Vent Blog tw for everything basically

Diagnosed ASD, OSFED, DID

[camvents]

about/dni I guess

hi im Cameron, a trauma holder/persecutor of a DID system (not saying our main)

J (persecutor/soother/host) posts sometimes too since we usually front together anyways

most posts are gonna be about SI/SH/trauma

dni:

-endo systems+their supporters (neutrals can interact!!)

-anti mspec gays/lesbians

-under 13

-MAP/NOMAP

-going to report my posts. please just block, this is a coping mechanism (there will be no pictures of sh or any attempts, only talking about it)

[camvents]

sh’d while in our college dorm. we could get kicked out if anyone finds out. i don’t really give a shit, but I’ve had everyone in the system screaming at me after they found out.

I

Don’t

Care.

[camvents]

anything. just just anything that fucking works at this point I need to see myself bleed

[camvents]

hurting myself takes less energy than anything else. why can’t people just leave me alone and let me cut? i do one fucking thing and I get fucking sent somewhere but I really and truly don’t know anything to do to cope that isn’t going to absolutely drain me. im so fucking tired. im so exhausted

[camvents]

I’ve never fucking felt worse

[iwannabeatreeeee]

i feel like the longer you have depression n r suicidal, the less people care

bc its like~ hes depressed rn?? he always is

he hasnt eaten?? he will at some point

hes sh again?? they're never deep anyway

he's gone missing again?? its fine he'll come home

he overdosed again?? he never takes enough tho

he tried to kill himself?? thats okay the attempts have never worked~ so it wont this time

[camvents]

I can’t believe it. 29 days. So close to 30. Fuck this

[camvents]

when every single support I’ve reached out to says they “don’t know what to tell [me]” or that they can’t help me anymore because my dumbass brain is both too logical and too emotional and there’s nowhere in between

[camvents]

I want her back so bad

I just got back from res and im already searching my room

[benjiiixd]

Stop telling me that you’re always there for me. We both know that you’re not. Stop lying.

[camvents]

not sure if youre alive and i dont think a random anon would mean anything to you but you deserve so much better than what youre going through and i know thats not gonna help you but i just wanted to say something

this is quite literally going to make me cry. thank you anon, this means more than you know

[trainsandpaperplanes]

Why should sleep ever end?

(don't try this at home guys!)

[camvents]

they don’t even care about last night.

I could’ve died.

[camvents]

Down to just needing to write my mom’s. I think I’m gonna end up crying.

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6 down, 3 to go

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3 down, 6 to go

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300mg of vistaril

Blood on the sheets