Whether you’re a visitor or a follower, here’s some basic information about the content I’ll be posting! Sorry for writing so much, I always tend to write a lot. If you don’t like reading, my page probably isn’t for you and that’s okay!
Who Am I?
My name is Nova (They/She/he) but I can also be referred to as Cherry! The name “Cherry” comes from the first original character I created in my early years. I still consistently write about this character, which may get confusing at times if people also call me, as his creator, Cherry. I hope that isn’t too confusing. 😓
I love watching shows and delving into tv media, I tend to rewatch the same things over & over and in doing so I notice/learn a lot more about these shows/movies than what people would normally get from only their first watch. I also love to play cozy quality of life games, such as Slime Rancher, Animal Crossing, Stardew Valley, and I love to play Minecraft for its quality of life aspects as well. Proud to say I’m learning more about redstone!
What Will I post?
I am a writer/world builder. I love writing stories of my characters, writing interactions that are emotional, impactful, romantic, or tragic. Sometimes I put them in different scenarios, different worlds, and overall try to continually develop them as characters through my writing. I have worlds I’ve worked to create, lots of ideas, and behind the scenes I have hundreds of pages I’ve written for these characters over the years. I will most likely share my digital artwork, short stories, and some character design/world development on this page. Most of the short stories I post will not follow a specific linear story, but if it does it’ll be in the titles.
On top of all of this, I love analyzing characters in animated shows, their relationships, the impact, and the overall themes and messages you can learn from these shows. Whether it’s considered a kids show, or an adult show, doesn’t really matter to me. I like animation, and I like looking for the details people miss when they only watch it once. I will most likely post my artwork from animated works I am interested in. When I’m working on character/character-relationship studies, I may post some of my notes/fun facts I noticed while watching the show.
A Little More Info About Me
I am 20 yrs old. I’ve learned I am neurodivergent (I am working on a diagnosis) and can easily struggle when it comes to social interactions. This has a big handicap on my overall life, motivation, relationships, and goals. I am learning how to regulate, manage, and understand things I struggle with on a daily basis. I tend to be misunderstood in the way I act, and for the longest time I drove myself crazy over it, not realizing how neurodivergent I am, and not having the help I needed. Thankfully, I have people I can talk to about this aspect of my life. Some of the content I may post will be about my self-discovery & things I’ve learned. I’m taking the steps forward I never thought I could, and I feel like I’m in such a better place now than I was before. The more I learn, the more I will use my platform to speak out for people like me, who can be easily misunderstood/mistreated by others due to the handicaps that others may not understand.
I am also queer and part of the LGBTQ+ community, and a lot of the content I post would very much relate to these sorts of spaces. It may come up in my writing, as well as when I free write for myself & my experiences. If that isn’t content you like to see, I would recommend you stay off my page.
Thank You!
If you stayed and read all of this, thank you! I really appreciate the time it took to read this. If you relate at all to the things I’ve spoken about, or have some interest in anything I’ve mentioned, don’t hesitate to interact with my account! I love talking about the things I’m interested in, and relating to others who may struggle in similar ways I do. I am also relatively new to tumblr, but I enjoy having a space to express my writing, and to share development on my original characters. I hope whoever is reading this can have a good day today, and remember to take care of yourselves!
As of recently I’ve been taking more of a step back(ish) in my online presence, and while my life is busy & I’ve got a lot going on and a lot to stress about, I’ve also been pretty demotivated/a little depressed recently in general. It’s not because of anything in particular, that’s all a combination of stuff. But I thought I should at least hop on here and say something because this also contributes to my YouTube-video processes, my streaming, making art, as well as posting content here on my blog.
While I’ve been demotivated, it’s mostly due to my own physical limitations & the environment I currently live in. Essentially, I’ve been living away from where I normally do, without a desk or chair to sit in for quite a few months at this point. It’s nothing too bad, I’m not complaining too much because staying where I am now is better & luckier than where I was before. But, I think the lack of having a desk space is what causes a lot of my demotivation as of recently. I’m very fine tuned in having a space to work/play games, and without it I’ve been finding it harder to do the things I enjoy doing. I’ve been able to enjoy myself by other means though, and those means are going outside & rollerskating.
Basically, I’ve been having the time of my life & love being active, but honestly with how hyper-fixated I’ve been on skating I’ve also been physically exerting myself. So a lot of days after pushing myself, I tend to physically fall back, which is also affecting me mentally. Not only have I been rollerskating, but I’ve also been active in other ways. I went to a trampoline park twice after getting a membership for a month, first time was a lot of fun (the next day I was wiped out) and the second time (which was the beginning of this week) I accidentally hit my head pretty hard and gave myself minor whiplash.
That, plus getting very physically sick, has basically rendered me completely inable to stream or work on YouTube videos, or really do much anything else. Biggest reason being, I can’t talk that well anymore. It hurts to speak with whatever muscle damage I did in my neck so as of right now I can only speak quietly & my voice is pretty raspy and hurts when I get louder. It’s going to take quite a few weeks for it to get better & I have to exercise and stuff. It shouldn’t be anything that’s permanent. I don’t regret being physically active though, because I’m genuinely having so much fun with it. Being active and outside is also just good for people in general so yippiieeee!!!
While physically this kinda sucks rn, mentally I’m still doing fantastically better than before. I’m in a low right now but I know the low times pass, so I tell myself I can get through this just like I have every other time before this. Sure, I’m in pain & I’m sick, I don’t have a desk, and it makes me feel more demotivated to do things I like. HOWEVER!! I’m allowed to sit in bed and not feel too guilty about it when I feel shitty. Even if this puts me into any kind of mental block, I’m sure I’ll be able to get right back out of it quicker than ever when I’m ready to.
Till then, I’ll probably be mostly inactive online with my posts & art until I can actually move my body and I’m not running a fever. Maybe I’ll take some more time to myself, I’m not sure. It honestly just depends on how my life plays out from here. I’ll be back to stream Minecraft on my twitch as soon as I’m able to, so be on lookout for that if you follow my twitch. I think my brain is in the process of maybe turning Minecraft into my special interest for next week. Maybe I’ll try to do a cozy long play stream with no speaking? We will see what I do when we get there.
Anyways!! Thank you guys for reading my overly long explanation with more details about my life than you’d probably ever need to know but whatever ‘cause it’s my blog lol and I’m probably running a mild fever rn sooooo I’m a little delirious. 😅
Thanks for reading and you all will hear from me whenever I’m ready to be heard from again 🛐
Have a fantastical and wonderful and spectacular and beautiful and amazing day today!! 🎉🎊🎉🎊🎉🎊🎉
In recent years online, the term “hyper-fixation” has begun to get thrown around more loosely than it has in the past. This isn’t inherently a terrible thing, because it’s nice to have that vocabulary more out there. But sometimes I think some people don’t gravel exactly what hyper-fixations really are, and how they truly affect people. Hyper-fixations aren’t quirky, nor is it used to describe something you’re “really interested” in. For the rest of this post, I will be expressing my experience with Hyper-fixating as someone who lives with neurodivergence (though I don’t know what I have yet, I suspect it’s ADHD).
Let me start off by saying this, hyper-fixations are brutal, and genuinely debilitating. When you become fixated on something, it’s like you take your hobby/activity/subject and you multiply your focus on it by a million. This means that all your attention, all your thoughts, all your focus, will go specifically towards this one thing. It can make it almost impossible for you to remember to do anything you truly need to do during the day, because you can only focus on this one thing and nothing else. It’s literally the only thing in your head, and you CAN’T get it out. The best way I can describe it is as a record player playing your favorite song on repeat over and over and over again, and no matter what you do you cannot figure out how to turn it off and you hate it but also you don’t.
Not only does Hyperfixating on something often cause you to forget to eat, do laundry, or even sleep for days, it can also cause you to fumble in a lot of your relationships. As someone who lives with (what I suspect to be) ADHD, maintaining focus for me is already extremely difficult. I find it hard to remember details about people (even if they’d told me multiple times), or remember stories that people have told me in the past. It also makes it very hard to sit down and listen when people talk to me for long periods of time, because most of the time I begin thinking about something else, and I don’t refocus on them until midway through. Since this is a problem of mine I cannot fix without medication (which I don’t currently have), I try my best to communicate to my friends/others about this. And honestly, I just tell them when I lose focus because it’s easier than pretending like I’m still listening (I only do this with close friends). Sometimes I will also write things down about my friends/things that we did so that it helps me remember. Living this way can honestly be incredibly frustrating, especially when you sometimes need to ask someone to repeat themselves maybe 3 times before you even get it. It can also be relatively embarrassing, it can make me feel like I’m dumb or stupid because “why can’t you just focus/understand like everyone else” (however this isn’t true, it’s important to speak your affirmations when you feel this way). I always feel bad for doing this to others when they speak to me as well, because I don’t want to seem like a bad friend/disinterested in what they’re telling me. I end up needing to work harder to make sure I’m not a “bad friend” (Though so long as you communicate, real friends understand and won’t get on your ass too much for it, unless they’re trying to tell you something important). It becomes a learning process on how to manage the way I’m hardwired to fit both mine & my friends necessities (though doing this can be hard, it’s still worth it). Often times, I enjoy being in my own space or having time to myself because it’s easier than straining myself to interact with others constantly.
When it comes to already having bad focus, AS WELL AS being hyper fixated on something, it suddenly becomes the only thing I can focus on/talk about is the hobby/activity/subject I’m fixated on. Which makes it virtually impossible for me to listen to others at times, and I genuinely have to try really hard and strain my brain to LISTEN to what people are telling me. It’s mentally exhausting. It’s basically like running yourself in circles until you drop dead on the floor. I’m not even kidding either, it GENUINELY feels like you’re running a marathon and every 5 minutes someone on the sidelines is trying to stop you to chat, but you can’t stop because you need to finish your race. This often leaves me feeling like I’m incredibly annoying, or that people may think I’m too caught up in myself/my own interests instead of theirs. I want to say this isn’t true, but if I’m being honest it kind of is as much as I try for it not to be. So, not only is it really hard for me, but it can also be really hard for anybody I’m around too. This is what I mean when I say hyper-fixations are debilitating. It isn’t just affecting yourself & your life, but it can be debilitating/mentally straining when interacting with others too because you can only think/talk about this one thing. A lot of the time, I try to stay more on the quiet side because I know if I open my mouth I’ll start talking and talking and talking about it. I personally find it genuinely hard to restrain myself from talking about it.
So, if being hyper fixated is so debilitating, what can I do to stop it? Honestly… not much. I can’t get rid of this aspect of myself, but I can learn to manage the struggles/side effects of it. I find that meditation, or taking time to try and clear your mind (though I’ll be honest, I’ve never once in my life had a truly clear mind. Maybe “calm mind” is a better term here) or do a calming activity can help with grounding your focus towards where you want it to be. It won’t be perfect, but it’s better than doing nothing. I also do this thing I call “recalibrating” and I’ll take something soft or plush, and just aggressively rub my face into it until my brain doesn’t hurt/feel weird anymore. I don’t know if that makes sense, but it’s what I do 😭 I normally only ever do it with things I feel safe with/things I perceive I need. Like my stuffed bear, a blanket, sometimes comfort clothes. Maybe even my cat, though she doesn’t like physical affection and runs away. Not only do these work for me to help maintain my focus where it needs to be, but it also helps me redirect myself when I’m overly stressed/overwhelmed with all the constant thoughts in my mind. If anyone else who experiences bad focus has any other tips, feel free to tell it in the comments because I’m interested to hear them.
At the end of the day, neurodivergence and hyperfixations will always be different from person to person. Every brain is hardwired in different ways, and it’s important to look inside of yourself and understand the way you’re hardwired in order to help manage it for both yourself & others. Doing this also allows you to find a lot of understanding within yourself, because you’ll start to see why you do the things you do and begin to really understand it more than you had before.
I gotta go now because I’m hyper focused at this very moment and it truly feels like I put everything on pause just to write about this, but it’s still running in the background and I think it’s genuinely generating steam and overheating at this point and I feel the need to recalibrate, and probably suck on ice cubes because it’s so hot today.
I hope you all have a great day, and could relate to this in some way, or maybe have a bit of a better understanding of things you hadn’t realized before. Toodles my friends!!!
I’m having a bit of trouble deciding wheather I should start Glandolia from Selia’s perspective, or from Cherry’s. I plan to write this story from different perspectives (sort of like the book Unwind by Neal Shusterman), but where I start, and who it’s coming from, has been a difficult decision to make.
Option 1: If I started from Selia’s, most everything from the past would be easily explained. It would start off with her dealing with the antagonists at the lab, before eventually finding the other cast members. Doing it this way would make Selia the main character (which I’m unsure about, mainly because I want to make sure all the main cast get the time they need).
Option 2: if I were to start from Cherrys perspective, then he would come into contact with the others first, and nothing would be explained before the rising events. The readers would learn along the way with him, through his interactions with Selia & some others.
Option 3: I could start from Cherrys perspective, and then later down the line make a prequel that explains Selia’s past with the antagonists from her perspective. This would also give me wiggle room to avoid plot holes during the production.
Option 4: Put your idea into the comments of what I should do / any advice you’d wanna give.
Which should I do?
Option 1
Option 2
Option 3
Voting ended onJul 7
If you’d like to know a little more about the characters, keep reading!
Cherry & Selia are going to end up being the main characters, they have a lot of romantic tension and great teamwork during fights (I like to post their romance on here, so you can find that on my page).
The other main characters will be described in the story, but those characters are Tsuki, Trix, Arakan & Tomioka, Chika & Mira (subject to name change), and the antagonists. There may be a few other characters, but these guys will get the main focus. I’m writing this along with my best friend, so everything may be subject to change. Either way, the story will be told from the proper perspective’s.
This story may start to be realized as a book, and released chapter by chapter on one of the websites out there where people share their writing. However, my main goal is to turn it into a webcomic. Since it’ll be somewhat action based, along with fairytale settings, and lots of different character designs, I would LOVE to draw it all out myself.
I’ll be sharing more about this story on my tumblr blog soon!! Right now, I’m working on it whenever I can because I’m going through the process of moving & I also sprained my ankle (again) in the dumbest way ever.
I can’t wait to share more of it!!! I hope you all have a great day today.
This is a free write explaining my experience with Rollerskating.
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Rollerskating has been a passion of mine for an extremely long time, about 6 years in fact. The first time I was introduced to the sport was through a comic book I got when I was younger (early highschool). It was about a girl who was determined to be a speed skater, despite knowing nothing about skating. After reading the book, I brought the idea of learning how to skate up to my father. Then I learned rollerskating was something my father did every weekend when he was younger, and he found the location of a roller rink close by from his job. He saved up the money, and bought me my first ever pair of roller-skates. They were black and pink speed skates. I was so happy, I wanted to learn right away. We started going skating weekly, and I ended up learning how to go forward very quickly with my dad’s help.
At the time, the people I was close with ended up developing some sort of passion or will to also skate, though I was only ever relatively going with one person (who I am no longer talking to), that is until one of my current best friend’s grew a desire to learn as well.
For the past 3 1/2 years, I had been dealing with extreme dizziness, vertigo, and fatigue which made it hard for me to rollerskate at all without my legs quickly giving out, or feeling dizzy. I would get hurt often when trying to skate because it was something I really wanted to do, but ultimately couldn’t. I couldn’t make it for two laps around the rink without holding someone’s hand, and then needing to sit down for at least 10 or more minutes. For a very long time, I was worried I would never be able to skate as well as I had always wanted to. But as it turns out, most all the dizziness I was experiencing was stress induced due to my family genetics, and a month after cutting ties with that person I was often around, I was no longer experiencing the dizziness and vertigo as extremely as I had been before.
After finally cutting ties with them, I began going rollerskating with my best friend every week again, and I was incredibly shocked by my sudden ability to skate without much (if any) issues. This was the first time I started to become excited about skating again, knowing that I was fully capable of doing it now. But of course, it felt like I was restarting from ground zero on how to actually move around on my skates. It was hard. But I wasn’t quick to give up.
As of recently, I decided to use almost all my free time to go outside to rollerskate, and learn how to do new things. I’ve fallen countless times, I’m covered in bruises, my gear is messed up, but it has genuinely been the most wonderful feeling ever to push myself past my limits without fear of getting dizzy and tripping up. Every time I fall, I get right back up without needing to sit down like I used to. Honestly, I’ve come to learn that falling is the most important part of rollerskating. It means I’m trying the hardest I can to get better at it (but please fall in the correct ways).
Being able to regain my passion for rollerskating has opened up the doors for me to explore who I am in ways I had previously forgotten. Being able to do all of this has allowed me to feel the absolute freedom of life I really needed, and I deeply enjoy going out on my own to practice. Putting on my wheels while being able to play my music and skate around, has literally got to be the best and most wonderful feeling I have ever experienced.
With all of my practice, I can skate forward with no problem, I can skate backwards easily as well, I can balance on one foot, I can jump in my skates, I can handle bumpy roads and I know how avoid debris, I can do this thing where I stick out my foot and spin in a circle (?), I can do the scissors and all sorts of bubbles, I (of course) learned how to stop, and I can crouch down to balance on one foot while sticking out the other in front of me. My only problem is I’m currently finding it hard to transition from forward skating to backwards skating and vise versa. My skating isn’t all that graceful, but I’m sure I’ll get there soon. Despite going on an off skating for years, I’m still a beginner. But! I couldn’t be prouder to be where I am with it now, compared to where I was 6 months ago. It seriously is a huge improvement, because before this I could only go forward while losing my balance often.
Being able to learn more about rollerskating and actually start to do it has got to be the best feeling in the world. It’s so much better than learning all of it and being unable to do it, no matter how much I tried. Along with this, I began drawing more as well, I started taking care of myself & others better than I ever have before, I started finding even more hobbies to learn about, and it honestly feels like the doors have opened to endless possibilities that I never thought was possible before this. What the best part about all of it is? It was me who put myself here. And confidentially, I don’t need someone else by my side to feel the happiest I’ve ever felt. I’ve actually grown to love being in my own presence, so much so that anybody who’s interested in dating me is honestly just competing with how much I love being on my own (I’m so sorry 🫶😔).
To put it simply, if you’re feeling lost in your life, take control of it and pour yourself into your hobbies. Use your emotions as your teachers, and find peace in your own mind. Be brutally honest with yourself. Grow consistency & routine, take things one small step at a time until you can take those bigger steps. Do what’s honestly and truly best for you and be honest with yourself during the whole process. Don’t forget to communicate well with others in your life as well, you need to let them know where you stand sometimes. Understand others when it comes down to it too.
I’ve grown so much more than I thought was imaginable throughout rediscovering my passions. But honestly the funny thing is, this is who I’ve always been. This is who I was 4 years ago, and I’m just rediscovering that person and bringing them back out of the dark. Except this time, it’s with more knowledge, more understanding, and newfound worth. I’ve successfully come to take my life back for myself instead of giving it all to someone else. I’m no longer hiding behind a mask, and I’m free to feel my emotions without fear of someone else being there to push me away.
Im the happiest I’ve ever been. I barely cry anymore, I’m not dizzy anymore, I’m fluent in my hobbies, I have a lot of responsibility, I know how to handle both myself & others, I have complete control over my emotions, and it’s all thanks to me and my efforts. If you’re reading this, please take this as your sign to get out there and do that thing for yourself you’ve been wanting to do. Still be responsible with your actions, and be there for the people you care for, too. And if you’re stuck in a place that doesn’t serve you well at all, then do what you need to do to leave it.
Go find that passion in your hobbies, and love every moment of it. Don’t let the demotivation bring you down, pick yourself back up, tell yourself it’s okay, you can get through this and you can do this. Keep going, keep trying, keep doing what makes you the happiest. There’s always tomorrow, there’s always time for breaks, and there’s always time to plan ahead. You can do whatever you set your mind to. Don’t give up, ever.
I hope you all have a fantastic day today, and please take care of yourselves, drink water, eat food, and do something that makes you feel the happiest you’ve ever felt.
And if you’re like me, and you want to learn how to rollerskate… buy those fucking skates man, trust me. You won’t regret it. Please be safe, and watch tutorials.
I care for you guys, and be safe out there. Go knock em’ dead. 🫶
In the world/story of Glandolia, this is canon. This is an original story.
Writing: Romance & Mystery
Characters: Cherry & Selia (OC’s)
Warning: This is a long read, and an excerpt from a larger overarching story (it’s not fully complete).
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It had gotten very late into the night, the sky was dark with only the moon and stars lighting up the night sky. The streetlights glowed a yellow color, illuminating the sidewalks and brick buildings with a soft orange light. They were on a levee by a large river, after spending the day roaming the area
“How about we stay at that Inn?” Selia was illuminated by beautiful orange light that made her long purple hair stand out.
Cherry looked over toward the Inn, it looked small, but cozy. The sign hanging above the door read “Rosewood Inn” and painted on were vines and flowers. The rest of the building was decorated with a colorful display of plants.
“Won’t the others find it odd we didn’t return?” He replied to her suggestion, thinking about the people Selia found herself to be responsible for, long before she reconnected with him.
“Tsuki is still there, and…” she paused for a moment, looking off to the side before raising her head back up. Her green eyes connected to the gaze of his pink eyes.
“Can I be honest with you?” She noticed a slight concern in his look after she spoke.
“Yeah, what is it?”
“Sometimes I get really tired of doing the same things, and taking care of the same people all the time. Is it bad that I kind of… want out of it?”
It seemed like guilt filled her eyes, in a way Cherry felt sorry to see. He wished he could tell her that it wasn’t something she needed to worry about anymore, and that they could stay out in the open like everyone else… but he knew he couldn’t say that.
“No, it’s not bad to want out of it. Taking care of so many people, I can’t imagine how hard it’s been for you. At the end of the day though, we have responsibility over them all.”
Selia let out a sigh, her eyes drifting off to the side once again.
“Yeah, I guess you're right.”
He couldn’t stand to see her look so sad. He stepped a little closer to her, gently taking her cold hands and caressing them. He liked to feel how cold she was, she felt just like soft snow. She looked up at him again, and in his eyes she saw a glimmer that felt like a thousand worlds.
“I can step up some more and help you out when we get back, and I’ll get you a lot of well deserved breaks. For right now though, do you wanna spend the night with me?”
When he spoke, he gave her a smile that looked a little quirky to her. She grinned, and laughed a bit. She couldn’t help but admire him for trying so hard to help her, and in so many ways she never thought was possible before.
“I’d love to spend the night with you.”
She looked down at the hands he held, he seemed to look down at them too. She smiled in a way that felt like every star was shining brighter in the night. She didn’t speak, but he felt as though he knew what she was thinking.
To her, being able to touch someone, touch him, was like lifting weights off her back. He doesn’t pull away from her ice cold skin like everyone else does. Instead he holds her, he caresses her, he hugs her. Ever since the day they reunited, he’s held onto her in a way nobody else ever had before. Even through their disagreements and struggles, he never pulled his hands away from her cold.
He decided to pull her in, and he gave her a tight and comfortable hug. She rested her head into his shoulder, feeling the fabric of his clothes against her cheek. She felt him place his head on hers, and for a moment she thought he may kiss her. She surprised herself with this thought. Instead, he spoke to her.
“I really, really care about you.”
She smiled, even though he couldn’t see her smile.
“I really, really care about you too.”
The two of them pulled away from one another at the same time, then Cherry turned his head around from sudden movement around them. For a moment, he thought he had seen what looked like a woman standing near the levee, but he brushed it off as his imagination. Selia took notice of his behavior, he seemed a little uneasy.
“How about we head inside?” He reached his hand out to her, and she took it.
He led them both to the garden covered Inn, Selia looked around a bit outside to see if she could catch a glance of whatever Cherry saw. She didn’t notice anything out of the ordinary.
Once they both headed inside, they saw an older elven woman with her grey hair up in a bun, and glasses with a hand-sewn necklace attached to them. The inside of the lobby was small, with only the front desk and 4 chairs. The walls and doors were all wooden. On the desk sat potted roses, as well as a lot of papers. Once the older lady looked up and noticed them, she moved the papers in front of her off to the side.
“Welcome in, welcome. This is the Rosewood Inn, I have three rooms open as of this moment.”
Cherry gave her a polite smile, enjoying the lady’s pleasant demeanor.
“Do you have any two-bed rooms available?” He asked, then Selia tapped his arm. He looked over to her, she shook her head no.
“Oh, I’m sorry. Just one bed is fine,” he spoke, looking back at the lady.
The older lady gave them both a small grin, before taking a paper and placing it in front of them. She went to grab a pen, and placed it down as well.
“It’ll be 20 silver pieces for one night. I imagine you two girls are out traveling?”
Cherry grinned in a way Selia hadn’t seen before. He took out his pouch and counted out 25 silver pieces.
“Yeah, we came out together so we could have fun.” He handed her the money.
“Well, you two outta be careful out there at night. Some people may think you’re fragile.”
Selia thought that statement probably wasn’t necessary. Then she remembered how uneasy Cherry seemed just a second ago, so maybe this area isn’t all that safe?
As the old lady counted the money, Cherry signed the papers she had set in front of him. Selia stood there and watched as he wrote, she noticed that his handwriting was actually really bad.
“You gave me extra,” the lady looked up at Cherry, and he gave her a wide smile.
“You keep it.”
“Thank you so much, young lady,” she smiled back at him, appreciating the kind gesture. She placed the key in front of them, and Selia went to take it.
“Check out is by afternoon tomorrow, we will bring breakfast to you per request. Just call and let us know. The ice machine is down the hall and to the left. My name is Marissa if you need me.”
“Thank you Marissa, you have a good night.”
“You too.”
They waved each other bye, while Cherry and Selia walked towards the hallway at their left. In total, they saw 6 rooms on the first floor. Selia looked down at their key, it had the number “4” on it. She went towards the door labeled 4, and used the key to unlock the door and get inside. The interior of their room was all still wooden, as well as the furniture. The king-sized bed had red covers, and across the bed there was a table with a radio. Beside the table, there was a small couch. There was a handmade painting on the wall above the bed, and plenty of greenery all around the room. Two bedside tables sat on each side of the bed, both with lamps. There was a mini fridge and a coffee pot sat on a counter, and a big window at the end of the room. They both walked further inside, and Cherry noticed that the bathroom was cubed into the room, right next to the front door. It was a fairly small room, but it smelled like pine and looked beautiful with all the plants.
“I’d live here,” Selia expressed her love for this scenery as she looked around in awe.
Cherry inspected the bed and made sure the sheets were clean, and there were no bugs in sight.
“We’re all clear,” he looked up to Selia, but she was inspecting the plants. She didn’t hear what he’d said.
“These are all real,” she looked over to Cherry with a big, wide smile. He couldn’t help but smile back. He decided to go ahead and take his shoes off to climb into the bed, he didn’t pull the covers over himself just yet.
Selia stood by the radio, watching him get into the bed. As she looked at him, she began to wonder why he hadn’t corrected Marissa when she kept calling him a lady. She thought he may have done it to be nice, but the smile she saw seemed to suggest otherwise.
“How come you didn’t correct her?”
He looked up at Selia, seeming genuinely confused as to what she meant. She elaborated based on his look.
“Marissa, she kept referring to you as a girl.”
He made a face of realization, and he sat straight up in the bed and criss-crossed his legs. He was thinking for a moment, of how to word his thoughts and feelings. While he thought, Selia went and sat at the edge of the bed off to his side.
“It might be hard for you to understand in some ways,” he started to speak.
“You can tell me.”
“Well, back when I was still in school I used to dress and act like all the ‘other boys’ I was around.”
Selia began to finally understand why he seemed to much more feminine now then he had when they were kids. She continued to listen to his story.
“After a while, I started to feel bored, and felt discomfort in the way I looked compared to all my classmates. I sort of… got a hold of my moms makeup and decided to try it out.”
He looked off to the side at the mention of his mother, noticeably pausing for a moment. Selia noticed that his pink eyes looked more sorrowful than she had seen before. It seemed like tears were forming in his eyes.
She reached her hand out to his, and held onto him for a moment.
“I know telling the stories can feel like reliving it. You don’t have to tell me if you can’t right now.”
His tears flowed for a moment, as he looked at her with a shine in his eyes that felt understood. Gosh, he hadn’t felt that way in a while. He smiled despite his tears, “It’s okay, I can do it.”
He took another few moments to take a deep breath, and the two of them continued to hold hands.
“I started to realize that I actually liked looking more feminine, and I began experimenting with the way I look. But my mom, and all my peers didn’t exactly like the way I was expressing myself. In a lot of ways, I lashed out at my mom but I didn’t really see her side of things and how confusing it must be to her. I… regret the ways I yelled at her back then. And knowing that I can’t take it back now…”
More tears flowed from his eyes, and he wiped them away with his one free hand. The other still tightly grasping Selia’s.
“After a while, I came to realize that I didn’t care as much about how people would refer to me. I’m comfortable in my body, for that I’m lucky. I knew some others similar to me who weren’t. But I learned to embrace my femininity more. I ended up getting bullied for it while I was still in school.”
Cherry again looked off at the side, trying to hold back his tears because he felt a little embarrassed to be crying in front of Selia. He also wasn’t sure what she’d say, he felt a little nervous. As he stared off, he noticed the bedside lamp had a hole in it.
Selia continued to hold his hand tight, “Do you… want me to refer to you as a guy or girl? Because I think you’d look pretty as both.”
Cherry looked back at her, his pink eyes connecting to her green gaze, and looking at the gentle smile she presented him with. He could feel his face begin to get a little hot.
“You… think I’m pretty?”
He noticed Selia’s eyes widen a bit before she quickly took her hand away from his, and covered her face. A quick smile came across Cherry’s face as he watched Selia attempt to hide herself. He laughed a bit. After a few moments, he reached his hand out to hers and moved it away from her face, to reveal a very flustered Selia underneath.
“I’m sorry, it kind of just slipped out.”
“Don’t be sorry, it’s sweet.”
“But I didn’t mean- I don’t know if you… I don’t know.”
Cherry laughed some more, before gently pulling her in and placing his forehead on hers, then pressing their noses together.
“Lia, I think you’re pretty too.”
“You do?”
“Of course I do.”
Cherry rubbed his cheek onto hers, her cold skin felt relaxing because he felt really hot. Selia seemed to really enjoy his closeness.
“You never answered my question.”
“What was it?”
“If you want me to refer to you as a boy or a girl.”
“Well, I’m okay with either. But you can refer to me as a guy, since you always have.”
“Is that what you want though?”
“Are you confused about all of this?”
“I mean, I'm a little confused. But that’s just because I don’t understand, and I can learn to understand. I never had a problem with you looking more feminine. Actually, it suits you better this way.”
Cherry pulled his face away from hers, and gave her a slight smile. He began to rub on her arm and shoulder. Her sweater felt really soft, all he felt like doing was rubbing on her.
“Well, basically how it is for me, I don’t care about the gender binary with the way I dress or present myself. So in the same sense, I also don’t care how people think of, or refer to me.” As he explained, he picked at a string he found on her sweater.
“So like… the people around you pick your gender for you?”
“Sort of. I just go with whatever people assume I am, because I don’t care how I’m perceived. I find it fun to be perceived in different ways, too. It’s like… a gender gamble.”
Selia laughed, before she reached her hand out to his cheek, before pulling him in once more, and pressing her nose into the side of his face. His skin was so pale, and she could tell he was a little flustered with how red his cheeks were. She oddly felt like she really wanted to kiss him, and she wasn’t sure why. What if she did and he hated it, or he finds it weird? What if he doesn’t touch her like this anymore if she did? Would he feel grossed out by it?
She felt him place his hand around her waist, then he gently pushed her down onto the bed and laid on her. He kept rubbing his face into her sweater.
Selia began to laugh some more, “do you just like how my sweater feels?”
“I like how cold you feel too.”
She placed her hand on his head, messing with his white and red hair. She realized how fluffy his hair was. She felt him place his hands onto her waist again, then she felt him glide both hands upward. She all of a sudden began to feel flustered herself, she wasn’t sure how to feel about it all. She was surprised by her own thoughts and feelings.
She pressed her hand into Cherry's head.
“Cherry?”
He stopped for a moment and looked up, only to realize her face was completely red. He had never seen her red in the face before. He realized how what he had been doing probably looked, and he quickly took himself away from her and sat back up in the bed.
“Oh my god I’m so sorry- I got way too into it, I should have asked,” he stopped himself, feeling incredibly dumb for putting her down onto the bed and rubbing on her like that.
Selia slowly sat up too, still red in the face and trying to keep her composure. Cherry was rubbing on his face out of embarrassment.
“I uh… I kind of liked it,” she confessed.
Cherry took his hands away from his face and made eye contact with her. It seemed like he could understand what she was telling him, but he wasn’t sure if it was true. It was like her eyes were lit up with all kinds of emotions.
“Do you… I mean, uh…” he looked off to the side for a moment, before looking back at her. He wasn’t sure how to word it.
Selia just kind of stared at him, she wasn’t sure what to say or think. Despite feeling so intimate, it was like there was a barrier built between them.
Silence overtook the two of them for a good moment while they both sat on that bed, looking in opposite directions. Eventually he looked back at her.
“Do you, uh… like me? Like how I like you?” Cherry finally broke that barrier.
Selia felt a wave of relief wash over her, because she had thought she was crazy for thinking the things she was thinking.
“I do.” She responded.
The two of them finally looked at one another again.
Silence.
“Uh… what do we do?” Cherry asked, seeming confused and feeling a little anxious.
Selia stayed silent for a moment, thinking to herself and wondering what exactly she should say. She decided to go ahead and blurt it all out.
“I’ve been having a lot of thoughts recently, of you kissing me anytime you’ve been physical with me. I know being physical is normal for us, but recently it feels like…”
“It feels like heaven.”
Selia seemed really surprised by his words.
“You… really think so?”
“I don’t know what it is about you that makes me feel so crazy, but I can’t get you out of my head. Everything you do is just… so incredibly cute. Touching you feels like laying in the snow in all the best ways. You push me to be better, you keep an eye out for me, god, Selia you’re literally like an angel.”
Selia's eyes glimmered in a way that made her feel feelings she had never felt before. She couldn’t fully pinpoint it, was it love? Or maybe understanding?
His eyes met with hers where their lights both collided with one another. He reached out and took her hands.
“Lia, you’re the one person in my life that makes me want to keep trying. You’ve always been there for me, even when you didn’t need to be and even when I pushed you away.”
Cherry stopped himself, realizing it felt like he was love bombing her. He didn’t want to come off too strong, but he felt like he already did.
Selia looked at him in awe, realizing the feeling she felt was accomplishment and admiration. He was portraying his feelings for her in a new light that she wasn’t used to, she felt incredibly happy to have helped him open up more.
Though, there was a lingering feeling, a deep sense of regret she knew she had to come clean about. Should she really tell him? Will he still think of her the same way?
“Cherry I really like you too, you’ve done so much to help me feel safe. It means more than anything to me.”
Cherry smiled, oddly enough tears began to form in his eyes again. Maybe it was because he was feeling emotional already.
Then, Selia couldn’t help herself, and she reached her hands up to his cheeks, pressing both hands to either side. Her green eyes met directly with his, and she had tears in her eyes too. She brought his face closer to hers. She needed to tell him.
“I feel safe with you too.” He spoke, noticing Selia began to actually cry. He decided to press his nose into hers yet again. He placed his hands over her hands as well, holding onto her tight and never wanting to let go. He realized she wasn’t just crying from being emotional, it was something else.
“Cherry, there’s something I haven’t told you.”
He paused for a moment. In his pause, he could feel her hands begin shaking as she held his cheeks. She felt colder. He took her hands away and held them both tightly, “You can tell me anything.”
“Do you… remember the night when you asked me why I was cold?”
Cherry began to clear up his tears.
“I do.”
She gently let go of him, and he seemed confused as to why. Their eyes connected for only a moment, until she looked downward. She took her sweater off. He was surprised by this action, and wanted to look away, but didn’t because this felt very intentional. She was in a sports bra, and she turned her right shoulder toward him.
He was filled with utter shock. He almost couldn’t believe what he saw, he didn’t want to believe it.
There was a number on her shoulder. 0042.
“You… you were tested on? At the lab?” He spoke with hesitance, he didn’t know what to feel, or say to her about it just yet.
Selia wiped her tears, trying to keep her composure.
“It was…” she looked off to the side. She felt terrified to have finally told him.
She finally looked back at him, finding it hard to speak with how shocked he looked.
“It was my dad. Back when I was younger, I died… I think… and he did everything he could to bring me back. And he did.” What she said felt very straight to the point, but it didn’t seem like she could bring herself to give details.
Cherry didn’t know what to think, he could feel stress rising in his chest, and panic settled over his body. His breathing quickened, and he placed his hand on his head as a way to feel grounded.
“You… oh my god…” he began to think back on their past, before quickly looking directly at her with sudden realization.
“That’s why you vanished…?” His voice barely had any breath in it.
Selia nodded, she reached her hand up to her right shoulder and covered it.
He was completely speechless.
Selia seemed a little uncomfortable, mainly because she couldn’t gauge Cherry’s thoughts. She was scared he may think differently of her now.
Despite his shock, he knew he needed to say something. He could feel her stress rising, just as much as his.
“I’m glad you’re here with me,” he finally spoke, looking up to her.
She began to feel a little more calm, “I’m glad I’m here with you too.”
Cherry felt like he had a lot of questions, but he didn’t want to bombard her with all of his thoughts. Instead, he leaned in and wrapped his arms around her, pressing his face into her shoulder. Selia seemed surprised at first, before putting her hands on his back and embracing his hug.
“Thank you, for trusting me with this,” His voice was shaky.
Selia began to cry, even more than before. It got to the point where her tears were uncontrollable, and she felt his embrace around her tighten. He could feel her tears on his shoulder, and her hands gripping the back of his shirt.
The two of them stayed this way for a long time.
Eventually, her tears calmed down and she gently pulled herself away from him.
“You… don’t see me any differently?”
“Of course not! If anything, it just worries me.”
“I’m okay,” she spoke, then she looked off to the side, “It’s just… something I wanted you to know. I’ve been wanting to tell you for so long.”
He took her hands, and began to caress them.
“Do you feel better now that you told me?”
“I do.”
He pulled her in for a hug, placing his head into her shoulder again. He felt her rest her head on his. He held onto her tight, it felt like the two of them were intertwined with one another. It felt so close. He could feel her cold skin against his cheek, and he kissed her skin for the first time. Selia lightly gasped.
“I really love this,” he spoke, “I love you, so so much.”
He felt her tighten her grip a little.
“I love you, so so much too.”
The two of them were unwilling to let go of one another, so they both laid down in the bed while staying extremely close. Cherry pulled the covers over the two of them, and they stayed interlocked for another hour or so. They talked about a few things, reminiscing on their past, a few silly moments they’ve had.
Eventually, Selia had fallen asleep up against him, her arm around his waist, and her head resting on his arm. She doesn’t snore, he noticed. He also realized that her cold skin felt more “neutral,” like it wasn’t changing like it usually does when she’s awake. She’s fallen asleep on him plenty of times, but this was only the first time he noticed it. He placed his free hand on her cheek, instead of feeling cold, it felt more chilly. As he looked at her, he had a lot of questions begin popping into his head all at once.
“How did she die back then?”
“How long was she dead for?”
“How was she brought back?”
“Does her body still work like it’s alive?”
“Does she have no heartbeat, like a vampire?”
“Is she undead??”
“Did she run from the lab?”
“How long did they keep her there for?”
“How much has she suffered?”
“Did she get to live any resemblance to a normal life?”
He began to really stress himself out with all the questions he had. He knew he couldn’t bombard her with questions as to what happened or how her body works. Not only was it rude, it was bringing up her clearly traumatic past, and also a little inappropriate to ask such personal questions.
As he watched her in her sleep, he realized he could get the answer to at least one of his questions. Is she undead? He tucked her purple hair behind her ear, before placing two of his fingers onto her neck, right below her jawline. At first he couldn’t feel anything, and he felt a little freaked out. Then he felt a beat. Another few moments, then another beat. This continued with the same pattern. Then as he left his fingers there, he realized she felt somewhat warm in this spot. As he took his hand away, he realized that her heart beats a lot slower than it should. And he was confused why it felt warmer than the rest of her body. Now he only has even more questions, but at least he knows she isn’t like a vampire. He was really confused, though.
To get his mind off it, he slowly pulled away from Selia as to not wake her, before getting out of the bed and heading towards the bathroom. He went inside and did his business, then as he was washing his hands he heard what sounded like something dropping out in the bedroom. He quickly opened the door, and saw movement that disappeared quicker than he could comprehend. He began to feel uneasy again. He went up to the window to make sure it was locked.
He looked back over to Selia, who had slightly lifted herself up with her elbows and look at him with delirious, and very tired green eyes. The red blanket was wrapped around her and she looked really comfy.
“Fid I ear somethin?” She didn’t seem to realize she completely mispronounced her words.
He looked around the room, oddly seeing everything in place. What had fallen?
“It’s nothing. You can go back to sleep.”
“I want you.”
Cherry smiled, “I’m coming.”
He got back into the bed with her, and she wrapped her arms around him. He reached over to turn off the lamp, before wrapping his arms around her too. She quickly fell back asleep on him. He had noticed anytime they do this, she always falls asleep instantly with him. He enjoyed it, it made him feel special. As he laid there, he began to feel really tired himself. He thought back to their night, the fun they had, and their very intimate talk. Things felt different, but really nice too. Almost like things were always meant to be this way. As he thought, he slowly drifted off to sleep too.
Should I watch the Stranger Things spin-off and make a YT video about it?
Yes
No
Voting ended onMay 19
On the plus side, if it’s really bad it’ll be a good laugh, or who knows maybe I’ll like it? I did hear it’s supposed to be canon to the main show, which is kinda crazy right off the bat 💀
The TV Chronicles is a series where I will talk about TV shows & Movies I am currently watching to express my thoughts. I’m doing this for fun!
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{Part 1} Regular Show
I’m rewatching Regular Show for the first time in forever (I’m on season 4) and I totally forgot how absolutely chaotic this show is lmao.
Like, you can get sent to another dimension for spinning to fast, eating too much sugar, drinking too much milk, and a bunch of other things.
Also, the TV commercials always turn out to have some crazy evil twist of some kind that usually has a death sentence. The park has been destroyed over a million times but comes back fine each time. Also, this season started off introducing Thomas and he is barely ever included now. He’ll disappear for ever then come back randomly at times.
Mordecai is also such a wimp and has NO IDEA how to talk to women. He literally cannot bring himself to tell Margaret how he feels / kiss her because he’s so gosh darn awkward. Too awkward for his own good, honestly. While he’s too scared to make any moves, Rigby and Eileen end up getting a lot closer between all 4 of them hanging out with one another. I actually really like how Rigby didn’t like her at first and she started to grow on him because he liked her skills.
The only thing I don’t exactly like about all of it is that all of the main characters at the park are men, and all the women seem to only be there to support the men. It’s probably because this is a kids show (I assume meant to be targeted to boys?) but even knowing this, it feels odd to not have any of my main cast be women, especially when the women are only there to essentially compliment the men. I honestly wish we could see more from the women, without having the men present. The moments we have gotten were okay at best.
Despite the fact women aren’t as prominent in this show, I still really like how chaotic and crazy it is overall because most of the time you don’t expect what will happen next. The only thing you can expect is that there will be some kind of crazy creature or adventure of some sort. Oh, and a golf cart.
Thanks for reading this if you did!! I hope you all have a good day today, and I’ll probably update the more I watch! Drink water and eat food today!!
Character Design: Nova is a mix of an old D&D character, and another character I made based on myself. She has two tails that grow & shrink as they please. She will always have yellow flowers in her hair.
Based On: Personal experiences, acceptance, moving forward in life & spreading love.
Song: Josie Edwards - The Great Escape
{🌸} Feel free to keep reading if you’re curious to the in-depth creation of this character❕
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.•{How BublyNova Was Created}•.
⚠️Fair warning: This in-depth is personal & emotionally prominent❗️
Nova as a character represents myself & coming to terms with a past relationship that ended in betrayal. She is a reincarnated version of another character named Bubly (also based off of me) who was created to match my ex’s character.
I decided to kill Bubly and reincarnate her as BublyNova (or Nova for short). I wanted to turn Nova into someone that wasn’t only created to match someone else. Instead, she now represents pain. She represents hardship, the concept of making mistakes, the realizations, and the pattern recognition. She is someone who was deeply hurt, but still chooses to love every single day. She’s someone who recognizes she isn’t perfect, and has the will to always do better. She recognizes when others are in pain and seeks to help them.
She isn’t entirely full of grief, nor does she embody the betrayal itself. She embodies who I became afterward, and the person I aspire to work hard to become. She allows herself to feel the pain as it comes, and feel the emotions she needs to feel, without the fear of holding it back. She’s imperfect. She’s grey. At times she dislikes herself. At times she loves herself. She makes mistakes. She learns to recognize when others treat her badly. She doesn’t settle for less than what she’s worth anymore. Sometimes she hurts others, sometimes others hurt her. She is never scared of the hurt, because she knows what true love looks like.
It’s looking out for others even in their darkest moments. It’s showing up for people when you need to be there. It’s understanding others when problems arise, and working hard to make sure you can both feel secure. It’s giving the benefit of the doubt, while also holding someone else accountable. It’s providing reassurance and compassion, while also setting boundaries. It’s the hard conversations people try to avoid. It’s respect for yourself and others. It’s humility when it’s necessary. It’s looking in the mirror and finding the things you love, rather than the things you hate. It’s patience and understanding. It’s uncontrollable laughter, and uncontrollable tears. It’s seeing yourself and others in their absolute worst moments and still finding love. At times she would lose sight of some things that are important, and will need to relearn how to find it again. She’ll find it every time, so long as she looks for it.
She knows how to look after herself & what she needs to do to feel better. She is my path to a freeing, and extremely loving journey that I am very happy to be on. Even if I have scars and the pain persists, I know I can always find my way back to love. I really poured my heart and soul into BublyNova’s character design, her art, her character, and honestly everything about her. I love her a lot, and I hope that the people out there who pour themselves into their art also have characters like this. It’s a very freeing creative process that every artist deserves to enjoy.
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Thank you guys for reading all of this if you did! I love sharing my work and going in depth with the process & emotions behind it. As someone who can be a very emotional person, I definitely don’t want to hide those parts of myself anymore than I already have. I want people out there to know that it’s okay to be emotional & process your feelings so long as you build the skills to manage them. No, you aren’t “too much” for having a lot of emotions. You just have a big heart and you care very deeply, and sometimes it’s hard to express it correctly. Keep the people who understand you have a big heart & try your best. They will stick around to love you for who you work hard to be.
Make sure you all eat some food and drink water today! Maybe treat yourself to something sweet just for the fun of it. I hope you all have a great day today❕❕❕
Hello guys! I hope you all have been having a great day today! I will start this off by saying that with Disneys track record recently, Zootopia 2 genuinely surprised me with how much I liked it. I was going to watch the first one right before watching the second, however I decided to only watch the second because it was already late in the day. But now that I’ve watched the second, I honestly want to go back and watch the first too.
Spoilers ahead for those who haven’t seen it yet! I put it off for a very long time, so I don’t want to ruin anyone else’s viewing either. But I will say, I think it’s mostly worth the watch if you haven’t seen it. But I recommend watching the first right before, because it may help you get a better grasp of Judy & Nick as characters. They aren’t built up much in this one due to their stories being told in the first movie.
Also, I wrote a lot! Sorry in advance if my thoughts seemed scatter-brained or not super well thought/repeating myself, this is honestly me writing down my initial impression. I’m also just scatter-brained in general. So please be prepared to read! Grab a snack of water if you need to! :D
In the very beginning I honestly really like how they gave a very brief recap of what happened in the first movie. It felt really nice to be reminded of what was important, and it was also nice to see what happened directly after the first movie. However, this movie is taking place (a week or two)? Into Nick & Judy being partners. Personally, I felt like it was a little too fast paced and that we were kind of being thrown straight back into what happens right after the first movie. I don’t think it’s horrible, and we don’t exactly know how much time passed between the two movies, but it didn’t seem like it was a lot. I think it would’ve been better to have more of a time gap there and more time to readjust to how their lives changed after the first movie. Though, I can also kind of get past it because this movie does focus on Judy & Nicks relationship a lot. It would make sense to tackle it sooner after the first movie rather than later down the line, and this movie also seems to be setting up a third one coming out as well. I suspect the third will be about birds. Or maybe an animated series, I think that would also be a good choice to go for if they want to delve deeper into the world building & the character’s relationships like they did in this movie (Will they? Probably not, it’s Disney and they’ll milk whatever they can out of a movie).
Despite how fast we were thrown back in, I really love the direction they took with this. Of course we always knew that in Zootopia 1, the main focus was toward the prey & predator relationship, as well as the animals that were looked down upon by the rest of Zootopia. That was something our main characters overcame (relatively) in their social status. But they didn’t completely disregard the fact that bunnies & foxes are looked down upon in this movie which is a nice detail because they didn’t “fix” everything and it’s more realistic. But I will note I don’t think the predator-prey aspect was brought up at all in the second movie. Which may be a good thing, considering that was the issue tackled in the first one. I absolutely loved the first movie for all of this. With the second movie it was the same theme, shifted onto the existence of reptiles and the false history of how Zootopia was created. Now while they were in a high stakes situation and one of the themes was accepting others despite their looks (like it was in the first movie, which Judy learned from by automatically seeing how sincere the snake was and actively fought for him) this movies main focus was also the relationship between Nick & Judy. It definitely still had those same qualities to give us something familiar, but they weren’t as impactful as they were in the first movie because that wasn’t entirely the focus. They were still impactful, but throughout the entire movie we can see it’s about their relationship too. And if I’m being completely honest, I love that this is the direction they took.
Throughout most of the entire movie, Judy is very clearly not taking Nick into consideration and she is pushing to do great things and prove it to everyone else, while Nick is basically trying to tell her to lay it off a little, saying they don’t have do do what they’re doing for the attention, more so doing it just to do it. And we & they are basically told what their problems are right in the beginning when they get sent to therapy. I think them getting sent to therapy was a little cheesy, but it honestly introduced what was going to happen for the rest of the movie & the initial conflict. The foreshadowing of their separation and reuniting is genuinely shown to us multiple times before it actually happens too. Right after the therapy, it shows them both going their separate ways and then again reuniting because Judy discovered the possibility of a snake attempting to steal an important book, and she wanted Nick to come with her to protect it. It also happens when they get to the party, Nick gets pulled away by Chief Bogo while Judy chases after the snake AND Nick gets trapped behind a fallen pillar chasing after Judy. THEN It happens again when Judy chases the snake and Nick gets left behind in the water, and chases after her to save her (which him saving her is also for sharing to him saving her from a literal death bullet later on). Then again, when they both accidentally dropped the carrot pen and Judy left Nick behind. They had been forshadowing their separation through the entire movie and that’s such a nice detail to include. Especially because it wasn’t just physical separation, it was also representing their relationship separation/miscommunication. Then despite that separation, they came back to one another every single time and each time it was Nick saving Judy until the Climax of the movie when Judy saved Nick. Then they finally let all their feelings out.
I honestly cried when they did this, because throughout the movie they were making it so clear through Nicks body language how much he loves and cares for Judy, and in the same sense making it clear how Judy felt like she needed to achieve greater things to be worth something and dismissing Nick while doing so, but also wanting to seek some sort of validation from him. It was the two of them finally talking and coming back to that connection they needed, and I loved it so much. My only complaint is that their overshare wasn’t longer. They both were different in how they are, and they both decided that it was okay to be different at long as they talk it out and accept it, and care about each other. Even when they physically separated from another, they showed just how much it hurt both of them that they ended up in that situation and it wasn’t glossed over at all, and even the other supporting characters recognized how painful it was for them because they could also see how much they cared for one another despite their differences. They also basically tell us all of this at face value, easy enough for the kids watching this movie to understand. And the snake asking for permission to hug, and demonstrating consent or even concepts like therapy/talking things out to kids it’s a really huge & wonderful thing to do for a young audience.
I’m definitely not saying it was a perfect movie, honestly to me the jokes in this one were a little out of hand and I didn’t like them as much. It definitely has some problems, but I don’t want to go into everything I could nitpick about this movie just to hate on it/Disney. Because honestly, it really wasn’t a bad movie at all. I will say though, Pawbert felt so gay-coded to me and I’m honestly a little PISSED that he was the twist villain. I don’t think this was specifically done on purpose to hate on queer people or anything, it just kinda sucked. I will say though considering he was an underdog character it wasn’t entirely expected that he may be the villain, but when rewatching it the signs are there. Then I asked myself “well why didn’t Judy question that he’s part of the Linx family?” But it’s because he straight up told her “we can stop my family” & other stuff, and she just didn’t think twice. In the first movie, she was smart enough to tell that Bellweather was off in some way in the museum. But in this one, Pawbert got to her when she was vulnerable and she might’ve not questioned it due to all of the extra factors. Like being chased by her coworkers, being worried about her parents who she can no longer get ahold of on the run, having problems with Nick & separating, I know that if it were me in that boat I probably wouldn’t question someone trying to help me either. Especially someone who seems so friendly.
In this sense you could argue “well she had a lot on her mind during the first movie too” but the biggest difference is that in the first movie, Nick was helping her. In this one, he was expressing to her to lay it low & he wasn’t helping as much as he did before. His main focus was just keeping Judy safe, not helping her like her job depended on it because he didn’t need/want to do that for her now. Especially since they both were basically threatened to be killed. Honestly while watching, I felt so bad for Nick because he was being treated so badly by her & getting left behind, while not being listened to by her at all.
Im really glad that in the end they were able to connect & understand one another like they needed to. It was honestly really sweet and even when I rewatched their overshare to one another, I still cried. I also went back and watched the first movie again (I started writing this post before I did this), and I can totally see how their relationship ended up the way it did. Especially with how much things changed after the first movie. I still don’t know how long the time gap is, but I’m thinking if Nick became a cop then he may have went through the same training Judy went through? In that case the time gap may be longer than I thought before. But either way, their lives definitely changed a lot and I like how their dynamic was readdressed.
I don’t know what everyone else thought of this movie, I haven’t looked into any deep dives or seen any other opinions on it yet. But in my eyes, it wasn’t bad and I liked it a lot. And that’s totally okay, because fiction is all about having fun with things you enjoy. I definitely wouldn’t hate to hear anyone else’s opinions though, I’m curious how others saw this movie! If you made it this far, feel free to share your opinion in the comments. I’d love to see what other people thought of it.
Thank you all for reading! I hope you all have a wonderful day! Also, don’t forget to eat today! :D
I’m curious as to what everyone may think about this scene. Because Caine takes an abstracted from, but would you consider it “abstraction”? Feel free to chat about it in the comments as well!
Everyone? Confessing your sins will make them hate you.
“Who am I to keep my sins hidden?”
A liar.
“I don’t want to be a liar anymore.”
You had a change of heart?
“Yeah.”
What will they think?
“I don’t care what they think.”
You’ll give up your immortal form.
“I know.”
Is this really what you want?
“What choice do I have?”
The choice of silence and sin.
“Silence and sin has done nothing but break me down.”
So what?
“So I won’t let it anymore. I want to live normally.”
Your friends will hate you for this.
“It isn’t right to keep lying to them about who I was. No matter what happens, I want to do what’s right.”
What you’ve done in the past was nothing but filthy. What makes you think you deserve better now?
“I don’t deserve better. They deserve to know the truth.”
Even if the truth destroys you?
“Yes.”
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Author Notes
Hello!! Sorry my sketch isn’t the best, I was just doodling when I came up with this idea. But it doesn’t need to be perfect.
Arakan is a very complicated and grey character. She has an inner demon who speaks with her, which is herself and her intrusive thoughts acting as a fully realized being who lives in her red necklace. In Glandolia, whenever a demon wears one of these red necklaces their inner demon is freely able to speak to them through their thoughts. I have yet to decide what exactly that gemstone will be, but I have a few ideas.
I hope you all have a great day! Make sure you drink water and eat something! 💕
