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Escape

Since we left our mother’s womb

we’ve been searching

for something

we don’t even know

Maybe for the water surrounding us

maybe for the sound of our mother’s voice

maybe for the safety,

for the place that we can call our home

We’ve been trying to get back,

to escape this cruel world

but when we grow up

we won’t fit in there anymore

maybe we have to create

our own safe womb

so we don’t have to

escape this cruel world

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Crumpled paper

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Some of my fav ethel cain lyrics🤍

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When you play outside

and your clothes get dirty

so you lay down in the mud

and cover yourself completely

You don’t want to be seen if

you’re not clean

Many years ago, you covered yourself in mud

Today I’m still in the shower, trying to get it off

I can’t break the curse you

didn’t know you put on me

Dirty hands touching your baby soft skin

It doesn’t really matter

when you know you’re dirty forever

Still I’m wasting my time

cleaning the body of mine

That was one yours

and that you have lost

to my younger self

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Slowly fading away

Getting smaller

and smaller

Take another pill

drink it down with water

I don’t want you to see me

I just want you to see my pain

Hope my body won’t make it

to another day

I’m fading away

Getting smaller and smaller

I want to disappear

to become invisible

When mind is filled with numbers

there is no space

to think about anything

anything else

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I don’t want to win anymore

I’m happy to lose

feels like it’s the only thing I can do

It’s not like I get to choose

But if I got to choose

I’d never join this game

I would go back to my mother’s womb

and stay

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Deer

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Touch the bottom

I don’t wanna be drowning forever

I want to jump into the water

let my body sink

gasp for air

touch the bottom

let myself be a part of the underwater garden

Just then swim towards the surface

take a pearl as proof

that I really

was at the bottom