of things do you get up to?

[blackwinged-soul]

That's quite an assortment!

It's largely energy work for whatever needs done. A lot of protection spells, for myself as well as my loved ones. I love tea spells too, and I really should use more of them... (There is. So much tea in our cupboard.) Energy work is my main method, though I employ my extensive stone collection as needed, or herbs. (Cooking spells are fun to cast with a sprinkle of herbs!) I'm rather sensitive to nearby beings, so my home and myself are always shielded, and I have an extensive history of meditation and astral adventures!

(I'm very grateful my visions have mellowed out since I was 15, though.)

Oh, and throw in a dash of pop culture paganism / neomythicism, and that covers the main practices. I used to do a lot more divination, I did learn to read tarot, but after trying a lot of methods, I think it's prayer and meditation that work best for me.

[mrsmayor]

I see! How fun! I have yet to learn to trust my intuition. I struggle to give it the power it needs to sharpen, because I try to stay """realistic""" and not """delusional.""" It's a hurdle I've been working on for a while, but that little bit of doubt sure does make things go awry!

My sibling is really the more magical of the two of us. I try to follow in their footsteps as best I can! They are SO lucky! Divinely led to exactly where they need to be!

A history of visions! It sounds like they were not so welcome?

[blackwinged-soul]

Ahh, unfortunately trust is a lesson that can't really be taught except by experience, building your confidence. The more circumstances you try, the more you learn what works for you and what doesn't, and the more you build confidence that it will work. Some follow trust in blind faith, and while I see value in that for first-time attempts, I personally find a lot more trust in experience and evidence. But then, I've had almost 20 years of doing this stuff, so there's a lot of experience to go around!

That's wonderful! You have an example right there with you. Have you two done any workings together? That could be a good way to build your trust.

Some of my visions were "not so welcome". Some were beautiful, some were fulfilling, and there was a lot of necessary self-discovery involved even in the most disturbing ones. But there was also a lot of "internal conflict", to put it mildly. I'd share some of them but I'm not sure if you'd want to hear them? Some were rather frightening. Unfortunately a lot of my self-discovery involved unearthing very frightening things, and learning to cope with them was a messy struggle. I had my synpath to help me out, at least; she features on this blog as my "spirit guide" due to a conversation I once had with a friend. But really, I was the one who had to do the work of untangling and managing everything that happened.

[seafoamwave]

That one time I found out my neighbors kid was a therian

When I lived with my parents I would sometimes take photos of my gear (masks, tails and such) in our back yard, one day (I was around 22 at the time) I heard someone calling to me. It was my back door neighbor, a 9 year old little girl. She was waving a cat mask in excitement at me

Her mom was watching her practice quads when they noticed me doing the same thing. I sat and talked to this kid and her mom for a while that day. She told me how she had never met another therian before. She told me that the older kids would laugh at her when she wore her tail

When she would wait for the bus in the morning kids would bark and make fun of her. But she did it anyway.

While this kid mainly talked about doing the big quad jumps and making masks, and was surprised to find out I didn’t even use TikTok, I think just seeing me made an impact. Maybe she is a therian, maybe she’s a 9 year old kid who saw a fun little trend, maybe she’s a furry. At that time, it was real for her. And that is what mattered.

What mattered is that her mom cared about her. What mattered is that she saw an adult being open about their life. Who dressed the way she liked to dress. Who was proud to be themselves. She wasn’t alone. There is a future for someone like us

Whenever I get self conscious about wearing a tail or pair of ears, I remember this 9 year old girl who was bullied at the bus stop everyday. But she continued to wear her tail anyway, so I will do the same.

[thecrispydemon]

It’s a pillow. It’s a Fred. It’s a pillow Fred!

I made myself into a pillow pet.

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[mrsmayor]

! Rosie! Hello, this is Sera. I was curious, what kind of spellwork do you perform? From one witchy Hazkin to another.

Signed, someone who tries to keep xir 'kin-relevant sundries separate from the main blog, but has a kin blog, a personal blog, and a witchy blog, and practically had to draw straws to decide to sign with the 'kin blog, @blackwinged-soul.

Ohh, whatever I'm feeling at the time! I love to light a candle, put some things together, crush them up. Craft a special tea, turn on a song, settle into shufflemancy... I love a ritual! I don't do it incredibly often, but I love intention. I love to put things out there, into the world, and attract them back to me!

Wealth and protection are common ones, but I'm also a mover and a shaker, so I also always welcome change if it'll guide me towards the better. I love a little guidance. A card, a sign, a catalyst. I have a lot to still get in tune with still, if I'm honest, but I appreciate what I have thus far!

What about you dear? What sort of things do you get up to?

[blackwinged-soul]

That's quite an assortment!

It's largely energy work for whatever needs done. A lot of protection spells, for myself as well as my loved ones. I love tea spells too, and I really should use more of them... (There is. So much tea in our cupboard.) Energy work is my main method, though I employ my extensive stone collection as needed, or herbs. (Cooking spells are fun to cast with a sprinkle of herbs!) I'm rather sensitive to nearby beings, so my home and myself are always shielded, and I have an extensive history of meditation and astral adventures!

(I'm very grateful my visions have mellowed out since I was 15, though.)

Oh, and throw in a dash of pop culture paganism / neomythicism, and that covers the main practices. I used to do a lot more divination, I did learn to read tarot, but after trying a lot of methods, I think it's prayer and meditation that work best for me.

[blackwinged-soul]

That moment when your kintype helps you overcome neurodivergence for the sake of your teeth?

That feel when you finally use a new toothbrush because this kinshift is okay with the color on the new one?

Perhaps it's a bit strange that this required a kinshift... but it's no less true.

For context, I have a lot of sensitivities that affect brushing my teeth (in all areas-- gum line, gag reflex, crowded dentition, the list goes on), so I use these fancy Nimbus toothbrushes. They're more expensive, but they're soft enough that the sensory feel of brushing my teeth is much more pleasant, and they have an option with a smaller brush head that still has a full-sized handle.

Alas, they come in random colors, and only one of them was blue.

Naturally, I picked up the blue one first. Back in, I think, maybe, January of this year? Blue has been my favorite color for decades. Kinfirming B|ue D/iamon\d only deepened my preference.

The blue-handled one wore out a couple months ago, but I just brushed for longer with more care, and hesitated to switch to another... (The blue was so PRETTY! And also, it was the first toothbrush I'd ever ENJOYED using, actively LIKED the way it felt, and I felt sad at saying goodbye. And also, those ones are EXPENSIVE.)

But tonight, I looked at it, looked at the options, and decided to pick up the purple one.

Because purple is, for some reason, a color that I'm drawn to in this shift. I almost bought the white and purple version of my new laptop, but I wasn't sure if I'd still like the idea of a WHITE and purple one if/when I get out of this shift...

Now my teeth are the cleanest they've been in three months because being in a shift somehow made it easier to use a different color toothbrush.

[lost-land-of-carcosa]

Just realized how cool being an alterhuman sounds at face value

Yeah there's just folks who appear human and come from families of humans but aren't human themselves. A character from a show could pass you on the street and you wouldn't even know it. Your local librarian could literally be a water snake. Your classmate could be a divine being and you would still know them like any other person there.

We are literally the wild, unfathomable, inorganic, mechanical and the forces of nature among men and that's so awesome to think about

[blackwinged-soul]

Is it weird that, over time, as I leaned more and more into the "adoptive A\zarathean" thing, I've noticed myself wishing the positivity it brings upon other people?

Now if I'm wishing a friend well, I'll usually say something like "I hope it brings you peace." Or "I hope you're able to find peace."

I don't know how to explain it, but joy is such a different feeling from being "at peace" for me. I worked so, so hard in my life to attain, and now maintain, peace, and it's... deeper? More fulfilling? I know not everyone craves for peace over joy the way I do, but I honestly can't imagine anyone NOT wanting peace. (I know they exist. I just can't fathom that mindset.)

Life circumstances changing helped, of course. I have less financial stress than I've ever had, and of course I'm not living somewhere I'm being verbally abused every day, and I'm sure that helped. I wrestled with a lot of turmoil most of my life, just from living with my stepmonster. But I did a lot of internal work for it, too, and of course I had some external help. I wish, with or without the turmoil I experienced, with or without changing circumstances, people I know and love and whose paths I've crossed, little more than to help them find a glimmer of that beauty and rest that comes in finding peace amidst chaos.

And even as deep as I am in this S.era shift, to the point where I could feel all my wings flopping over lazily as I rolled over and tried to sleep in today, that "core of peace" is still an integral part of who I am and what I want in this life.

And I want it for those I love, too. I don't know how much peace I can give them, but I'll do what I can to help them endure a world that wasn't built for it.

[hemipenal-system]

hey? you awake?

yeah, it worked! try to move a bit- hey now don’t go crazy. you’re probably gonna be really dizzy for a minute. just get used to moving and- ok i would not recommend standing up, i know you’re excited for the new body but your brain has no idea how to be quadrupedal yet and you’re gonna- yup, fall on your face. called it. you should listen to me sometimes. you ok?

well, i see you’ve already figured out how to hiss. just move slowly- ok see, you’re standing! just hold still for a moment. your brain doesn’t have very good neural mapping yet, this body has a totally different musculature than your old one

ok, try to move your limbs. one at a time. up and down, up and down. your brain needs to learn how to do that. ok, now try your wings! open- yeah! you like that? you seem excited. you think you can walk?

a bit shaky, but not bad. follow me to this treadmill. we’re gonna put you at a nice leisurely walk and build that gait up so you don’t wreck your new hips. not bad, loosen your shoulders and swing your tail a bit more to work as a counterbalance. back left, front left, back right, front right- there you go! nice job! i’m gonna speed you up to a trot, ok? left, right, left, right- yeah! you’re learning fast! ok, done with the treadmill

rear up. good girl. ok, shift your wings down and put your weight on them. this is how you use your front paws. tilt your head back and forward, stretch your neck joints out a bit. good. touch your horns with your tail? good. now touch your belly? good. wings up! wings out! wings in! good. you’re gonna want to do these stretches every day for a couple weeks to get the full motion range

speaking of range, follow me. ok, that target is 30 feet away. think you can hit it with some fire? pretty good, a bit to the side- hey, don’t snarl at me, you’re the one who missed it. try again. good. when you get home, find a rock or something and practice your aim and your throat control. you’re opening your flame valves a bit too far and it’s adding too much accelerant, which is wrecking your accuracy

this book has all the speech drills we give people. since you have a syrinx now, you’re going to have to learn to speak again. don’t worry, you know how it’s supposed to sound, so it’s easier than it sounds. normally it takes about a month to get back to full speaking fluency, but you’ll be understandable, if a bit odd-sounding, in less than a week if you stay on top of these

anything else you need? any questions?

ok, we called you a transport. no, girl, you cannot fly home. i know you’re excited to fly for the first time, everyone is, but don’t do it for 4 more days at least, your body needs time to learn fine motor control before you can maneuver safely in the air. we’re gonna drive you home. it’s on the house. don’t forget to drink a lot of water and take your prescribed regimen of hormones until your new body starts making them

congrats on dragonhood