[skeletomez]

it’s all “ai this” and “ai that” but can ai obsess over fake scenarios in its head for hours without writing anything? no, I didn’t think so

[maddcultureis]

madd culture is thinking “I should write this all down” but feeling like you’ll never really capture the same feel that your paracosm has currently

[fallingmaddlyinlove]

if anyone had any advice on this i would GLADLY take it thank you

[blue-madd]

Me : I wonder what my parame thought of this movie

Parame : actually I firmly believe white people don't know how to raise kids correctly bc if they did we wouldn't still be battling against systemic oppressions

Me : cool but I just wanted to know your thoughts on some movie tho

[blue-madd]

Lovecraft Country cured my MaDD lmao I want Misha Green in my brain so I can have epic daydreams Once mOre

[blue-madd]

Me : it's just a side AU, I won't get too involved

*a few days later*

Me : so I made the plans of their house & I passed a whole day on it

[blue-madd]

Edit : I have three house plans for these paras :

2 different options of the familial house + 1 of my paras' appartment

+ I made them picrews ⬇️

Ciel + Luce

Nina + Moon (Ciel's lil siblings)

Mallory (Ciel's evil big sis) + Marie (Ciel's adoptive mom whom we loathe too)

[blue-madd]

Me : it's just a side AU, I won't get too involved

*a few days later*

Me : so I made the plans of their house & I passed a whole day on it

[strayknight]

my main issue with making aus is that i will also make sub aus. like the au but theres some different significant change or addition to it. and ill keep making these in my brain until theres like an entire ecosystem of them

[blue-madd]

I don't daydream much these days but I got really focused on Elmentia for a couple of days and now I feel like getting back to world-building, I love this paracosm so so much

[blue-madd]

My daydreams have gotten boring again.

I'm on medication that makes me dissociate less -and so less likely to fall into a daydream- but I had to reduce the dose because it makes me want to eat the whole world and my ED didn't like it so now I'm way more easily distracted and so more likely to daydream again but it all feels kinda... blank? Idk like I can't form a paracosm or AU that lasts more than a day and it makes me want more again

[blue-madd]

I miss talking shit abt my paracosms.

I mostly focus on my main now bc I'm writing a novel abt it but I'm bored. I miss daydreaming abt silly things

Like,, I created this paracosm a few nights ago where I imagine myself getting into shenanigans with my friends' fav artist so they'd notice me more and it's fun

[blue-madd]

Mama : how come the kids are always in charge

Sky : cause I don't wanna be

(Real quote from my main paracosm that I just found back yall,, this is wild)

[blue-madd]

It's so funny but frustrating reading everything I wrote about my paras because I didn't think to give context so now I'm just here screaming "but whyyyy ??" at my phone hoping it'll get me answers

[blue-madd]

Me : i cant give cancer to my parame, it wouldnt suit his vibes

Me : i can give it to Manon tho

All the Cuple : bro u need to chill stop doing Manon dirty

[blue-madd]

Me : i want to stop daydreaming so much & focus on the outside world

Me : let's start writing abt our daydreams

Me : *inevitably begins to daydream of everything again*

Me : fuvk.

[blue-madd]

Hi,,

I have started writing for real about my parame Skylar

I wrote 5 pages so far (this is gonna be long)

[blue-madd]

2 chapters in, I wrote 15 pages ✨️

[blue-madd]

Hi,,

I have started writing for real about my parame Skylar

I wrote 5 pages so far (this is gonna be long)

[blue-madd]

I just wanna formally apologize to my paravain for making him in such a way that his love for my parame would always be an impossible story no matter how much of himself he'd be willing to change for him

Like I hate him with all my heart and will never forgive him for what happened but that was fucked up of me to make him this way