Dear Shakespeare, eloquently go fuck yourself

I AM A MINOR FRESHMAN IN HIGHSCHOOL FUCK OFF| She/Her | fanfiction writer | wannabe poet | bisexual | ENTP | googled fancy words to fake being creative | major bsd fan

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Louis and Lestat are opposites but the same in the way that they're two statues carved out of the same stone

One of the biggest things I feel like effects the characterization of loustat is the fact they're both the same and any time I see people act like they're complete polar opposites it doesn't feel canon. Obviously they're different everybody knows that. But I feel like they're so similar in so many ways I don't see a lot of people point out. They both get depressed easily I mean even before they were vampires they were mentally ill. Lestats version of depression is throwing parties it's self destructive it's hedonistic his depression is like an overdose on pleasure and attention meanwhile, Louis brand of depression is isolation it's avoidance it's silence because his entire life he has had to avoid what he is to cope it's not as passive as Armand is but it's definitely resigned it's acceptance. When Claudia was gone for those seven years sure he despised Lestat but did he leave no because this is just how it is he is stuck with Lestat until eternity and there is nothing either one of them can do about it. And that's why in the end it's not Louis who kills Lestat yes he wanted to but he wouldn't because this is just how Lestat is and they won't get better but Louis won't leave and Lestat obviously won't either so Claudia has to be Louis heart she has to be the one to say that Louis needs to do something about this. (Side note: as the child of a domestic abuser...funny how Lestat's my favorite character isn't it... but seriously this isn't me saying why didn't Louis leave or blaming him this is me just analyzing that) because above all else Louis is filled with an intense shame Louis doesn't have to say he hates himself when the proof is literally in season one. Another example is, both of the toxic relationships they have with their mothers. One thing that's so interesting to me is that Lestat can look at Louis and his relationship with his mother and like actively see that there's something wrong with it at least a little bit we especially see this in the way that Lestat is so genuinely bitchy towards her. But when it comes to himself he sees Gabrielle as this person who gave him every opportunity yes he resents him (? Gabrielle definitely doesn't use she/her pronouns for like anybody other than Lestat so I'm going to refer to them by using they/them pronouns or he/him) Lestat romanticizes every single relationship he has but especially with Gabrielle he claims he and his mother shared each other's darkness that they were the only family each other could stand but if you see how neglectful Gabrielle is and how Lestat's been basically sexualized since birth. Lestat loves them and yearns for their attention and at the same time there's this deep resentment. One thing I find interesting is how Louis is so much like his mother when he's mad while Lestat is arguably the complete opposite of his mother. I do think this is one of those cultural differences between the two Louis being a black man was forced to have this hyper masculinity thrust upon him he must be the sole provider all the responsibility was on him but on the other hand Lestat being a white man in a abusive family wasn't expected to do anything he had no responsibilities he had no attention put on him it's privilege not to have to worry about anything or constantly be under scruinty but it's also neglect. Lestat's histrionic personality stems from a lack of attention in his childhood while Louis avoidant personality stems from this hyper focus the family had on him. Due to the death of his father he's essientely thrust into this role of the man of the household normally this burden would be shared between brothers but because of Paul's disability; which at this time inherently strips him of his strong title as a man that leaves all this hyper masculinity to Louis. Even though Louis is not an only child he's treated like one by the narrative as if he's the only male in the family.

While Louis was carved to be the man of the family Lestat was never expected to be anything at all he was the youngest of seven sons. Not only was Lestat valued less than his siblings he was treated almost like an unwanted daughter would be treated back then. Let me explain further so anytime Lestat tries to escape his terrible family

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I think Hannibal should have been abused by Will a lot more

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god these bitches

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See the difference between Hannibal and Will is that if Will did any of the shit that Hannibal did back to him Hannibal would be incredibly turned on that man is the world's biggest masochist in a human suit

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love corrupting characters in my fics actually. yeah, that classic 'if it feels good then it can't be that bad' trope where a character knows it is, in fact, that bad. but the sex temptation is too good.

now apply this to enemies to lovers yaoi where an antagonist manipulates and corrupts the protagonist whom he's obsessed with, or the protagonist takes his revenge and counter attacks by manipulating and corrupting the antagonist who's ruined his life, until one of them, while on both knees, crying, goes fuck if it feels good then it can't be that bad.

(Hwang In-ho and Seong Gi-hun)

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is this not literally that one scene from the summer hikaru died

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Being a Shen Jiu hater means that no matter what you say about that man you'll never be his number one hater because it's mxtx herself like she really said trust this evil bastard will be dealt with every single time we get a description of him being tortured by Bingge it really fills me with intense glee that even if most of the fandom likes the guy mxtx does not and to make matters worse the guys body is possessed by a stranger and getting railed by the boy he hated for no reason and everybody likes the imposter in his body better than him

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Am I the only one who doesn't understand why people say that The Song of Achilles ruined the way people perceive Achilles and Patroclus because like most of the time when people are making statements about The Song Of Achilles they don't mean it about every interpretation of Patroclus and Achilles to me that feels like comparing Hazbin Hotel to The Bible sure Hazbin Hotel uses the idea of Christianity but I'm sure it's clear to everybody that if they want to actually read the Bible they could like if you want to read The Iliad then read The Iliad this is just a personal opinion but also people saying that Madeline Miller is misogynistic for writing from the perspective of a man in a time where woman were expected to just handle things really miss the point to me it's good writing if you feel like you're reading from the perspective of a man because you are reading from the perspective of a man growing up in a time where women being assaulted is normal "the woman were all props" yeah that's the point that's how women were seen honestly it would have been worse if she didn't show the brutality of a man's thinking back then so many people act like this is a book being told from a completely objective standpoint and Miller is just sitting here telling us her world views when she's writing as a character

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I haven't slept in a week but this song is loustat coded or I'm delusional it's probably both

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MadoHomu: Madoka and Homura aren't an opposites attract ship

One thing that I feel like most Madoka Magicka copycats and (some fans) seem to misinterpret when it comes to making Homura-esque characters is the assumption that Homura is the opposite of a what a magical girl is and that's just not true. The idea that if Madoka is the ideal magical girl then Homura is the opposite feels so black and white and doesn't do Homura's character justice. Homura fits this standard of a magical girl to a tee, she's loyal and determined, she can be extremely kind and she would sacrifice herself and her own sanity for the people she loves, for the world she loves. The subversion is that instead of this being a good thing it's a bad thing it's bad that Homura would sacrifice her sanity to save Madoka it's bad that she would rewrite the universe and break a part of the law of cycles just so the people she loves can be happy. Homura is a good magical girl and that's what makes her a 'bad' person. Homura like most of the other magical girls is a magical girl that belongs in a universe like Sailor moon (I have never seen sailor moon). Because shes would be the perfect person for a wholesome magical girl show but she's not, that's the tragedy that's the subversion. The situation and the universe she's stuck in is actively against her. In the most simple way I can explain it think of two paintings that are exactly the same except for you invert the colors, technically it's still the same painting sure some of the colors blending might not work the same way it did before but it's still the same. Homura and Madoka are two sides of the same coin, Madoka is the god who so loved the world that she sacrificed her life for it and Homura is the demon who so loved her god and her people that she sacrificed the universe where magical girls could be at peace for it. Love is their main motivator love for humanity, love for each other, it caused Madoka's greatest good and Homura's greatest evil.

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The way Isha's last gesture to Jinx was to reassure her the same way Jinx did when they first met I AM GOING INSANE

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wdym last....haha....what happened

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Arcane and systemic issues aka why Jinx isn't the biggest problem for Arcane's characters

So this post is mainly based on this comment I saw on some random reaction video that said Jinx was the biggest problem in Arcane's universe and why they are wrong. Did we watch the same show? Of course you can root for whoever you want to but I don't feel like you can say people of the undercity revolting are the main problem.

See the thing is Jinx wouldn't have been created as she is if it weren't for her being born on the wrong side of town. I've seen people say Mylo created Jinx or Vi created Jinx but the thing is that arcanes society as it is created Jinx. Often when people talk about powder I see people say that she's only a kid and of course she's bad at stuff, but I think the bigger issue isn't that Powder is bad at stuff it's that she shouldn't have to be good at making bombs, or fighting, or parkour. Powder was a child, a sensitive child at that she's not less talented than any other normal child but, she's surrounded by other kids who have had to have thick skin and have been forced to survive on their wits. Of course, compared to Mylo, Claggor, and Vi she's the weak link because she's the only one in that group who doesn't have something she excells in. Powder has the talent of a child because she is a child who shouldn't have been forced to be at anything other than a childs level. Vi has always been a fighter from what we've seen and that's something that helps her but not every kid is like that, not every kid is a natural leader and they shouldn't have to be they're children it's their job to learn. But for kids like Mylo they don't see it that way all they can see is that everybody else is good at something except for Powder. Mylo makes Powder feel bad for not being good at anything, for jinxing every job because in his eyes she should be up to Zaun's standards. Even though the kids in Zaun shouldn't have to be tough, by normal standards Powder is a smart child but by the undercity's standards she's a weak link. It's not that Powder is bad at everything or a Jinx she's just a child who wasn't born equipped for the world she was brought in.

One of the things I love about arcane is how much content they give us outside of the canon show especially, the enemy music video. Scene's that stick with me are when Powder see's these two people fighting and she has this sad little face it's so heartbreaking, and when she does her little finger gun thing with enforcers. Which brings me to my next point, the undercity is ultimately stuck in a cycle of violence. Doesn't it say something that Silco's best idea of how to control the undercity is to introduce a highly addictive and dangerous drug that grants ordinary people the chance to be strong and retaliate. Most of the enforcers don't care about justice and are more focused on keeping people in the undercity than keeping peace. When you're raised around violence for that long it becomes all you know, hell what made Powder get into wanting to make bombs in the first place. As long as Jinx has been alive the enforcers and topside has been the enemy who has repeatedly said let them eat cake to the undercity's struggles. In fact the entire undercity is full of Jinx's, people who crave violence and chaos who begin to have an unstoppable rage against topside. Jinx is the person who had the guts to look topside in the face and declare war, a revolution to cut off Marie Antoinette's head. Of course in that moment for Jinx it probably was not a statement it was an act of hate, an act of passion, an act of rebirth.

Jinx is a symbol because of her defiance (killing the counselors) but somebody was going to have to do it eventually. Jinx is every top-siders worst stereotype about people from the undercity personified, but of course she is she's a mentally unstable person raised in a society that would rather pretend she does not exist rather than stopping this cycle of poverty and insanity. Of course she's a stereotype in a government that's done barely anything to support her or her sister. And the thing is it was never about Jinx, well it is but not really. Jinx is a name for the monster, a face to make the people raise their pitchforks and burn the entire coven. Jinx is the image not the movement. The biggest issue with the undercity isn't that the people are naturally disturbed it's that they're trapped in an endless cycle of suffering that ultimately leads to mentally unwell people.

Classism is such a big subject when it comes to arcane that I feel as if some fans refuse to acknowledge in a way that says something other than "oh yeah the under city is poor how sad". So many people talk about how you shouldn't compare trauma but it's objectively clear how class effects how people handle trauma. One of the biggest examples is Powder and Vi's parents death vs Caitlyn's mom dying. A line that sticks with me is during the first episode of season two when Vi says she watched the enforcers kill her parents and that Caitlyn has no idea how that feels then Caitlyn says she does because she's sounds so genuine when she says this but she doesn't at all. When Jinx killed Caitlyn's mom she was allowed to hate Jinx, allowed to hate the people of the undercity and nobody ever tries to justify her mother's death. Vi doesn't have that luxury she can't afford to not like the enforcers, she's not allowed to not like them because "they're a symbol of justice" sure they killed her parents but these are the supposed good guys! Vi isn't allowed to express her grief for her parents because the same people who killed them are the same people supposed to protect them, she can't afford to not like people from top side because "they're the good guys the civilized one's among a sea of beasts" sure they made mistakes and sure those mistakes get people from the undercity killed but still "We're the good guys"

Caitlyn claims that Vi can show people that not all of Zaun supports Jinx which feels wrong especially since Jinx shot that rocket with absolutely nobody supporting her. People supported Silco and that they should fight but in that moment that killed Cait's mom it was only Jinx. Yet for Caitlyn it's not Us vs Jinx, it's Us vs The undercity, she even tells Vi that she thought Vi was on their side. Not the side of justice the side of piltover because all it took for Caitlyn to hate the undercity was one bad person. That's what it took to make her see these people as inhumane and lesser than the people of piltover. Caitlyn and Jinx are parallels and I think the only difference between them that isn't just class is that; somebody gave a name to Powder's monster.

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Random thought but I think a hurricane is the perfect way to describe Lestat and not only because he's a mess who can't be controlled. Just think about how people act during hurricanes some people they're cautious and prepared for the worst possible damage the hurricane can bring because it's unpredictable. Then you have storm chasers people who go directly into the eye of the storm to witness the destruction because of the high of adrenaline and of it's unpredictable nature. The thing is that with these two types of people one thing stays the same nobody wants to actually get caught in the storm, storm chasers may go to the hurricane but nobody actually wants to get caught and injured in the hurricane. Nobody does.

Because as beautiful as the destruction is when it's happening to other things nobody actually wants to be in the hurricane, storm chasers are just witnesses to the destruction essentially. Think about Louis he loves Lestat because he's unpredictable and sporadic, it's charming when Lestat starts playing jazz (or what I assume is jazz I'm not a music nerd) on the piano after playing slow music, but his unpredictably is also what makes him "a lot".

The thing Louis and so many other people love him for is also the very thing that drives people away. Because no matter how beautiful or exhilarating looking at a hurricane is it's still a hurricane. Nobody knows how to stop a hurricane we know how to fix the damage (or keep it there) but you can't prevent a hurricane no matter how hard you try.

I think that's why Lestat's abandonment issues are so much more different in portrayal because it's not as if nobody wants Lestat or nobody's ever loved Lestat. Louis loved Lestat, Claudia loved Lestat, Gabrielle loved Lestat, Nicki loved Lestat. He's not hard to love (at first) and I think that's the point it's not that he has a hard time finding people who love him it's that he's easy to love and even easier to hate. In all of these relationships resentment is something in all of them. (besides his parents and Magnus probably) it's nobody's fault that Lestat's like this not even Lestats.

What can you really do when the thing that draws people to you is also the thing that drives them away?

What do you do when you hear that a hurricane that could wreck your entire town is brewing? You flee if you have the resources to, you run, you slit the hurricane's neck because it's the only thing you can do.

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You know the more I read Queen of the damned the more I start to think Lestat's heroism is actually just romanticized self destructive tendencies like he wants to be a martyr and he wants to be good but also he wants to be remembered ultimately that's why I love his character so much Lestat's a character addicted to pleasure (of all kinds) that when something traumatic happens he has to resort to romantizing it he says he loves Magnus when he gets turned he says he loves akasha when he gets kidnapped. Anyways fuck Akasha and Magnus

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there's something about the fact that Louis was a pimp and Armand was trafficked, something about the fact that nicki always talked about Lestat's light and ended up throwing himself into the fire being swallowed by light, something about the fact that Lestat De "I am very beautiful and I know it" was kidnapped for his looks and the fact that he has this wicked streak, something about the fact that Claudia was saved from dying in a fire only to die from another fire years ago

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bad and stupid post 👍

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thanks? help me wtf is this supposed to mean

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there's something about the fact that Louis was a pimp and Armand was trafficked, something about the fact that nicki always talked about Lestat's light and ended up throwing himself into the fire being swallowed by light, something about the fact that Lestat De "I am very beautiful and I know it" was kidnapped for his looks and the fact that he has this wicked streak, something about the fact that Claudia was saved from dying in a fire only to die from another fire years ago, something about the fact that Louis only trusted lestat even after what happened in episode five, something about the fact that lestat was his mother's strongest child and his father's gentlest, something about the fact that Lestat's biggest sin wasn't staying with the people he loved it was leaving them it was releasing them, something about the fact that Armand stayed with a man who would always love Lestat with a passion, something about the fact that Armand kept calling Daniel a boy and kept insisting that Daniel was a boy when Louis almost drained him never a man only a child, something about the fact that Claudia had Lestat's insatiable hunger and Louis's fascination with humanity

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Loustat and Loumand love vs fascination (take this analysis with no grammar because it's 1am)

One of the scenes that really sticks out to me with Loumand in season two is when Louis tells Armand he loves him and dreamstat starts laughing it's crazy because if this were a Louis and Lestat scene it would have been framed as dramatic and their would have been tears but it's comedic almost when Louis and Armand do it especially when you remember that we never see Louis tell Lestat he loves him yet we as the audience can obviously see he did. Both Armand and Lestat stalked Louis and they both had some sort of soft spot for him before they even actually talked to him and yet, look at how different the way Louis views their first meeting as he says he left the meeting with Lestat thinking only of him but Lestat was real he said things that he meant with Armand it's almost like their meeting is framed as some meetcute he says I will not harm you which yeah sounds sweet until you consider the fact that meetings later he talks about killing Louis. Ever since they met Armand has been presenting himself as a sheep in wolfs clothing and you can say a lot about Lestat but for all his acting he showed Louis who he really was before Louis got in too deep he shows Louis his temper he shows Louis his passions his ramblings his privilege everything I think that says something that Armand would rather pretend to be anything else but what he is a dangerous predator.

And the worst part is it still doesn't work sure love at first sight wasn't something to expect in a gothic romance but listen to how Louis describes meeting Lestat he wanted to be the man and murder the man when Louis was at the party getting ready to kill Lestat he still wanted him all to himself there was this passion for Lestat since their first meeting yeah sure Louis at the moment thinks of this memory fondly but at that time when it happened he was confused like the scene was almost eerily sweet to me

I don't think Louis feels absolutely nothing for Armand I think Louis thinks he loves Armand or at least Armand interests him at first he loves armand in the way you love a spring fling that you don't expect to last through the winter it's fun, interesting and new and that's the main problem with Loumand it lasted way longer than it should have because both Louis and Armand can't be alone a spring fling is nice during the spring when you're bored and depressed but what about when you have a thousand other things you could be doing and you're stuck in a marriage thats like a candle that went out almost five seconds after you lit it for 77 years when the person stops being interesting and fun what's really left of the relationship? Love? Yeah sure maybe but not when you know there's a person out there you loved more than anybody else somebody like Lestat

I feel like this is further proved by how Lestat and Armand react to the boys Louis confides in, for Lestat it was Jonah he got mad about Jonah because he famously heard their hearts dancing and felt the affection Louis had for Jonah especially since Lestat was a lot for Louis. It seems like Lestat thought Louis could fall in love with Jonah and leave him and for Lestat leaving equates with somebody not loving him anymore what threatens Lestat is the idea Louis might not love him and that's ultimately what Lestat wants love he needs attention more than we ever see him need blood he's greedy for it. However, with Daniel he didn't even sleep with Louis so what threatens Armand isn't that Louis might not love him anymore it's that Louis finds Daniel more interesting than him because I think deep down that Armand knows that their love was short lived and the only reason why Louis was still with him was desperation and fascination because Armand knows things even though Louis isn't exactly always curious about vampires he taught Louis how to use fire he does know things that prove useful he clearly doesn't care all that much about the great laws if he let Daniel live this experience because it was never about the great laws it's about Lestat the first interview was a call out to Lestat from Louis and Armand knew that I'm not saying love isn't involved but I'm saying I believe in my opinion it was more about him not wanting Louis to leave because Armand believes he needs a master he needs somebody else to pretend like they have control over him sure yeah him calling Louis Maitre is just for fun he doesn't have to listen to Louis in fact he doesn't listen to Louis sure he keeps Daniel alive but also he turns Daniel eventually Armand is so interesting to me because Armand is a puppet master who wants to feel like a puppet because he never really realized he got cut loose from his strings that's why he potrays himself as helpless even his clothes are meant to make him seem smaller than he actually is he makes people do things for him indirectly TWICE he lets Lestat and Louis destroy his cult coven and then hides behind the words I could not prevent it. Both Lestat and Armand are afraid that Louis will leave them but for different reasons Lestat's afraid Louis will leave him because Louis doesn't love him and Armand literally fucking tortures Daniel aesthetictly just because he's afraid Louis finds him boring he has to be fascinating or else Louis will leave.

Another reason that really shows the differences between Love and fascination is what Louis says to both of them when he wants to hurt them, Louis tells Lestat that's why he's always going to be alone and why they won't work because Louis knows Lestat he knows the thing that will hurt Lestat more than anything else is threatening to take his love and affection away and leave him all alone because Lestat is also a part of the three musketeers of making bad decisions because he can't handle being alone, with Armand though Louis calls him boring because for Louis the worst possible thing to say to Armand isn't I won't love you anymore and I'll leave it's you're boring something that hurts Armand worse if Armand isn't fascinating or fun to Louis then what's the point? What's the point to be in a marriage of spite what's the point of living if Claudia is dead Lestat fucked off to God knows where after the trial and Louis's only companion has lost all the traits that make him want to stay but Louis would rather die than be alone and unloved. But for Loumand the words I love you are like a dagger in both instances when Louis says it (it's fucking 3:46 am if they say it more than twice I'll edit) it's mocked dreamstat laughs Louis laughs while saying it in San Frisco. Love is a weapon when Louis verbally says it after Paul's death. In fact Louis not saying he loves Lestat seems more romantic than him telling Armand he does. Because we as the viewers know he loves Lestat in the way he talks about him, the way he remembers Lestat's ramblings, the way he reacts to Lestat telling him about Magnus, because even though Louis memory has bias ultimately he remembers Lestat as this beautiful monster who he was in love with we're shown that he loves him. But with Armand and Louis we're told their in love but when is it shown with Loustat their was an intimacy in the shadows because they were in a openly homophobic town but with Loumand their relationship seems more like a performance they hold hands in public but in private they're divided when Louis was supposedly falling in love with Armand in Paris he says they aren't companions to Santiago and I think that's why Armand lied about saving Louis because that was the only major thing he could do that would make Louis want to stay, Lestat turned Claudia for Louis in his love Lestat brought the azalea for Louis because he loves him he shows Louis he loves him but what does Armand do? He threatens to kill Louis he won't turn Madeline for Louis sure he tells Louis he loves him but it's not shown not like how Lestat's love is. AND LESTAT DOES IT AGAIN he saves Louis again he proves that he loves Louis again when Armand can't or won't the only thing is the opportunity presented itself where Armand could take the credit for it he could please the coven and keep the guy at the same time because if Armand wouldn't have taken credit for that they wouldn't have stayed together he would have left. Would Louis have gotten back together with Lestat? Probably not but the point is the 77 years wouldn't have happened. Daniel calls it a seismic lie because it is that's what the relationship is based on that's the reason Louis stayed because he felt like he owed it to Armand and that's why he doesn't hesitate to leave Armands when he learns it.

I think that's what makes Loumand so interesting is that Louis doesn't want someone soft he wants the chaos back of Lestat once it's taken away he doesn't want a manipulative pillow who hides all his flaws and does everything he says he wants Lestat who screams back at him with the same passion that burns like a furnace Lestat who can't help but be so passionate about everything he does Lestat who does too much and that passion makes Lestat feel so human even when he's doing the most inhumane things whereas Armand acts as if he's above it all like he's some type of God but also portraying himself as weak and helpless in other situations that makes him so inhumane which could also be why Daniel ends up falling for him. Humans are attracted to the inhumane I mean that's the whole reason vampires exist there's something fascinating and enthralling about a beautiful monster. Especially to Daniel who was already doing drugs he was already compelled and used to getting addicted to things to someone like that being a vampire sounds awesome he wanted to become a vampire even back then.

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WELL FUCK YOU TOO CLYDE WHERE WAS THIS WHEN GROWN ADULT MEN WERE TRYING TO SOLICIT ME AND SENDING ME NUDES WTF

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kms when did I write this is going to take fucking forever to edit

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THINGS I DID WITHIN THE FUCKING YEARS I HAVEN'T BEEN ON TUMBLR IN CASE YOU CARE

TW

start playing genshin impact

got a boyfriend

break up with said boyfriend x2

get an entire different friend group online

convince a girl not to off herself while being suicidal myself

start watching hazbin hotel

go to church while watching hazbin hotel

twist my ankle so bad I thought I might need surgery

listen to laufey

have a toxic yuri relationship

edate

become a mitski fan

realize my irl friends are all assholes

get arlecchino

AND I STILL DIDN'T WRITE THE STORY I STARTED TWO YEARS AGO OMFG THE ADHD STRUGGLE