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“Nothing is of equal value” and it’s just Jason losing fem!reader and begging Bruce to bring her back to life
Nothing is of equal value
Jason Todd, angst, wc: 1k. Not proofread. No use of Y/N. fem!reader.
In which you are dead.
Content warning: suicide.
Jason sat on the ground, or rather, had fallen to his knees in front of Bruce.
Your body hung in his arms. Cold, pale and dead. You were dead.
Jason wasn't crying, no, because he would bring you back to life. He just needed Bruce's help with the Lazarus Pit, because he, alone, could not do it.
He wouldn't risk it.
Jason had entered your apartment after a patrol, and had found you on your kitchen floor lying in a pool of your own blood. You were shot, twice. You had managed to even grab your phone and click on the 'phone' application, though Jason didn't know if you were going to call 911 or him.
Your glazed over, dead eyes, was a memory Jason will never be able to erase from his mind. It was so bad, he had closed your eyes himself, which had been hard since he was trembling so bad.
"Bruce... I- I need your help..."
Jason's voice didn't sound like his own. It was softer, but also deeper.
"What happened?" Bruce had asked.
"I found her... She was shot in her apartment. Bruce, she... it's my fault. I should've gone back earlier."
"Jason..."
Jason looked up at Bruce.
"You have to help me bring her back."
Bruce looked away from Jason and to your body, his gaze thoughtful.
"You know I can't do that."
Jason let out a dry chuckle, closer to screaming his lungs out and retching by the second.
"Yes, you can."
Bruce shook his head.
"I won't."
Jason's expression cracked.
"What the fuck do you mean you won't?! Why not? She- she... you have to!"
Bruce kneeled with a soft, regretful sigh.
"She won't be the same. She will never be the same. She'll be insane for a while, really insane, and over time it'll lessen, but she will never be the same."
"You think I don't know that?" Jason snapped.
He was starting to lose it. Why would Bruce not help him? You were always amazing, everyone loved you, even Bruce himself had liked you a lot.
Dick had told you that you had made Jason a better person, behind his back, of course, and Bruce had agreed, which was really something.
So why the was he being so fucking senseless right now?
"You have to help her!" Jason raised his voice.
"No."
"Yes! Yes, you will help her!"
"I don't want her to go through all of that, Jason, I don't know why you, of all people, would want her to endure that."
Jason swallowed thickly, tears finally reaching his eyes.
"I... She's not allowed to die. Not yet. Not her. It's not... not possible." His eyes were glossy with tears.
"But you do want her to go insane?"
"If that is what it takes, yes!"
"I won't do it. I'm sorry, Jason."
"You will! You will help her!" Jason was shouting now.
He looked down at your lifeless body in his arms, his tears falling on your face, almost making it look like you were the one crying. But that was not possible, obviously, because you were dead. And you'd stay dead.
"Please..."
A soft sob left Jason's throat.
"I can't lose her... I- I can't..."
Bruce put his hand on Jason's shoulder. "I'm sorry, I truly am. She was wonderful."
"So bring her back!"
"I said no, Jason. I won't do it. There's no one alive that's insane enough to bring her back to life, so don't even try, okay?"
"Please, I'll do anything! Anything!"
Bruce shook his head.
"You owe me this. You left me to die, remember? This is the least you can do."
"I won't do it and there is nothing you can do to convince me."
Jason sobbed.
"I'll kill you if you don't bring her back..."
"You won't kill me, because I won't be able to bring her back. You'll lose even more."
"Fine, I'll kill myself, then." Jason's voice was filled with sobs.
His face was wet with tears, they were dripping from his chin onto the blood soaked hoodie you had been wearing when you died. His hoodie, he just realized. You had died wearing his hoodie. Jason's eyes were red and puffy already.
"You won't do that either, because then you'll never see her again. She won't forgive you if you'll miss her funeral."
"No! There won't be a funeral because you will bring her back!"
Bruce shook his head again, but decided not to say anything.
Jason was starting to realize it now. You were dead. Gone. Forever. And it was his fault. His sobs were uncontrollable as he pulled your body up to his chest and buried his face in your neck, in your hair. It was one of the only parts of your body that wasn't covered in blood.
He wasn't even there, when you died. He would never forgive himself.
He couldn't even remember the last time he had kissed you, probably because it was such an insignificant moment at the time, a moment he had taken for granted.
Jason was sobbing in your hair before he lowered you again, enough to place a kiss on your icy, blue-ish lips. He pulled back after a second.
Shocks went through his body at how hard he was crying, sobbing, and Bruce sat on his knees next to him.
"I'm so sorry..." He said softly.
"If you were sorry you would bring her back." Jason snapped.
Bruce got up.
"I'll call someone to confirm her death."
"No! No, Bruce, please..."
Bruce ignored Jason and walked away. Bruce might've looked heartless, but he just couldn't stand being in the same room as your body anymore, or he would actually be tempted to bring you back. But he can't do that. He won't. You had been a truly wonderful person, you didn't deserve everything the Pit would've put you through.
Bruce swallowed the lump in his throat as he walked away from you and Jason's hysterical sobs.
After your funeral, Jason never talked to Bruce again.
2 months later, Jason had been found dead after a patrol gone wrong.
Bruce knew better, though. Jason was too smart and fast and strong to die by the hands of some random criminal.
If Jason didn't want to die, he would be alive now.
A/N: Thank you so much for the request, anon, I love it! I hope you, and everyone else who's read this, like it! Also, ouabh reference????
@/burgundyvirgo no plagiarism or ai training/use authorised.
Jason Todd, angst with a happy ending, wc: 2k. No use of Y/N. fem!reader.
You yearn for each other.
Content warning: reader slaps Jason once.
There was a party at Wayne Manor. You were going, but only because your friend, Dick Grayson, forced you.
You walked up the stairs, slowly, because you didn't wear heels that often, and smiled faintly to the man that was taking the coats and jackets.
When you were finally inside, you immediately spotted Dick, and he was alone. Thank God.
He waved you over, and you walked up to him.
"You actually came!" He smiled brightly. His eyes roamed over your face and dress, but not in a disgusting, checking-you-out way.
"yeah, I actually did." You sighed, as if you didn't really believe it yourself.
"That dress looks good on you. Perhaps you could've put some make-up under your eyes, instead of above, no?"
You frowned. You were wearing a full face of make-up, what the fuck was he talking about? You really did your best on your eye look too.
"I did."
Dick frowned before his mouth forms into an "oh".
"Never mind, your dark circles are just really bad then." He shrugged, which made you scoff.
"Excuse me?" What a great friend was Dick, right?
He sighed before handing you a full glass of wine he just plucked off a servant's tray.
"You still miss him?"
You took a sip from the wine before you answered.
"I don't know who you're talking about."
You did know, though. God, of course you knew. Jason broke up with you a month ago. You felt like absolute shit. This party was the first actual thing you went to after the break up, after just rotting in bed for a full month. Well- you did earn your money, of course, but all your free time was spent in bed. Dick probably knew that, and that is probably why he forced you to come here, too.
"He's here tonight," Dick looked at the wine glass in your hand before his gaze found yours again. "You should go talk to him. He doesn't look any better than you do."
"Absolutely not. He broke up with me."
"That doesn't mean he stopped loving you."
"I doubt he ever did."
Dick clicked his tongue as if he was disappointed. "That is probably the dumbest sentence that I have ever heard from you."
His gaze left yours again and instead focused on something behind you. A slight smirk formed on his face, making you slightly uncomfortable. It was never a good sign when Dick Grayson smirked.
You turned around to be faced with Jason right behind you. You felt untethered to life, even more so than the past month. Your lips parted, but no sound came out and your eyebrows were slightly higher than usual.
He greeted you with a nod and the mention of your name, then walked past you. He said something to Dick before he walked away again.
He was wearing a beautiful suit but it looked somewhat tight, as if he bought this years ago when his muscles weren't as big as they were now, which was probably the case.
But the look in his eyes, when he greeted you, was haunting. It was like a reflection. Like looking into a mirror, and seeing exactly what you were feeling.
Dick was distracted, already talking to someone else.
You walked towards the balcony, you had been there enough times to know where it was without even thinking about where you were going.
You were walking up the stairs with your wine still in your hand, and went straight to the balcony. People never knew where it was, and if Bruce would've caught someone there they would be in trouble, probably, but not you. At least, that's what you hoped.
You sat down on a small chair on the empty balcony, enjoying the silence, drinking your wine. You regretted coming here, but you were proud of yourself for dragging yourself out of bed. Good job, you.
Jasons limbs burned as he walked up the stairs to the second floor. He could definitely use a cigarette. Your face, the second you saw him, hadn’t left his mind for a second. He really needed that fucking cigarette.
He opened the door to the balcony and sat down on the first chair he saw. Nobody ever came out here anyway. He pulled his pack of cigarettes from his pocket before lighting one in between his lips.
Your gaze fell upon him. He was smoking again. He hadn't seen you yet and you desperately wanted it to stay that way. You even held your breath, but you kept staring at him. He looked so, so beautiful in the moon light. His eyes were shiny as he ran his other hand, the one that wasn't holding the cigarette, over his face. When he opened his eyes again, he spotted you.
He said your name, but it sounded too breathy to have come from him, but it definitely came from him.
You gulped, "Jason."
You stood up abruptly, almost knocking over your wine in the process.
"I- I'm sorry, I, uh... I'll leave."
Jason watched you step back towards the door and got up. His hand ached with how bad he wanted to reach out to you.
"No. Stay." He felt a little sick, knowing he might get what he had asked for.
You turned around, facing him once again. "Are you drunk?"
You didn't mean to blurt it out, but why else would he ask you to stay?
"No," He said truthfully.
It was quiet for a moment.
"I'm glad that you're here."
You frowned. "Why?"
"Do I need to have a reason?" Jason shrugged.
You sat down again, on a chair a few meters from his, and almost regretted it immediately. "You made it very clear you didn't want to have anything to do with me, so yes."
Jason felt a little out of place at his own home. There was a longing, a yearning in his eyes that you hadn't detected, but a stranger would've straight away.
Your words hurt. He knew you blamed yourself, thinking that you weren't good enough, that you weren't what he needed. But he also knew you were very, very wrong. He had made it clear he wanted nothing to do with you. But he had done it because he was afraid- afraid of not being enough, of being unable to be what you deserved, of being too little, too late, too worthless.
And he was in so much pain now, to know he would have loved you forever.
"Are you just going to sit there, staring at me, all silly?" You snapped. You hadn't meant to snap, but your heart cracked a little every time you looked at him and you had a hard time controlling your emotions.
Silly. His silence had always been an unspoken language- and even if you didn't understand it, he knew you still saw it. He opened his mouth and closed.
"You know what? I don't even care." You snarled.
Jasons expression flickered at the remark and he stared at you, as if expecting it to be a poorly executed joke. He realized it wasn't.
"That's a first." He muttered under his breath.
This time you kept your silence.
Jason wished he could just reach out, wished he was brave enough, to touch you, to hold you, to do everything he imagined being able to do when he finally saw you again.
"I still love you." He blurted out. His cigarette was still burning at the tip. He wished he didn't tell you to stay.
You scoffed. "You never loved me."
His breath stilled. He turned his head to look at you and wondered if that was true, if he hadn't loved you at all. He almost believed it, for a moment.
And then he thought about the way your laughter felt when he had caused it. The way your hand fit perfectly in his own. The way you were all he ever thought about, all he wanted, all he breathed for.
He loved you, and he had let it go, and he knew the one thing that terrified him the most was being unlovable.
Your stomach hurt by how your own words stung. It hurt, really bad.
"You're right," He blurted out after a few moments of heavy, loaded silence. "I never loved you."
He was trying to hurt himself; to make himself believe that it would be better if it were true. After all, he was just silly. A silly man who had hurt you.
"I'm just a bit drunk." He lied. "I'll go."
You looked away from him as the tears sprung in your eyes. If you hadn't felt hollow before, you certainly did now.
He heard your quiet sniffling, felt the pain of it in his own chest. You had always been a quiet crier, when you were too broken to stop it. He saw it the night he lost you.
"I'll never forget you. You are my first love. A-And I hate it." You said softly, sniffling.
Jason felt his heart shatter. He moved on a whim, he did not think. he got up and reached out. With a gentle touch, his hand brushed your shoulder before it moved up to the back of your head. He stroked your hair.
"You are my first love, too." He whispered.
You wanted to yell at him, to curse him out, to slap him, but you didn't have the energy, nor the strength for it.
"I love you," He said again. "Will you believe that, if only for a moment."
"I- I can't. It hurts too much."
"I see." He said softly and pulled his hand back. He took a step back. He really was silly. He was pathetic. You deserved better.
The door of the balcony closed behind Jason with a soft click. He had left quickly, without a word, but he only made it a few steps before he collapsed into a corner of the hallway, and wept.
You looked back, only to see Jason was gone. You got up, left your half empty wine, and rushed back into the Manor. you didn't care if a guest or anyone, at that, saw your tear streaked face.
"Jason!"
He stilled at the sound of your voice, of your footsteps. He stood and slowly turned, rubbing his eyes with one hand. He wanted to hide, but he didn't.
He said your name, not loud, but loud enough for you to hear, "What are you doing?"
Without thinking, you slapped him. Flat hand against his cheek.
He let his head turn, his skin stung painfully. Then he looked back at you.
And he smiled.
He smiled as a tear rolled down his cheek, and he swallowed down the lump that had formed in his throat.
"Will that make you feel better?" He gently took your hand in his, brushing his thumb over your palm.
You didn't answer his question the way he expected.
"I love you. I really fucking love you. Fuck, I'm sorry..."
Jason stilled, and swallowed. He wanted to kiss you now more than ever.
Maybe he would, maybe he wouldn't. All he knew was that your declaration shook him to his core.
He squeezed your hand tenderly.
"And I really love you." He whispered it, followed by your full name.
You didn't care about the tears running down both of your faces when you pressed your lips against his.
He had forgotten the feeling of you, how soft your lips were and how gentle you were with him.
He had forgotten how he craved you, how much he needed you.
When you pulled away he was breathless, and he wanted you for your whole lifetime and all that followed.
"I want to be with you," He whispered. It was a promise. "For as long as you'll let me."
Jason pulled his sleeve over his hand and wiped your tears, sweetly, softly, before doing the same to his own. There was even a soft smile on his face.
Together, you walked to Jasons room. The both of you fell asleep almost immediately in each other's arms, because neither of you had gotten much sleep in the past month.
"I'm sorry I slapped you." You whispered before you fell asleep.
A/N: Sorryyy I was really feeling the vibe so it turned out a bit long. Oopsie.
@/burgundyvirgo no plagiarism or ai training/use authorised.
Jason Todd, fluff and a teeny tiny bit of angst, wc: 1.1k. No use of Y/N.
He's late. Again.
The fucker promised he'd be back home by 4. That was an hour ago.
It always goes like this: "Hey sweetheart, I'm going to patrol for a bit, I'll be back by 4", he'd kiss you goodbye and leave you while you blushed like a damn teenager thinking about their first actual crush, because that was the effect Jason Todd had, but he's never back by 4. You were always so worried, and yet every time he came back home unharmed. You would become mad at him, because he could have at least called, right? And then he would make it up to you the next morning by waking you with the smell of pancakes. Always the same story.
05:07AM. You lie in bed now, worried and staring at the clock on your side table. You count away the minutes. You keep the lights on so you won't fall asleep, but it's not necessary because of the worry streaming through your body.
05:10AM. You sit up. Should you call him? No, what if he's fighting someone and he gets distracted by his ringtone and gets hurt? Yes, because he's just sitting on a random rooftop and totally forgot about the time. Ugh.
05:15AM. You get up from your bed with a sigh. You're so worried you're nauseous. You walk towards the bathroom, the tiles cold to your bare feet, and splash some water on your face. It doesn't help.
05:23AM. Fuck. You grab your phone and search his name in your recent calls. Your finger reaches for the call button once you've found him, but at the same time you hear your living room window open. You run towards your living room. A very bad idea for someone who lives in Gotham, especially unarmed, but your worry is too vile.
In front of you stands the infamous Red Hood.
"I told you to stop using the goddamn window!"
Jason takes off his mask and lays it on the kitchen table. It's always the first thing he does, he knows you hate his distorted voice.
"I told you to lock them better."
You glare at him, all your previous worry has vanished.
"You're late. Again. Almost an hour and 30 minutes. A new record, something to be proud of, Jason." You almost spit out the words. He just left you here to worry about him every time, over and over again.
"I know, honey, I'm sorry." He frowns slightly, as if he genuinely feels bad.
"Yeah, are you?" You sneer.
That's when he pulls his hand back from behind his back, revealing a beautiful bouquet of flowers. Your favourite flowers, too.
Immediately, just a little of your angers seeps away as fast as it had appeared. "Oh. Where'd you get those?"
Jason smiles mischievously. "Don't you worry your pretty head about that."
You sigh. "So, why are you late, again?"
"Some goons tried to trap me somewhere. I almost fell for it, and they were with a lot, like, a whole army of them!"
Your eyes roam over Jason, subconsciously checking for wounds or scratches or anything off.
"Are you okay?"
Jason grins. The asshole likes it when you worry about him. "Of course I am, what did you expect, sweets?"
You roll your eyes. You walk up to him and snatch the flowers from him. You are careful though, it's not the fault of the flowers that your boyfriend can be such an ass sometimes.
You walk into the kitchen and open a cabinet, hoping to find something to put the flowers in just for the night. You find a glass that seems to be big enough for the bouquet. You fill it with water from the tap.
You feel his presence before he even wraps his arms around you from behind. Jason presses his face into your neck, breathing in the scent of your conditioner.
You put the flowers in the glass before you lean back into him, just a little. You haven't forgiven him yet, after all.
"At least give me a call next time."
"I'm sorry, sweetheart… I promise I'll call, okay? I hope you like the flowers, at least."
You roll your eyes. "Of course I do."
You turn around in his embrace, his face just centimeters from yours. A small smile creeps onto Jason's face before he leans in and pecks your lips.
And just like that, you melt in his arms, like you always do. Fucking Jason. You wrap your arms around his neck and this time you bring your lips to his. The kiss you receive from him feels like an apology, it's slow and soft but perfect. His hands settle on your hips and you lightly tug the hair on the back of his head with your hand.
He groans softly against your mouth before he pulls back. There's heat in his eyes, but you can also see how tired he is.
You smile softly. "Let's go to bed, hm?"
Jason nods, but doesn't move away yet. He kisses you once more, this kiss just lasts a few seconds before he pulls away completely. The cold air embraces you and you can't wait to lie in bed with your boyfriend.
The both of you walk to your bedroom together. Once you're inside, Jason starts pulling off his suit. Once he's in just his underwear he walks over to the bathroom connected to your bedroom. You lie down in your bed when you hear the shower running. You're actually very tired, you realize. It's not that weird, it's already 05:36AM, after all.
A few minutes later, Jason exits the bathroom again in a fresh pair of boxers. You let your eyes roam over his body shamelessly, but you're too tired to touch or kiss or feel.
Jason has a cocky smile on his face, but it doesn't hide the exhaustion. "Enjoying the view?"
"Oh, yes, I do."
Jason laughs while he lies down on the bed, beside you.
He turns to you with a content expression on his pretty face.
"C'mere…" He says softly as he opens his arms for you.
Obviously, you crawl into his arms. You put your head down on his chest and you feel his hand running through your hair.
"This doesn't mean I have forgiven you, by the way."
You hear Jason chuckling softly, almost sleepily. "Of course, sweets."
You fall asleep to the soft thuds of his heart.
The next night, at 03:59AM, you get a call. "Hey, honey, I'm going to be home a bit later."
@/burgundyvirgo no plagiarism or ai training/use authorised.
You didn't want your relationship to be a secret anymore.
You entered the Batcave stumbling, you even knocked something over. You heard a gasp before someone called your name. Tim came rushing over. "T-Tim..." You were bleeding from your left side and leg. The gash in your side wasn't very deep, you thought, but it still bled like a motherfucker.
Tim called for Alfred who was, luckily, in the cave too. Tim asked you what happened as he and Alfred helped you up the stairs. You were too embarrassed to admit that you had gotten into a fight with some junkies to blow off some steam, and because you had acted on emotions they had slashed your side and stabbed your leg, so you answered with an "It's nothing." Neither seemed to believe you, which was understandable with how you gasped in pain.
When they had finally gotten you to a bed, you lay down with a soft groan. You let Alfred take off your suit without any resistance. Tim had gone to get some supplies. When he came back, you had black dots and lights swimming in your vision. Soon everything was black.
You woke up again by hushed voices outside of the room you were in.
"Just let me in, dude, fuck."
"Why would I let you in, huh? Why is she so important?"
You immediately recognized Jasons voice. He was speaking with Tim and he wanted to come in? You wanted to call out for him but you were still too groggy. You looked around to see Alfred setting down a cup of soup next to your bed.
"Alfred... Is Jason here?"
"Yes, ma'am. He indeed is. Are you feeling better?" Alfred asked, polite as he always was.
You nodded.
"Do you wish to see him?" There was a playful glint in his eyes, as if he somehow knew about you and Jason.
"Please, yes."
Alfred exited the room you were in, which was very, very bright, had you slept all night?
A second later, the door opened again.
Jason sighed your name when he saw you lying on the bed.
"You scared the shit out of me." He sat down next to you on the bed and reached for your hand on your good side.
"Sorry." You smiled faintly.
"What the hell happened? I heard Tim tell Dick you looked like death when you walked in. And what were you thinking?! Walking into the cave unannounced?"
"Sorry, I- I... just needed to blow off some steam, I guess. It didn't end well, I suppose."
"You suppose?! You could've died!"
"Alright, that's a bit much, don't you think?" You tried to joke.
"And blow off steam? Did something happen?"
You looked at your intertwined hands. No. Yes. Something like that. You hated being in a secret relationship with Jason. You absolutely fucking hated it. But you also understood. His brothers would make jokes about it 24/7, and let's not forget that Jason is Bruce's adopted son, so it'd gain attention. Which could also bring trouble to keeping your identities a secret. It was all so shit.
"No, nothing happened."
"Right. You know I can see through your lies, right?" He cocked a brow.
You sighed. You did know that.
"It's just... It's not important, okay?"
"Sweetheart..." He let go of your hand to grab a chair. He sat it down next to your bed and sat down in it as he grabbed your hand again. "You can tell me anything."
"I hate this. Us being a secret and all. I want to... you know... Be able to kiss you whenever I want. I want to be able to cuddle on the couch when we watch a movie without being afraid of being caught."
Jasons gaze left yours. He looked down, to his lap. "Yeah. Me too."
"Can't we at least tell your family?" You had already told your family, without Jason knowing. But- in your defense, you hadn't told them who he was, just that you had a boyfriend. Your dad said he wanted to meet him immediately and your mom had asked him if he was hot, which gained her a nasty side eye from your dad. You could see that they were genuinely happy for you, though your dad had been a little worried at first. His worry was eased a few days later, when you came home with beautiful bouquet of your favorite flowers.
Jason looked up again. "Do you really want that?" He didn't like the idea, but he would do anything for you. Except maybe go completely public, but that was because it could be dangerous.
You nodded.
As if on queue, Dick and Tim came barging in the room. You and Jason were still holding hands. Usually, Jason would've pulled away, but it seemed like he meant his words. Of course, it was the first thing they saw.
A grin formed on Dicks face, and Tim groaned.
"You owe me 10 bucks." Dick smirked.
A/N: I'm honestly too tired to write but here we are.
@/burgundyvirgo no plagiarism or ai training/use authorised.
Choso Kamo, fluff, wc: 569. No use of Y/N. Cleaner!Reader.
You were both exhausted.
Jujutsu Kaisen didn't clean itself. About a year ago, they hired you to keep the school clean. You were not alone, of course, but you were the only one who also lived there because housing was an absolute disaster. That is, obviously, also how you met Choso, your... whatever he was. You were not official, but you did like him a lot, and he liked you.
You had had a rough day, one of the other cleaners called in sick so you had double as much work to do today. You had quickly showered and put on some comfortable clothes before you plopped down on your bed. You had almost fallen asleep when someone knocked on your door. It was dark outside, all of a sudden. Perhaps you had fallen asleep for a little while.
"Come in!" Your voice was hoarse. You quickly sat up and fixed your hair as best as you could in the span of 2 seconds.
Choso stood in the door opening. "Hi."
Your face immediately lit up. "Hey."
You knew he had a mission today, so you didn't have to ask why he looked absolutely wrecked. You got up and closed the door after Choso had stepped inside. His shoulders were sagged, his clothes and even his hair were a mess. You stood in front of him, he looked down at you with exhaustion etched in his features, but he was happy to finally be back. You wrapped your arms around his neck, pressing your body against his. He wrapped his arms around your waist.
"I missed you." He murmured into your neck.
"I missed you too. Are you okay? Did the mission go well?"
You felt him nod slightly. "Yeah. Everything went as planned."
"Hm.. I'm glad."
He began to gently push you back towards the bed. When the back of your knees hit the bed you let yourself fall on the soft mattress. Choso pushed you back softly before he pressed his lips onto yours. His lips were always so soft and warm, and he didn't even use Aquaphor!
A soft "missed you..." was murmured against your lips.
Choso pulled off his own clothes before pulling on yours, silently asking you to take them off. So you did.
When you were both in just underwear, you climbed into your bed. It was a little bit of a challenge to get comfortable with Choso's lips glued to yours, but it wasn't that much of a problem. He just really loved kissing you.
When he finally lie down in the bed, you turned around and pressed your bare back to his chest. His arm immediately wrapped around you and he buried his face in your hair. It was still a little bit damp from the shower you took earlier, but he didn't mind. Instead, he liked it because it made your hair smell stronger of your shampoo and he had associated the scent of you, including your shampoo, with safety and comfort. That probably explained why he was sleepy so soon.
"How was your day today, sweetheart?" His voice was softer than normal.
"Long. One of the cleaners called in sick."
"So you had more work?"
"Mhm. I'm so tired now..."
"Me too. Let's sleep, yeah?"
You nodded slightly. When you had almost fallen asleep you heard him whisper against the back of your neck, probably thinking you were already asleep.
"I love you."
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Barrage, COD, fluff(?), wc: 743. No use of Y/N. Hacker!Reader.
You disobeyed team orders for good reason.
People were yelling at you. You barely even heard it. You knew you disobeyed a direct team order, so they didn't need to repeat it a thousand times, you knew. You had killed someone when you weren't supposed to and because you were a hacker, not an actual trained soldier, it was a problem. But if you hadn't shot that guy...
"Are you even listening?!" Barrage shouted.
You looked up at him. You had expected anyone to be mad at you, but not him, not Barrage. He was the observer type. He didn't talk when he didn't have anything useful to share, but he heard and saw everything.
You got up, feeling irritated. You had just come back from being yelled at by your leader, and your mistake had been addressed.
"Oh, fuck off." Your voice was surprisingly calm, unlike the annoyed expression on your face. You walked away. You wanted to have just one moment of peace before you had to go to bed and go back to work tomorrow.
You sat on the porch of the safe house, looking at sunset through the trees. It was still warm outside, but there was a cool breeze. You sat there for a minute, enjoying the silence, when you heard the front door open behind you. You sighed as your previously relaxed body tensed a little. Someone sat down next to you.
"I just... I don't understand. You- You don't kill people, that's our job. Your job was to just hack their goddamn system." Barrage didn't sound so angry anymore.
"You don't have to understand." The scene replayed itself in your mind. You looked up from the little display you were working on and the only thing you saw was a man behind Barrage, ready to stab or slice. Barrage hadn't seen him, nobody had, just you. You didn't think before you shot the man with the Glock you carried with you to protect yourself with, incase you weren't around the rest of the Team. Usually you never even left the safe house, but sometimes you had to come with because not everything could be hacked from a distance.
"No, you don't understand," He sighed your name, "I know what killing does to a person. Especially a person that's not trained to withstand shit like that. People like you. I don't want anything to happen to you. We need you... I need you. At least tell me why."
You hesitated. You didn't want to sound stupid. Maybe Barrage had seen him and he had everything under control, and you just didn't see. No. No, he hadn't seen him, you were certain.
"He was going to kill you. You hadn't seen him. Everyone was busy so no one had noticed. I... I had to, okay? He had a knife and you were focused on the other guy."
He looked at you, his expression neutral. At least he wasn't mad or offended. "You killed him for me?"
Technically you had, but you didn't want to admit that, so you didn't answer.
"Never, ever, do that again. I can handle it myself." He sounded almost worried about you. "But thank you."
You looked up at him in surprise. He showed gratitude instead of scolding you? You could see the small smile on his face. "You're welcome." You smiled faintly.
You sat there in silence for a few moments.
Barrage broke the silence. "You know, I think it's stupid that they never learned you how to handle a real rifle. If you were ever in real danger that stupid Glock won't save you."
"Hopefully I'll never be in any real danger, then."
Barrage's gaze was still on you while you were staring at the stars that began to appear in the orange and purple sky. You only looked at Barrage when you felt his hand on yours.
"I could teach you."
You looked down at your hands and he squeezed your hand softly. You intertwined your fingers. "You're already so busy, Barrage."
"Doesn't matter. I owe you my life, don't I? I can make time for you."
It wasn't really about him owing you his life. He didn't take it all that serious. But he did worry about you. He wanted you to be able to fight if it ever came to that. And if he could spend time with you while teaching you how to do that, he definitely would.
The next morning was your first lesson.
A/N: I have never played any COD games with Barrage in it so I sincerely apologize if there's some complete bullshit!
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It had been a year since Josh's sisters had gone missing. It felt weird to be there, without Hannah and Beth. You had never been very close to them, you were Josh's friend, but it still felt really weird. Jess and Mike had gone off to the little cabin, a five minute walk from the house, Matt and Emily had gone back to get Emily's bag, but were taking suspiciously long, Ash and Chris were God knows where and Sam was taking a bath. That left you and Josh.
"Are you cold?" Josh asked. You shook your head. You were wearing warm clothes and already had a blanket wrapped around you.
"I'm okay," You smiled faintly. "are you?"
Josh smiled mischievously. "I'm really cold."
You let out a grin as you scooted closer to him on the big couch. When you were close enough, he wrapped his arm around you.
"That's better." He smiled.
Most of the time Josh acted like an arrogant dick, but not with you. You guys had been friends since you were nine years old and knew each other better than anyone. You probably knew him better than his sisters did- before they were gone, and he knew you better than your best friend. You even knew that he went to therapy. And you never stopped talking to him after his sisters did, even when the others did. You were always there for him.
You snuggled up against him with a soft sigh. When you were kids, you'd always imagined you would marry him someday.
Josh's hand ran through your hair, gently, and he grabbed one side of the blanket to sit under it too. You curled up against him, which made his face warm up, but due to how dimly lit it was, you couldn't see.
You grabbed his hand and played with the bracelets on his wrist. He put his head on top of yours when you leaned onto him.
For some strange reason, his smell was so comforting to him it made you sleepy. His cologne, fresh clothes and just... him. It was a nice scent.
"Hey, don't fall asleep on me, yeah?"
"No, no..." A lie. You were definitely going to fall asleep on him.
He wasn't stupid, of course he noticed. "Alright, come on, get up. I'll walk you to your room." You could hear the smile in those words.
You grudgingly got up, taking the hand he offered you as he led you up the stairs.
When you arrived at your room, you let yourself fall onto the bed instantly. The normally confident Josh stood by the door, not really knowing what to do.
"Come here," You said softly, "join me."
He looked at you, the doubt clear on his face. It only lasted a second before he closer the door and walked up to you. "You sure?"
"Of course." You stretched out on the bed and crawled under the covers. Luckily your clothes were comfortable enough to sleep in. His were too.
Josh sat on the side of the bed and took off his slippers before joining you in bed.
You almost immediately curled into him. He smiled, but bit his lip so you wouldn't notice, and wrapped his arms around you.
Josh wasn't the most talkative about how he felt, not even around you. He never told you, but you knew he loved you. Him being in bed with you at that moment was proof enough.
You woke up the next morning because of how cold it was in the house. You blinked slowly, and noticed Josh had almost pushed you off the bed in his sleep. Of course, he was still sleeping peacefully. You couldn't stifle the soft laugh that escaped you as you curled up against him. As if on instinct, Josh wrapped his arm around your waist as he muttered your name in his sleep. You fell asleep again feeling all warm and fuzzy.
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Oh, how had he gone and fallen in love with a mudblood, for fuck's sake!
The first time he had a conversation with you had been in your third year. The both of you had stayed at Hogwarts for Christmas and New Years, neither of you wanting to go home. He thought you were a half blood, which was already bad enough, but not a mudblood! When the holiday ended and everyone came back to school, Nott had asked him why he had sat next to a mudblood at potions. He had looked at him weirdly, then felt disgusted with himself, because he should have known. You weren't even a Slytherin, after all. When you had tried to start a conversation with him again the next day, he simply walked away. He didn't talk to you for the rest of the school year, though he did watch you without anyone noticing.
Fourth year he first bumped into you in the Hogwarts Express. Both still in year normal clothes. Well, you were in muggle clothes, but that wasn't all that important, was it? What was important, was the way you had looked up at him. Like a dog waiting to be hit, even though it had done nothing wrong. He felt so bad for you. His friends would have laughed at him if they saw the way he stared at you, for sure. His mind couldn't form words and you had quickly walked away through the crowd. A few months later you were paired for a project for astronomy. It had been very awkward at first. You thought he hated you, and he thought you hated him. Neither of you did. After you finished the project, you were still somewhat friendly with each other. He held open doors for you when he saw you approach, and you flashed him little smiles when you passed him.
Fifth year, the both of you had been at a secret party at the Hufflepuff common room. Parties like that were rare in 1943, so most students, from fourth year and up, went to it. It had been fun until he had found you crying when he left the common room. You were all alone in a cold, dark corridor. Apparently, a girlfriend of you had kissed the guy you liked. He did not think the situation to be worth your tears but he could smell the alcohol on you. Oh, you looked so very lovely when you cried. He had carefully wrapped an arm around you and sat with you. You began talking after you had calmed down. He had missed talking to you, he really did. And like that, you were friends again. You had agreed to keep the friendship a secret. If his friends ever found out he was friends with a mudb- muggle born, he would be in deep shit. It was the same for you. If your friends ever found out you were friends with that blonde, arrogant, rich prick, it probably wouldn't look good for you either.
In his sixth year he became even closer to you. You would finish your homework together and steal food from the kitchens, when the students and kitchen elves were sleeping. And if you were ever caught it wouldn't matter, he was a prefect after all. Sometimes you would go to the astronomy tower, stargazing or just talking, like you did most of the time. He loved the way your cheeks would redden when he flashed his charming smile. Or when you laughed so hard you had tears running down your cheeks. He loved the way you huddled closer to him when it was cold at the astronomy tower and he could smell your nice muggle perfume. Late nights turned into sneaking around in the day, sharing a quick kiss in an empty classroom or just holding you for a minute between class changes. Even in the summer holiday you wrote each other letters.
Seventh year he had confessed to you. Oh, he loved you so dearly. You were the best thing that had ever happened to him, he thought. That was until he had to return in the winter holiday. His parents had arranged a marriage for him. It was with a girl he knew from when he was younger, when their parents were working and they had to play together to entertain themselves. He had no interest in her, none at all! You were the only person on his mind, forever! When the both of you returned to school after the holidays, you had held him when he cried in your arms in the Room of Requirement. He was so happy you had found that room. Finally somewhere where you could be yourselves without being afraid of being caught. You had no idea why he cried and you hadn't asked him either. He'd tell you when he wanted, and that was true. A few weeks later, he told you. He had to get married to someone. A woman he didn't want. He was yours already. He had cried again, and so had you. Of course, the both of you knew it would never last. He was a Malfoy and you were a muggle born.
You had finished your last school year. On the Express back to London, you had held each other the whole ride. You were together in a compartment and neither of you cared who saw. When the Express was close to London, he kissed you. It was a distraction. He slipped the ring his mother had given him into your small bag. You would never take it from him, he knew that, but he wanted- no, needed you to have it. As a reminder of him. Of his love for you. You left the Hogwarts Express together, hand in hand, both carrying your luggage. He saw the blonde hair of his father through the crowd, but he couldn't bring himself to care. He let go of his stuff and wrapped his arms around you one last time. He kissed you so he could not see your tears, only feel the wetness they left behind. You had wrapped your arms around him. You could hear your parents calling your name but you couldn't let go of Abraxas. He kissed you, one last time. Someone gasped behind him, probably a student from their year. Or ex-student, really. Because they wouldn't go back. They would never go back. You would never see each other again. He kissed you one last time, whispered your name so you'd look up at him as he told you he loved you. He turned and walked over to his father, not ready to go back to his home and plan his wedding next month. He took a deep breath and prayed for the tears to sink away again as he reached his father. He didn't look back at you. And neither did you.
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You were always quiet. Quiet in a way he knew you were listening, but only he knew. You were smart and intelligent, and you picked things up quicker than most. That is why after school, he married you. And yes, perhaps it was very convenient that you were from a pure blood, rich family. You knew about the Knights of Walpurgis. You were there when they turned into the Death Eaters and when more people joined him. You had no idea about the people he had murdered, especially not in school. You had known, but he erased your memories because sometimes, just sometimes, you were too smart for your own good.
About a year after you were married, Tom began to behave differently. Sure, he still wanted to have sex with you, but he didn't touch you like he used to. He wasn't overly affectioned, not at all, but sometimes his fingers used to run over your arm, so light you didn't always notice.
A few years later, you began to disagree with your not so dear husband. He was the heir of Slytherin, of course, but was all this murder… Was it really necessary? But a day after you had an argument with him, you completely understood. You even started to work for him a little. You had even murdered for him, just twice, but still. And you did it all so nicely, you loved working for your dear husband. Tom even seemed to touch you more. It made you so very happy.
One night, you had been drinking wine in the garden room of your mansion. It was beautiful outside, white from the harsh winter. You were already in your pretty nightgown. Tom hadn't come home yet, which wasn't a surprise, and you didn't mind all that much either, though you did miss him a little. You heard something- no, someone behind you. Wind still in your hand, you looked over your shoulder. You shrieked. Behind you wasn't your husband, but multiple people you vaguely recognized. Your wine had fallen as you had jumped up from the couch, and you had reached for the wand in your pocket. You didn't have pockets in your nightgown. You didn't have your wand with you. How terribly stupid of you, Tom would have scolded you for sure. You couldn't jump away when one of the people in your garden room cast a spell on you, you had been thinking too hard about what Tom would have said to you. Suddenly, you didn't feel so happy anymore. Your husband wasn't so very dear anymore, oh no, you hated him. You had killed people for him. Innocent people.
The people in your garden room were people from Hogwarts, people who had known you before you were married to Tom Riddle. When word got out you had killed, not once, but twice, they had known something was wrong. Tom had you under his control for years after that one argument you had. The Imperius Curse. You hadn't known. You couldn't have. You quickly grabbed some stuff and ran away as far as you could. You never saw him again. You hadn't even missed him, even though sometimes his fingers still ran over your arm in your sleep.
That was until tonight. You were back at Hogwarts after more than fifty years. There had been a great battle, a war. Tom stood in the Courtyard with his army, his Death Eaters. The half-giant man carried the boy's body. No! He wasn't supposed to die. But the prophecy… You still believed in it. You were hidden in the crowd as Tom gave a whole speech about a whole lot of nonsense. You barely listened to it. You were too focused on Harry Potter's lifeless body. You heard a gasp when another boy, who you didn't know, held a sword. The good side hadn't given up, but you knew no one would be strong enough to face Tom himself. You hated him, but you could not lie and tell yourself he wasn't powerful. You would face him, you would kill him, just like you should have done all those years ago.
You could see the surprise in his snake like features when you called his name, and pointed your wand at him. It took him a moment too long to point the Elderwand at you, but not too slow. You had a battle. He knew you were smart, but clearly he had underestimated you. Before you were under the Imperius Curse you had found a book of his with all sorts of Dark Magic. There were even spells he had made himself. Could he win from someone who had almost the same knowledge as he had? Could he win from the woman he once looked up to? Even though she was physically older than he was, the answer was no. He couldn't. And so he died when you fired the last spell, the killing curse.
"Avada Kedavra!" Had echoed through the whole Courtyard. He was your third victim, and your last. Apparently, your older body couldn't handle this. Your husband's body disintegrating into dust, blowing away in the wind, is the last thing you see before you join him in death. There, you will be so much more powerful than he ever was, alive and in death.
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