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The memory kept hitting him in flashes instead of one continuous scene: Will leaning in, the intensity in his face, the sound of his voice gone lower and rougher around the edges somehow, the feeling of having nowhere to look except directly at him, which had been its own kind of problem because when the fuck had Will gotten close enough for Mack to notice how there werenāt any dry patches of skin on Willās lips and would they feeā
And yep, there it was again: his brain hit the brakes and stopped cooperating entirely.
Not gradually either. One second heād be following the thought, and the next it was like his mind hit a wall at full speed and exploded into static. There wasnāt any useful processing going on. Nada. Just the overwhelming urge to physically launch himself out of the moving car and hope the inevitable impact would realign all the connections in his brain so he could think again.
If that didnāt work, maybe he could ask Will if he would slam Mack into the boards hard enough to see if a concussion would do the job.
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The memory kept hitting him in flashes instead of one continuous scene: Will leaning in, the intensity in his face, the sound of his voice gone lower and rougher around the edges somehow, the feeling of having nowhere to look except directly at him, which had been its own kind of problem because when the fuck had Will gotten close enough for Mack to notice how there werenāt any dry patches of skin on Willās lips and would they feeā
And yep, there it was again: his brain hit the brakes and stopped cooperating entirely.
Not gradually either. One second heād be following the thought, and the next it was like his mind hit a wall at full speed and exploded into static. There wasnāt any useful processing going on. Nada. Just the overwhelming urge to physically launch himself out of the moving car and hope the inevitable impact would realign all the connections in his brain so he could think again.
If that didnāt work, maybe he could ask Will if he would slam Mack into the boards hard enough to see if a concussion would do the job.
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from thatās life to loving life again (now on AO3)
Mack may not like the circumstances that have left him with a scar on his cheek, but at least it gives Will a spot to kiss whenever Mack needs comfort.
Will zoomed in on the picture, tongue between his teeth, cursing at how pixelated it was. Could these fucking international broadcasters get nothing right? The feed was so shitty that he couldnāt even tell if Mack was crying or not. Like, he looked miserable, sure. He had the stoic look on his face, that tension in his jaw that showed he was seconds away from screaming or crying or throwing up but instead was Getting Through It by grinding his teeth together.
But he couldnāt tell if he was crying.
With a muttered curse, Will exited out of the video and kept scrolling down his feed. Maybe clips from the fans would show it better.
It was image and gif and clip, one after another after another, of Mackās sour expression; shaking the hands of the victorious Finnish players, accepting the award for being one of Canadaās best players, giving an interview like he wasnāt about to break down and cry-
Will shifted in his bed, his pants getting tight. There was a clip, finally, one good one. And he could see it, Mack turning away from the camera, discretely rubbing at his eye with his glove to catch the single tear that had slipped free.
Oh, fuck yeah.
He skipped back, watched it again, groaning into the silent room as he watched Mack blink, the tear slipping, the turn to scrub it clean.
Again.
Again. And again.
He was so fucking hard it was painful, all of the blood in his body rushing south so quickly that he felt dizzy with it.Ā
Will should feel guilty, probably, at getting so worked up over his best friend's misery, but it wasnāt his fault, not really. It was Mack, and those pretty, shining green eyes, and his ruddy cheeks and those rough, bitten lips.
The fact of the matter was that Mack looked fucking gorgeous when he was crying. And like, it was a thing, for Will. It turned him on. It had been a very unfortunate discovery to make after the loss at the Olympics, when Mack had called him after winning silver, letting out a sob as soon as the facetime connected, and Will had immediately gotten bricked up.
Heād done his best to be there for Mack, to talk him off the ledge and soothe his hurt and frustration, but the whole time heād been gripping the phone with one hand and his cock with the other. As soon as the call had disconnected, heād fucked up into his fist three times and come with an obscene groan, catching his release in his hand like a fucking teenage boy.
It had been a very difficult time for him. He was still recovering from his separated shoulder, and yet he was confronted at every turn by images of Mackās miserable face, to the point that heād had to delete all social media off of his phone to give his dick a break.
By the time he was back in the locker room with the guys, heād more or less gotten it back under control, but he still knew it was a thing, still wondered, late at night when Mack was asleep on the opposite bed and it was freezing cold in their hotel room and the white noise machine was faintly humming, what Mack would look like for him, on his knees, mouth held wide open by Willās cock, tears running down his cheeks.
So, yeah, it sucked that Canada wasnāt making it to the gold medal game. If it couldnāt be Leno and USA, at least it wouldāve been his boy up there, playing the best hockey of his life to date.
Instead, here they were. Playing for bronze. And the weight of the world was slammed back down on the shoulders of one nineteen-year-old phenom, like there werenāt two dozen other guys on the team whoād played like shit as well.
Later, it would piss him off, but right now, he was too busy rewinding the clip and watching Mack cry again, while scrambling with his other hand for the bottle of lube in his top drawer.
He had to be quick. If he was still this hard when Mack facetimed him, it would be so fucking obvious, and Mack would learn his shameful secret.
Will dribbled some lube on his cock and paused the video on the singular frame when the tear was visible, and went to town, fucking into his fist with a furious kind of intensity. He was open mouth panting with it, trying not to creak the bed too fucking obviously or make any fucking noise despite the way he wanted to whine at how fucking amazing it felt.Ā
Voter was just down the hall in the other room of the Airbnb theyād hired for the summer and it wasnāt really that late. Up until only fifteen minutes ago, theyād been down in the living area watching the game together, so he knew Voter was almost definitely still up.
Theyād spent a lot of time living together, though, in juniors, so Voter knew a closed door was a closed door, thank God. That didnāt mean he wanted his buddy to hear him, though. He didnāt need anyone knowing he got off on Mack crying, he knew it was weird as fuck. But to be fair, he didnāt want anyone knowing he thought about Mack in any sexual fashion at all.
Heād seen enough shit in locker rooms and shared living spaces over the years to know none of his buddies would really judge him for it (those in glass houses, etc etc) but that didnāt mean he wanted them up in his business like that. He got enough jokes already about how co-dependent he and Mack were. The last thing he wanted was to give them any ammunition.
And this would be enough to take to the fucking bank.Ā
Fuck. If Will could stop it, he would, but he canāt seem to fucking help it. It was the same reason he gleefully suggested sting pong after practices, and made Mack watch all these sappy rom-coms, and maybe added a few too many jalapenos to Mackās chipper order every now and again. He couldnāt help but seek these opportunities, even though they left him desperate and wanting. He felt like some sick kind of bully, trying to make his best friend cry, but he was too far gone. He needed it.Ā
He turned his head and bit into the muscle of his bicep, smothering the wanton whine that slipped between his lips as he increased the pace.
But it wasnāt enough. His hand just wasnāt doing it for him. He fucking needed-
He paused, pushing up onto one elbow and frowning towards his suitcase. Had he brought it?
With a muttered curse, he rolled off the bed and awkwardly waddled over to check, rifling through the suitcaseās contents. He hadnāt bothered unpacking, and grimaced a little at the way he was leaving tacky lube fingerprints all over his clothes, but decided it was a future Will problem.Ā
There it was, tucked away down the bottom. He wiggled it free and kicked his suitcase aside, returning to stand at the end of the bed.
Being a public figure had put somewhat of a damper on his love life. Not from a lack of offers, by any means, but because it was a lot harder to get away with being an absolute horndog with this many eyes on him. Heād managed to hook-up a few times, but the risk was only increasing as Mackās notoriety grew, and he was rarely out anywhere without him.
It would be fine if he was into girls, but despite his motherās (and Godās) wishes, Will only wanted men.
He didnāt want to go as far as NDAās, but sometimes, when it was late and he was lonely and utterly sick of his own fist, he really fucking thought about it.Ā
He liked hockey too much to risk it, though. Not yet. Maybe after theyād won a cup.
So for now, he had to be happy with a fleshlight and a zoomed in, slightly pixelated image of his best friend to get the motor running.
Will rearranged the pillows, moving them to the centre of the bed so that they hugged the fleshlight in place. He lubed it up, fingering it like it was the gorgeous mouth he had been fantasising about for years now, picturing that wide look of shock in those pretty green eyes as he pressed his digits down on his tongue.
āFuck,ā he hissed. āSuch a pretty little slut for me.ā
He grabbed his phone, positioning it in front of his face as he knelt over the fleshlight, resting the tip of his cock on the slit of the opening. Slowly, his eyes glued to Mackās devastated face, Will pressed in.
He had to rest his weight on one shoulder so that he could keep a hand around the fleshlight, holding it still for him, while the other arm was braced above his head.
Will rolled his hips and thrust deep into the toy, into Mackās open mouth, and felt a kick of pleasure sing down his spine at the way his throat gripped him.
āPerfect,ā he crooned in a soft reverent whisper. āOh fuck, baby, love it when you cry for me.ā
Mack would be so good for him, he knew it. Heād kneel in front of him and heād keep his head still while Will thrust into his mouth, shallow at first, and then deeper and deeper. Maybe heād hold it there, choke him on it a bit, until those tears werenāt just threatening to fall but spilling in torrents down his cheeks, and-
āFuck,ā he moaned, and he had to turn and bite at his bicep again. He was being too loud. It was too good. He was thrusting harder now, and the bed was creaking quietly with the motions.Ā
Macky would moan around his cock. Heād fucking love it. Take it like a fucking champ.
He was close, fuck, his toes were curling, sweat sticking to his skin. Will stared at Mack, at the tear, and it wasnāt enough. Mack would give him more than one, he knew he would. Heād be whining and whimpering and moaning, and his cheeks would be red and blotchy and the tears would cause messy streaks on his perfect skin, and heād be drooling too, of course.
And then Will would pull out just in time to release all over Mackās face, mixing it with the tears and the drool, until Mack was a complete mess, looking up at him with this desperate look on his face, begging him to come, please, please, heād been so good.
It would only take Will getting his hand around him for Mack to blow as well, but heād wring it out a bit longer, until he was overstimulated and crying again, again, again.
Will grunted as he released into the toy, panting loudly as his whole body locked up, muscles straining as it drank him dry. He slowed down his thrusts, drawing it out a bitĀ as he came down, his eyes fixed on Mack, his perfect, pretty boy.
Which was, of course, when his phone rang: an incoming facetime from Mack.
Fuck. His cock was still in the toy, but he didnāt have any time. If he didnāt answer, Mack wouldnāt call back, and the opportunity would be lost.
Quickly, he wiped his face on the blanket underneath him. He rolled and got both hands underneath him, answering the call and looming down and back up again in a push-up.
āWill? Oh-ā
He smiled. āHey Macky,ā he said, doing another push-up. āSorry, I was just getting in a workout. I missed my usual one earlier.ā
āWorking hard, superstar,ā he said. āBut you know all about that.ā He winked, and Mack stared at him, his expression somewhere between confused and upset. It was an attractive look for him.
But maybe Will just thought that because his cock was still in his fleshlight, and every push-up jostled it around him.
He was for sure going to hell for this.
āI saw the game, Mack. Iām sorry,ā he said, prompting an influx of frustrated narration about the teamās missed opportunities and how fucking gutted he was not to take them to the gold medal game, and so on, getting more and more worked up.
Will held himself in a plank so that he could stare closer, watch the way those green eyes went glassy with unshed tears, the rapid blinking keeping them just at bay. He made sure to hum and give sympathetic noises when he needed to, nodding for Mack to keep going anytime it looked like he was unsure or running out of steam. But the self-doubt was like poison; he needed to get it out.Ā
āI failed,ā Mack whispered eventually. And his lower lip was wobbling, the look of defeat on his face profound and heartbreaking.
āYou did good,ā Will told him gently, āIām so proud of you, Macky.ā
And that was it. Finally.Ā
The tears fell.
Will struggled to keep his expression blank as the arousal rose over him like a tidal wave. He failed his plank, covering his screen with his chest as he fucked into the toy for a moment, letting some of the pent out energy out.Ā
He thrust deep and rolled to the side, gathering up his phone with one hand and holding the toy on his cock with the other.
Mack swore and scrubbed at his cheeks, looking upset with himself.Ā
āHey, hey,ā Will said, his voice tender. āItās okay. Iām here. Iāve got you. Let it out.ā
āI wish you were here,ā Mack whispered, and his voice was so defeated, so sad, that Will stopped slowly humping the fleshlight for a moment, studying him closely.
āI know it feels like the end of the world right now, bud,ā he said. Mack looked at him and gave a tight nod, looking down at his lap, expression miserable. āBut I promise you, one day youāre gonna look back and realise exactly what everyone else is seeing right now: how incredible you are. What an amazing leader you are. How hard you work.ā
Mack shook his head. āThey trusted me to be captain, and I fucked it up.ā
āYou didnāt fuck anything up,ā Will reminded him. āYouāve scored thirteen points in this tournament, which is insane. You fucking killed it, bud.ā
He watched as Mack shook his head and sighed.
āCāmon,ā he said. āLook at me.ā
Slowly, reluctantly, Mack did.Ā
āYouāre not a failure, Mack. Youāre a fucking inspiration, okay? You centered Sidney fucking Crosby, and you outscored him. How many people can say that, huh? Even MacKinnon wouldnāt have done it.ā
Slowly, Mack blinked, and his expression shifted from upset to thoughtful.Ā āI guess,ā he muttered. āIt was pretty cool, playing with him again.ā
āThe coolest,ā Will agreed. āEveryone I know is seething with jealousy, dude.ā
Himself included. Though not really about Crosby. Well, maybe a little.
āPressureās off now,ā Will said. āJust go out tomorrow and have some fucking fun. Score a bunch of goals. Get at least two for me, okay?ā
āGreedy, arenāt you?ā Mack noted wryly, though at least he looked a little less upset now, some of the life coming back to his eyes.Ā
āSeventy-one seems like a bit of a stretch,ā Will shrugged with a grin. āSo weāll just have to settle for two.ā
Mack rolled his eyes. āFine,ā he said. āTwo goals.ā
They turned to talking about other things for a bit. What he and Vote had been up to with some of the other BC boys, Mack going out doing touristy shit with the other rookies, the upcoming draft and who the sharks were looking at. While they chatted, Will kept a slow motion going, keeping his cock interested by pulling the sleeve slowly up and down his length, his expression carefully stoic as his blood heated and the edge grew closer and closer.
āI should let you go,ā Mack said eventually. āItās late.ā
āAlright, bud,ā Will agreed, a little breathless. āGood luck in the game tomorrow.ā
āThanks,ā Mack said. āAnd you know, thank you. For talking me off the ledge. Like always.ā
āAnytime,ā Will said firmly. āI mean it.ā
Mack looked at him for a moment. He blinked a few times, lightly frowned as his eyes flitted up and down. Will went still, keeping his expression politely friendly.Ā
āOkay,ā Mack said. āIām uh, Iām gonna go. See you.ā
āBye,ā Will said.
The phone disconnected. Will chucked it aside, rolled back onto his belly and chewed on his blanket as he fucked into the fleshlight.Ā
Fuck. Why was Mack so fucking pretty? Why did he have to look like that while he was upset, like some kind of Disney prince, all tortured and forlorn. It was devastating for Willās libido. He pictured Mack again, the tears actually falling in front of him, and he cursed himself for not fucking recording it for later.
Instead, he had to make do with his memories as his thrusts turned erratic and he came a second time, the obscene squelch echoing around his room as he filled it to the brim.
Will collapsed onto his side again, panting, shuddering through the aftershocks of coming twice in such a short period of time.Ā
He had no idea if Mack bought the working out story or not. From his face at the end, it seemed unlikely, but right then, Will was too blissed out to bring himself to care about it. His limbs were pleasantly sluggish and relaxed, and he could have happily crawled under the blankets to sleep, if not for how disgusting that would be.
Even a degenerate such as him could concede that waking up in a messy dried pool of come would be a step too far.
Instead, he dragged himself into the ensuite and showered, cleaning the toy while he was there for good measure, setting it against his sink to dry. Voter had his own bathroom, so Will felt pretty comfortable leaving it there.
Once he was sufficiently dry, he slipped on a pair of boxers and crawled into bed, turning the pillow over so that any vestiges were away from his face.
And sleep rose like a wave, pulling him down into a blissful slumber.
macklin celebrini/will smith. fratprez!wsh and firstlady!mack. 3.5k of filth for what we all experienced together on this day
āYouāre not helping?ā Mack calls out when he gets close enough.
Willās lazy smile sharpens into something cocky as he looks over his shoulder, already reaching out a grabby hand. āYouād like that, wouldnāt you?ā
OR: Phi Rho holds a car wash fundraiser.
in Mackās second year with the San Jose Sharks, Will Smith, 21, starts as the teamās newest Communications Executive. Mack falls first, Will falls harderāand the rest is history.
Chapter Summary:
āHow long can he and Mack orbit each other like this, drawing towards the other boy in closer and closer circles, without something breaking? He wonders which will be first to breakāhis professionalism, his self-restraint or his heart.ā
Tags: macklin celebrini/will smith, will smith is not a hockey player, au, mutual pining, fluff, angst, San Jose Sharks ensemble cast, slow burn, original characters
Brendan Brisson: Iāve been living with him the last two weeks and have grown to know that heās got a weird obsession with frogs. Heās got a big frog pond in his backyard. Iām like, āwhereās Trevor?ā Then Iāll go around the property and heās hanging out with the frogs (x)
Will snorts. āWant me to wear your tooth on my chain for you or what?ā
Yes. God, yes.
Mack wants that with a ferocity that no longer surprises him. The need is immediate and instinctive as pain. As hunger. Itās a body knowing what it wants before shame has the chance to catch up.
or: Will sends Mack a video about a tooth being used as the center stone of a ring. Mack stops wearing his mouth guard. The two things are decidedly not related.
this has existed in my drafts/discord messages/meanders of my deranged psyche in one form or another for ages now, but recent discussion #onhere re:bleak boyband bingo encouraged me to clean up the list for human consumption and present it in bingo format, which immediately made it 150 times more user-friendly and thus postable. while obviously visually inspired by bbb, thematically i think it is only adjacent at best because the focus here is fundamentally about relationships, even when it comes to squares like The Weight Of Legacy or Signing With Your Hometown Team (inspired by dylan larkin and john tavares respectively, whose narratives are soooo tied to The Ghost Of Other People it's almost laughable). ideally this board could be incorporated into a larger bbb-style board that would also include broader, less shippy archetypes; but i personally am Not Good at that so what you get today is 81 squares of love&horny.
color-coded version hopefully conveys the fact that while i do believe the 3x3 cards can stand alone, there is a continuity both vertically and horizontally AND diagonally. after all, one of the characteristics of sportsrpf is the fluidity of the dynamicsā linemates today, facing off tomorrow, etc.
some of these squares are so very clearly about one specific pairing to me, but depending on your hockeyfandom entry point i think it might vary drastically and i'm very curious about what people's first associations to specific Narratives(tm) are. might reblog later with examples but for now in the name of science i want this to hit the market neutrally and let it percolate
did the grouse grind today and thought about willmack the whole timeā¦
First of all, I am happy you lived to tell the tale!
Second, WHY (kidding, I would do it too, if only to say that I did, lol. But I would plan a whole day for it and do like 462825 water breaks).
Third, constantly thinking of Willmack while on the grouse grind is the most valid thing I have ever heard. 100% would do the same.
If I am ever in the area, I'm gonna follow your footsteps and attempt to do some grouse grinding too. And then write a willmack grouse grind fic (yes, again) but this time it's from the perspective of the grouse grind (not sure how to make that work but I'm sure I have attempted weirder things).