Fractured Feathers🦋

A Story of a Silent Girl with a Loud Mind

[butterflybaby98]

My dear fake 'ED',

You are an innocent battle against the genes I refuse to accept as a gift from my anatomy. I wish I could make my metabolism ten thousand times faster to burn away calories, shaping my body into an hourglass—just skin and bones with a subtle layer of fat beneath. 

You are false. I do not own you. My mouth prefers food, and my mind craves it. Though my body and mind do not whisper your name, I call you more and more to feel the euphoric emptiness inside. I know my fat will vanish, revealing the perfect body hidden beneath. Possess me with your sin so that this can happen soon. In truth, only you can turn me into pure flesh, blood, skin, and water.

[butterflybaby98]

Knife Through Hearts

I slit a heart with a knife, Slit it deep, through pain and crimes. Till the blade's tip could clearly see, The world beyond, through his Injury..

He held the handle, frozen in pain, Paralyzed as blood did stain. I hugged him tight, from his back, To stop the flow, to feel his crack…

But as I pressed, harder still, The knife turned sharp, against my will. I felt its tip within my chest, Tearing muscles, denying rest.

He hurt more, while I hurt less, Two broken hearts in the deepest mess, He let me pull the blade away, Through tears, through screams, We chose to stay,

We stitched each heart, thread by thread, But my hand shook with a trembling Bloodshed, He stitched his own, then turned to mine, Selfless, calm, a love divine.

Now wounds have healed, though scars remain, The wound is triggered by love and pain. His hurts still ache; I feel them too, The suffering will end with a life that is true,

But time will pass, and the pain will fade, In his arms, my heart is laid. I hug him close, from the back I stay, Together, we'll find a brighter day.

[butterflybaby98]

It Feels Like

When you fall harder and deeper for someone… A little ignorance feels like a breakup; A simple argument feels like a Fight; A little guilt feels like a Penitence; A misstep feels like a total disaster; Don’t ever let someone who falls harder go through a breakup.; Cause It will feel like ;

A suicide….

[butterflybaby98]

Life Lessons You've Taught Me

Stay loyal and true to your heart. If you do something wrong, you betray yourself more than you do for others, as you’ll carry the guilt in your conscience for a lifetime.

Seeking validation from others won’t help if you don’t value yourself. Women who need attention from other people often have weak souls and low self-esteem. You don’t need anyone’s attention if you truly find self-love within.

There are no guys here to help you unless they want something from you. Many intend to use you like a toy. Stop being available to people who see you as something to use.

Understand the difference between needing someone and wanting someone. Needs come from a lack, as if you need someone to complete you. Wanting someone means you desire them in your life without any expectation.

Forgive yourself, but never forget. Learn from your mistakes, correct them, and never make the same mistake again. Keep your soul pure and find peace.

Being insecure and stuck in your comfort zone doesn’t help you grow. You won’t gain anything but depression and self-hatred. Instead, try to overcome your insecurities by turning them into motivation and building yourself into a stronger person.

Don’t blame the past. Though you’ve had many empty days, blaming childhood trauma won’t help you move forward now. Use your time to heal and grow.

Seek peace and calm with God. Believe in God, pray daily, and trust that God has a plan for your life. Letting God into your heart can give you a pure conscience.

Be someone who stays close to your partner only. Cheating isn’t just physical intimacy, it includes texting others with different intentions, sharing things with other men, or thinking they’re attractive. Loyalty is keeping your head high, showing less emotions to other men, and giving your whole heart to your loved one without limitation.

Be invisible to others and available only to your loved one.

Connect with nature.

Attract positivity, and ignore negativity.

Love isn’t just a spark or attraction. Love is selfless, it’s finding one reason to stay when there are a thousand reasons to leave. Love is loyalty, respect, care, sharing, and living for each other until the end, facing challenges together as one.

Your body is like the church. You should maintain it. Take care of it and love it. Also it belongs to only one son of god.

Pray daily and go to church on Sunday

[butterflybaby98]

The Rebirth of the Queen

There was a princess who looked like a deep Atlantic ocean; Her eyes sparkled like green shades of deadly poison; With a hidden mystery black soul which man can be barely chosen; She looked like a fiction and was owned by a ruined beacon.

There was a knight; he saw that fragile lost soul as a Dame in a war; Her deadly eyes were a sin? Yet he chose to stay even though she was far; He offered his armour and gave his shield not knowing she was just a scar; The Knight almost died, but his soul was waiting for the victory roar.

Was the war between the princess and the Knight? No, it was for the freedom of a trapped soul of her inner pride; She handed over the sword to him to ruin her wasted side; He built her up by choosing the pieces which were only pure as white.

He reincarnated the queen, who was always in his ideation; Her glory eyes had the power to make him the king of paradise nation; He ruined all the lighthouses which misled his queen being her salvation; She gave the world he always dreamt about with lioness protection.

~Sham~

[butterflybaby98]

Fake Loners

Some people in this world are true loners… They don’t need to be with others… They find companionship within their own souls— It gives them freedom and peace… ………. But the sad truth is, there are people who are not naturally loners, but choose loneliness… They are scared of rejection, so they avoid being accepted… ……….. People assume they are introverted… But deep in their minds, they crave a small chat, a friendly talk, to share thoughts. Yet, fear of rejection weakens their social skills… ………….. They have been rejected, ignored, left out a thousand times… Their traumas tell them; Be quiet. Be invisible. Be lonely… So you don’t feel the fear of being ignored… You don’t have to worry if they don’t invite you… And you don’t have to wonder if they secretly hate you… ………… Their shield is the word Introversion. This label gives strength to a fragile mind. They become a loner who secretly craves companionship… ……….. Fake loners— They love lunch with a group, laughter, and gossip at a crowded table… But they hide in the corner, pretending to enjoy their meal alone, thinking, Oh, I wish I could be one of them… ………… Fake loners— They love to share their ideas, thoughts, and jokes. But they stay silent, fearing judgment, sinking into the ocean of their lonely thoughts… …………….. Fake loners— They love being invited, to dinners, to fun outings. But they convince themselves it’s okay not to be asked… They fight the feeling of being left out, whispering, Darling, reading a book in bed is better than that… …………… Group photos— Another trigger. They never know where to stand, who to stand next to. Should I hold someone’s hand? No. They stand in the corner, hating the photo, deciding not to keep it because it makes them sadder. …………… Yes. I am a fake loner… I love to be involved, but fear rejection… is isolated myself, pretending to be a true loner; an introverted girl; hiding behind a mask of introversion… that saves my day.