Shout out to everyone who's emotionally unstable

I'm Vic and I have Borderline Personality Disorder

[bpdamiright]

who else constantly has to restrain themselves from asking people if they hate you  

[bpd-vic]

Today is my 21st Birthday

I havn’t felt like celebrating my birthday this year and I told my friends and family that I didn’t want any big celebration. I spent the day hanging out with a friend and it was a good day but I’m feeling really bad now - really empty like my life means nothing.

[rottenbutrecovering]

*taps my personality like a mic* is this thing on?

[pumpkinspicelexatte]

*screenshots things for emotional permanence reasons*

[makingsenseofbpd-blog]

how do i go from calmly sitting there to “i should probably go and kill myself right now”

[everybodyvanishes-deactivated20]

Raise your hand if you feel like you’re losing your mind 🙋

[bpd-vic]

Me: I don't get why so many people think I'm a good person, I'm really not? I'm kind of a really awful gross person actually?

Someone: *acknowledges the fact that I've done something shitty*

Me: what the fuck?? What the fuck. Who do you think you are

[c-ptsdofficial]

it is not selfish to want to commit suicide

it is not selfish to self harm

it is not selfish to crave attention

it is not selfish to not be able to function

it is not selfish to back out of plans because you’re having a rough day

it is not selfish to have rough days

it is not selfish to need emotional support

it is not selfish to be mentally ill

[yugaks]

[fdsfjdsfjkf93723679267-deactiva]

being mentally ill + suicidal at a young age (before 18) is. strange, because you grow up with this idea that one day you’ll finally snap, turn off, be brave enough to kill yourself, so you don’t really plan for the future. adulthood- further life, it isn’t for you, nor do you feel included within the future of it. it isn’t.. it isn’t part of your life plan.

and then before you know it you’re 18 and you’re an adult but you never thought you’d get this far and sure it’s great that you’re still alive you guess but also. you feel so alone + lost in a world you never expected or planned to be a part of.

[bpd-vic]

me: i have diagnosed myself with several mental illnesses in the past, every single one i've researched for about a year before being diagnosed with the same exact mental illnesses i thought i had. i did extensive research before labeling myself with these illnesses, and even then i never stopped looking into them to double-check that i'm still experiencing the symptoms. self-diagnosing greatly helped me as it gave me a support system and a group of people i was able to relate to and talk to about my feelings. it helped me realize i wasn't alone and it really helped me cope with my problems until i was able to get professional help.

Neurotypicals: umm sweaty i think you just have a good 'ol case of psych student syndrome :) you really shouldn't just label yourself with these very Real and Bad problems just because you heard about it once uwu self-diagnosing is Evil it stole my wife and burned down my house you shouldn't do it Ever it'll only hurt you uwuwuwuwu

[bpd-trichster]

the beginning of every therapy session

therapist: how are you?

me: ummmm

therapist: how have you been feeling this week?

me: error content not found

[c-ptsdofficial]

that intense self-hatred after every social interaction amirite 

[xfucktrump]

Perks of BPD

• unpredictable as hell

• obsessing over new obsession brings the literal Joy™

• what is stable

• lots of super cool meds B-)

• depression becomes The Great Depression

• i love my fp i need them in order to breath

• i love nothing, i need nothing,,

• needing no sleep

• needing all the sleep

• we dont feel the emotion, we are the emotion

• discovering Today’s Personality™

• i am the most flawless being

• i want this mirror out n goNE NOW

• this current emotion is the only emotion

• disassociated so im only physically here rn please don’t try to make me speak

• we can choose to not actually hear you

• its 5 am but im not tired ????

[bpdspyro]

“you can buy pretty much anything on amazon!”

oh shit, really?

[mexicanborder-line]

just borderline things #6193

writing a post on your bpd blog and making sure to include ‘bpd’ or 'borderline’ in it so that The Neurotypicals™ don’t take it

[mental-ch-illness]

ahaha yeah sorry for saying sorry so much man its just that i wish i could apologize for my existence because im 100% sure the world would be better off without me sorry