BLAISE

B L A I S E - J E T T - W H I T A K E R 22 • Self Employed I was born here in Bennington, and surprise, surprise, I'm still stuck here. I generally don't like talking about my family so its best that you don't ask. Other than that I'm good for a conversation, if that's what you're into. I currently live on Main Street, though I often travel back and forth to New York. As far as employment goes, I have a couple of little jobs, again, nothing that really needs to be discussed. I really enjoy classic literature and spend quite a bit of time reading, my favorite book is In Cold Blood by Truman Capote. I don't really like TV, but my favorite films are The Wizard of Oz and Kill Your Darlings. I don't really see movies that often. I'm not really sure what I'm doing with my life but I try not to think about that and focus on living in the moment. Buy me a glass of rum and I'm all yours.

[stokes-wyatt]

Yeah it is, they all boil over and it’s just shit.

[blaise-whitaker-blog]

Yeah...kinda funny how they all spill into each other.

[amy--harrison]

It is, but I don’t mind doing it.

[blaise-whitaker-blog]

Why not? Keeping everyone else's secrets...isn't that just piling on burdens you don't need? Why would you do that?

[drewsevani]

Yeah. I mean… I think so. There’s only so much one person can handle.

[blaise-whitaker-blog]

Maybe some people are just better at handling them than others..

[daphneblackvvood]

Oh, entirely. Sometimes I think just one secret can be too much, depending on what it is. 

[blaise-whitaker-blog]

So do you think its better to just not have any secrets at all?

[blaise-whitaker-blog]

Motto and why.

T: All or Nothing.B: ....well I was gonna say I don't have a motto but yeah I guess that's kind of true.T: Its completely true for every aspect of your life, Blaise. Personality wise, relationship wise, decision wise.B: ....Yeah...yeah that's a really good point. Okay yeah, All or Nothing. Because...there's no point settling for anything in between.

[blaise-whitaker-blog]

3 people in your life, one word to describe them, and why.

B: KaneT: Always the first to come to mind, okay one word to describe Kane.B: Light.T: Oh we are feeling sentimental today. Care to explain what you mean?B: ...Seriously? Come on don't make me get all.....fine. Okay. I just mean like, you know, he's the light at the end of the tunnel, that kind of thing, I don't know.T: Adorable. Okay next person. Ella.B: Oh man, seriously?????? Thats who you're gonna pick?? Her?? I don't wanna talk about Ella, she isn't relevant to anything anymore. I mean technically she's not even part of my life anymore.T: You're so full of shit. Come on, give us one word.B: Fine. Tension.T: ...Sexual Tension?B: Yes. Yes every tension there is alright? Every kind of tension. That's Ella. A fucking wall of tension. T: Beautiful. Okay now...Jordan?B: Hmmm...one word...alright errrr...honestly the only thing that comes to mind is Complicated.T: I kind of like that, cause you've never really been able to work her out and now she's the mother of your child but you're not in a relationship with her and yeah, that's definitely complicated.B: Yeah. Exactly.

[blaise-whitaker-blog]

Talk about your biggest inspiration.

T: This is tough cause I feel like Blaise has never really had anybody to look up to and I think thats really a huge part of the reason that he's so lost, cause he lacks inspirationB: See I think you're wrong there, I mean this isn't asking who my idol was or anything, its asking what my biggest inspiration is. Right now I think that's pretty easy to answerT: CJ?B: Exactly. I mean he's the whole reason for me...pulling my head out of my ass and getting shit done andT: Well in that case I'd also say Kane is a pretty big inspiration. Kane helps Blaise keep his head screwed on basically. Kane will eventually get Blaise into University to actually make something of himself. B: BullshitT: No, really. Totally gonna happen.

[blaise-whitaker-blog]

Talk about what makes you afraid.

T: People leaving him. That's always been his number one fear. My first instinct was to say Leanne but I dont think she's like...a fear, I think she's more...she has a lot of control over Blaise which is scary but its more what she brings out in him that scares him.B: Well thats bullshit cause I'm not afraid of anything.T: Except people leaving you.B: Lies.

[blaise-whitaker-blog]

Do you wish you were able to be there for CJ when he was born?

B: More than anything. How is this even a question?? Of course I wish I'd been there.T: Yeah but honestly think back to you like four years ago, you weren't ready for a kid and it would've been pretty tough. I honestly dont think you would've been able to handle it.B: No way, I would have dropped everything to be there for that kidT: I think it would've been a big mess. I think its probably pretty good that things worked out the way they did, even if it would have been ideal for you to have known he was yours from the start.

[amy--harrison]

Yes, exactly that. Are you alright, Blaise?

[blaise-whitaker-blog]

That sounds like a lot of responsibility.

[amy--harrison]

I’ve never been guarded around other people. Some of my biggest secrets have been revealed thanks to my father. Some have allowed that to be their definition of me. Others haven’t. When they try to get to know me, I give them who I am and the trust comes with time. I’m not known for revealing secrets that are confided to me which is another reason why I’m often trusted with them.

[blaise-whitaker-blog]

So...you keep other people's secrets?

[amy--harrison]

Yes. I do. I always have.

[blaise-whitaker-blog]

..then how can you be sure that people can trust you? How can they be sure they can trust you?

[amy--harrison]

I sort through them, usually. I figure out which need to be kept, which don’t have any relevance at all. Whichever fall into the first category, I do my best to understand the reasoning as to why they are secrets. They can be heavy however. Most secrets tend to follow that pattern.

[blaise-whitaker-blog]

And do you have a lot? Of secrets?

[amy--harrison]

Sometimes, yes.

[blaise-whitaker-blog]

So what do you do? How do you...deal with that?

[steph-mendoza]

If you want to stop keeping too many secrets, stop listening. But that’s a moral decision in itself. 

[blaise-whitaker-blog]

And what if they're not all other people's secrets? 

[blaise-whitaker-blog]

Is it possible to wind up holding too many secrets?

[blaise-whitaker-blog]

Text: Blaise

Kane: Touche.

Kane: Should I come over to yours or do you want to come to mine?

Blaise: We can go to the movie if you really want to, I mean I guess it'd be something different but....come here first maybe?