It’s Me

Blessed but depressed. Big dreams; so little time. Food is my Kryptonite.

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Our Rules 23

Alex Cabot x Reader

I'm sad.🥺 But I really love this series and I'm glad y'all enjoyed it.

After your vows, the two of you made love for the rest of the flight. With only a few hours of sleep, the plane finally lands in Greece. Once you realized where you were you couldn't keep the smile off of your face. Alex chuckled watching the excitement radiate off your body. Blake was also in awe as the three of you traveled through the city.

Arriving at the villa you gasped looking over at Alex. “We’re staying here?” you asked. She smiles nodding her head “Yes. I rented out an entire section that is just ours. Blake, you will be staying in another section. It connects to ours so you can reach us if necessary, but I figured you didn't want to be too close.” she explained. The boy laughed. “Nah I'm good. Thank you though this is insane.” “Of course.”

After everything was settled the two of you said goodbye to Blake as you went to your room. Walking out onto the balcony you smiled looking out to the ocean. “This place is absolutely beautiful Alex.” She smiles “Yes it is.” You hummed as she wraps her arms around you kissing your neck. “So what do you want to do first Mrs. Cabot?” Alex asked. You chuckled shifting your neck to the side to give her mouth better access. “You.” you moaned. She chuckles pulling away to lead you to the bedroom. The two of you take turns undressing the other in between kisses. Once you were naked Alex gently guides you down on the bed crawling on top of you. She leans down kissing your neck making her way down to your nipples kissing the peaks. You moaned arching your chest into her mouth. She makes her way down your stomach almost reaching her destination before you stop her. “No,” you whispered. She looks up at you “No?” You shake your head “I want you up here.” you explain tugging her up. She smiles as she settles between your legs. Her body fully covers yours as she kisses you softly. “Together,” you whispered. The blonde shakes her head knowing what you're asking for. Lining up your clits she begins to move against you. You gasped wrapping your arms around her neck as you buck your hips to meet her pace.

The two of you moan in unison as the pleasure builds between the two of you. Alex rests her forehead against yours looking into your eyes as you made love. You smiled up at her “I love you.” you whispered in between your moans and gasps. “I love you too.” she cries. In a matter of minutes, the two of you are falling over the edge holding on to one another as your bodies tremble with pleasure.

After two weeks of traveling alongside your wife and Blake, the three of you headed back home. Your family and friends were excited to see you again and couldn't wait to celebrate with you. About a month after your honeymoon the two of you had a small wedding in front of your family and friends. You wore a simple short white dress with some lace at the bottom and around the neckline. Alex also wear a simple white dress but hers was a full-length dress with an open back. The night was filled with love, laughter, good food, and drinks. Although you were happy to celebrate with everyone you both agreed that the first wedding with just the two of you was how it was supposed to be.

Two years later:

Over the course of two years so much has changed. Blake had become more than just your driver but a family friend and fits well into his role. Tara and Sonny are engaged and expecting their first child in a few months. Olivia and Amanda have gotten really close and have now been happily dating for eight months. Noah adores Amanda which makes it even more beautiful. Elliot hasn't been seen or heard of since the incident. Casey moved to Boston with her sister and has been in and out of therapy and has made amazing progress. Although things won't be the same Alex and Olivia have forgiven her and talked to her every now and then. Fin and his girlfriend have been around more and quickly have become the “cool” aunt and uncle to your little boy. The same sweet little boy who is turning a year old today has everyone wrapped around his tiny finger. Although you gave birth to him he reminds you more of Alex every single day.

Alex smiles as she watches her son run around the yard on wobbly feet as Noah chases him. You smiled walking up beside her “He's getting so big.” Alex smiles with a nod “I know. I can't believe he's one today.” “Me either.” you smiled. “Are you ready for two little humans to be running around this yard?” you asked. Alex chuckles as she reaches over to run her hand over your growing bump. “I can't wait.” she smiles leaning in to kiss you. You smiled pulling back from the kiss. “Come on boys it's time for cake!” you called out to them. The boys smiled running toward you and Alex. Noah takes off to Olivia and Amanda. While Alex leans down just in time to grab your son scooping him up in her arms. “Are you ready for your cake Grey?” she asked. The little boy squeals nodding his head. You smiled watching Grey shriek and giggle as his mommy tickles him. “Momma! Help,” he calls out reaching for you. You chuckled gathering the boy in your arms as the two of you walked over to Tara who had the cake ready to go. The boy giggles as the room sings Happy Birthday in unison. You couldn't help the overwhelming feeling of happiness and love that radiated off from you. Your life was far from perfect but it was pretty fucking close.

The End.

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🥺🥺. I'm not crying. I'm not crying. This makes me so happy. I love that they named him Grey. I'm going to miss this story.

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Our Rules 22

Alex Cabot x Reader

Today is the day you get cleared by your doctors. After two months of healing, laying in that hospital bed, and physical therapy you were more than ready to be done with it all. The doctors confirmed that you're cleared and everything seems to be pretty much healed. You still are recommended for physical therapy just be sure your lungs and ribs can withstand stress and to help you get back to your physical strength. All and all the doctors rave about how you're a miracle considering what you looked like when you arrived. The bruises on your face have healed and all that is left is a tiny scar above your eyebrow and a scar on the left side of your lip.

Alex has made it very well known that she thinks the lip scar is sexy. And while you don't agree with her you blush every time she kisses it. Alex still has her cast but she is hoping they will remove it with another mouth. After that, she will receive physical therapy as well.

Happily making your way home you could not wait to tell Alex the good news. Not only were you able to make sweet love to the woman but now the two of you can get married. Walking into the house you went in search of her finding her standing in the kitchen hovering over the stove. Quietly making your way over to her you wrap your arms around her waist pulling her into you. She tenses for a second until her body relaxes in your embrace. “Hello, my love. How was your appointment?” she questioned stirring the pot in front of her?

When you first walked in you had all intentions of just telling her the news however once you felt her in your arms your body had other ideas. Spinning her around quickly you earned a gasp and then a low moan as your lips dance with hers. Alex pulls back trying to catch her breath. “I take it it was good?” she asked. You nodded. “Where’s Martha?” you asked. “She went to the store why?” the woman asked puzzled. You smiled snacking your hand under her shirt. The woman gasped when your fingertips dance across her stomach making their way up to her breast. You smiled watching her eyes close as you massage her breast rolling her nipple in between your fingers. “I want you.” you husked. “What did the doctor say?” she asked trying not to give in.

You smirked moving over to the other breast giving it the same attention. “He said I was cleared. A medical miracle they called me. And physical therapy is still recommended as a benefit to regaining my strength and stamina. However, I told him I have other activities in mind to help boost my stamina, and he approved.” you explained. Alex’s eyes shot open as she looked at you. “You told your doctor about our sex life?”

“Not in detail. But just enough to see if I would be cleared or not.” you chuckled. Alex groaned rolling her eyes. “Maybe we should wait a day or two? I don't want to hurt you. And you just got cleared..” she rambled. “Alex,” you called out cutting her off. She looks at you giving you her attention. “I love you and I love that you're being so careful with me. But you aren't going to hurt me and the doctor gave me the okay. So either you cut the stove off and follow me upstairs. Or you can stay down here and I can go upstairs and take care of myself. The choice is yours.” you tell her walking out of the kitchen. Alex stands there stunned for a moment until your words register in her brain. Quickly turning around she cuts the stove off and runs upstairs to you.

After a couple of rounds, the two of you lay together tangled in the sheets. Alex hums as she plays with your hair while you rest your head on her naked chest. “What are you thinking about so loudly up there?” you asked. Alex giggles “I'm thinking about you. And how lucky and happy I am that you're here beside me.” she whispered. You hummed in agreement. “We're both very lucky.” Alex nods her head. “Yes, we are. I could have lost you. And I've been thinking about it ever since you came home. I keep thinking about what if. What if you didn't make it. What if I don't you. What if I had to come home alone. I keep trying to think about what my life would be like without you and I just can't wrap my head around it.”

You smiled easing up the bed so that the two of you were at eye level. “Will it's a good thing you don't have to. I'm not going anywhere, Alex. You're stuck with me for life.” you teased. The blonde smiles placing a kiss on your lips. “I can't wait to make you my wife.”

“Speaking of that I've already had a conversation with Tara and Sonny about our plans. They were understanding about it. I'm leaving Martha to you.” you tell her. Alex rolls her eyes “Well thanks.” she giggles. “When do you want to do this?” she asked. “As soon as possible.” you smiled. Alex laughs pecking your lips once more. “Get dressed,” she says getting out of the bed.

While you got dressed Alex made a few phone calls and had a conversation with Martha. While the woman was upset at first she understood why the two of you needed this moment alone. The two of you made your way to the courthouse meeting Liz at the door. After going over some details Liz provides the two of you with a sweet and simple ceremony. The ceremony lasts for about 20 minutes before Liz is announced you as wife and wife. You smiled happily as Alex takes you in her arms kissing you passionately. Once it is all said and done the two of you sign the license and head out. Alex takes your hand in hers leading the way to the car. Once the two of you are inside she rushes forward kissing you intensely. You moaned into her mouth giggling as she grabs your ass pulling you towards her.

“Where to Ms. Cabot?” a voice calls out causing you two to separate. You look over to see a young man who has to be in his 20s but for some reason, the young man seems similar to you. Looking over at Alex in confusion the blonde chuckles. “Y/n this Blake. He is Grey’s younger brother. Blake this is my wife y/n.” she says introducing the two of you. Your heart raced at the word wife and you smiled at the young boy. “It's nice to meet you.” He smiles “You two. My brother talked about you a lot. He loved you very much. And I know he would be so happy that the two of you finally tied the knot.” he says. Alex smiles “Thank you, Blake. We're headed towards the airport. You know where to go?” she asked. “Yes ma’am.” he smiles twisting in his seat to start the car.

Once the vehicle was moving you looked back over at Alex still searching for answers. She smiles “The plan was to eventually train Blake to be my driver and Grey to be yours. Grey wanted Blake to have a steady job. And he felt that Blake would keep me safe. And we both agreed that Grey would stay with you. However, that didn't happen but Blake will now be your driver and I will find someone else. I know that grey wanted to keep you safe and I believe that there is no better person to take over for him than Blake. He knows how important you were to his brother.” she explained.

You smiled nodding your head as tears pricked your eyes. “I miss him so much.” Alex nods “I know love. But he is with us every day just like Momma K. Between the two of them I think they’ve got you covered.” she says. You smiled leaning over to rest your head on her shoulder. The drive to the private airport was short and the Cabot plane was all set and ready to go when you arrived. The three of you entered the plane getting ready for take-off. Sitting next to the window you held Alex's hand. She smiles over at you. “Where are we going?” you asked. She smiles “You’ll see.”

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Alex watched as you slept peacefully in the bed next to her. She knew she needed rest considering the ride was about 10 hours long to your destination. However, she couldn't stop herself from watching over you while you slept. She thought about the accident, Grey, her father, and her ex-friends. She thought about all the things she's lost over this journey but also the things she gained. Tara has become much like a sister to her. And Sonny has become a protective older brother to both of you. While Olivia was always a close friend of hers she couldn't get over how close the two of you have become. Olivia adores you and the two of you share common interests. Since the accident, Olivia has always become extremely protective of you. Noah has become somewhat of a Godson to both of you. And Olivia and Alex can't help but swoon at the relationship you and Noah share. Martha has always been like a second mother to Alex and continues to love and cherish her and you as well. Yes, a lot was lost throughout your relationship but so much joy and love has been gained along the way.

The plane hit a series of turbulence causing you to stir from your sleep. Looking over you see blue eyes staring at you. You smiled rolling onto your side. “Hi.” She smiles “Hi.” “Why aren't you asleep?” you asked.

“I can't stop looking at you,” she says.

“Why?”

“I don't know. I just can't get over the fact that you're my wife. That your here. It's almost as if I'm scared.”

“Sacred? Of what?”

“That if I close my eyes it will all disappear,” she whispered.

You sighed reaching over to embrace her. “Alex baby I'm here. I'm not going anywhere. Okay? I'm here. This is real. We are real.” you tell her. She nods her head tears escaping from her beautiful eyes. “I know,” she says checking back a sob. “I just... I love you.”

“I love you too.” you smiled kissing her softly. Pulling back you look into her eyes reaching down to take her hand in yours. “Do you see this ring?” you asked her looking over at the bright diamond shining in the light. She smiles nodding her head. “This beautiful ring is a symbol of our love. It shows the world that I am yours and only yours. It shows that I vowed to love you forever and always. Through the good times and the bad. No matter what the case maybe I will always be with you. I promise to love you every day. Even when you're on my last nerve. I promise to guide you, help you, and love you till the end of time. We have lived our lives together by a set of rules. A system that works for us somewhat. But no matter what we’ve always vowed to love each other. To respect each other, and be each other’s safe place and that's not going to change. I have loved you since I was 26 years old Alex. Even when I wasn't supposed to love you I couldn't stop myself. You are my person, my future and I can't wait to be with you until we're old and grey.” you tell her through your tears.

The blonde smiles leaning in to kiss you. “I love you so much,” she whispered. “I love you too.” you smiled kissing her again. Alex pulls back “Since we’re finally saying our vowles I have something I want to say.” she says. You smiled nodding your head. She chuckles trying to get herself together to speak. “Thank you. Thank you for loving me when no one else did. Thank you for showing me how I'm supposed to be loved. Thank you for showing me that I am capable and worthy of such love. I haven't had an easy life. I've had people use me and abuse me and toss me aside when I was no longer needed. When we met I was beyond lost. A shell of the person I once was. But I realized something along this journey that has shocked me. When we got together everyone said that you saved me that you made me a better person. And I agree you did but Martha pointed something out to me. The person I am now was the person I have always been. However, over time that carefree, loving, sensitive little girl hid behind the person others created. You didn't change me you brought me back to life. You saved that little girl inside of me you helped me heal that little girl. Even when I didn't deserve it you loved me through it all. You’re the greatest gift I have ever received and I am so grateful I met you. If I hadn't seen you that day if I hadn't gone out of my way to speak to you I don't know how my life would have ended up. You helped me remember how to laugh how to love not only other people but myself. You helped me and pushed me to want better for myself and to want to love myself again. Without you, I would still be hiding that little girl inside of me. You gave her a chance you allowed her to shine. I will forever be grateful to you. I love you more than I ever thought I was capable of. I come from a successful family and I've made countless achievements in my life. You by far are the best one I have ever made. And I can't wait to achieve so much more with you. I love you y/n. I love you so much. Thank you for bringing me back to life.” she cried pulling you into her. The two of us held each other in your arms as you cried together. Both of you have had a hard journey filled with sadness, joy, loss, and pain but now at this moment, it was all worth it.

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Our Rules 21

Alex Cabot x Reader

Over the next couple of days, our friends came by to see you. Alex sat beside you on the bed holding your hand as your friends caught you up on everything. Tara and Sonny have moved in together claiming that the accident put some things into perspective for them and they didn't want to spend any more time apart. Olivia brought Noah to see you and the brunette smiled as the two of you chatted away about anything and everything. Amanda and Fin stopped by bringing you flowers. And Martha refused to let you and Alex eat any hospital food so she always has delicious meals with her. You smiled as you looked around the room taking in all the joy and love. Alex’s smile warms your heart as she occasionally looks over at you. It was good. Life was good. It had some hard times and some even harder losses but all in all, it was good.

A knock on the door causes the laughter to die out and soon the room is in silence when the visitors enter the room. Olivia is the first to get up protectively standing by your bedside. “What do you want?” she asked.

“I was wondering if I could speak to Alex and y/n.” the redhead whispered avoiding the glares she was receiving. “You aren't welcomed here. Either of you.” Olivia growls looking past the redhead glaring at Elliot.

“Liv,” you called out to her. She breaks her glare looking down at you. “It's okay.” you smiled. “Baby are you sure?” Alex asked. “Yeah. Do you guys mind waiting outside?” you asked your friends. Tara shakes her head. “It's okay T. Why don't you take Noah downstairs to get some ice cream?” you suggest? “They have your favorite.” you smiled towards the boy.

“I'll go with you.” Amanda offers smiling at Olivia. The two take the boy walking out of the room. “Why don't I help you take those dishes out to your car.” Fin offers to Martha. The woman smiles as he takes the dishes from her leading the way. Olivia stays in her place still glaring at the two. “Liv,” Elliot calls out. “Can I please talk to you?” Olivia sighs looking over at you. “Are you sure you'll be okay?” she asked. You smiled nodding your head. “Okay,” she replied following Elliot out the door. Casey gives you and Alex a small smile as she looks over to Sonny. “Oh I'm not going anywhere.” the man replies. “It's okay big bro.” you teased.

“Alex is here,” you say giving him a wink. He smiles “Fine.” Walking past the redhead he stops to make eye contact with her. “But I'll be right outside the door,” he says walking out closing the door behind him.

You chuckled shaking your head as you looked at Casey. “What do you want?” Alex snaps glaring at her. “Alex,” you say calmly resting your hand on top of hers. “What can we do for you?” you asked the redhead. She sighs “Umm. I just wanted to come here and apologize for everything. And to tell you that I truly am glad that you're okay.” she says.

“Thank you.” you smiled.

“I know that it will never be enough for everything that I've caused. I want you to know that I had no idea it would get to this point. But I take full responsibility for it. I hope that one day you can forgive me. Alex, I'm so sorry. I tried to call everything off right after we spoke and I thought I fixed it all. But it wasn't enough. I will never be able to forgive myself for all the pain and suffering I've caused. I know I was wrong. I'm so sorry.” she cries.

Alex shakes her head “I will never be able to forgive you. Casey, you claim you loved me but yet you went to the one person you knew caused me pain. You not only put my life in danger but sonny’s life, y/n’s life was hanging in the balance and grey is dead. You will never be able to fix what you did. I understand that you're sorry but that isn't good enough for me. You can never take back what you did.”

Meanwhile out in the hallway Olivia and Elliot we're having a similar conversation. “Listen Liv I know I was wrong. I know that my actions caused others a great deal of pain. If I could take it all back I would.”

“Why are you telling me this? You should be apologizing to Alex and y/n, not me. “ she says. “I know but I wanted to talk to your first,” he says. Olivia chuckled “That's the problem, Elliott. You and I were never going to be a thing. I'm gay Elliot. I thought you knew. But how could you?! You're so focused on what you want and what you think is right that you don't care about anyone else. What? You thought you'd apologize to me and everything would be okay. That's not how it works. And we wouldn't end up together no matter how much you apologize. Elliot, I loved you as my family. I thought I knew you. Clearly, I was wrong. You didn't do this for me. You didn't go after Alex and y/n to defend me or Casey. You did it for you. You did it for your own selfish and hateful reasons. I will never be able to look at you the same. You're not my friend. You're not my partner. You're no one to me.”

“Liv..”

“Were done, Elliot. Alex and y/n may find it in their hearts to forgive you but I can't. Goodbye Elliot.”

“Alex I'm sorry. I know that it doesn't change anything but I am. And y/n I'm so sorry that my actions almost took your life. I'm sorry about Grey. All of it. You don't owe me anything and I understand if you never forgive me. But I just had to tell you both that I'm sorry.” she says turning to leave.

“Casey,” you called out to her. The redhead turns. “Thank you for your apology. Thank you for having the courage to come here. I don't know if I will be able to forget what you did but I will one day forgive you. I truly hope that you find someone who loves you and makes you happy.” you tell her with a smile. She smiles once more before she walks out the door.

Alex lets out a deep breath when the door finally closes. “How can you be so kind to her?” she asked. “Alex honey I almost died. People died. I'm not going to spend my second chance mad at the world. I understand why you can't forgive her and I don't expect you to. But I refuse to waste any more of my time being angry or holding a grudge. I just want to be happy. I want to be happy with you. That's all I want.” you explained smiling at her. She smiles back leaning in to kiss you. “That's all I want too.” “Good. Now, where are we going for our honeymoon? Can it be somewhere hot so you can wear that little black bikini?” you asked with a smirk. Alex chuckled shaking her head “We can go anywhere you want love.”

Elliot never made it back to your room. And honestly, it was probably for the best. Unlike Casey, his heart is filled with jealousy and hate. He is not ready to change, not ready to admit his faults. He is too proud to beg for forgiveness from you and Alex. And the only reason he did with Olivia was out of hope that she’d finally see him. However, we all know that wasn't going to happen. Elliot knew now too which is why he dropped his papers, badge, and gun on Don’s desk the very next day. No one was shocked to find out he left. Elliot is a troubled man and he needs to find himself.

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After being in the hospital for over a month you were finally able to go home. You were so excited to be leaving that hospital room and more importantly, that bed. Your wounds were healing nicely however physical therapy is still recommended to regain your strength. Your face still held some scars and bruises but those should heal up nicely over time. Olivia and Tara offered to help you and Alex home and get you settled in. Martha was over the moon that you'd be home tonight and offered to make your favorite meal. Alex hovered over you watching your every move. After it was all said and done you laid in bed waiting for Alex to join you. The blonde exits the bathroom finally done with her routine cutting off the light as she goes. You smile as she enters the bedroom. The blonde chuckled when she noticed you staring at her. “What are you looking at?” she asked. “My beautiful sexy fiance,” you replied. “Oh yeah so sexy. This cast turns you on doesn't it?” she joked showing off the cast on her arm. “You turn me on.” you husked. The blonde blushes “Well you have about three more weeks before I can handle that problem.” she says causing you to sigh. She chuckled laying next to you. “I know love I'm sorry.”

“We can still make out right?” you asked. Alex giggles “If you want. But the doctor said no stress on your ribs.” she says. “Yeah. yeah. I know.” you mocked scooting closer to her. You wrapped your arms around her pulling her closer to you. She giggles as you lean in and kiss her lips. Moaning she opens her mouth inviting your tongue to dance with hers. When you could feel the fire in your lugs you pulled back resting your head against hers. “Be careful love your lung is still healing.” she reminds you. “I know.” you pant trying to catch your breath. “I've just missed holding you like this. Kissing you like this in private. No friends, no doctors, no nurses. Just us.” you whispered. “I know baby me too. But we have to be careful or you could end up right back there,” she explains. “I know. But I want you,” you whined kissing her lips. She chuckled “I know love. I want you to. But we have to wait.”

You sighed nesting your face in her neck. “I love you,” you whispered kissing her neck. “I love you too.” “Alex,” you called out to her. “Yes, my love.” “When I'm healed I want to marry you. No church. No wedding. Just you and me.”

Alex pulls back to look at you. “Are you sure?” she asked. “Yes. Unless that is something you really want. I'd rather skip all of that and just say I do. I don't want to waste any more time.” you explained. Alex smiles “ I like that idea a lot. Although Martha will probably demand we have some kind of service after the fact.” she chuckles. “That's fine. But first I want it to be just you and me. And then we can run off together and go on our honeymoon. We will deal with them once we get back.” you teased. Alex laughed “They're going to be mad.” “Oh well. It won't matter. I'll be on a beach somewhere making sweet love to my wife.” you smirked. “Oh yeah?” Alex teased. “Mhmm. And she’ll be screaming my name.” you husked nipping her neck. Alex moans closing her eyes “Someone thinks highly of themselves.” she teased. “Oh, I do. I know all the right buttons to push. And she's kind of a screamer anyway.” you teased. Alex huffed “ I am not!” You laughed looking up at her. “Okay, I am. But that's only with you. And you better not tell anyone.” she says.

“Oh y/n! Yes! Yes! Y/n! Right there. Ah! Ahh! Yes!” you moaned out loud mocking Alex. The blonde's jaw drops “I don't sound like that!” she huffed. You giggled nodding your head “Yes you do.”

“Your mean!” she pouts

“Awe I'm just kidding you know I love you and the way you gasp and moan and scream my name.” you teased.

“Keep it up and you'll never hear it again.” she threatened. Your giggles die down as you look over towards her.

“Awe baby. You're not actually mad at me, are you? I was kidding.”

“Mhmm,” she muttered.

“I'm sorry. I know better than to joke about that. I really do love the sounds you make though.” you tell her. She rolls her eyes ducking her head to avoid your gaze.

“I do. I love everything thing about you. I love the sounds you make. The way your body responds to mine. I love, the way your breath catches in your throat. I love that you take a billion years during your night routine. I love the way you bite your lip when you're nervous. The way you tower over others when you're mad. The way you smell the way you smile. I love the way your eyes darken when you're turned on and the blush that flushes your skin. I love that you reach for me in the middle of the night and pull me into you. I love how you kiss me and make love to me. I love the good the bad all of it. I love you, Alex. And I can't wait to show you just how much every day for the rest of my life.”

Alex lifts her head with tears in her blue eyes. “I love you too. I'm so happy you're here with me. “ she whispered pulling you in for a kiss. “Get used to it. I'm going to be with you for a long time.” you smiled. “Promise?” she asked. “Promise.”

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Awe!!! ☺️ I love how protective Olivia and Sonny are over y/n. It's so sweet. 

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Our Rules 20

Alex Cabot x Reader

Alex’s POV:

It's been a little over two weeks since the accident. My father pled guilty to all charges and is being processed as we speak. He will be in prison for the rest of his life solely taking responsibility for Grey’s death, the accident, attempted murder, and more. While there was no evidence tying Casey and Elliot to the crime the caption and DA office both insisted that they take a three-week suspension, therapy sessions, and anger management courses for Elliot. Olivia, Tara, and the others weren't too happy with their punishment claiming they got off easy. While that may be true I know why my father did it.

I've spent every day in this room with you silently praying for your eyes to open. Wishing that I could take your place instead. Your wounds are healing and the doctors are happy with how your brain and body are slowly recovering. While they're all keeping positive outlooks I worry and drown in the negative possibilities.

“Alex honey.” a voice calls put to me gaining my attention. Marta stands by the door with a small smile. “Honey, don't you think you should go home and get some rest?”

“No, I need to be here just in case.”

“Sweetheart I will sit with her and I promise I will call you if anything changes.”

“No thank you.”

“Alexandra Cabot I'm not asking. You have been in this room every day for two weeks. You need proper rest, food, and a shower. You're no good to her like this.” Martha scolds me.

“But what if she wakes up?”

“Then I will call you and tell you. The doctors have your information on file if they need you. Honey, please. If not for yourself do it for her.”

“Fine. But you call me if something happens.”

“I will. I promise.”

I sighed rising from my seat leaning down to gently kiss your lips. Looking over at Martha as tears fill my eyes. “I'm sorry.“ I whispered. She walks towards me wrapping me in her arms. “It's okay honey. I know you're scared. I only push because I'm worried about you.” she says. “I know. Thank you.” I whispered pulling back. “Alex be honest with me. Have you self-harmed since this happened?” she asked. “No. I promise I haven't. I've thought about it for sure but I didn't do it. She would be disappointed with me if I did.” I explained looking over at you. “She would understand. And she’d want you to seek out help if you need it. And to rest.”

“I know. I’ll call my therapist after my shower.” I assured her. She smiles nodding her head as I walked out the door.

Martha sighs taking a seat near the bed reaching out to hold your hand in hers. “Come back to her sweetie. She's hurting. She needs you.”

After my shower, I ate some food and called my therapist. She requested I meet with her once a week and call anytime I felt the need to self-harm. I would be lying if I said I hadn't thought about it a lot since the accident. I felt like it was my fault and everyone who was involved was only there because of me. However, I focused on you and what you would say to me. I know that self-harm isn't the answer but sometimes it's hard. Pushing those thoughts out of my head I lay in bed clutching your pillow breathing in your scent. I miss you so much and I wish you were here with me. I think about how our life would be right now if all of this never happened. I think about how our wedding would look. The dress you'd wear. The smile on your beautiful face as you walk down the aisle. I cry myself to sleep as I think of you and our life and what our future may hold.

The next morning

I wake up feeling refreshed and better than I have in weeks. As much as I hated leaving you Martha was right I needed some rest. Reaching over for my phone I noticed a list of calls, text messages, and voicemails. Getting out of bed I place my phone on speaker as I start listening to the voicemails as I get ready. The first one is from Martha.

“Alex sweetie. She's awake. She's still a little groggy. But she's awake. Call me as soon as you get this.”

Picking up speed as I dress I listen to the second message. “Alex it's Tara. I've left you several texts. Where are you? Y/n’s awake and she's asking for you. Get your ass here.” By this time I'm rushing around the room hastily getting dressed. However, the next message stops me in my tracks. “Hey, baby it's me. I asked tara to give me her phone,” you say into the phone your voice groggy and horse. I freeze as I listen to the message. “I told them to let you sleep. I'm sure you were forced to leave. Whenever you hear this I want you to take your time. I know you won't but I will be here when you get here. I've missed you, Alex. I love you. I'll see you soon. Oh, and by the way, my answer is yes.” you chuckled over the phone ending the call. Happy tears streamed down my face as I hurry to grab my things.

Rushing to the hospital I hurry down the halls towards your room. Opening the door I stop when j see you sitting up in bed laughing and chatting with Tara. You smile when you look up at me. “Hey, baby.” “Y/n?” I cried walking towards you. You nod your head as tears fill your eyes. “Yeah, baby I'm here,” you whispered reaching out for me. I fall into your arms holding you tight as I cry into your shoulder. You chuckled pulling back cradling my face in your hands. “It's okay. I'm here,” you tell me. “I've missed you so much.” I sobbed. “I know baby me too.” you smiled leaning forward to kiss me. “I thought I'd never see you again. Kiss you. Hug you. Hear you laugh. I thought I lost you.” I whispered against your lips. “You could never lose me. I always come back to you.” you chuckled wiping my tears. I chuckled leaning in to kiss you again.

“What did the doctor say?” I asked looking at Tara. “They said her injuries were healing nicely. Her swelling in her brain has gone down. They expect her to make a full recovery.” she says with a wide smile. I sighed in relief. “Thank God.” I smiled looking at you. “Well, I'm glad you're alright.” tara says. “I’ll call Sonny so he can let Olivia know. And Martha and I will head out. Give you two some time.” she explains leaning over to hug you. “I love. I'm glad you're okay,” she whispered. “I love you too.” you smiled. “Thanks for everything, Tara,” I say hugging the girl. “No problem. See you two tomorrow,” she says walking out the door. I smiled nodding my head as I looked over to you. “What happened Alex?” you asked me. I sighed knowing that I was going to have to tell you everything that has happened in the last two weeks.

Over the next two hours, I told you everything. Casey and Elliot’s involvement, my father’s involvement, Grey’s death, everything. You cried as I told you about Grey and how he fought for you to be taken first. I took a deep breath as I finished out my story waiting for you to respond. “Are you okay love?”

“No. I wake up and everything has changed. Grey is gone. He's gone Alex and I didn't even get to say goodbye.” you cried. “I know sweetie. I'm so sorry.”

“What about your dad? He's taking all of the blame? Why?” you asked.

“He said he feels guilty and he's trying to right all of the wrongs he's done. I'm not sure why he felt the need to do it now but he did. It's over. He's getting moved next week.”

“And Casey and Elliot just get to walk away?”

“Not exactly. Both were suspended and have a list of things they must do before they're allowed to return.”

“That's not enough.”

“I know. But no evidence tied them to the accident. And my father refused to give them up. He said that he didn't want to ruin any more lives. He thought their best punishment was to live with this guilt and having to deal with me.”

“That wasn't for him to decide.”

“I know.” I sighed.

“I'm done talking about this. I want to sleep.” you sighed. I nodded my head “Alright. You lay back and get some rest.”

“Lay with me?” you asked.

“I don't want to hurt you.”

“Please. I've missed you.”

I smiled cutting the lights off and kicking off my shoes. I carefully climbed into the bed next to you. Rolling over on my side I kissed the side of your head sighing as I got comfortable.

“I'm so glad you're okay,” I whispered. “Me too. I can't wait to see you in that wedding dress.”

“What?” I asked confused. You chuckled “Didn't you listen to the message I left you?” I nodded my head still confused by what you were asking. You chuckled “I told you my answer was yes.” I looked down at you puzzled until suddenly it clicked. “Yes?” I stuttered. You smile nodding your head “Yes.”

Tears spring in my eyes “You want to marry me?” “Yes, I do. I want to spend the rest of my life with you.” you smiled. I chuckled through my tears leaning down to kiss you carefully. You moaned into the kiss pulling back to look into my eyes. “I can't wait to be your wife,” you whispered. “Me either.” I smiled kissing you again.

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Omg hallo talanted queen, youre amazing, could I recquest OliviaxReader smut plssss and R saying the safe word. I would dieee 💃 No presure tho ... 😊

Aw, thank you! ☺️ I hope this is what you were thinking of. I added some fluff as well. Olivia deserves some softer moments and reassurance sometimes. Thanks for the request.

Forever and Always

Olivia Benson x Reader

Rated M.

“Ohh fuck.” you cried out as Olivia pounds you roughly from behind. The sounds of the headboard repeatedly hitting the wall mix with your cries of pleasure as the smell of sex and sweat fill the bedroom. Olivia grunts above you holding your hips steady as she fucks you. Occasionally smacking your ass as she goes. Typically Olivia was a gentle lover only on occasion has she ever been rough with you.

However, after a long shitty day, the captain all but demanded your attention and your body. You trusted Olivia and normally you had no complaints giving up control to her. However, tonight it seems that Olivia’s mind is elsewhere, and instead of loving and cherishing you, she's using your body as a means for release. You thought nothing of it when she stormed into the bed announcing her need for you. And you would be lying if you denied the instant rush of arousal that coursed through your body as she roughly dragged you down the bed by your ankles slinging your legs over her shoulders as she feasted on your cunt giving you the most delicious and quick orgasm.

Currently, she was working on your second high of the night. Your hands were tied together by a rope that was attached to the headboard above. Olivia quickly flipped you on your stomach as she roughly thrusts in and out of you. You whimpered and moaned at her steady relentless pace as your body reacts to her movements. Olivia grunts in your ear as she keeps her strokes deep and hard inside of you. “Liv!” cried out desperately for a release. She chuckled bitting the shell of your ear as she slammed into you into causing your back to arch in pleasure. Your body begins to tremble as a silent scream falls from your lips. Olivia continues her thrusts as your muscles contract around her thick length. Roughly pulling out of you she flips you over to your back crashing her lips against yours nipping and biting your bottom lip.

Making her way down to your neck she bits down hard on pulse causing a scream to escape from your mouth. She chuckles as she makes her way down to your breast roughly biting the swollen buds before sucking them into her mouth. “Liv!” you cried out arching your back pushing your chest further into her hot mouth. The brunette continues her actions as her hand grabs your legs spreading them wide as she enters you again. “Olivia!” you screamed as she repeats her rough thrusts. “Oh fuckkk! Liv!” You cry out as she angles her hips repeatedly hitting your spot causing your body to spill over once more. Tears fill your eyes as your body tries to recover from your third intense orgasm in a short amount of time. Normally Olivia would have slowed her thrusts and gently brought you down from your high. However, you noticed her pace doesn't falter. “Olivia baby I can't take anymore.” you cried out expecting her to stop. “Liv?” you questioned looking up noticing her closed eyes and blank expression. Her hips never stop and your body is now experiencing more pain than pleasure. “Olivia. Please I need a minute,” you begged still getting no answer. “Apple!” you shout your words falling on deaf ears. “Apple! Liv. Apple!” you screamed up at her.

Brown eyes shot open as she looks down at you. Seeing the tears in your eyes her hips stop immediately. She quickly unites your hands as tears filled her caramel eyes. Once you were free she carefully tries to pull out of you. You can tell by her reaction that she's upset so you quickly wrap your arms around her neck and your legs around her hips pulling her down stopping her withdrawal. “Hey,” you whispered. She ducks her head “I'm sorry.” she whimpered as a sob threatens to escape. “Olivia look at me please,” you called out to her grabbing her face forcing her to look at you. She sighed, as her eyes meet yours. “It's okay.” you smiled. She shakes her head as she goes to speak. “Olivia! I'm okay. I just need a minute.” you explained cutting her off. “I hurt you,” she whispered. “No,” you argued. “You used the safe word. You've never used it before.” she cries. You chuckled “That's because you just gave me three intense orgasms back to back. And you were close to the fourth. Which I'll be happy to let you do but I just need a minute. You didn't hurt me Liv.” you tell her. She sniffles as she drops her head gently kissing your chest. “I'm so sorry.” she cried over and over. “Olivia Benson look at me,” you said sternly. She raises her head as she looks at you. “I love you very much. You have always been so gentle and loving with me. You had a moment. You needed it. It's okay. Baby, I'm fine I swear.” you tell her trying to comfort her.

But still, she shakes her head avoiding your gaze. “You're nothing like him. Do you understand me?” you tell her knowing what she's thinking. “But I.” “If you were anything like him you wouldn't be so upset with the thought that you hurt me. You needed a moment. We all do. It's okay,” you whispered pulling her down to kiss you. She sighs against your lips gently moving her lips against yours. You chuckled as you pulled back “Honestly that was pretty hot. I like when you take control.” you smirked. She chuckles rolling her eyes. “I'm serious. You should be very proud of yourself. I have never come so quickly before. And I'm pretty sure you made me squirt.” you giggled. Olivia laughs ducking her head as she blushes. You chuckled wrapping your arms around her neck pulling her into another kiss. “I love you, Olivia. All of you. Forever and Always.” you whispered against her lips. “I love you too,” she whispered. “Will you do me a favor?” you asked. “Anything,” she replied. “Will you make love to me?”

She smiles nodding her head “Forever and always,” she replies slowly moving her hips.

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The Perfect Ending 9

Alex Cabot x Casey Novak x Reader

Rated M

The roaring sound of thunder woke you. Lifting your head you see the dark clouds forming in the sky as the rain begins to fall. You smiled you loved thunderstorms, especially on your day off. Rainy weather meant laying in bed all day cuddling with your wives. You smiled looking over at Alex who was still asleep. Her blonde hair laid perfectly around her head creating a halo. It drove you nuts that she could still look so perfect even when she was asleep. Rolling your eyes you turned your head to the redhead who laid not so gracefully on the other side of you. Her hair covered her face, mouth wide open, and her arms and legs are thrown every which way.

You giggled to yourself as you thought about how different your wives were from each other and how somehow you were a perfect mixture of the two of them. A perfect balance to your marriage. You smiled hearing Casey groan as she tossed in her sleep. Carefully you swing your leg over straddling her thighs. Her head tossed to the side causing her hair to fall across her face. You smiled watching her nose twitch as the tiny strands of hair tickled her nose. Carefully brushing her hair out of her face you leaned down to kiss her lips softly. Casey mutters something you can’t understand causing you to giggle once more before giving her another kiss. The second kiss did the job her lips slowly come to life moving against yours.

She hums into the kiss as her hands fall to your sides. Leaning up your look down watching her slowly open her eyes. “Good morning.” You said cheerfully. “Good morning baby.” She smiled her voice filled with sleep. Sitting up you smiled down at her. Her eyes drift down your body as her hands make their way to your belly. “Your starting to show.” She whispered. “I know.” She smiled softly rubbing your stomach “I can’t believe our baby is in there. Growing inside of you…it’s amazing to finally see it.” She says. “I know. I cried a little once I noticed it last night. I can’t believe how far along I am already. It’s going by fast.” She nods her head “Before you know it you’ll be holding our baby in your arms.” You smiled “ I can’t wait.” “Me either.”

The loud cracks of thunder draws her attention away from you for a moment as she looks outside the window. Your eyes stayed on her silently watching. “Casey.” You whispered drawing her eyes back to you. “Hmm?” You smiled as you slowly rolled your hips. A grin appears on her face as her hands grab either side of your hips. “So that’s what you want huh?” She asked. You smiled nodding your head. She laughs as she quickly and successfully flips you over hovering above you. Leaning down her mouth hovers over your ear. “Tell me what you want baby.” She husked causing you to shudder underneath her. “I want you inside of me.” you husked. She smiled trailing her hands down your body. Stopping at your breast she gently rolls your nipple in between her fingers. You gasped arching into her touch. “That feel good?” She chuckled. “Mhmm.” You mumbled. She chuckles as her hand travels down further finding its place between your legs. “You're so wet and I've barely touched you.” She gasped. “Those pregnancy hormones are no joke.” Alex groans as she stirs next to you causing both you and Casey to look over.

Alex smiles seeing two pairs of shocked eyes looking back at her. “Well don’t stop because of me.” She chuckles. “I like to watch.” She smirks sending you a wink as she rolls on her stomach to watch the show. Casey chuckled as fingertips danced across your lips. You gasped rocking your hips up to meet her fingers. “Casey please.” You begged. “I know baby. You’re absolutely soaked.” She says dipping her fingers further into your folds. “Look at Alex while I fuck you baby.” She whispered softly. Turning your head you locked eyes with Alex. The blonde grins moving closer to you leaning in to kiss your lips. Her tongue pushes past your teeth exploring your mouth dancing along with your tongue.

Casey thrust two fingers inside of you causing you to moan into Alex’s mouth. “Fuck.” Casey sighed. “You feel so fucking good around my fingers baby. So wet. So warm.” Casey mumbled while kissing your chest. Her tongue draws patterns and circles around your nipple while Alex keeps your mouth busy with her own. You moaned pulling back for air breathing heavily as you rest your forehead against Alex’s. The blonde smiles watching your eyes flutter shut and your mouth hanging open as you ride the wave of pleasure. “Does that feel good love?” Alex asked you. “Yess.” you moaned as Casey fucks you. Casey chuckles leaning down hovering over your ear. She pulls out just enough to add a third finger thrusting back into you while her thumb finds your clit. “Ahh. Casey.” you cried out looking up to meet those dark green eyes. The redhead smiles at you. “Come for me, baby,” she ordered thrusting her fingers deeper into you. You whimpered and sighed as a wave of heat and pleasure takes over your body as you erupt around her fingers. Alex places gentle kisses on your lips and face as Casey helps you ride out your high. Casey slows her thrusts as she watches you come undone beneath her. Finally, her movements halt once your grip loosens around her fingers.

Casey smiles as she carefully tries to pull out only to have your hand grab her wrist stopping her exit. “Wait,” you said your voice cracking from exhaustion. “Stay,” you mumbled pulling Casey's body down fully on top of yours. She hesitates trying to adjust her body so she doesn't crush you. “I don't want to hurt you.” “You won't. Please. I want to hold you.” you mumbled wrapping your arms around her neck. Casey smiles adjusting her body to lay half on you and half on the bed burying her head in between your neck. You sighed in contempt closing your eyes as your hands drag along her naked back. A few moments go by and Casey noticed the difference in your breathing. Lifting up slowly she looks down at you before looking over to Alex with a smile. “She's asleep.” Alex smiles nodding her head “You wore her out.” Casey chuckles “Should I move?” she asked. “Just give it a minute. Wait until she's fully asleep.”

An hour later you wake up alone. You sighed as you get out of bed headed to the restroom before going in search of your wives. Walking down the stairs you see them cuddle up on the couch. “Hi.” you greeted them softly. Casey lifts her head from Alex’s shoulder “Hey baby.” she smiles. You smiled as Alex and Casey scoot over for you to sit next to Alex. “What are you two doing?” you asked. “Well we were throwing out baby names but Casey's choices are ridiculous.” she chuckles. “What? No! Alex is just picking old people's names!” Casey fires back. “No, I chose timeless names that can follow them through adulthood,” Alex says. “I'm sorry but who the hell looks at a sweet innocent baby and says John yeah I like it,” Casey says mocking the blonde. “I'm sorry who in their right mind wants to name a sweet little girl Mckaylee?” Alex asked. “Well, at least it's not Joan, or Annie, or one of the golden girl's names.” Casey teases causing Alex to roll her eyes.

“What were you thinking love?” the blonde asked you. “Umm, I'm not sure about a boy's name. But I've always liked Rory for a girl,” you tell her. “Rory?” she asked. “Yeah. Rory could be a nickname for Lorelai which would be a fair trade for both of you. Alex gets to have a traditional name but also Casey gets a more unique version with the nickname.” you explained. “How very Gilmore Girls of you.” the redhead teased. You chuckled shrugging your shoulders “Well it is my favorite TV show. But also something that could please both of you.” you explain.

“Rory,” Alex said again. “I kinda like it. It's a cute nickname but if she's ever in a professional environment she can use Lorelai. You might be on to something love.” she says with a grin. “What do you think Casey?” you asked looming over at her. “I like it. But we should also think of some boy's names,” she suggested. “Oh, and we need to discuss the last name thing,” she says. “Well I don't have any ideas for a boy’s name however no offense I'm not a fan of John,” you said smiling at Alex. “It was just a suggestion!” she shouts.

You and Casey chuckled at her shaking your heads. “Well listen as much as I love that this baby will have three mommies I think it's ridiculous to have three last names.” Casey states. “I agree.” “Me too.” you and Alex agreed with her. “So what are we thinking?” Casey asked. Alex shrugged her shoulders as the two looked over at you. You chuckled “Why do you two keep looking at me? This is a joint decision.” “It is but we want your opinion.” Alex states. “Why can't they share the name, Cabot? Alex is like the man in this situation,” you say. Alex turns her head narrowing her eyes at you “Excuse me?” “I don't mean it like that. It's just your last name is already established. No offense Case.”

“None taken. I agree it's a strong last name and it might be beneficial for them,” she adds.

“But it also comes with expectations,” Alex says.

“And I'm sure they will go above and beyond those expectations just like their mother,” you replied. Alex smiles rolling her eyes. “She right Ally. You're a powerful, smart, woman. The Cabot name has never held you back.” Casey says. “Are you sure?” Alex asked looking between the two of you. You both smiled and nod your heads. Alex sighs “Well alright. But I don't know how I feel about being the “daddy” of this relationship.” she says using air quotes around the word daddy. You and Casey chuckled. “I think the baby will do just fine with their three mommies,” Casey says. “Yeah. Me too.” you agreed. “Alright. Now that all of that is settled I'm starving.” you tell them. Alex chuckles “You’re always starving” She laughs rising from her seat. You pulled her down causing her to look back at you. “Where are you going?” you asked. “You said you were starving. I was going to make you some breakfast,” she states. You smiled easing yourself down from the couch onto the floor in front of her. “Right. But what I want isn't in the kitchen,” you replied spreading her legs apart. Alex smiles as you pull her shorts down to her ankles. “Well after this we need to get you some real food,” she states running her fingers through your hair. You hummed in agreement as you dived into her center. Alex moans loudly throwing her head back against the couch. Casey chuckles as she watches Alex come undone.

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Our Rules 19

Alex Cabot x Reader

Sorry, this chapter took so long. I've got a lot of fucked up shit going on.🙄 But anyways hope you enjoy it. ☺️

Alex’s POV:

It's been two days since the accident. Olivia,

Tara, Fin, Rollins, and Martha have been in and out checking between sonny, you, and myself. I called Grey’s family to let them know what happened. His mother sobbed in agony when I told her. It killed me to listen to her sobs and only makes me feel more responsible. His funeral is this weekend and by that time I'll be able to attend. My surgery on my wrist went well. I will be in a cast for a few months but other than that I came out of that car a lot better off than most. I’ve made a point to stay at your bedside every night since your last surgery. It pains me to see you so still and lifeless. There more I sit here the angrier I get towards my father. Towards Casey and Elliot and myself. How could I let this happen? Is a question I ask myself at least 200 times a day.

“Alex.” a voice calls dragging me out of my thoughts. Looking over I see Sonny rolling towards me in his wheelchair. “Hey. How’d you get them to let you out of bed?” I asked. The man shrugged “Same way you did. Bitch and Bitch until they gave in.” he jokes. I nodded giving him a small smile. “I just wanted to check on her. See how she's doing,” he says. “Well, she has a punctured lung, a couple of broken ribs, her face took some heavy blows as well, and they said she had some internal bleeding but they were able to get it under control. However, due to the massive trauma, her body and brain need rest hence the coma. Now we just play the waiting game. They tell me that the longer she's out the better she’ll heal but it's hard.” I explained my voice cracking with emotion. Sonny nods “I'm sure. I'm sorry Alex. I'm sorry this happened.” “It's not your fault.”

“True. But it's not yours either.”

I shake my head turning to look towards you as tears escape my eyes. Sonny sighs rolling his chair closer to me. Reaching out he grabs my hand. “I mean it, Alex. This is not your fault. It's Elliot's. It's Casey’s. Your dad, that psycho Banks. It's their fault.”

“But everyone was hurt because of me. Grey he...”

“Grey was alive when I was pulled from the car. He was awake and the paramedics wanted to get him out first. But he knew y/n was injured badly so he fought them on it. Demanded they take her first. So they did. He died protecting her. And you know he wouldn't have it any other way. He had a soft spot for her.”

I chuckled “Yeah he did.”

“He died a hero Alex. If they hadn't taken her first she might not be here. I know you're angry and you have every right to be. But this isn't your fault. He knew that. He would have done anything to protect the two of you and he did.”

I cry as I nod my head listening to Sonny’s words. I know he's right but it hurts so bad. In one day my entire life changed. I had a plan. And in a split second everything I loved was taken from me.

“Sonny?” a voice called out. Looming up I see Olivia standing by the door. “They want you back in bed. Rollins will take you,” she says stepping aside so the woman can roll him back to his room. Sonny sighs looking over at me “Remember what I said. And don't worry she's strong. She’ll come back to us.” he says as Amanda takes him out of the room.

Olivia smiles as she watches the two leave. Closing the door behind her she joins me taking the seat beside me.

“How is she?”

“The same.” I sighed.

“Sonny’s right. This isn't your fault. And I wanted you to know that we took all three in last night. They've been charged and booked. But it seems that your father is taken the blame for all of it. He says Casey and Elliot had nothing to do with it. “

“Why would he do that?”

“I'm not sure. But as of right now we don't have proof that Casey or Elliot we're involved. We do however have proof on Alexander and Banks. And we have a witness.”

“Who?”

“A younger boy that worked under Banks. He came forward after the accident.”

“Am I wrong for wanting our friends to suffer? For wanting my father to suffer?”

“No. What they did...it was wrong. Ally, if they were truly your friends they would have never put you through this. As for your father, we both know how Alexander is. He's selfish. He knew it was wrong whether he knew what Banks had planned or not.”

“Do you really think my father wanted her dead?”

“No. I don't. I think Banks was a homophobic psycho. Alexander is selfish but he's no murderer. And he wouldn't cause you physical harm. In his own fucked up way he loves you.”

I chuckled “Yeah I guess.” She laughs nodding her head. “I'm so angry Olivia. I want them to pay for what they did. But also none of that matters if y/n doesn't make it. Hurting them won't bring her back.” I cried.

“She will make it Alex. And you have every right to be angry. Hell, I'm angry. I thought I knew them better than this.”

“So did I.” I sighed wiping my tears. Olivia sighs taking my hands in hers. “We will figure it out Ally I promise. Y/n is strong and she will come back to you. Okay?”

“I hope so,” I said my voice cracking. Olivia holds me tight in her arms as I crumble.

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5 days later

It's been a week since the accident and still no signs of you waking up. The funeral has come and gone. Martha held my hand tight as we cried for Grey. And His mother hugged me and we cried together as I apologized over and over again. My father is still claiming that Elliot nor Casey had anything to do with this situation. Olivia informed me his lawyers tried to cut a deal if he gave them up but yet my father refused. Tara and Martha have been bringing me clothes, food, and books. They've tried to get me to leave for a couple of hours a day but I refuse. I want to be here just in case you wake up. The doctors informed me that this may take some time. Your body is healing and you need rest but I would give anything to see you open your eyes again.

“Ally.” a voice calls out to me. Looking for I see Olivia standing by the door. “Your father has requested to see you. He won't corporate with anyone until he sees you.”

“Why?”

“I'm not sure. But he said it was important. Also, Elliot and Casey are being released today. Without Alexander’s statement, there is nothing that ties them to the incident. “ she explained. I sighed shaking my head as I looked over to you. “I can't leave her alone,” I whispered. “Tara and Martha are here to sit with her until you come back,” Olivia says stepping aside for the women to enter. Martha hugs me tightly “We’ve got her sweetheart.” she says with a small smile taking the seat I was just in. Tara smiled wrapping me in her arms “We won't leave her. I promise.” she whispered to me. I sighed nodding my head as I left with Olivia.

As I rode down to the present with Olivia my mind raced with questions. Why did he want to see me? What could be so important? Why won't he give up Casey and Elliot? All of this and more runs through my brain as I sit quietly next to Olivia. Once we arrived she leads me to the room. Olivia stops shy at the door. “Your father has requested that we don't listen in but I will stand behind the mirror and watch if you want me to,” she says. I look through the two-way mirror watching my father quietly seat and wait for me. “It's okay. Just stand by the door. I'll knock when I'm done.” I tell her. She nods opening the door for me to enter. Taking a deep breath I put on my famous ice queen face walking into the room. “You wanted to see me?” I asked coldly. “Alexandra.” he smiles as he looks up at me. “Are you going to tell me what you want? If not I'm leaving. You won't waste my time.” I stated. “Please sit,” he says. I sighed sitting in the chair across from him. He breathes deeply before he speaks. “I wanted to let you know that I'm sorry for all the pain I have caused you. I understand that my words mean nothing to you but none the less I am very sorry.”

“You're right your words mean nothing to me.”

“I know. Which is why I wanted you to come here. I told my lawyers today that I'm going to plead guilty to all charges. I know it may not mean much but all of my accounts will be left to you at your disposal.”

“I don't want your money! Isn't that how this all got started?!”

“Alexandra I’ll admit that I was worried about y/n’s intentions with you. And yes I was worried about the money. But what Banks did was out of line and not a call that I made however he isn't here to pay for his crimes but I am. And I will take full responsibility.”

“Why? So I'll feel sorry for you?”

“No... Ally for a long time, I wanted the absolute best for you. I thought I was doing the right thing. I couldn't see past my own selfish ways, and it cost me your mother and it almost cost me you. If you had died in that car I would have lost everything Alexandra. The accident, banks, Grey’s death, all of these people were hurt because of me. It's time I answer for my sins. I understand if you don't want the money. But please don't make rash decisions because of me. It is yours and you can decide how you wish to use it. I asked you here to say that I'm sorry and I hope that one day you can forgive me. I'm going away for a long time Ally. I will probably die in prison. But I wanted you to know that I love you. And I am so proud of the woman you've become. Your mother would have been so proud of you.”

I listen carefully as a wipe the fallen tears from my face. All I've ever wanted was my father's approval.

“Why won't you tell them about Elliot’s and Casey’s involvement?” I asked.

“While those two had their reasons for their involvement it was very limited and neither one had any idea of the outcome. Plus, I refuse to ruin two more lives because of my faults. I figured their best punishment was to live with the guilt. And the wrath of Alexandra Cabot of course.” he says with a small grin. I chuckled nodding my head. He reaches over the table squeezing my hand. “I'm so sorry Ally. I never meant to hurt you. But I did. And now I must answer of it. I know you're scared for y/n but that girl loves you more than anyone ever could. More than I did. She’ll come back to you. And when she does I want you to live your life to the fullest and to be happy. You hear me?” he asked fighting back his tears. I nod my head as tears filled my eyes. He sighs wiping his eyes before he stands to knock on the door. Turning back to me he smiles “Goodbye Ally.”

[carolinaflow]

At least it seems like Alexander is trying to fix his wrongdoings. I'm still sad about Grey. 🥺 and I hope reader wakes up soon.

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Our Rules 17

Alex Cabot x Reader

Alex’s POV:

Everything is dark why is it so dark I think to myself. I feel as if I’m being lifted into the air like I’m light as a feather. I hear my name being called but I can’t speak. Everything is just so dark. Cracking my eyes open I see a slither of light and in an instant, I feel pain. Hot burning pain throughout my body. “Alex!” I hear my name again. I notice the bright blue sky above me and the trees. It’s such a beautiful day I think to myself. “Alex! Alex! Can you hear me?” The voice keeps calling. Finally, I look over to see Olivia and I immediately notice the fear in her eyes. “Alex sweetie. Can you hear me?”

Suddenly it all comes rushing back to me. We were in the car driving to the cabin. I asked you to marry me and then darkness. I sit up quickly instantly regretting it as pain shoots down my side. Looking over I see the car laying upside down, the glass is shattered covering the pavement below, blood staining the streets. “What happened?” I asked looking back at Olivia. “A driver ran the red light they hit you head-on on the left side. They had to be going at least 100.” She explained. “Y/n? Where is she?!” I cried. Olivia gives me a small smile “They’re doing everything they can to get her out.”

“Get her out? Get her out of where?! Olivia!” I shout. Olivia grabs my hand squeezing it “ Alex I need you to calm down. Your body has been through a trauma and you have some broken bones. The left side of the car was hit head-on which is where y/n and Grey were. They’re having a hard time getting to them out but I promise you they’re trying everything.” She said. I cried shaking my head as I looked back at the car. Off to the side, I see Carisi laying on the ground on a stretcher the emt’s moving around him in a panic. I shut my eyes for a moment hoping it was all a dream. Praying that one I opened my eyes it would all fade away. However, when I opened them again I realized this was no dream.

“We’ve got to move her now.” Said the young paramedic. “What? No, I’m not leaving her.” I shout. “Alex. Listen you have to go get help.” Olivia tries to reason with me. I cry and scream as I try to get off the gurney. “I’m not leaving her! I can’t leave her!” I screamed. Olivia grabs my face making me look at her. “Alex. I’ll stay with her okay? I won’t leave I promise. I promise you I won’t leave her. Fin is going to ride with you.” She says looking over at him. He nods his head in agreement “I’ve got her, covered boss.” He says hopping into the ambulance along with me. I cried harder as they shut the doors driving me further away from you.

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Olivia sighs as she watches the ambulance drive off. Turning around she actually has a moment to take in the scene in front of her. The car is in shambles, the sirens are deafening, there are so many lights from the cop cars, from the ambulance, and the fire trucks that it could blind you if you stare too long. Men and women were shouting and working together to free you and Grey from the car. Carsis is was being worked on in the next ambulance over It was all too much. Glancing over towards the sidewalk she sees Elliot standing off to the side with a look of horror.

Olivia walks in strides across the street towards him. “Liv.” He mumbled as she walks towards him. Once she was close enough she smacked him across the face. “Was it worth it? Huh?! Was all of this worth it??” She screamed. Elliot holds the side of his face tears pricking his eyes. “Liv I….” “Save it! If they die…if she dies Alex will never forgive you. I will never forgive you!” She sobbed. Elliot's head lowers as he cries. “Liv!” Amanda screams. Olivia takes one last look at Elliot before she runs over to Amanda. “What is it?” She asked. “They got them out,” Amanda tells her. Olivia sighs in relief “Oh Thank god.” “Liv. Grey didn’t make it.” Amanda whispered. “And y/n is in pretty bad shape.” She adds. Olivia tries to hold back her tears taking deep breathes. “Are they taking her now?” She asked. Amanda nods pointing towards the ambulance. “Aright I’m riding with her. You get in contact with Grey’s family and let them know. I want you to stay with Carisi and call Tara.” She says running off towards the ambulance. Elliot runs behind her “What do you need me to do?” he asked. “Nothing! You've done enough.” She says climbing into the ambulance just in time.

Elliott sighs wiping the stray tears as he pulls out his cell. As he waits for an answer he sees Grey’s lifeless body being lifted on the gurney and a blanket covering his face. “Elliot I'm not in the mood for your bullshit right now.” the voice sighs over the phone. “Casey.” Elliot sobs. “What? What happened?” she asked. “It's bad Case. Hit head-on, it's awful,” he says. “Is Alex okay?” she asked. “They're taking her to the hospital. Carisi and y/n too. But..Grey..he didn't make it.” “I'm headed to the hospital now.” the redhead states frantically moving around her apartment. “Olivia doesn't want us there.” he cries. “I don't care. I have to talk to Alex and pray that she can forgive me.” Elliot chuckles “Good luck.” “Just meet me there,” she says before ing hanging up the phone.

[carolinaflow]

Elliot deserved way more! Olivia should have beat his ass!

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Olivia Benson + red coat | Organized Crime 2x15: Take Over

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Olivia: *texting Alex* can I come over?

Alex: sure!

Olivia: good because I'm right outside your door.

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Our Rules 16

Alex Cabot x Reader

The next morning you wake to soft kisses along your shoulder. You hummed in contempt as you rolled over facing Alex. She smiles when you open your eyes combing a strand of hair behind your ear. “Good morning love,” she says softly. “Good morning.” you smiled cuddling into her chest. “You okay?” she asked. “I'm fine. A little sore but I'll be okay,” you tell her. “Was I too rough?” she asked. Lifting your head to meet her eyes you shake your head no. “You were perfect,” you whispered.

She smiles “So were you. I don't think I've ever seen you so dominant before. So vocal. It was definitely a sight to see.” she husked. Your cheeks burned as they flushed pink ducking your head you buried your face in her neck. She chuckled “Don't be embarrassed. I liked it.” she says causing you to laugh. “I'm happy you pushed the issue. After last night I feel more connected to you. Like nothing can come between us.” she explains. “Me too,” you mumbled from your hiding spot. “Although I'd love to know how you're so good at giving head. That was definitely a new experience for me. One that I enjoyed.” she confesses. You giggled looking up at her. “You did?” “Mhmm,” she says nodding her head. “Did you do that with someone else?” she asked. “No. I told you that you were the only one I've ever used a strap with,” you tell her. “Okay. But.” “That was my first time doing that. I just wanted to show you that I trusted you,” you explained. Alex chuckled “Well thank you. And I hope you know that I trust you completely as well. I love you.” she says softly. You smiled “I love you too.” The two of you lean in for a kiss but the loud growl from your empty stomach interrupts the moment. You blush as Alex chuckles. “Come on. Let's go feed you,” she says playfully tugging you out of the bed.

Walking downstairs you see Martha at the front door. “Oh, Martha? I didn't expect you back so early. Is everything okay?” Alex asked. Martha turns to her “I decided to come home early. I'm sorry Alex I can't explain it. I just had this terrible feeling all night like something was wrong. And unfortunately, it seems that I'm right.” she says. “What do you mean?” Alex asked. Martha hands Alex the picture she's been holding. “It was on the front door. I saw it when I pulled up,” she explains. Alex gasped as she looks down at the photo. Confused you walked behind her to see what it was. It was a picture of you and Alex in bed sleeping peacefully wrapped around one another. In bright red letters across the photo, it reads “There will be blood.”

Looking up at Alex you asked, “What does this mean?” fear written all over your face. “I'm not sure. I'm calling Olivia,” she says hastily running up the stairs to retrieve her phone.

Alex gripped her phone tightly as she searched for Olivia’s number her hands shaking as she hits the call button. She positioned the phone to her ear taking steady breaths as she waited. On the second ring, Olivia answered.

“Benson.”

“Olivia,”

“Alex. I was just about to call you.”

“Liv someone left us something at my door..” she says her voice quavering as the words came out.

“I know. I need you to come down here bring y/n too.”

“Why?”

“Just come down here Al.”

“Okay.”

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16th Precinct

“Ah. Ahh. Yes. Yes. Fuckk. Alex! Mhmm. You like that baby? Yes. Yes. Uhh.”

Alex stares wildly at the screen as your moans fill Olivia's office. The video itself shows you and Alex in your most vulnerable state. The privacy of your own bedroom where you two make love. Alex couldn't believe what she was seeing. Finally having enough she looks over at Olivia. “Cut it off.” Olivia nods stopping the video and clearing the screen.

“Who was this sent to?” Alex asked. “The precinct. No return address of course.” Elliot replies. “So who has seen it?” She asked. “The package was addressed to us in general. However, Olivia, Fin, and I were emailed a copy as well.” Elliot explains. “And me.” the voice adds. Alex turns to see Casey standing just outside the office door. “Did you watch it?” Alex asked. “Only when it first opened. Once I realized what it was I closed it and came straight here,” she clarified. Alex sighed combing her hair behind her ears. “Why would someone send this?” she asked. “ Who knows. Maybe once they sent the threat to your house they knew you would come here.” Fin suggested. “And since you'd come here they wanted...” “To embarrass me? Shame me?”Alex said cutting Casey off. The redhead nodded.

“Well, this is just fucking great.” Alex chuckled shaking her head in disbelief. “Alex there is over 24 hours of footage in this video which means there are cameras in your home. We will have to go in and find them.” Fin says. “I know,” she mumbled. “And with the threat against you and y/n,” Elliot says. “I know. We will need to go somewhere safe.” she finishes his words. The man nodded. “I'll have Grey drive us out to a safe place,” she states. “You should have back up. Or at least go to a safe house.” Fin suggested. “I have over a thousand properties of land they won't find us. Plus, Grey will be with us,” she declares.

“And me.” Sonny cuts in. Alex shakes her head “Carisi no. I don't want any of you getting caught up in this.” she says. “Y/n is Tara’s best friend. If something were to happen to her Tara would never forgive herself. I would never forgive myself. I'm coming with you.” he states firmly. Alex sighed knowing she wouldn't be able to talk him out of it. “Fine. Get your things together we're moving quickly. Y/n and I will get clothes once we get there.” she says. The man nods leaving the office to pack a bag.

Alex sighs looking over at Olivia. The woman gives her a small smile and a hug. “I’ll figure it okay? I promise,” she says. Alex nods her head “Thank you. I need to go tell y/n what's going on so we can go.” she mumbles. Olivia nods “Go. I’ll have Carisi keep me updated. Be safe Al. Both of you.” she states. Alex nods her head giving Casey a small smile as she walks out the door.

Olivia sighs heavily once the door is shut looking up at Casey. “Who would do this?” she asked. The redhead shook her head “I don't know. I'll be right back.” she says quickly walking out the door.

Elliot says his goodbyes watching Amanda escort you, Alex, and Carisi out the door. Casey runs up behind him as he walks towards his desk.

“We have to tell them,” she whispered. “No,” Elliot whispered. “Elliot we have to! They were threatened and I can bet my ass it wasn't by Alexander which means his team is ignoring his orders.” Casey exclaimed. “No! We were cut out of this. It has nothing to do with us.” he growled. “It has everything to do with us! We should at least tell Olivia,” she said. “Tell me what?” the brunette questioned walking up behind them. Elliot sighs “Nothing.”

“Doesn't sound like nothing,”

Casey looks over to Elliot waiting for him to explain but the man remains silent.

“Elliot and I went to Alexander after Alex dumped me. He had this whole team looking into Alex and y/n. Elliot and I weren't involved with that part. We only brought it to his attention that the two of them were back together. Once I talked to Alex I asked Elliot to convince Alexander to call it off. And he did. He said he would personally speak to Alex. Whoever his team is or was has gone rogue.” she explained exhaling deeply once she finished.

Olivia stands there stunned and speechless. After a few moments, the redhead walks towards Olivia with misty eyes. “Olivia say something.” Casey pleads. “Get the fuck out of my sight. BOTH OF YOU!” she screams. “Liv.” Elliot sighs. “No! I want you both gone. I have to contact Alexander and get to the bottom of this. I'll deal with you two later. You better pray that I can fix this. And you better pray that Alex will show mercy to either of you.” she says glaring at the two of them. Elliot sighed walking out of the precinct with his head down. Casey is in tears as she follows behind Olivia. “Olivia I'm sorry.” she cries. The woman turns to look at her with a chuckle “ I'm not the one you should apologize to.” she says. “I know,” Casey whispered. Olivia glares as she towers over the redhead “Leave now. I can't stand to look at you any longer.”

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Grey raced through the city in hope of reaching the cabin before dark. You nervously played with your fingers looking out the window. Alex looks over at you sighing as she scoots closer. “I promise you I won’t let anyone hurt you.” She whispered. “Why is someone watching us Alex? What did we do?” You asked. She shakes her head “I don’t know my love. But Olivia promised she would get to the bottom of it. We’re relocating simply for my comfort because the fact that someone was in our home..makes my skin crawl.” She whispered. “They weren't just in our home! They were watching us! Our every move is on film. Alex, they saw everything they watched us make love.” You cried. Alex cradles your face in her hands “I know my love. I’m sorry. I don’t know why this is happening but I promise you I will find the person that did this.” She assures you.

You sighed dropping your head to her shoulder. “I’m sorry this ruined your plans for tonight.” You mumbled. “It’s okay. I’m more worried about your safety.” She replied with a small smile. “I know but you seemed really excited about tonight.” She smiles looking towards the window “Yeah I was.” she says softly. You caught a glimpse of her facial expression alerting you that something was off. “Why were you so excited?” You asked. Alex smiles looking down at you “Because I was going to ask you to marry me.” She says. You gasped looking up at her with wide eyes and then everything went black.

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