WARNING !! — this is a diary blog about jiraiblr and yanblr + more. This blog will contain generally unhealthy things, such as but not limited to : possessive , obsessiveness , body issues , dysphoria , self-destruction , self-unalivement , mental health & illness ! also not safe for work topics, will be tagged when so.
I am matching w @npdrei !! Go follow it now
ㅤ֪𓏼 ͡ ABOUT ME ︶𓈒†๋
Call me Towa or Euphoria on this blog , I also don't care abt nicks or petnames , u do u ♡ I consider myself a girlboy gaybian who leans moreso towards masc and male identity wise, but am also afab and therefore understand being treated as fem and female ! Either way is okay. 𐔌ᩧ I don't use pronouns rlly, I prefer my name alone, but I also use any pronouns cuz I cannot be bothered to correct or gaf abt anyone who uses them on me, simply a preference for none. ◞ I'm also extremely hypersexual and aroace. (I can go into more detail if anybody is interested in this topic, I most definitely find it interesting myself)
I'm mentally ill in many ways, I have aspd dpd & bpd, I have some npd symptoms but I do not qualify as an actual narcissist, might be cuz I have a narc fp whom I mimick, or maybe cluster b overlap, hell if I know. I am autistic level-2, I am dyslexic, and I have adhd, ocd, gad, agoraphobia, depression, and c-ptsd. As well as mentioned above hypersexuality. && a eating disorder, and Dysmorphia and Dysphoria. I consider myself plural, but I don't consider myself disordered in that aspect. I am also physically disabled and require walking aids mainly using a wheelchair.
Like mentioned above, I HAVE an fp, it is also my dp and exception. It is my boyfriend whom I luv oh so very much, it is the target of my obsession and possession. And we are in a mono relationship, therefore although I welcome parisocialism and all the praise and worship you want to give me, I will not be romantically interested in any of you, not that I have to capability too do so, or be genuinely romantic anyway. (Aromantic luv)
ㅤ֪𓏼 ͡ BYI ︶𓈒†๋
I am sensitive like crazy lmao, not in the sad sense in the "I get fucking pissed rlly fast" sense lmao! It will be no surprise if I do angry rants on here, BUT I like praise and worship, be parasocial I luv u parasocial freaks ♡ u are fucking awesome if you do !! No trying to degrade me or anything like that I will literally just not respond to you! Fuck you ants, only good boys & girls get responses! I also love becoming friends with any of my oomfs, absolutely interact with me anytime you can! I luv u guys
I'm kinda hella problematic in mannyy ways, my userbox is not a joke, If you have a dni then I'm on it, I'm not tryna get into allat as that's not what this acc is rlly for, but like I'm radqueer, n3cr0 (I am pro-consent! I am not a contact n3cr0.), pro-endo, pro-fiction, darkship, rpf, u get it I think, but I do actively ignore dni's and not reading em cuz idgaf and it ends up w me break them on the regular, so uh, no big surprise if I turn out to b on yours oki?! You can always DM me specifically if you have questions about this or want to ask about your own dni I'll be honest if you directly ask me
I am a loser LMAO, and I wanna get worse, as worse as I possibly can! Probably not a good idea to interact with me if you're one of those people trying to get better, I am not a good influence, I'm already a loser with a gambling addiction, terrible self-esteem, communication issues, an eating disorder and terrible issues with self harm, and I'd say I'm a boy failure but I'd be lying considering I have more ex's then any person should and I'm a lit whore, (I have no clue why ppl r still into me) but someday I will be..! trust me.. I aspire to be that level of fucked up
when you get this, (if you want to!) list 5 songs you like to listen to, publish. then, send this ask to the last 10 people in your notifs (positivity is cool!!)
The last ten people in my notifs were @dreadedbeats, @dreamyyami, @amijolly, @bloody------snow, @carry-my-love, @pearl-in-vinegar, @fallenangels-rot, @bzzybeeslurking, @eternal-stay, and @ryousanmorax :)
hi husband hiii HELLO hi can u answer the "my fictional identity" of the ask thing u repost hi in my opinion w are ivandrew but thats not my actual special interest so I also say w are wemmrot, squidswag or wifiessquid
(Reality : we are every ship ever)
Hi my darling <3 didn't expect the darling herself to show up to the darling themed ask game LMAO && In my brain we're all towa slow damage ships but I'm just autistic about him right now , I agree on all of urs too, esp ivandrew my guys, My opinion generally changes with my mood interests and the day but I also like Ivantill Parfies YoshiKaru Soukoku Braun/Kim Soleum (WTF IS THEIR SHIPNAME BRO) rn !!
— made by @pavlovspet. isn’t this such a good idea? i’m so smart.
— question titles are based on ‘stereotypical’ irl yan traits,, for fun, say if the stereotype is true for you or not when answering the question!
— dividers from misc dividers posts . .
“ queue is for losers ” : how patient are you with your darling, both during and before the relationship?
“ fancy ass tags ” : what do you picture your dream life with your darling being like?
“ interact with (extreme) caution ” : how easily are you provoked or triggered by your darling vs other people?
“ my fictional identity ” : if you and your darling were any two fictional characters, who would you be? ++ if you could be in any fictional world to live in with your darling, what would you choose and why?
“ at least two evil exes ” : do you look past or work out your darling’s wrongdoings? are they something you’d rather punish your darling for or ignore?
“ hasn’t seen the sun in fifteen years ” : if you could pack for a nice picnic with your darling, what would you bring?
“ i hate my parents ” : do you ever want to start a family with your darling? would you want any pets?
“ one million hours in hoyoverse ” : if you could introduce your darling to one of your interests, what would it be? ++ if you have a darling, what’s your favorite interest of theirs?
“ hates at least one other person on yanblr ” : if you had to choose, would you rather befriend your darling’s friends or isolate your darling from their friends?
“ side hustle on jiraiblr ” : how do you respond or feel when your darling is upset? how well are you able to handle them at their ‘worst’?
“ has 58 mental illnesses and is banned from most public spaces ” : would you leave your darling if they caused your mental health to get to an all-time low? if not, how would you deal with your health?
“ never has post ideas (like how op had no title ideas for this question) ” : if you could transform into any animal with your darling, real or mythical, what are you choosing? ++ if you have a darling, what animal most reminds you of them?
I’d readily discard my future if it meant that you and I would be together. My dreams, my aspirations, my hopes… when I look at you, you become the sole source of them. You become everything I want, and I easily discard everything I wanted.
Oki so husband was just sleeping takin napp while I was tweaking, it was nothing he just fell asleep .. well I'm free now! Husband back! Be proud I survived two hours alone
YES, you should be able to be yourself on the internet! NO, people do not have to interact with you if they dont want to. the block button is given to everyone for a reason, it is not a crime or personal attack if someone blocks you. especially if they are a stranger, you should not be going after them for it.
Btw uh mooties, u can ask for like my uh discord if u ever want ittt I feel easier talking to people on discord it's less scary.. maybe I should put that in my biooo I see other people with it in their bio so I should too, just don't be surpised when I have very different shit than this blog, i hGw many identifies and my main discord is not aligning with this one at all lmao
Just know... if I see you say shit like this... about a menhera or mentally ill blog... I will be petty, I will find even the smallest little thing that goes against tos... and I'll report you just to be petty.
