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Half baked thoughts like gooey cookies. Bi/pan, pref for dick.

[callistopa]

Hey guys, I’m sorry I haven’t been around for a while. I’ve got sad news.

Peanut had to be euthanized yesterday. I took him in to the vet on the 12th for mild constipation and lethargy, and found out that the FeLV retrovirus had woken up, and he was in non-regenerative anemia. That meant his bone marrow wasn’t making any more red blood cells.

His condition went down hill really fast, I tried looking in to transfusions for him but the family who said they’d write the check till my money could be delivered went back on offering that help. And I didn’t know if it would’ve just made him more miserable for longer anyway. This was very very hard on both of us, luckily he was not in much pain, mostly discomfort and tiredness.

The euthanasia happened at home, he was already almost gone, but he got to pass away in my arms surrounded by every human he loved in a place he was very comfortable in. No death goes perfectly, but his went well and I’m so happy I could give that to him.

I’m still in shock from all of it. Going through another pet death like this so fast has been re-traumatizing. I’m re-processing a lot of complicated old emotions and new emotions while coaxing my brain out of “this is an emergency marathon, we don’t have much time and we have to try everything” mode. Since the passing, I’ve been sleeping ok but waking up in a panic because each morning this week I had to take action on extremely stressful things right after waking up.

I want everyone to know that I’m still taking care of myself. I’m sleeping over at friends houses because sleeping at home is hard and I need people to cuddle me right now. I’ve been keeping up with exercise and getting myself to eat. I just joined an online therapy service and I’m also reaching out to my old therapist from my college’s student services.

Any little comments or dms to offer support or reassurance are appreciated. Peanut will always mean so much to me, I wished I would’ve shared more about him while he was here. I’ll probably be posting picture of him with good stories soon.

Lastly I want to say just how many odds he got to beat. His life was so unfairly short, but he wouldn’t have got any time at all if he wasn’t in the right place at the right time for me to scoop him out of traffic. Also, most kittens born with FeLV don’t live to see their first birthday, Peanut almost made it to a year and a half! He got one winter and two summers and lots of love and attention the entire time. I’ll miss him so much. I don’t know if I’ll get to see him again but I hope I will. Please hug your pets tonight in his honor and thank you for caring about him.

[tsunamiwavesurfing]

tumblr banned porn but i see it everyday on here this shit like alcohol in the prohibition era

[oak23]

Not to sound like a 90s shallow prep, but how you dress can affect your self esteem, and putting energy into wearing things you actively like and projecting an ideal of yourself through fashion instead of seeing clothes as things you have to put on out of obligation helps.

It also can give you a sense of control over your appearance that you otherwise wouldn’t have lmao

[oak23]

I bought a cape because of this

[michaelmilkers]

this post is written in a humorous tone but this is the realest shit.

two years ago i wore baggy sweatpants and flip flops every day because i was depressed but then decided eh to hell with it and bought some black edgy emo clothes bc thats how i always wanted to dress but never got a chance to and it was only then that i realized that the sweatpants flip flops look was just keeping me in my depression funk. i didnt like the way i looked and i didnt identify with the clothes i was wearing and it only made me feel worse.

i then went through my entire wardrobe and got rid of everything that made me feel that way.

now i have multiple outfit possibilities requiring different levels of effort but on days where putting on clothes just seems like a project i just have to put on black jeans and a band t-shirt and i can still feel good about the way i look which is a really good way to start off my day.

i can not recommend this approach to clothing enough.

[12housescorpio]

Can I just say this is the healthiest mindset related post I have seen on this sight and I want every single person on here to read this

[callistopa]

This is true and thank u to this post for reaffirming that my upcoming clothing purchases are worth it

[moveslikekeithrichards]

[shedontknowbutsheknows]

I guess I just wish the “childfree community” focused more on like actual community building and breaking down the constructs of the nuclear family and returning us to a world where everyone had a role in caring for the community in different ways, not talking about babies like they’re radioactive

[mypoorcanary]

imagine being a 20 something in the 70s and instead of blogging u have a ham radio where u talk abt ur obsession with elderly actors like henry fonda and cary grant and make fun of the normie girls who obsess over john travolta or robert de niro

[charismat1c-megafauna]

Yall laugh but my grandma was very popular among CB radio nerds in the 70s and her code name was Big Red (she was neither big nor redhaired nor an enjoyer of Big Red so idk) and my mom had to break it off with so many potential dates because she'd bring them around to the house to meet her parents only to find these guys were CB nerds who were more interested in her mom.

[mypoorcanary]

your grandma was an absolute chad #respect

[imbeingtauntedbyachild]

[the-real-numbers-deactivated202]

[biggest-gaudiest-poltergeist]

it can be therapeutic to admit "actually my childhood was deeply fucking awful." not "my parents tried" or "there were good times too" or "I was lucky in certain ways" but solely to acknowledge "I went though some fucking messed up shit what the fuck was that about "

[biggest-gaudiest-poltergeist]

"my parents tried" other people's intentions don't excuse or erase your suffering. parents are expected to try, that's the bare minimum of being a parent, and it doesn't undo the consequences of failing to protect a tiny vulnerable human being. "there were good times too" children are profoundly capable of joy, every person's childhood contains some measure of joy, childhood should be joyful, and none of that erases the lasting trauma of the shit you went through. your childhood isn't a math problem where the positives and negatives balance out towards some neutral zero, reality doesn't work like that. "I was lucky in certain ways" and pretty fucking unlucky by the sound of it. ok so "things could have been worse" things could always be worse and they could always be better, that is a mundane and meaningless expression meant to make excuses for other people, and bitch it sure as thunder doesn't erase the fact that you walked through hell.

You. Deserved. BETTER.

[ultrainfinitepit]

My cat has to wear a cone this week and it made me think of an angel whose halo is a cone.

[firstgrave]

also just an aside but i do want other bisexual ppl to know, esp younger bisexual ppl, that you really really do not have to obsess and over analyze your sexuality at every turn. you’re allowed to just identify as bisexual. self reflection can be healthy but should be done in moderation. not reciprocating someone’s feelings does not mean you’re suddenly not attracted to that entire gender and there’s absolutely no quota you should feel you have to meet in order to “really” be bisexual.

[callistopa]

Same for bi people who have asexual qualities or strict asexual periods. Having preferences is fine too. You’re not a discount queer for being like that.

Also god like, sexual identities are tools for personal use. They do something for you, and that’s their purpose. Sexuality as a whole is also conceptualized differently by different cultures over different time periods. Sexuality is a immeasurably vast aspect of humanity. Don’t worry about fitting into it perfectly just live your internal and external life with it well

[dankmemeuniversity]

[biggest-gaudiest-poltergeist]

as sympathetic as i am to our mutual friend Jonathan's plight, it still sounds pretty cushy compared to literally any modern retail or service job. "oh no I've been coerced into serving a powerful inhumane monster that feeds on the blood of its victims" yeah babe that's called a megacorporation

[biggest-gaudiest-poltergeist]

#honestly I would deal with vampires to get to live in a castle with room service for a month

[dankmemeuniversity]

[callistopa]

As a delivery driver I yes

[chemquiz]

[coffeeandspentbrass]

[what-even-is-thiss]

I reject the idea that kindness and gentleness and love needs to involve a bunch of gentle flowery language

[what-even-is-thiss]

I help you move, I bake you a pie, I sit next to you on purpose. How are you not getting the message yet? What do you want? A love poem? I don't know how to write those. Here, take this rock. It's your favorite color.

[what-even-is-thiss]

One of my dad's close friends reads online newspapers constantly and he always texts my dad articles that he thinks that he would enjoy. Where's the romanticization of that kind of behavior?

[porrn-deactivated20160804]

Is it just me or you don’t really realise how drunk you are until you are in a bathroom alone???

[mostly10]

[sunpalms]

thanks to tumblr literally every time i go to the bathroom when i’m drunk i think about this post and sit there laughing to myself trying not to fall off the toilet