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the musings & ramblings of a beautiful weirdo.

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Monet’s garden at Giverny

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Day 6 of Black History Month and I’m honoring the late Hank Aaron. He was an American professional baseball right fielder who played 23 seasons in Major League Baseball (MLB), from 1954 through 1976. He spent 21 seasons with the Milwaukee/Atlanta Braves in the National League (NL) and two seasons with the Milwaukee Brewers in the American League (AL). Aaron is regarded as one of the greatest baseball players of all time. His 755 career home runs broke the long-standing MLB record set by Babe Ruth and stood as the most for 33 years; Aaron still holds many other MLB batting records

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tarot - 10/22/20

tarot – 10/22/20

queen of cups

interpretation: this overall seems like a positive card. I see a mother hen and a very ornate cup. are we celebrating something? do I need to be caring for someone. my husband hurt his ankle pretty bad and I’m not the best at offering care long-term, sure one or two days, but I get annoyed/frustrated very easily. maybe this is a sign I need to step up and support him more. cups…

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tarot: 10/21/20 - THE SUN

tarot: 10/21/20 – THE SUN

today’s daily draw gave me the sun. ironic, it’s cloudy 🙂

my initial reaction is something inside of me is shining and wants to come out – it’s excited, warm, kind. maybe something like a rebirth? I have been proactively trying to be kinder all around, especially to my husband as he is a truly great person and I am very lucky to have him in my life. the sun is also such a large part of…

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noom - confidence

noom – confidence

“What would you do if you were more confident?”

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confidence. such a word. I used to be too confident. then I had no confidence. now I’m a grown up and I have enough confidence to get by, but probably not as much as I want or deserve. so let’s play pretend. if I was truly confident in my own skin, what would I do?

I DONT KNOW. I’ve always wanted to be strong…

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may 7th, 2020

getting into a daily isn’t as simple as you’d think. here I am applauding myself for even remembering to post 🙂 (trying to be kinder to myself during this weird time)

prompt: from bemorewithless.com – if you aren’t familiar with this blog, check it out! it’s all about how to live more with less stuff – physically, emotionally and mentally

“Even though I can’t change my situation today, if I do…

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april 29, 2020

update – we postponed our wedding to 4 more months out, so yesterday was a blur with a lot of snoozing

prompt: from pinterest – “how would you describe your perfect day?”

I’d wake up from a super restful sleep, maybe around 8ish

do my usual play snuggles with my dog, suzy, and T (my fiancee)

take her out for her usual walk – it would be very sunny, but not too hot

everyone eats a yummy breakfast…

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april 27, 2020

day 1 – googled journal prompts, here’s what i’m picking:

Create a list: “Things you’ve done that you previously thought you could never do.”

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run a half marathon

bake sourdough bread

play lacrosse well

finally get through the harry potter series (on book 5, will finish – I promise)

pay off my credit card debt

become financially independent

make and…

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new decade, new me

new decade, new me

just kidding! should say old me. i feel like it’s time to get in touch with my true self by easy, daily journal prompts. so get ready, because i’m about to learn A LOT that was hidden about myself that didn’t seem cool or hip in years past.

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Caterpillar Category pt. 1

Caterpillar Category pt. 1

I’ve had the same headache for the last 3 days. It feels like pressure right above my right eye. I haven’t had a minute to Google, although that may be for the best. I’m supposed to be writing as I go through this process. The process of FINALLY being true to myself after 28 years of pretending to be someone I’m not. Weird, as I type that the pressure lightens. I’m 1 month and 1 week away from my…

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#metoo: My Harvey Weinstein Karmic Truth & [His] Prison Sentence

#metoo: My Harvey Weinstein Karmic Truth & [His] Prison Sentence

This title is weird, but it works, as this isn’t a detailed experience of my harassment. I have a #metoo experience and it was scary and consumer a year of my life and destroyed my confidence. I ended the relationship only after I spent a LOT of time reading self help books about rebuilding your confidence. I woke up, saw my bruises, mentally removed myself and realized I had been manipulated and…

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