I want you to look at me.

"To love. To love is not to look only at one another. It is to look together, in the same direction." (Independent RP blog for Atoli from the .hack//G.U. series. Crossover friendly, AU friendly, multiship: among others! Please read about About before interacting. Tracking #brokenbrambling) (This blog may contain triggering content pertaining to suicidal depression, self-harm, neglect, and emotional abuse/manipulation. Even though I try to tag triggers using the #x cw method, please consider unfollowing/not following if you feel uncomfortable with these themes.)

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i’m gonna need to make icons though like

a lot of the old livejournals i got icons for atoli from are down now,,,

maybe pixiv or something idk

i really don’t want to watch Trilogy just to make icons

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                                                                    You shouldn’t forget about things like gratitude, or consideration ,

 Just because we’re inside of a game.

(Indie Atoli from .hack. Please read /about before interacting. Tracking #brokenbrambling)

[brokenbrambling-blog]

so yup

i’m making my comeback B)

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                                                                    You shouldn’t forget about things like gratitude, or consideration ,

                                                                    Just because we’re inside of a game.

(Indie Atoli from .hack. Please read /about before interacting. Tracking #brokenbrambling)

[brokenbrambling-blog]

Don't chase the rabbit

Send me “Don’t chase the rabbit” and your muse will be shown a random memory from my muse’s past.

“Mamaaaa! Mamaaaa!”

Mrs. Kusaka sighed, looking away from her paper to face her five-year old daughter, jumping up and down, a manga in her hand. “What is it, Chigusa?” she asked, her patience already thin.

The little girl smiled, pulling on her pants. “Maaamaaaa! Mamamamamamamama! I-I was watching TV, and there’s something called Halloween in America! A-and, my school’s having a costume party!”

She sighed. Yeah, Halloween was just starting to catch around in Japan. Not even a real holiday, just an excuse to give kids cavities. Does this culture-less thing really pass as a holiday in the west? she thought with distaste. "And…?“

"Mama, I want a costume! Can we buy a costume for the costume party!” She held a volume of Sailor Moon. “Usagi-chan! I wanna be Usagi-chan for Halloween!”

“Chigusa, please don’t be ridiculous. We already have plenty of candy. It’s a waste of time, Chigusa.”

“… But mama…”

“It’s better you learn this young than later on: you shouldn’t waste money on really pointless things like this. Your birthday will be in a month, and we’ll have a party and you’ll get some new toys. Doesn’t that sound a lot a lot more exciting than some costume party? I know you’re very young, but it’s better to learn these things young, like papa and I did: respecting money and respecting your parents. Papa and I work hard to have this house and support this family, and you need to learn to respect that, Chigusa.”

“…”

“… Chigusa…”

“Yes, mama…”

“Good,” she said, looking back at her paper. “… I’ll cook your favorite meal for dinner tonight, OK? And I’ll let you have two scoops of ice cream for desert instead of one,” she said, giving her a smile and ruffling her hair, somehow believing that made thins alright. “Who needs sily costumes you’ll never wear again when you have ice cream and a full tummy, hmmm?”

“… Ok, mama.”

It was the very first time gyudon and extra ice cream for desert didn’t make her feel better.

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*sweats*

so uh

i had to do a system restore and ah

lost all my chrome user accounts and

sort of forgot about atoli again whoops,,,

i

should get this blog started up again tbh

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gaaah, sorry for vanishing on ya'll again x.x

i had to do a factory reset, and while i backed up a lot of my most important files i did lose all of my icons, which has sort of set back my desire to start up my less active blogs again,,,

but!

i still love atoli's character to death aND hopefully this week, i'll be able to come online here a bit more and get some replies done!

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silverstarcross replied to your post “the song I have in my music player (you have to turn it on), Sayoko ...”

OOC: You rarely log on, like about once a week at most, are you okay? Anyway, Sayoko sounds interesting to listen to, sometime and I hope we can RP soon.

i'm just not too active here is all

i'm much more active over on my personal, thewitchofsalvation, and my pokemon rp blogs than here tbh

that's all

[sakakididnothingwrong-deactivat]

The onslaught of spells hit the Edge Punisher dead on and hard which earned Atoli a pained cry from Sakaki as he tried to withstand it. His health bar was quickly falling close to zero but the boy could only sit there and pray that his only friend would hear him out before she unleashed more spells. 

"I-…I don’t know, I could have been. When I woke up I was in the hospital…" He replied hesitantly. "I just want to know what has happened…why are you acting this way?" The green haired avatar pleaded.

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"...."

Atoli wen't very quietly, lowering her Lost Weapon and ending her onslaught.

And this is how you repay me, you bitch!?

"... Toru..."

She sighed.

"... How long have you been away, Sakaki?" she asked, not answering his last question.

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the song I have in my music player (you have to turn it on), Sayoko

is actually

a really depressing song about suicide

if you aren't triggered by that sort of content, here's a really good english cover by the same person who sings the Japanese version in my music player

with all my RP muses i usually have a few songs i listen to in order to really get into my muse when i'm doing replies and

these are the ones i listen to the most when doing atoli's replies rare as it is

[ai-ofblueflames]

             "…" That was stupid, let alone illogical. Why would she assume that the Azure Knight would talk to her? No… He wouldn’t dare to compromise himself, his comrades and Aura. He’d rather be reduced into nothing but a pocket of scrap data than do so.

             So, he shook his head. Refusing all parts of the conversation and her supposed good word to the Adept Rogue that pursued him.

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... Well, so much for that.

"... So you're really not going to answer anything I ask?" she asked, sighing. "... I don't get it," she told him. "Those people weren't infected with AIDA, were they...? So..." she shook her head in the real world. "... I want to believe there's a reason you're doing this, but if you're not going to answer, then I guess Haseo was just right about you."

She rose her staff. She didn't really have any offensive spells, but she had a few items.

"... Last chance, OK?"

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welp, I finally got icons for Chigusa in the real world~ now that I have these icons (AND I GOT A LOT NOW), I'll now be up for RPing Atoli/Chigusa in the real world, so interactions are no longer limited to online interactions in The World!

If you're curious, the name of the girl on the bottom is Kagura Sae from Hadi Girl, and the top is Rino Endou from Jinsei

I did not make these! All credit to these icons go to precieuxrenarde, who was generous enough to let me use them!

also Atoli now has glasses offline

i'm ok with this

EDIT: mixed up the series they were from, fixed-

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Don't chase the rabbit

Send me "Don't chase the rabbit" and your muse will be shown a random memory from my muse's past.

"Mamaaaa! Mamaaaa!"

Mrs. Kusaka sighed, looking away from her paper to face her five-year old daughter, jumping up and down, a manga in her hand. "What is it, Chigusa?" she asked, her patience already thin.

The little girl smiled, pulling on her pants. "Maaamaaaa! Mamamamamamamama! I-I was watching TV, and there's something called Halloween in America! A-and, my school's having a costume party!"

She sighed. Yeah, Halloween was just starting to catch around in Japan. Not even a real holiday, just an excuse to give kids cavities. Does this culture-less thing really pass as a holiday in the west? she thought with distaste. "And...?"

"Mama, I want a costume! Can we buy a costume for the costume party!" She held a volume of Sailor Moon. "Usagi-chan! I wanna be Usagi-chan for Halloween!"

"Chigusa, please don't be ridiculous. We already have plenty of candy. It's a waste of time, Chigusa."

"... But mama..."

"It's better you learn this young than later on: you shouldn't waste money on really pointless things like this. Your birthday will be in a month, and we'll have a party and you'll get some new toys. Doesn't that sound a lot a lot more exciting than some costume party? I know you're very young, but it's better to learn these things young, like papa and I did: respecting money and respecting your parents. Papa and I work hard to have this house and support this family, and you need to learn to respect that, Chigusa."

"..."

"... Chigusa..."

"Yes, mama..."

"Good," she said, looking back at her paper. "... I'll cook your favorite meal for dinner tonight, OK? And I'll let you have two scoops of ice cream for desert instead of one," she said, giving her a smile and ruffling her hair, somehow believing that made thins alright. "Who needs sily costumes you'll never wear again when you have ice cream and a full tummy, hmmm?"

"... Ok, mama."

It was the very first time gyudon and extra ice cream for desert didn't make her feel better.

[thelastknightofbalder-blog]

Send me "Don't chase the rabbit" and your muse will be shown a random memory from my muse's past.

[sakakididnothingwrong-deactivat]

 ”Atoli!” He barely had time to dodge out of the way of the spell as he stumbled to avoid it. “What did I do to you, Atoli? What could I have possibly done to deserve your rage?” He fired off more questions, hoping to get more of an answer. 

 ”Please…I don’t know what I’ve done…I-…” Sakaki stumbled over his words as the fear of loosing Atoli as a friend seeped into his mind. How was he to talk to her like this? She didn’t want to listen but he wanted her to know that he meant no harm. 

"Atoli, I’ve been away for a long time…I woke up in the hospital not long ago and was informed I went missing. I don’t know what’s happened." 

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"Shut up shut up shut up! You're not fooling me, Sakaki!"

She launched a few more spells, her adrenaline pumping and clouding her judgment, breathing deeply as his words slowly processed.

"... T... the hospital...?"

...

He... he had disappeared...

... Was it possible?

"... Were you in a coma, Sakaki? You get once chance to answer."

[sexxistential-deactivated201704]

this is probably my favorite tweet I’ve ever seen in my whole life

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J̶̬̩̤̣̅o̲̓̊́i͙͔̬͈͕̠̗n͖͉̠͖̩̬ ͔͓̞̖ͧͬ̐͂ͭa̠͙̲ͤ͑̈́̀nͪ̀ͫ͏͇t̛̠̪͎̞̠̝͔̓ͬi̫̖̟̝͇̅̓͠-̤̌̅̋̄̍̂͛͘K̘͈̗̘̱̥͝i̬͕͍ͥ̄ͧ́ͮ͒͂t̷̠̠ͪ͆ͬe̝̿̾͌ͪ̃͒͟ ̻̮̬͍̍̎̊̃́ͅi̬̹̠̬̺̞̔ͤ̔ṅ̖̕ ̤̱̠͓ͧ̔̽h̥̟͎ͯ̈́́̏̋̕ĩ̭ͦͭs̨̈́̍ͨ̊̽̈ ͙̬̻͑̈͊̄̓̔̕d͍̮̫̭ͧ͋ͣͭ̓̄o̘̩̫̱̝ͬm̳͙̰̤̝̰̀̓ͣ̋ͭ̔ͣì̇́ͭ̐͡ṋ̩͈̺͍͈̠ͦ̃ͫ́͜á̯ͬţ̞̦̤ͫͦ͌ͦ͐ͬ͋ĩ̖̻̮͎͇̅̈́̀̾̏̑o̶̖̞̯̜͂̍̊̊nͤ̆̾̉ ͓̈͒͒ơ͇̳̝̪ͫͥ̀͒̚v̨̪̪̭̘̟̦̔e͆ͥ̇̊̆͑͗͏̥̭̳͚̹r̛͚̗̖̻̝͛̅ ͕̽͗ͫ'̺̹̭̳͉͖ͮͅŤ̙̥̦͇̯̳̏̃̔̾͊h̳̳͓ͥͨ̉̔̂͗͒ēͯ͆ͅ ͙̼͎͈̣̼W̼̳͓͆̇̌̌̆ͪͯô̴͔͚͙͎͊̂̀̿͆ͬͅr̶͓̙͂l͇̲̱͗͆̒́̈͌͞d̮͔͈͙͚̫͂ͤ̋̿̑ͅ'̮̥͉̲̯͙̳̀ ̰ͭ̏̽o̙̗̣̪͍̱͊ͦ̈̍̄͋ͧ͝r̸̘̻̲̉ͩ̎ͅ ̼̼̯͙͎̟ͦͩ͑͠d͈̲̞̓ͭ̾͊̍̀i̞̙͍̭ͪ̌ë́̄

"But Kite that’s rude and mean. Don’t make me get Innis in here!”