Wild Heart

Keith Kogane

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taps the glass. HEWWO

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@mistletrick

❝    That’s   not   even   the     best     part   ----  ❞   He   leans   back   in   his   chair,   arms   crossed.     Relaxed.     ❝   I   even   managed   to   beat   him.   ❞   He   could   feel   eyes   burning   into   the   back   of   his   head,   he   normally   ignored   them   but   today   he   decided   to   turn   around   in   his   chair   and   glare   back.   ❝   What   are   you   looking   at  ?   Mad   because   you   can’t   play   games   like     me    ?   ❞   An   eyebrow   raises   itself   as   if   to     challenge     her   to   take   the   bait.          

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Cosmicscarred -> Bladesmcn

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aight I plan on coming back, but this blog is getting a full reboot and clean up

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Keith in the new Voltron season 8 trailer

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I’m ---- Tempted to come back here. Just because I miss writing Keith.

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PINKPALCDIN

his arms wrapped around her brought a whole new meaning to the word calm.  she could feel the tension in her shoulders lift as his arms settled perfectly around her.  she had wholeheartedly convinced herself keith didn’t want her and her chance with him walked out with him when he left the castle of lions last time.  now standing in his arms her heart continued to skip irregularly, until he nuzzled his nose into hers, then it completely stopped.  she had only ever felt this way with him before.  anytime she had with lotor couldn’t even compare to what she was feeling right now.

soulmates was something she had never really bought into, even growing up and seeing her parents live and love so happily together.  keith was what changed her mind.  there had to be a reason she was frozen for exactly ten thousand years to wake up to him standing in that room.  there had to be a reason he would end up being her black paladin as they defended the universe together.  there was this unseen pull that always brought them together, no matter what they were going through.  it was something she simply couldn’t deny.  he was her soulmate.

I LOVE YOU was all it took so feel the heat seeping out of what was once a knot in her chest.  his eyes were closed but she knew he was speaking from the heart.  a hand gripping his side tighter she got up on her tip toes to lean in closely to him.  bringing up altea was a big shock to allura.  he wouldn’t do this lightly.  that only made her push herself into him more.   eyes scanning his face, they landed on his lips as she spoke out softly. “i already am the happiest princess in the universe.” a hand slid from his shoulder to his jawline were she guided his face to hers as she leaned in to kiss him gently.

He had kissed her once before // HE THOUGHT IT WOULD BE THEIR ONLY ONE. This one felt different. It’s as if time itself had all but STOPPED. Letting them have this single moment in time forever. No universe that needed defending. No galaxy garrison. No amount of duty could tear him away from her in this moment. 

Hand brushes against her face -- pulling her in CLOSER. He doesn’t want this moment to ever end. Wants to hold this feeling deep in his heart and never let it go // NEVER LET HER GO. His heart fluttered and he felt as if he rib cage was going to BURST. He had already made her happy. He had already held her in his arms -- HE ALREADY HAD HER. Never in a million years did Keith think he’d ever have that. 

Yet like all moments -- Their’s had to end. He slowly pulled away, eyes now open and staring into hers. SMILING wider than he had ever before in his life Keith held her face in his hands. Gloves slowly moving over her face // One moves down to twirl her hair between his fingers. He exhales a soundless laugh, unsure of how to move forward in this moment. Does he ask her to be his girlfriend? -- COULD HE ?? 

Keith had never been in a real relationship before, never pledged himself to a person before // That was something different to pledging himself to a cause. HE WAS LOYAL. There was no way around that -- Keith was loyal to a FAULT. He’d never truly leave something unless he had lost all hope. Yet asking her out? For some reason that seemed to instill FEAR in his heart. Of course she wouldn’t say no // RIGHT? ❝ So -- ❞

[sailorsmoon]

I finally understand why you left. You put the mission above all else.

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here, two good pineapple boys 🍍

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PINKPALCDIN

her heart was skipping beats.  this MUST be a dream.  she never expected these words coming from him at all.  she hasn’t had anything really good or positive happen to her in what felt like forever.  constant roadblocks and failures getting in the way of everything good.  his points were valid, they were in the middle of the biggest battle in the universe. they still are, but this couldn’t wait any longer.

stepping forwards as soon as he took her hand, she sniffles as she looks up at him.  he kept talking and her features softened.  as he walked her back through his life she couldn’t help but feel herself falling in love all over again.  his soft tone and gentle grip on her hand, was enough to make her knees weak.as soon as he brought up a SECOND CHANCE, she closed the distance between them fully.  her free hand rested on his shoulder as she nuzzled her chin into his collarbone.   

she knew the hug might be a bit much, but she really wanted to hide the pink that flushed her cheeks so quickly.  “i think we could come to an agreement on a second chance.” She muttered into his shoulder and hugged him tight against her.  the last time she actually got to be this close to him, they were the same height.  having to look up at him, she slowly pulled her head back to make eye contact with him.  a small smile curled her lips as she scanned his face, reviewing what she had been dreaming about for so long.  “keith…” she bit on her bottom lip as she worked up the courage to say what she wanted to next.  “i love you.”

There are some things Keith never expected to hear or feel. Allura hugging him, and saying she loves him were at the top of the list. The way her body fit into his as if they were carved for one another. Never in a million years did he ever think he’d be in this moment. He fell for a princess, fell for a woman who was thousands of light years above where he was. Someone who was way out of his league. Yet here they were, as if their souls were connected the moment they were born, thousands of years apart. The universe really worked in weird ways. 

His arms finally wrap themselves around her smaller frame, solidifying the fact that he had grown taller than her. This time he didn’t have any plans on running away. If he could freeze time he would capture this moment and never let it go, never let her go. He can’t help but break out into the biggest smile. Tears stinging his eyes as he let out a deep chuckle and nuzzled his nose against hers. Letting his eyes close and just taking in the moment. 

❝ I love you. ❞ She would never know how deep that love ran. How that love made him feel as if he was floating in space, made him feel as if he could win the war with just a wave of his hand. ❝ I love you so much. ❞ The wall he had up had completely fallen. The dust in his chest had cleared and what remained there was a field of flowers. Flowers that she had told him about years ago, and in that field they stood there together. Side by side with smiles on their faces, maybe one day they can really live out the moment that played in his head. 

❝ You mean everything to me Allura. I really do mean that. ❞ He refused to open his eyes, afraid that looking her in the eye would make him lose his nerve. Who knows the next time he’d really open up to her like this. ❝ I swear on the stars and the galaxy and on Altea itself, that I won’t be going anywhere. No more running away and no more cold shoulder. I promise to stay here right next to you through thick and thin. I promise I won’t let you down. I swear on your father’s name that I will make you the happiest princess in the universe. ❞      

[hishelios]

you have my permission NOT to love me. i am a cathedral of dead bolts, and  i’d rather burn myself down than change the locks.    //    rachel mckibbens .

my feelings are fatal.    //    raven of the teen titans . portrayed by mars .    //     ©

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*   —  —   VERY SERIOUS RIP VINE SENTENCE STARTERS

‘  when will you learn? when will you learn that your actionS HAVE CONSEQUENCES!  ’ ‘  can i get a waffle??? can i PLEASE get a waffle!!!  ’ ‘  go suck a dick, suck a dick suck a motherfucking dick  ’ ‘  you better stop! biTCH STOP  ’ ‘  do you ever like wake up and do something and you’re just like what the hec– fuck is goin on  ’ ‘  what’s good, brah you don’t know me! you don’t– WHAT IS GOOD! YOU DON’T KNOW! YOU DON’T KNOW ME! ’ ‘  it’s summer i got my hat on backwards and it’s time to fucking party  ’ ‘  anyone ever tell you you look like beyonce?  ’ ‘  I LOVE YOU, BITCH. I AIN’T EVER GONNA STOP LOVING YOU BITCH  ’ ‘  BITCH I HOPE THE FUCK YOU DO YOU’LL BE A DEAD SON OF A BITCH, I TELL YOU THAT  ’ ‘  and they were roommates!  ’ ‘  oh my god, they were roommates  ’ ‘  oh my god, i love chipotle chipotle is my liiiiife   ’ ‘  this bitch empty YEET!!!!  ’ ‘  WHERE ARE THOOOOOSE  ’ ‘  THEY ARE MY CROCS  ’ ‘  bitch disgusting  ’ ‘  yeaaah. yeAAAAAH.  ’ ‘  so no head?  ’ ‘  THIS IS WHY MOM DOESN’T FUCKING LOVE YOU!  ’ ‘  i’ll kill you. i’ll kill you. i’m not even worried about it.  ’ ‘  ahh, fuck. i can’t believe you’ve done this  ’ ‘  aHH STOP! i could’ve dropped my croissant!  ’ ‘  what’s up me and my boys are going to see uncle kracker  ’ ‘  give me my hat back, jordan!  ’ ‘  do you wanna go see uncle kracker or no!?  ’ ‘  i sneezed! oh, i’m not allowed to sneeze?!  ’ ‘  look at all those chickens  ’ ‘  i smell like beef  ’ ‘  i gotta go home cause i forgot to… vacuum my room  ’ ‘  actually, megan, i can’t sit anywhere. i have hemorrhoids.  ’ ‘  is there anything better than pussy? yes! a really good book  ’ ‘  mom, i’m peein on myself  ’ ‘  sorry, i’m on the toilet. i hope the ice cream don’t melt, bitch  ’ ‘  honestly i don’t remember, i was probably fucked up. yeah, i was crazy back then  ’ ‘  I WON’T HESITATE, BITCH!  ’ ‘  just shut up and die slowly, okay?  ’ ‘  two bros chillin in a hot tub five feet apart cause they’re not gay!  ’ ‘  mother trucker, dude! that hurt like a butt cheek on a stick!  ’ ‘  i said WHOEVER THREW THAT PAPER, YOUR MOMS A HO  ’ ‘  you remember one time i liked you? GOOD! cause it never happened  ’ ‘  if your name is junior and you’re really handsome, come on raise your hand  ’ ‘  i’M WASHIN ME AND MY CLOTHES, BITCH! I’M WASHING ME AND MY CLOTHES  ’ ‘  waddup i’m jared, i’m nineteen, and i never fucking learned how to read  ’ ‘  whAT THE FUCK IS UP, KYLE? NO WHAT’D YOU SAY? WHAT THE FUCK, DUDE! STEP THE FUCK UP KYLE  ’ ‘  oh my god why can’t you just take the fricken compliMENT  ’ ‘  is that a wEED? i’m callin the police!!!  ’ ‘  yo, drink this vodka down the hatch c’mon  ’ ‘  it is wednesday, my dudes. aaaaAAAAAAH  ’ ‘  there is only one thing worst than a rapist… a child!  ’ ‘  get to del taco, they got a new thing called fre shavocado  ’ ‘  *to the tune of ghostbusters* i’m an adult virgin  ’ ‘  hi my name is tre, i have a basketball game tomorrooooow  ’ ‘  babeyou’reafuckingbitchiwantyoutogetthefuckoutofmycarcauseiwannabreakupwithyou i fucking hate you   ’ ‘  todays forecast we can clearly see that somebody got me fucked up. FUCKED. UP.  ’ ‘  whAT’S UP FUCKERS  ’ ‘  FUCK YOU, THAT’S WHY  ’ ‘  he needs some milk!  ’ ‘  you are my dad. YOU’RE MY DAD! boogie woogie woogie  ’ ‘  yEAH NO SHIT, HONEY  ’ ‘  oooooh my boy going to prom. fuck it up! fuck it up! fuck it up!  ’ ‘  hey, how you doin? i’m doing just fine. i lied. i’m dying inside  ’ ‘  honey, you got a big storm comin  ’ ‘  i wanna fucking DIE  ’ ‘  road work ahead? uh yeah i sure hope it does  ’ ‘  the yo-yo master did not answer, he just kept on yo-ing  ’ ‘  welcome back to me screaming  ’ ‘  you know sometimes i think to myself what are you waiting for you dumb stupid fuuuuuuck!  ’ ‘  do you ever shut the fuck up?  ’

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PINKPALCDIN

the ringing was back.  once again his voice echoed in her mind.  but this time it was different.  this time it was words she had convinced herself she’d never hear.  words she had been craving to hear.  it was more satisfying to hear than she could have imagined, especially after hearing him yell.  I LOVE YOU, it was something she had to stop herself from saying time and time again.  but how smoothly it rolled off his tongue is what stopped her tears.  that wasn’t a lie and it was clear to her.

the flutters in her stomach didn’t last long before her body froze.  she just hurt him.  her spiteful words left a bad in her mouth, but she knew what she was saying.  she wanted a REACTION from him.  she needed one.  “i-I’m so sorry, keith.” her hands curled back into fists as she began cursing herself for being so awful.  it wasn’t the FAIR.  she’s done this before.  she knew she needed to watch what she said, but the stress the past few years had finally started getting to her.

stepping back AGAIN, she was out of his reach by now.  “that wasn’t fair of me.” She said and her eyes dropped to her feet for a moment.  this was her time to finally tell him what she’d been waiting to say for over a year and a half.  “keith the moment i found out you were galra I knew I was in love with you.  i tried to hate you as hard as i could, because then maybe those feelings that scared me would go away.  i was scared to admit that you had stolen my heart the moment i met you.  but you kept leaving me.  we’d be close to something… ANYTHING and you’d run back to the blade.  for so many years i hung on your every word, even if you WEREN’T there.”

There we a lot of things Keith thought he’d never hear, and this was one of them. ❝ I never meant to be gone for so long, really I didn’t. I never meant to have the timing be so bad with how things played out. ❞ He sighs and takes a step towards her, trying to close the distance a little bit at a time. ❝ It’s like every time I was about to leave I got the courage to do something because if you didn’t react to it well I would be leaving anyway. ❞ 

He hates to admit that he never really got that she felt the same way he did. His mind could never wrap itself around the thought that someone as beautiful and amazing as her could fall for someone like him. ❝ If I can be honest with you about something - ❞ Which obviously they were pouring their hearts out to each other. ❝ There were days when I would want to contact you and want to talk to you, but I didn’t want to distract you from the bigger picture. We’re in the middle of a war and I couldn’t put myself over that. ❞ His voice had calmed down as he watched the tears fall down her face. It was breaking his heart knowing that he was the cause of it, but he knew that they were having a major break through. 

❝ Allura I never left because of you. I left because I wasn’t ready to be the leader this team needed so badly. ❞ The words come with ease now that the barrier has finally been broken. He reaches out a hand and gently takes hers in his. ❝ But look at me now. Sure I’m a little older than I expected to be and I’ve messed up a few times and nearly gotten myself blown up and eaten. I’ve been driven crazy in space, but I’m miles better than the man I was before, but I’m still me. ❞ He’s trying to make her smile, trying to show her that any of the words she had said he knew deep down she didn’t mean. They were both emotional and had a lot more going on than either one of them needed.  

❝ I’m still the guy who found the blue lion in the middle of no where and flew who knows how many light years away and found you ten thousand years after your people fell. I’m still the same guy who prefers polishing my blades than actually talking to people. I’m still Keith, I’ll always be him and I’ll mess up a thousand more times after this. I’m only human. ❞ He pauses, thinking of something that might try and lighten the situation even more. ❝ Well I’m half human, but that’s beside the point. -- ❞ He catches his breath, nearly losing his nerve. ❝ I’m still that kid who fell in love with you the second I saw you protecting someone you’d just met. I’m still the guy who dives head first into situations bayard first words later. Don’t be sorry Allura. I deserve a kick in the ass for acting the way I was, but I hope that doesn’t mean you won’t give me a second chance. ❞           

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❝ Wait a second. ❞ Keith stops Shiro in his tracks in the middle of one of the garrison lots.  ❝ Isn’t this where I stole your car? ❞ The memory comes back to him as if it all happened just yesterday. ❝ This is where you first saw me fly a simulator. ❞

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PINKPALCDIN

her eyes scanned his face as if he was going to say more.  he looked like he was going to say more.  and yet there was this heavy silence sitting on their shoulders.  her brow furrowed once again and she took a step away from him.  her hands finally unclench and she raised them to apply pressure to her temples with the heels of her hands.  this tension was agonizing as she waited for him to do something.   SAY SOMETHING.  

“that is all you have to say to me?” it came out as a quiet sob.  she took another step away from him before dropping her hands and sniffling hard.  she tried to collect herself and stop the tears, but as soon as she looked back up at him they flooded her face again.  she had so many questions and so much inner turmoil she struggled to form her sentences.  

she took another moment before letting out a heavy sigh.  “i really am having a hard time believing you. you say you don’t regret our kiss but you’re still silent.” maintaining eye contact she knew her words next would cut like a knife.  “how am i suppose believe you when LOTOR put up a better fight for me, when he was killing my people behind my back.” venom should be dripping from her lips.  hugging herself she instantly wanted to apologize, that was uncalled for and she knew it.  but she couldn’t help but lash out.  her heart was breaking right of him and he just stood there.

❝ Because I was afraid of losing you! ❞ Whatever force was holding him back had finally let go. The iceberg in his throat had finally melted. Being compared to one of the most vial beings in the entire universe struck a nerve with him. Keith wasn’t perfect, but he sure as hell wasn’t anywhere close to Lotor. 

❝ I’ve lived my entire life watching everyone I’ve ever loved or cared about either die or leave me. So excuse me for having some walls up. ❞ He could lose everyone else in the entire universe but he couldn’t risk losing her. ❝ I kissed you because I wanted to. I had wanted to for weeks before hand. I hated myself for just up and leaving but once I was gone it hit me that whatever the universe has against me would end up hurting you. ❞ It’s an irrational thought, but one that held true for most of his life. 

❝ My mom left me. My dad died, I thought Shiro was dead not once but TWICE then he shows up being a different person trying to shove something I didn’t want down my throat. I come back after two years to learn that the woman I love fell for another man and then have Shiro try and kill me. My home planet has been shredded by people I share the same blood with. I thought my own mother never wanted me and after everything I came back to you giving up on me. Was I scared? Hell yes I’ve never been more scared in my life but I didn’t know how to act after it. I wanted to say something, anything to you but I didn’t know how. I don’t know how to voice my feelings, hell I barely know how to describe what I’m feeling to myself. ❞ He couldn’t stop the words from falling out of his mouth. The dam he’d been keeping up for so long from so many had finally burst and the flood gates of his heart had finally be set free. 

❝ I know I’ve fucked up but the one thing I cannot take is you saying that Lotor fought for you more than I did. You can ask my mom about this while we were trapped in that asteroid belt she could see my memories and she saw the moment I realized I LOVE YOU. She asked me about you she wouldn’t leave me alone until I admitted it out loud to her. After I found out what Lotor had done I didn’t want you in the same galaxy as him let alone let you breathe in the same air. I know I’m not good at showing my feelings and I know you deserve a whole lot better than me. But don’t you dare compare me to someone who slaughtered thousands of innocents and fooled the entire universe.❞     

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GALATICSCARRED

hands run through his hair, tugging at the ends ( give it a few more months and he’ll look just like keith ) . he’s never felt angrier , never felt more BETRAYED . they’re in this together , keith can’t just take unannounced trips with his mom through space .      ❝   six months , keith . six FUCKING months alone with that bitch in my head . do you even know what that’s like ? being the only toy left in her grasp ?  ❞    she plagues every thought , ever breath . no moment is private , she sees it all , she knows it all . the soft tones of her rasping voice goad him into stupid decisions , fuels his hatred .     ❝   she —- she said you left . she said you were too far away , that you had abandoned me , betrayed me .    ❞

she told him it was keith’s fault , that he should hate him instead . his grip on reality has slipped numerous times in the past six months , made it so easy to give in to that hatred . some days he would . he fights against her in this endless war but it was keith’s face he saw in the endless waves of galra and drones alike .

    ❝   you left me , keith . you left the team . do you even know what’s been going on anymore ? i-i really don’t think we can last in this fight much longer .   ❞     their days are numbered . the empire is too large , their numbers infinite . the coalition dwindles by a thread , allies dropping like flies in the cold by the hundred . and the witch still remains untouched .

he takes a hesitant step forward , closing the distance between them . he can’t feel the warmth of his skin through his thick gloves but he can still imagine it , the same warmth that used to press against his body at night . his thumb traces down his cheek , eyes shuttering .     ❝   we’re losing the war , keith . to think while we were risking our necks , you were out there having small talk with your mom … i … i don’t even have the words .  ❞

Keith was a lot of things. Hotheaded, selfish, a loner. The one thing he wasn’t was a traitor. Lance all of people knows where his loyalty lies and how deep it ran. ❝ You think I could just call for the nearest cab and come right back home? ❞ He doesn’t understand how Lance could get this angry about something like this. ❝ I thought I was going to die in that asteroid belt. I thought I’d never make it back. ❞

He doesn’t know how to describe the emotion that begins to fill his chest. Was it anger? Sadness? Disappointment? ❝ I never asked to be gone that long. I thought it was going to be an easy mission that wouldn’t last for more than a few weeks. I was going to come back after finding that supply line. ❞ Which he had done, just years later than he had wanted to. 

The one thing Keith couldn’t wrap his head around was how Lance had even begun to believe the fact that he would just up and leave him without any sort of explanation. No matter how far Haggar would dig into his own mind, he’d never believe anything she would have to say about Lance. ❝ You really think I’d just up and leave you forever like that? Fuck the war. Fuck everything else. You really think I’d stoop so low as to be a traitor? ❞ He sighs and crosses his arms, trying to keep his voice as level as possible, but that was growing harder to do by the second. 

❝ Of all people you’re the last person I’d ever suspect to think that of me. You and I both know how far she’s willing to go to make us hate each other. ❞ She always tried, but she had always failed. ❝ You don’t know half the shit I went through. I spent years wondering if you were dead. Maybe she wasn’t in my head way out there in the middle of fucking nowhere, but you were always there. I wanted to come back so badly just to help you cope and to go through it with you but I couldn’t. ❞