Rejoice despite the fact this world will hurt you

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[sparklystarinthesky]

In honor of disability pride month...

*super over-the-top dramatic drumroll*

I'm in pain

[m-beca]

[paper-mario-wiki]

transitioning is like putting on the They Live glasses and seeing that 90% of people looking at you are either jerking off or furiously sharpening a knife. or both. and i do not mean that in a sexy or fun way, and i dont like clarifying that, but i know there's a 90% chance you are thinking it, because i wrote it while being a trans woman.

[paper-mario-wiki]

to clarify:

when considering the sexual violence against trans women, it's important to remember that "people only view us sexually" does not mean the same thing as "people only find us attractive". it means "people can only conceptualize of our existence within a sexual light" because that's how the majority of our coverage in media has been tinged in the past century. as a result of the chaste and patriarchal nature of modern capitalism, gender and sexuality are inseparable in much public discourse by virtue of propaganda, and as a result, a trans woman is seen as sexual because efforts towards projecting specifically femininity is only categorized as sexual. and when paired with the uncharitable perception of "man", that propaganda can often evolve how people view us directly into "sexual threat" anywhere, for any reason. i could be in the freezer aisle of costco looking down at the ground while i push my cart and i'd still get dirty looks for wearing a dress (this has happened).

when i say "they're either jerking off or sharpening a knife", i mean we're either viewed sexually, or as sexually threatening, in almost all scenarios.

[NOTE: AS WITH ALL MATTERS OF TRANSMISOGYNY, THIS ISSUE IS 100 TIMES WORSE FOR BLACK GIRLS]

[one-in-a-nestillion]

people always describe the system experience as either the host makes all the decisions with input from their headmates, or the headmates vote and come to a collective decision, but what i experience is more closer to a dictatorship where whoever’s fronting at the moment does whatever the fuck they want until they leave and then it repeats with the next fronter and the one after that too.

[dinomoder]

This is the best ad for Project Hail Mary I have ever seen. Like if I was on the fence about watching or reading it, this would convince me to do so.

[gay-mooshrooms]

[quert-ii]

when i wear a skirt in public, i inhereit the transmisogyny that my trans sisters face day to day, regardless of how they dress

cis white women love to stare at me, until i make eye contact and they look back at their phones

my clockabilty is a choice that i can take off when i go home. for transfemmes, it is not

[cryptidclub]

my riso prints hot off the presses YAY! printed with bubblegum pink, green, and black ink! henenelotter triple feature tribute (basket case, brain damage, and frankenhooker) & the complaining xenomorph

[ace-trainer-alice]

I think part of what makes things like heart pupils, love potions, and hypnotically induced devotion so hot to me is this overarching idea that love is a drug. That love is this altered state, this addictive headspace, this blinding point of view. That it comes from outside and can't be trusted. Lose yourself in it and fall into devotion. That love can make you less yourself.

I'm not exactly aro, but I agree with their beliefs. And the idea of love as something external, mildly horrifying and intrusive, that makes you less yourself? It's so deeply hot to me. I think it's my behaviorist type of autism. I love studying humans from outside.

And in the erotic sense, the idea of causing love in someone. The idea that love, this thing that everyone insists is the most important thing ever that defines their existence, can be created and controlled. Measured and bottled. Given and removed. There's an erotic kind of power in it. Defiling a social order that I'm isolated from. Make someone fall hopelessly in love with you today!

[leathersys]

the vessel and the soul

[itsexclusive]

[wizardpotions]

the hat contained his soul...

[the-tenth-arcanum]

t-shirt that says "I ❤️ strange off-putting asexual-coded characters"

[mxjackparker]

When someone is behaving erratically or unusually in public, this does not automatically make them a threat.

If you sit next to the person on the bus who you see as spasming and twitching... most of the time they'll continue to move the same way they were with no ill intent to you. It's not dangerous, it's tourettes/stimming/cerebral palsy symptoms.

If you chat to the homeless man yelling to himself outside the shops... most of the time you'll learn why he's upset, have a chat that makes him feel less alone, and he won't want your help or will calm down because he's been acknowledged.

If you check on the woman moaning and writhing in her seat on the train... most of the time you'll find she's hungover or in withdrawal or suffering from a chronic medical problem, and you can offer support that could make her feel better or save her life.

Most people aren't out to get you. Not everything about a person's behaviour is intentional or directed at you. Strange does not equal threatening.

[ankle-beez]

[Gooseworx voice] Jax is a cautionary tale on transfems who don't have healthy circles to safety come out in, and no matter what happens everyone who watches this deserves to be in an environment where you can be yourself and be loved for it. also when she holds her breath she inflates big and round

[rainy-daze1]

is this anything

[athenaspetsnek]

@ominous-signs do these count?

[ominous-signs]

damn...

[scissorsaint]

you really do meet some of the loveliest people talking about blood and sex on the internet

[the-ungovernable]

Explaining Monoconscious Plurality

People often say they don't understand monoconscious plurality, and it makes sense if your introduction to plurality was classic multiplicity. It might be hard to conceptualise how multiple separate people could have a single train of thought and honestly, yeah. It doesn't help that many of the explanations here on tumblr don't feel totally encompassing of all our experiences either. Most of what I've seen only touch on a few things, leaving the rest under the surface

Often monoconsciousness gets described as "shapeshifting" or slipping into different psychological coats. That's part of it, but it doesn't address the whole multiple-voices-in-the-head thing that most plurals seem to experience. It also doesn't come close to fully describing our experience either

The simplest way I can put our experience is (and I suspect this will also ring true for a large amount of other monocon plurals): There is one ability to think, and everyone has to share it, as pictured above

We have to be in contact with the metaphorical consciousness orb, otherwise we don't think. For us personally this looks like temporarily falling unconscious when away from the front. Some plurals I'm sure have constant voices, because nobody leaves the consciousness orb vicinity unless they're dormant. So yeah, definitely different people, even if we all have to share an ability to think. Doesn't necessarily mean we all think the same thing, or that there's 0 distinction between our thoughts (although there are monocon plurals that DO experience this, and that is also just as much more-than-one)

Switching still feels like putting on different coats, and it may literally be an overlay you don if you lean more singletish in your plurality, but for those of us that lean more multiple, this is an important piece of the puzzle. I hope that helps polyconscious systems understand monconscious systems a little better!

[buddybuddysystem]

just somethin