-- caballineTrottage [CT] began pestering coaxialCoralition [CC] at 21:25 --
CC: O)(, -Equius! I was just glubbing about you! 380
CT: D --> You were? What for? E%cuse the questioning, I just did not e%pect to be the topic of a conversation
CC: )(e)(e, w)(y? Paranoid?
CC: Well... I guess you would be after last time. W)(oops.
CT: D --> That's not the reasoning, no
CT: D --> It does not matter either way
CT: D --> Are you busy? I'd...like your physical presence
CT: D --> Not in that way
CT: D --> My deepest apologies
CC: I'm going to incorporate Nepeta's FAVORIT---E way of communication and go...
CC: *CC raises her eyebrows.* 38I
CT: D --> Please do not do that
CC: *)(er eyebrows are practically falling off )(er face!!! T)(ey're ac)(ieving LIFTOFF!!!*
CT: D --> How can your brows fall and lift at the same time
CC: I don't know but it's )(appening!!!
CC: Okay but you can't blame M-E for )(aving poor word c)(oice.
CT: D --> I can attempt to
CC: You were requesting my p)(ysical presence?
CC: T)(at's no way to go about it, Mister.
CT: D --> I was not requesting you in that way, I promise
CC: I wasn't even t)(inking it!!!
CC: You're t)(e one w)(o's mind is in t)(e gutter. DOOFIS)(.
CT: D --> I regret all of this now
CC: Was t)(ere somefin you needed?
CT: D --> Not in particular, no
CT: D --> I was just wondering if you would like to spend time with me
CT: D --> It's been a while
CC: Yea)(... I know. -Everyt)(ing's been so crazy lately.
CT: D --> Insteed they have been
CT: D --> We went to 100k at the power plant the other day, a poor sea creature had gotten trapped and was wreaking havoc in the facility
CC: A sea creature??? O)( my GLUB!!! T)(at's awful!!!!
CT: D --> Yes, fortunately we were able to help the poor thing get free
CT: D --> It was a majestic and beautiful thing
CC: But )(m. I can come over for a little w)(ile if you'd like!
CT: D --> I would like for you to come over, but I know that you are busy. You have things to tend to, do you not
CC: W)(atever I'm doing, I can always come back to it. It's reely not a fis)(ue!!!
CC: But I am talking to my friend, )(oruss. )(ave you met )(im?
CT: D --> Neigh, I haven't
CC: )(e's one of t)(e new security guards AND )(e's a blueblood STRONG troll too!!! Water t)(e odds?
CC: )(e also love )(oofbeast puns!!! I've been punning back and fort)( wit)( )(im and it's SO MUC)( FUN! 38D
CC: You s)(ould meet )(im! )(e's t)(e sweetest.
CT: D --> I'll put that on my evergrowing list of things to do
CC: Are you s)(ore I'm t)(e one you s)(ould be worried about being busy?
CT: D --> I know how you like to stretch yourself thin, Feferi. So yes
CC: OKAY BUT. You're t)(e one wit)( a KRILLION robot projects, rig)(t??
CC: Any work I )(ave can usually get done in a finful of )(ours!
CT: D --> I can suspend my projects for now
CC: Well... if you really want a break, I can come over.
CC: I'm going rig)(t now so you can't argue!!!
CT: D --> I don't believe I could stop you if I wanted to
-- caballineTrottage [CT] ceased pestering coaxialCoralition [CC] at 21:36 --
FEFERI:*There's a knock at Equius's door. The fish troll has ARRIVED.*
EQUIUS:D --> *SHE'S HERE. Equius opens the door and his room is fairly clean e%cept for robo parts, naturally his lusus is in the background being simply the best butler.*
EQUIUS:D --> It's a surprise to see you here
EQUIUS:D --> *Haha 100kit that funny joke. He's going for a hug*
FEFERI:O)(, surprise! *Feferi goes along with it, glad for the hug. Her arms come around him and she realizes somewhere... it's been a while. Squeeeeeze, glub.*
EQUIUS:D --> *He's happy for the hug, it has indeed been a while, but he doesn't let it linger too long before he pulls away and steps aside to let her in. She'll notice that the tiny robo ram he'd brought to the memorial is back on his desk. Odd.*
FEFERI:*comes in and glances curiously at the ram. Wasn't that back in the Atrium? It looked like the exact same one.* Did you make anot)(er one or...?
EQUIUS:D --> *Equius starts to sweat gently*
EQUIUS:D --> No, I didn't
EQUIUS:D --> *Clears his throat*
EQUIUS:D --> Aradia brought it back
FEFERI:*her fins perk with interest as she picks it up. It's a lot heavier than she expected!* )(e)(e)(e! Did s)(e actually reject your gift? O)( my cod.
EQUIUS:D --> *Equiblush. If only, they'd been rekindling their relationship*
EQUIUS:D --> She possessed it
EQUIUS:D --> I was speaking to her and when I opened my door, there it was headbutting my leg
FEFERI:*something about that made her pump muscle tick. Was it excitement? Feferi thought it had something to do with Aradia being up to no good again. There was no end to it! She laughs at Equius's story, just picturing it.*
FEFERI:T)(at's... just like )(er. *marvels and holds the little bot close*
EQUIUS:D --> *Equius had found it to be marvelous. It was a step.*
EQUIUS:D --> Do you know what this means though. The implications of this are great
EQUIUS:D --> If we can find a way to keep her tethered to a body then...then maybe there's a chance we can bring her back in some official capacity
FEFERI:*Blinks up at him for a second, her eyes going WIDE.* O)( my cod, do you t)(ink so???
EQUIUS:D --> *He probably sounded a bit like a mad scientist right now, but he didn't care. They might be able to bring her back, maybe she wasn't gone for good*
FEFERI:O)( but, -Equius!!! T)(at's... INCR---EDIBL--E!!!!!!!! *almost drops the ram in her excitement* IF IT'S ACTUALLY POSSIBL---E??? )(OLY S)(IPWR-ECK.
EQUIUS:D --> *He grins. It's all specualtive, and he still had to convince Dirk, but those were details. Details he wouldn't bore Feferi with right now. Part of him felt she needed to know. She was such good friends with Aradia*
EQUIUS:D --> It's still tentative, but I'll keep you up to date on the progress
FEFERI:*she's still going to ask him details* Tentative?? Water t)(e c)(ances of it working?? Are t)(ey )(ig)(? *TELL MEEEEE*
EQUIUS:D --> I'm not sure yet. She told me to talk to Dirk about building a robot for her
EQUIUS:D --> The trick is finding a way for her to not just possess it, but live again
EQUIUS:D --> *He's sweating, but it's e%cited sweating. The possibilities. The not dead kismesis. THE SCIENCE!*
FEFERI:Yea)(, I'll bet. *she frowns to herself as if trying to make some unseen connections*
EQUIUS:D --> What's the matter
FEFERI:O)(, not)(ing!!! Just t)(inking! *the expression clears and she smiles again* I am SO excited about t)(is news, you )(ave no idea.
EQUIUS:D --> I assumed that you would enjoy hearing it *He smiles and takes a seat*
EQUIUS:D --> So how have you been when not e%ploring the depths of the ocean
FEFERI:I've been okay! *tucks a strand of her hair behind her earfin* I was mostly working on Aradia's windc)(ime but taking it easy too.
FEFERI:I'm going to be partnering up with Aranea for t)(e talent s)(ow! I'm looking forward to t)(at!
EQUIUS:D --> I have yet to contact my partner
FEFERI:W)(o are t)(ey? 38?
EQUIUS:D --> It's the ships on board ai
FEFERI:I... don't t)(ink I've ever )(eard of t)(em. *kind of stares at Equius, hearing him say "lil" with a serious expression*
EQUIUS:D --> Well, the easiest way to put it is: Lil Hal is the ship
FEFERI:Well I understood t)(e "artifis)(al intellegence" part. I've just never spoken to t)(em!
EQUIUS:D --> Neither have I, honestly
EQUIUS:D --> He's a creation of Dirk's I believe
FEFERI:*at the mention of that, she winces a little and tries to shove it off* O)()()( okay.
EQUIUS:D --> *HE raises an eyebrow, but doesn't say anything of it*
FEFERI:*can't focus too much on the GUILT. She changes subjects.* Aranea and I mig)(t do a s)(ort play of some kind!
FEFERI:Yes! It'll probably )(ave a sword and trident strife and cool costumes and it's bound to be a w)(ole lot of fun!!! I can't wait!
EQUIUS:D --> It sounds interesting. I'm 100king forward to it
EQUIUS:D --> I have no idea what I can do for a talent with a ship
FEFERI:*scratches her chin* Since )(e's a creation of Dirk's, I'd suggest a slam poetry session but... it probably wouldn't be a good idea.
EQUIUS:D --> Why not, I'm fairly skilled at the art of slam poetry. Don't you remember
FEFERI:No, I mean! *fiddles with her fingers* W)(at if, )(ypot)(etically speaking, your slam poetry game is too STRONG and you accidentally end up breaking )(im??
FEFERI:As like, a non-specific reason.
FEFERI:T)(at'd be terrible, rig)(t? *looks ANXIOUS*
EQUIUS:D --> Well, Dirk is amazing at the so called ill rhymematics and I would assume that any of his creations would be able to take fresh verbage of that magnitude
EQUIUS:D --> Your faith in my skills are noted it but I doubt I would break him
FEFERI:Well if you're ABSOLUT--ELY sure!
EQUIUS:D --> *He's so clueless that you BROKE SQUAREWAVE*
EQUIUS:D --> I am. Thank you
FEFERI:T)(en go for it, dude!! *SMILESSSSS she'd much rather forget the whole thing but the guilt will probably eat her alive for ages to come*
EQUIUS:D --> I believe I shall
EQUIUS:D --> It's nice seeing you again, Feferi
FEFERI:*her smile turns apologetic and she looks off* Yea)(, I'm... sorry I've been so eelusive lately.
EQUIUS:D --> There's no need to apologize to me
FEFERI:I know but you've been up )(ere all by yourself! *she shifts around, appearing anxious again* And I've been... goofing off in t)(e ocean, I guess.
EQUIUS:D --> *He muses quietly for a moment or too*
EQUIUS:D --> You never did show me the pictures of what you saw
FEFERI:O)(! T)(at's rig)(t! *her nervous energy doesn't seem to disappate but at least she's seizing the chance to pull out her communicator* B--E)(OLD.
EQUIUS:D --> I am beholding
FEFERI:*And lo, Equius is presented with many bright, colorful pictures of the coral formations out in the Beforan coast. There are fish, shipwrecks, selfies with Eridan, and a whole section dedicated to the tropical aquatic hoofbeast herd she came across.*
EQUIUS:D --> *He's so e%cited about the hoofbeasts. They're so pretty. So majestic*
EQUIUS:D --> I want to touch one
EQUIUS:D --> *He 100ks so sad about it*
FEFERI:And look at t)(is widdle baby one!!! S)(e's so s)(y!!! *kissy faces at the picture of an aquatic hoofbeast foal eating some kelp out of her hand*
EQUIUS:D --> *He sweats. It's too cute. Too much cute. Oh gosh*
FEFERI:If you could go underwater, you could pet one, rig)(t? Or you could settle wit)( regular land )(oofbeasts! *stows her commincator away when she's done flipping thru pictures.*
EQUIUS:D --> I'd have to be careful
FEFERI:*looks at him curiously* Because of your strengt)( or...?
EQUIUS:D --> Yes, but I also do not want to scare them
FEFERI:T)(at's w)(y you let t)(em come to you! Or persuade t)(em wit)( treats. *silly Equius*
EQUIUS:D --> Yes, of course
EQUIUS:D --> How foalish of me
FEFERI:You know, )(oruss was telling me of )(is destrengt)(ening gloves! )(e said it allows )(im to come into contact wit)( people just like a... quote unquote "regular Joe"! 38o
FEFERI:I reely t)(ink you would benefit from talking to )(im!
EQUIUS:D --> Oh? Interesting indeed
EQUIUS:D --> I've been working on a shirt that would do the same for me
EQUIUS:D --> That project had been pushed to the wayside recently, and Nepeta thinks that I should try to concentrate more on controlling my strength myself
EQUIUS:D --> I've been getting better
EQUIUS:D --> *Smiles. Look at those perfect troll teeth. Not a single broken one*
FEFERI:)(e)(e)(e, I t)(ink so too! And )(--EY!!! Look at t)(ose s)(ark c)(ompers!!! *FINALLY notices and lights up, delighted*
EQUIUS:D --> *And then her grins a little too hard and CRACK! BREAK!! There go a couple. Equius, spits them into his hand with a saddened e%pression and sighs*
FEFERI:*stands there shocked for a second, just looking at the blue.* ...
EQUIUS:D --> *CRUSHES them in his hand in frustration.*
EQUIUS:D --> Ne%t time then
FEFERI:It doesn't )(urt, does it? *wide-eyed concern*
EQUIUS:D --> No, I'm used to it by now
FEFERI:You )(ave a little... *gestures at the corner of his mouth but decides to give up. She pulls out one of her towels and dabs the bit of blood away.*
FEFERI:It must be so frustrating. I can't even imagine w)(at it's like! *dabs at his sweat while she's at it*
EQUIUS:D --> Oh, I could have...*He trails off because it's too late, she's dabbing at his cheek, and then his forehead. The sweat increased a little and there was new blue, now on his cheeks as she dabs at him*
EQUIUS:D --> It can be a source of great anger and frustration, but teeth grow back
FEFERI:Well... I've broken stuff on accident before too. *stows the towel away and offers him a sympathetic smile* It doesn't make you weird or anyt)(ing!
FEFERI:I mean just yesterday, I, um... *fidgets* I broke Squarewave on accident. 38(
EQUIUS:D --> *His eyes widen a little, but it's mostly because of how guilty and sad she 100ks. Squarewave was precious, but it wasn't uncommon knowledge that he wasn't the most comple% robot in the world. Sometimes he needed fi%ing.*
EQUIUS:D --> How'd you accomplish that
FEFERI:It's --EMBARRASSING but um.... *FIDGETS SOME MORE* )(e c)(allenged me to a slam poetry strife and I...
FEFERI:May )(ave slammed )(im too )(ard.
EQUIUS:D --> As Dirk would say: You welcomed him to come on and slam, but he was not up to jam
FEFERI:And I just felt so awful, like I'm some kind of BULLY or somet)(ing. 38C
EQUIUS:D --> *He stifles a laugh but places a hopefully reassuring hand on her should*
EQUIUS:D --> Accidents happen
FEFERI:*totally notices* You're laug)(ing at me!
EQUIUS:D --> How were you to know that he couldn't handle the barrage of metered verse you he--no
EQUIUS:D --> Maybe a little
EQUIUS:D --> It's amusing to picture you breaking him with the sheer magnitude of your rhymed vocabulary
FEFERI:*flares her fins and facepalms in order to hide how hot her face felt* I told )(im... )(e caug)(t a virus called N---ERD.
FEFERI:And )(e pretty muc)( -EXPLOD-ED.
EQUIUS:D --> *STRONG laughter*
EQUIUS:D --> If that's the case, then were you lying
FEFERI:W)(at? W)(y? *peeks through her fingers*
EQUIUS:D --> Perhaps he did catch the nerd virus
EQUIUS:D --> Or maybe it was within him the whole time
EQUIUS:D --> Your words freed it
EQUIUS:D --> *He's so tickled by this*
FEFERI:O)( my cod. T)(at's so M-EAN. *lightly whaps his head*
EQUIUS:D --> *That only makes him laugh HARDER*
FEFERI:Yea)(, well!!! Dirk messaged me and D-EMAND-ED to know w)(at I did to )(im.
FEFERI:Apparently )(e spilled water on )(imself?? Or somefin??? It )(ad not)(ing to do wit)( me at all. *crosses her arms and huffs*
EQUIUS:D --> *Snortwhinny*
EQUIUS:D --> Your rhyme game is just too STRONG, Feferi
FEFERI:*flushes again* W)(atever!!!
EQUIUS:D --> *He's been hanging with Dirk too much*
EQUIUS:D --> *He gets himself back under control, but his cheeks are blue with laughter and for once his face doesn't settle back down into a frown. It 100ks pretty light*
FEFERI:It's strong enoug)( to s)(ort circuit little innocent rap robots! T)(at's not)(ing to be proud of!!! >38I
FEFERI:*taps her fingers on her arms, pretty much done with everything*
EQUIUS:D --> His primary function is slam poetry
EQUIUS:D --> Squarewave will be fine, I promise
FEFERI:Not wit)( you laug)(ing at )(im, )(e won't.
EQUIUS:D --> Okay, I am done
FEFERI:*makes a bluh bluh bluh face*
EQUIUS:D --> *Waggles eyebrows at her*
FEFERI:*has to physically put her hand in his face and push it away. STOP WITH THE EYEBROWS.*
EQUIUS:D --> *His face gets MUSHED, the eyebrows stop but he 100ks back at her the faintest hint of a smile on his lips*
FEFERI:*puts fingers to her forehead and sighs* So w)(at else is new?
EQUIUS:D --> I feel I should ask you the same
FEFERI:*considers this* My fis)(mesis sent me a present t)(e ot)(er day! Of course, it was over a reason t)(at was pretty muc)( culls)(it but... at least t)(e octopus is cute!
EQUIUS:D --> *Equius ponders this. He didn't get her a gift, but he didn't really understand the human holiday of Christmas. She mentioned her kismesis though*
EQUIUS:D --> Who's your kismesis
FEFERI:*tilts her head* O)(! Did I never tell you?
EQUIUS:D --> I don't believe so
FEFERI:*fiddles with her fingers* Well... it's Cronus. *makes a face like yeah, she's disappointed in herself too*
EQUIUS:D --> *SEADWELLER*
FEFERI:)(im! Yes. *rolls her eyes*
FEFERI:)(e)(e)(e, I'm sorry it's not more -EXCITING. -Especially because )(e so s)(rimpy and bruises easy. *sounds pleased anyway*
EQUIUS:D --> Did he get you a gift to avoid said bruises
FEFERI:If )(e actually t)(oug)(t t)(at would ever work, I'd break down )(is door and kick )(is ass myself.
FEFERI:)(e's run and hid before! *laughs*
FEFERI:But no. It was over a really stupid reason and I told )(im t)(at )(e needed to troll up and improve )(is )(ate game.
FEFERI:I am just so SICK of )(im sitting t)(ere and expecting stuff to )(appen for )(im. *tsks and flicks some hair out of her face* I told )(im I wasn't going to do anyt)(ing to provoke )(im anymore so... see )(ow )(e likes T)(OS-E sea prunes.
EQUIUS:D --> *She's kind of dreamy when she's fiery*
EQUIUS:D --> I wish you the best in that endeavor
EQUIUS:D --> *He's kind of thinking of his own kismesis now and it's only getting him down a little*
EQUIUS:D --> Does he really run and hide from you
FEFERI:*she realizes this with a twinge of pity and sadness for him. Gently clears a strand of long hair from his face.* )(e)(e, yea)(. Or rat)(er. )(e pretends like )(e's not in )(is block w)(en )(e knows )(e's pissed me off.
FEFERI:Like general pissing me off, not t)(e good kind. )(e )(as a fat mout)( and gets too big for )(is britc)(es sometimes. *says all this with a very light tone*
EQUIUS:D --> *There's a light tint of blue on his cheeks, but he listens intently. It was amazing how light she managed to sound, despite everything that happened lately, despite everything she went through*
EQUIUS:D --> Then it's time for you to cut him to size
EQUIUS:D --> Have you had a strife with him to see if he's cut for combat
FEFERI:*snorts, totally down for talking shit about Cronus* )(e is now)(ere N---EAR cut for combat. And )(e's too lazy to get off )(is pos)( butt to do anyfin about it!!!
FEFERI:And )(e calls M-E t)(e princess. )(a)(a!
FEFERI:*but her fins pin as she continues* I guess... I get scared for )(im sometimes. W)(en I t)(ink about it.
FEFERI:)(e just... doesn't understand.
EQUIUS:D --> Well, you don't think he's particularly cut out to be your kismesis then make him be
EQUIUS:D --> Challenge him, but it's not up to you to protect him
EQUIUS:D --> If that's what you're getting at
FEFERI:*she looks off, painfully aware how jarringly close he was getting to the truth*
FEFERI:It's so )(ard sometimes.
EQUIUS:D --> *Equius hesistantly reaches out and places a hand on her shoulder, squeezing gently*
EQUIUS:D --> Were it not a challenge would you be so invested in it
FEFERI:*she doesn't trust herself to speak at first but shakes her head* )(e)(e, I guess not. *peeks a small, grateful smile at him*
EQUIUS:D --> *His hand moves to her cheek and his thumb just gently strokes. He gives her a slight smile back*
EQUIUS:D --> Whip him into shape
FEFERI:Anot)(er bad c)(oice in words.
EQUIUS:D --> *And now he's a b100berry*
EQUIUS:D --> I'm so sorry
FEFERI:Scrod clammit. *shakes her head with a snort that clearly reads "pity this fool"*
EQUIUS:D --> *He just clears his throat and his hand slides from her cheek*
FEFERI:I understand t)(at you're upset, guppyfis)(. *tease tease tease*
FEFERI:I am too! All t)(is 100d language.
EQUIUS:D --> *Squints at her*
EQUIUS:D --> I am not upset, merely shocked that I would let 100se such filth in your presence
EQUIUS:D --> *Then again no he's not*
FEFERI:Let loose suc)( w)(at in my presence?? *SNRKKKKK, she can't even keep a straight FACE* )(-E)(-E)(-E!!!
EQUIUS:D --> Such 100d potty language
EQUIUS:D --> *Squints harder*
FEFERI:You started it. * 38) 38) 38) *
EQUIUS:D --> I shall also finish it
FEFERI:Finis)( it, )(e says. *its her turn to waggle her eyebrows. This was getting out of control*
EQUIUS:D --> You stop that. Cease and desist those brows post haste *If you ain't out of control then you ain't in control*
FEFERI:Or w)(at? You'll )(ave Aut)(ur escort me out? *she glances towards the room the humble butler was tucked into*
EQUIUS:D --> He does *Lucky for both of them, the lovely butler was fast asleep now. Butlering was hard work.*
EQUIUS:D --> I will find a suitable punishment for you, don't worry
FEFERI:I'm not! But fine. I'll stop. *releases a suffering sigh*
EQUIUS:D --> *He chuckles at her*
EQUIUS:D --> *Laughs at the fef pain*
FEFERI:*shes doing it for YOU Equisquare*
FEFERI:I don't sea w)(y you're laug)(ing but like... W)(AT-EBB-ER. Glub.
EQUIUS:D --> *SHHHH let him have this*
EQUIUS:D --> *Reaches over and just kind of, raises a brow for her*
EQUIUS:D --> Miss Pei%es how could you
FEFERI:*fucking BITES at his hand*
EQUIUS:D --> You said that you woul--OW
FEFERI:T)(at's w)(at you get!!!
EQUIUS:D --> *He yanks his hand away. Wow she has some sharp teeth. Is that b100d? Yeah that's b100d. He raises his hand to his mouth to keep the blue leaking out of him from flowing*
FEFERI:*Don't be a wriggler, it's just a fish nibble... Kind of. Feferi has been known to bite the heads off fish and eat them alive so. She just sticks her tongue out at him.*
EQUIUS:D --> *He cocks an eyebrow at her and moves his hand. It's not really bleeding now, but she did leave a good mark. There's a little blue smudged on his lips*
EQUIUS:D --> I thought that you bit harder
FEFERI:*squints at him and eyes the smudge of blue* If I wanted to bite your glubbing hand off, I would )(ave!
EQUIUS:D --> *There was no doubt about that in his mind.*
EQUIUS:D --> Then I suppose I should thank you for not wanting a snack
FEFERI:I'm... *she's... not sure how to feel about that comment actually*
EQUIUS:D --> *Nods and then notices the b100d on his lips and licks that away*
FEFERI:*that was weird. This was wierd. Fef herself felt very wierd now okay good job. She'll pretend like she noticed nothing*
EQUIUS:D --> It's been nice catching up with you Feferi
FEFERI:*tries to rub the pink out of her cheeks with one hand* Yea)(. It was.
EQUIUS:D --> Are you okay
FEFERI:O)( yea)(! I'm just... *blushing again WHY DOESNT IT STOP.* I'm being silly!
EQUIUS:D --> *She's so weird*
EQUIUS:D --> Well, yes. That's why I asked if you were okay
FEFERI:I know, I know. *if she turns another shade pinker, she's going to look like a pomegranate. She seems to wrestle with some internal decision though.*
FEFERI:Can I...? *her fingers twitch like she wants to reach out and as the question forms on her tongue, she realizes it's a very silly question. Feferi goes for it, taking up his face and gently kissing him*
EQUIUS:D --> *It's a surprise, but a welcome one and once the short lived shock wore off, Equius found himself nestling into something vaguely familiar that he hadn't felt for a while now. His cheeks were blue as he kissed back, a hand reaching up to cup her cheek*
FEFERI:*her fins flutter as he carefully places his hand. He was always so careful and she wanted to be too but... she could barely stop herself from acting. The tang of his blood entices her, drawing her in for a slow, almost searching kiss. Several sweet seconds pass before she speaks.* Um... sorry. *pulls back a little, her face the color of royal wine* I just wanted to... u)(. *there is no explanatio
FEFERI:n to be had honestly.*
EQUIUS:D --> *It all went too quickly, slipping through his fingers like sand and he just wasn't enough to catch it and admire it. Her lips ignited him and set his very b100d ablaze and then she pulled away, offered up words to try and e%plain something*
EQUIUS:D --> Don't be sorry. I...I wanted *How was he to articulate it? He'd wanted that too. He wanted her, but it was all much more complicated than just want. It was the wrong time, the wrong circumstances but still he wanted it to be right. It ached in him for it, and he'd give everything up to live in a moment where they both got what they wanted, how they wanted. He searched her eyes*
EQUIUS:D --> I wanted you to
FEFERI:It wasn't weird? *anxious, mostly because MAYBE she's worried he might catch on about the blood thing. This "you taste good" thing she was discovering. Work in progress, okay. It was weird, and she knew it and it was only a matter of time before he would figure it out. Her heart raced at being the subject to his focus and Feferi couldn't bring herself to be completely sorry as she wanted to be.* I
FEFERI:t might of been weird, rig)(t?
EQUIUS:D --> *He wasn't finding what he thought he would, not in those eyes and it dawned on him that perhaps they had wanted two different things. Weird. That word was being tossed around a lot and it wasn't even sounding like a word to him anymore. No, it wasn't weird that she had wanted to kiss him and that he had wanted her too. Was it? Unless that wasn't what she meant.*
EQUIUS:D --> I didn't think it was weird *But now he was starting to*
FEFERI:*Watching the confusion cloud his expression just knotted up her feelings into an even BIGGER tangled mess. She was bashful, eager, anxious, but EXCITED. Why can't he understand?? There was so much he DIDN'T understand. Her conflicting emotions have her to burying fingers into his shirt to steal another kiss from him.* No! No! Don't t)(ink it's weird. It's not. *suddenly she's peppering him with m
FEFERI:ore kisses, each more energetic than the last.*
FEFERI:Not weird. No. S)()(. *kiss kiss kiss*
EQUIUS:D --> *It was spiraling and he was becoming more confused by the second. She kept kissing him and eventually he had to pull away, 100k at her. She sounded so desperate and her eyes pleaded with him to understand, too keep his word that he'd given her long ago and to not leave to not find her strange and upsetting. and he didn't. He just wanted to understand. TO understand her better*
EQUIUS:D --> What's the matter
FEFERI:*When asked such a question, she didn't know if even had the remote capability of explaining. But with the concern so real on his face and having him pull away like he did, Feferi knew she had to try, at least.*
FEFERI:I want... to kiss you but... *struggles for words, reaching for the ones with a deeper kind of meaning. She hadn't realized just how desperately she wanted him to understand these unseen things until the tone in her voice practically PLEADED him for it.* I'm afraid. Of so many t)(ings, you just don't understand...
FEFERI:*an unstoppable torrent has now been triggered* W)(at if I'm taking too much from you? W)(at if you give and give so muc)( of yourself and I never... do enoug)( to give it back? Am I taking you for granted? I ran away because I couldn't do a good enoug)( job of )(andling )(ow you felt about me. *before she knows it, pink is welling behind her goggles.* I don't know if I can, if I S)(OULD.
FEFERI:I'm awful for you. *her fingers loosen in his shirt and the misery she'd been holding back finally breaks on her face* I'll just )(urt you... I AM )(urting you and I just.. can't forgive myself. I'm so sorry, -Equius.
EQUIUS:D --> *It was like watching a mountain slowly crumble and he didn't know where to begin to start fitting the pieces back together. Was that his job? Was it something he should do? He felt as if he should, he cared for her. Obviously she cared for him too or else she wouldn't be...like this. No, he gave of himself willingly and didn't want anything in return but he couldn't stand to see her like th
EQUIUS:is. Slowly he removed the goggles, letting tyrian tears flow free, his face marred with concern as he cups her cheeks gently with both hands and thumbs try to wipe away liquid*
EQUIUS:D --> Feferi, 100k at me
EQUIUS:D --> You are not receiving what I would not give willingly
EQUIUS:D --> You worry that I give too much to you and you cannot repay it, but I believe it is the opposite
EQUIUS:D --> You've done, a considerable amount for me
EQUIUS:D --> I could not repay you for your caring, friendship, and everything else
EQUIUS:D --> You are not bad for me. That is for me to decide
EQUIUS:D --> You've done more good than you could ever imagine, please do not tear yourself apart
FEFERI:*His hands were so careful not to hurt her and with her tears flowing free, Feferi could only blink pitifully at him. The anguish churned in her digestive sac and she felt so AWFUL, being unable to respond to his affection like she should have been. Feferi sniffed heavily, wondering what she could have possibly done to make him be so sure.* I'm sorry... *And she was.*
EQUIUS:D --> There's nothing to be sorry about *If anything, Nepeta had taught him that your feelings were nothing to be sorry for. They happened and they were real and albeit hard to deal with they couldn't be helped. It was wrong for him to e%pect her to feel as he did for her and he felt selfish for it. Perhaps he wasn't deserving of what this could be.*
EQUIUS:D --> Please, don't be
FEFERI:*She ducked her head away from his hands, trying to make an attempt at pulling herself together. He wasn't the selfish one, she was. She was the one who was supposed to be reliable and even now, she wished... Aradia was here. Aradia who would stay up all night with her and remind Feferi when she was being too hard on herself. It was so hard to figure this out on her own and she felt so ridiculous
EQUIUS:D --> I don't think you're being fair to yourself
EQUIUS:D --> You e%pect too much
FEFERI:-Even if t)(at's true... *she sniffs again and wipes at her eyes* I s)(ouldn't take it out on you.
EQUIUS:D --> *His words were ineffective. There was nothing he could say, was there?*
EQUIUS:D --> At least I do not believe you do
EQUIUS:D --> Hoovever I cannot help you with your feelings, as much as I want to
EQUIUS:D --> You're so much more than you give yourself credit for
FEFERI:*She can only hug herself and take deep breaths to try and steady herself. She can't really look at him either. It wasn't his fault that she felt so terrible about herself. He didn't DO anything wrong.* T)(is w)(ole t)(ing... kind of got away from us, didn't it?
EQUIUS:D --> *He reached out, to comfort, to steady, but his hand fell short. He never felt so helpless and he hated it so much. Sweat started rolling off his body more.*
EQUIUS:D --> Yes, it seems it has
FEFERI:*She can't tell if she means the night or their relationship in general. Feferi rubs at her neck feeling so worried, tired, and heartsick all at once.*
EQUIUS:D --> *There was a storm of feeling brewing in his gut and Equius couldn't begin to sort it all out. What...had just ocurred here? He sighed out, it hurt and it made him angry.*
EQUIUS:D --> *Where were they to go from here? He didn't know.*
EQUIUS:D --> Is there anything else...bothering you
FEFERI:*She giggles in a helpless kind of way and brings herself to look at him again. Her smile is a weary one.* No... I t)(ink I'm okay.
FEFERI:*makes a vague gesture with her hands* T)(is is all just so ridiculous of me.
EQUIUS:D --> *It's a falsehood and he can tell. How long had she worn that smile?*
EQUIUS:D --> How so? Oh, did you want to want to rest *That's all he could really offer or...* Marehaps a glass of milk
FEFERI:*her fins perk a little at the glass of milk part and she nods, tentatively*
EQUIUS:D --> *Silently, he raises and ever so carefully grabbing glasses and producing a jug of milk from his fridge, pouring the white liquid into the glasses with a 100k of pure concentration on his face*
FEFERI:*hovers and watches him anxiously to this thing.* Do you... need )(elp?
EQUIUS:D --> No, no I'm fine. I can handle this *The jug goes back in the fridge and he smiles gently as he passes her a glass*
FEFERI:*takes glass and is glad for something to drink. About half of it is gone in one gulp.*
FEFERI:*sets her glass down, her fins fluttering with defensiveness* I was... t)(irsty!
EQUIUS:D --> You have a mustache made of lactose
FEFERI:O)(, um... *Wow that's not very lady-like. She tries licking it up and wiping it away.* T)(anks.
EQUIUS:D --> *In the meantime he's going to occupy himself by chugging his milk*
EQUIUS:D --> Yes, you are welcome
EQUIUS:D --> *It's amusing watching her try and get the milk up and he can appreciate how it eases the mood even the tiniest bit*
FEFERI:*Equius's hospitality knows no bounds and even now, she feels a tad bit self conscious. Feferi clears her throat.* I s)(ould probably... )(ead back to my block now. If t)(at's okay.
EQUIUS:D --> *He clears his throat*
EQUIUS:D --> Yes, of course
FEFERI:*gives hm a small smile* I'll glub at you later, t)(en?
EQUIUS:D --> *He nods quietly*
EQUIUS:D --> Yes, I shall talk to you later then
EQUIUS:D --> Sleep well, Feferi
FEFERI:*Feferi sighs, feeling a little gloomy all over again. The most she can bring herself to do is pat his arm and wish that she didn't have so much guilt that she could just... kiss him again. But she can't, that would make things worse and so she doesn't. She's gone before she can let herself get into a bigger mess.*
EQUIUS:D --> *Anger was breaking away and giving way to sadness. He takes a seat at his desk and eyes wander to the ram on his desk. Letting out a sigh he goes back to tinkering*
