Love You for Infinity (Kyojuro x Fem Reader)
He made a promise he knew he couldn't keep
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You watched as Rengoku was in the living room watching Tengen play a game with Gyomei while he waited for his turn. He was an angel. A flame that came into your life and brought you from the darkness. The cold, bitter darkness that Giyuu and Shinobu put you in. You really thought that Giyuu was the one. You thought you were the only one he could love and be with. You thought you had cracked the surface of his cold exterior and he had let you in. You even met his family even though at the time you never understood the looks they would give you. Maybe it's because they knew about him and Shinobu and wondered when you were going to figure it out. You wish you had. It would have saved you the heartache of walking in on them on his couch. You wanted to surprise him but, you stood by the door listening in on their talk with each other. You remember it like it was yesterday even though it's been a few months.
"How long do you plan on hiding Giyuu-kun? She deserves to know you don't love her." You felt your heart squeeze listening to the sultry tone she used on Giyuu as you slid down his door sitting on the cold, wet ground. It was the morning dew and you didn't care if you stained your pants. You had something more worrying, more spirit-crushing than a pair of pants that can easily be cleaned.
"But she loves me and that's something I'm not willing to give up. I may not care for her but, her unconditional, blinding love is something I deserve and need." You felt like vomiting. So all this time he never loved you? At this point, you were pretty sure he didn't even like you. This was all a game to him, a façade. This was part of his plan to trip you up and fall into his web of lies. He didn't care about you. He just wanted your unconditional and blind love. That's exactly what you did too. You gave him blind and unconditional loyalty. You cared for him. You remembered little important details about him that no one else did. You were his first friend and lover. At least you think. Now you don't know. He lied to you. He betrayed you.
"Ara, ara so cold of you Giyuu-kun~" You heard the sounds of them kissing and that's when you left everything you got him to make breakfast right there by the door. Leaving you to block him and Shinobu off of everything. You didn't want to know how long. You didn't want to know when it all started. You didn't need to know. It was over and there was no going back to him ever. He broke a promise right along with your heart.
"I will love you for infinity" What a liar. You shook your head to get out of the past coming back to the present. You watched as Rengoku finally got his turn. Rengoku. The object of your affection. You really really liked him. You knew it in your heart but, you were scared. Your heart yearned for his touch but, your brain was filled with trepidation. You couldn't handle another heartbreak so soon. You didn't want to be heartbroken like that ever again. You never thought you would be cheated on but, damn Giyuu proved you wrong and crossed that hurdle for you checking it off your bucket list. Not like you wanted it on there in the first place.
"Hey Y/N, are you going to join us or continue to shy away over there, eh?" You smirked at Tengen going to join them not missing the way Rengoku would look at you from time to time. You were hyper-fixated on him and that's the only reason why you ever noticed anything and everything he did. You were the moth drawn to the flame. You wanted him. You needed him. Your heart and brain were in a constant battle though. You didn't want to get hurt again, not that you truly believed Rengoku would ever hurt you. He was the most genuine person you knew besides Gyomei. Would he even be interested in you?
"Once I'm done I wanna play with Y/N!" It was Rengoku and you couldn't help but let a smile spread across your face. Of course, he would like you as a friend but, that's about it. He probably thinks you're still hung up on Giyuu. You never told anyone that he cheated just that you both separated. You were crying a lot and many thought you were upset about breaking up but, they never bothered to talk to Giyuu. None of them really liked him with how cold and stuck-up he acted. If only you had listened to all of them in the beginning maybe you wouldn't be in this predicament that you're in now.
"Don't get upset when I kick your ass." You both shared a laugh as you felt your heart skip a beat. His laugh was beautiful. He was just beautiful. His hair and eyes were the color of flames and fire but, not the ones that burn. The one that caresses you when you're upset, warms you up when you're cold like a fireplace. His smile was as bright as the sun and you found yourself almost squinting every time his attention was on you. You wished it was always on you.
"I think it will be the other way around." You smirked as you both played Mario kart listening to Tengen and Gyomei talking in the back.
The noise was nice to combat your raging thoughts. Your hands and eyes were focused on the game, your ears on the occupants behind you but, your mind was on a whole different plane. You haven't thought about Giyuu in a long time so why now? Is it because you never truly got the closure? Nah, you didn't care too much about that. Your closure was completely blocking the two of them out of your life. Maybe it was just emotions and cheating can and will scar a person. It may be another day for the other person but, the one who got cheated on can remember that even when they already have moved on. Maybe it's because you never told anyone the truth. They just assumed you both grew apart. Not that he cheated.
"You're alright there Y/N?" You jumped at the feel of someone's hand on your shoulder and you focused to see Rengoku looking at you in concern. You felt yourself blush a little and look down to see you had a death grip on the controller and you had won with Rengoku right behind you in second place. You let the controller go flexing your fingers to get circulation back into them.
"I'm sorry Kyo just some unpleasant memories resurfaced." He was very concerned but, chose not to push it for now. You knew him thought. When it was going to be just the two of you that's when he will fret and keep asking and pushing until you cave in and tell him the truth. You didn't want to. You were embarrassed. You felt at first that you could have changed him, could have done something better. You used to think what did Shinobu have that you didn't? The honest truth was that no matter what if someone was going to cheat on you they will cheat. You can give them a crown to parade in and worship but, if they don't want you to share that crown then you won't get it. That's how disgusting some people are. Tengen and Gyomei stayed for a bit longer before they called it a night giving you tight hugs and kisses on the forehead before leaving. Now it was just the two of you. You and Rengoku. Your heart was beating fast with anxiety. It felt like the tension was rising in the air almost suffocating you. Maybe it was just you. You watched as Kyo turned the game off and turned on a random anime that neither of you was interested in. You loved when you both watched anime.
"Now, are you going to tell me or am I going to have to keep asking." You turned to Kyo who was facing you now with a soft gentle smile. It was encouraging and his eyes were wide and open but, firm. He was willing to wait but, he wasn't going to be dismissed. You were going to have to tell him what was plaguing you whether it was now or later. You turned towards him slowly crawling a bit until you were directly in front of him both of your knees touching each other. You took a breath to steady your nerves. You wanted to look him in the face when you said this.
"Giyuu cheated on me with Shinobu." His eyes widen as his jaw slacked. You pushed on before you lost your bravado. " They were cheating for a while and I found out one morning when I came over to surprise him with breakfast. He said he never cared for me but, he only kept me around because I gave him the love he deserved. He and Shinobu laughed all about it." You felt your eye twitch watching as his face went through numerous emotions. It finally settled on resentment
"That cold-hearted bastard." You snorted at that as he shook his head "He threw away a diamond for cheap silver. That bitch always acted as she hated him, teasing him harshly. Always saying he is so bland and cold...I'm so sorry." He pulled you into a tight hug as you snuggled into his chest face resting between his neck and shoulder. He was warm. Really warm and comfortable.
"...I'm over him. He is not important, never was." You decided to take a chance and sit properly in his lap with your legs around his hips and all he did was fix you so that he was holding you much closer and tighter. This was nice. This was something you wanted to do with him.
"I'm glad you're over him. He never deserved you. He doesn't deserve anyone for being that way. You're a Queen. You deserve to be worshipped. You deserve to be given a crown. You deserve someone to care for you and love you for infinity." You jolted at those words but, no waterworks happened. You used to cry at the sound of those words but, they no longer affected you so negatively. You hopefully had someone else who can fill that hole in your heart. Permanently.
"I think I found him." You leaned up a bit just enough to be in Kyo's face. Your nose was lightly brushing against his as the two of you never broke eye contact. This was the kind of intimacy you craved. Something you never even got close to with your ex. You studied his face dragging your hand lightly down the side of his face taking in his features as he did the same thing for you. Once done with your explorations the two of you shared a soft smile with each other.
"I think you did too." No more was said as the two closed the gap between your lips in a breathtaking kiss. He tasted as good as he looked. It was sweet, soft, and sensual. Everything you wanted, everything you needed, everything you craved.
Once the two of you pulled away he brought you in for a hug "Let me replace all those bad memories, bad emotions, and bad feelings with good ones." He didn't let you go and honestly? You didn't want to be let go.
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This was a one-shot that I was inspired by the remix of a song. This took me 45 minutes to write.
