She Is A Total Monet!

Emma•Libra• ‘02• Bi• I like to draw Tomura Shigaraki, cute girls and Tomura Shigaraki as a cute girl• I have so so many regrets • Shigaraki simp and Carthethyia main •

[cheeseonatower]

Hey everyone I am opening up some emergency commissions! I am starting with three open slots so feel free to dm if interested

[20012001]

hobbies include sitting on my bedroom floor being absolutely devastated by the fact that i have a physical form

[mcr0wave]

reunion of a lifetime 😸

[tellatoast]

…I see we’re having some feelings🫩

[thisuserhaspassed]

If this pops up while you’re scrolling, I wish you unconditional love and massive success.

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[gonzocoded]

don’t ever kill your self because maybe someday you will get brunch with your tumblr mutual

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Every time i post i gotta make sure ive not accidentally added a photo of my house with my address and full legal name and bank details

[canwriteitbetterthanueverfeltit]

hey, tag this with a food people get really upset about you not liking

[autistic2000smidwest]

Tomura is hot, but FEM TOMURA????? On a different level.

[scary-grace]

Call Me Sometime (Chapter 5) - a Shigaraki x f!Reader fic

You work the dispatch desk at a phone sex line to make ends meet, and you're used to handling some strange calls. But the caller you're babysitting tonight is the strangest by far -- and that's before you find out why he called.

Chapter 1 Chapter 2 Chapter 3 Chapter 4

Chapter 5

“It’s really not so scary,” Sakura says to you, smiling. The two of you are meeting in the room where she holds her video sessions, which makes you feel weird on way too many levels — but this is where she wanted to meet, and you want as much information as she can give you about working under a contract. “What have you heard? About escort work in general?”

“After working here so long? A lot.” Most of it isn’t good. “Um, you all provide kind of a big range of services. You have different specialties. Hirono and Mitsuko see the guys who get off on power plays, and Mayumi handles the ones with really specific fetishes. Yoshimi only works with clients who like to roleplay. And you —“

You’ve never been clear on what Sakura’s specialty is. You give her an apologetic look, and she laughs. “My specialty is discretion,” she says. “I work with clients who want a companion who can pass as something more — something more than a mistress, even. You could say I provide the girlfriend experience.”

“The girlfriend experience,” you repeat. “What’s that?”

“Oh, Nine-chan. Haven’t you ever had a boyfriend?”

You’ve had two. One in middle-school, which doesn’t count, and one in high school, which does. He saw you naked, so you have to count him, even if the two of you weren’t in love. “Yeah, but it was kind of weird. I didn’t really know what he wanted from me.”

“That won’t be a problem here. It’ll likely be spelled out in the contract,” Sakura says. “Amount of contacts per day, type of contact — text, phone, video, face to face. Date activities. Sexual expectations. All of that will be covered under the contract. I — are you okay?”

Somewhere around “sexual expectations” you started getting nauseous. “I’m good.”

“The expectations will be spelled out,” Sakura says, giving you a worried look. “But the girlfriend experience isn’t just about quantity of contact. It’s about quality. It’s about making the client in question feel like the most important man in the world, without putting pressure on him to do anything in response. Time spent with you should feel good for the client. It should feel easy and stress-free, and to his observation, it should look effortless from you.”

You’ve heard the high-tiers say things like that before. “Professional.”

“Not quite,” Sakura says. “Escorts who work outside of contracts need to be professional, to make it clear with their clients where the boundaries lie. You’re working with one client who’s paying a lot for all your attention. Your job is to make him forget the payment part. The client should feel like you’re with him because you want to be.”

“So the girlfriend experience is the girlfriend fantasy.” That makes a little more sense to you, but you see Sakura shrug. “No?”

“It depends,” Sakura says instead. “How do you feel about Player One?”

You don’t know how to answer that. Sakura can tell. “Prior to my contract, I had twelve regular clients,” she says. “None of them were terrible, but I looked forward to meeting one of them much more than the others. Partially because of how he treated me, of course, but partially because there was a lot to like about him. Men hire escorts for a lot of different reasons. My favorite client hired me because he wanted companionship, and his career didn’t allow time for him to date.”

You’ve heard rumors about who Sakura’s contract is with. You’re pretty sure he’s a hero — a minor one from a rich family who works a really busy beat. Yokohama’s a big city. There’s always something going wrong. “I liked him,” Sakura continues, “and he liked me. We developed a tighter bond than I did with my other clients, to the point where we decided it would be best to become exclusive.”

“It was a mutual thing?”

“Of course! Kaz wouldn’t have done it unless he knew it was what I wanted.” Sakura smiles. You wonder how much of this is true and how much of it is a story she’s telling herself to make the fact that some guy owns her more acceptable. “I know your client didn’t have a chance to ask you first, but he knew a promotion to escort wasn’t what you wanted, didn’t he? Had you talked about it before?”

“I couldn’t have. I didn’t know what Mitsuko was planning,” you say. You think back on the conversation and, like you do every time you think about it, feel unsteady on your feet. “I wasn’t going to say anything. He knew something was wrong from my voice.”

You’ve wondered since then if you wanted Tenko to guess that something was wrong. If you were hoping he’d save you. You’re still not sure what the answer is. Right now, though, it doesn’t matter. Mitsuko’s not going to turn you into an escort — instead, she’s selling you to Tenko so you can provide the girlfriend experience. Sakura nods knowingly. “So he does know you,” she says. You don’t like that idea very much. “And you must have some idea of what he’ll expect from you in a more formal arrangement.”

You don’t have any idea at all. As far as you can tell, Tenko locked you down to avoid losing the access he already has. If he’s after more, he hasn’t spoken about it on the phone with you — but even as you’re speaking with Sakura about the contract, Tenko’s on a video call with Mitsuko, signing the stupid thing. Who knows what kind of ideas he could come away with? “It’s not so scary,” Sakura says again. You believe her even less than you did the first time. “You already know how to make your client feel good, or he wouldn’t have done this.”

You make Tenko feel less alone. Beyond that, you’re not sure how you make him feel, other than weird. Without seeing his face or reading his body language, you’ve had to rely entirely on changes in his tone and syntax to tell you what’s going on in his head, and you can tell that he’s thrown for a loop multiple times during every call. He gets quiet when he’s confused, snappish when he’s unsure, and you’re never sure what you said or did to cause it. Talking to you matters to him, though. Enough that he’s willing to drop a ridiculous amount of money to make sure he’s the only one who gets to.

You wonder, like you do every so often, where Tenko’s getting the money. It doesn’t really matter as long as he can pay — and Mizuho said he could. That’s not all Mizuho said about him, though. You ask Sakura. “Mizuho said he’s got backup. What does that mean? Just that he’s rich?”

Sakura shakes her head. “All the clients are wealthy,” she says. “She means he’s got someone powerful in his corner. Someone Mitsuko would think twice about crossing. I’m guessing that’s part of why she said yes.”

Someone powerful. What does that mean? Money is power — but like Sakura said, every Shiroiwa client is rich. Tenko’s supporter could be powerful in the sense of a quirk, maybe, and your mind jumps to any one of a number of heroes. But Tenko hates heroes. He hates heroes, he has someone powerful enough to spook Mitsuko backing him up, and his boss wants him to fundamentally alter society. A picture comes together in your head, one you don’t like. You thought Tenko was a lonely, socially awkward anarchist with money to burn, and maybe he is. There’s also a nonzero chance that he’s a villain.

Villain or not, Mitsuko’s just had him sign a contract that says he basically owns you. You read over it sitting in the basically-empty room where you’ll hold video sessions if Tenko wants them. It’s detailed, like Sakura said it would be. You’re obligated to contact Tenko at least once per day. Sakura’s contract obligates her to be available twenty-four seven, but Sakura’s a full-time escort and you’re still hoping to get an aboveboard job one day. The daily contact is mandated to be at least by text, but the expectation is that you’ll call him outside of your regular work hours at least once per week — on a phone that, per contract, Tenko will pay for. Video calls and in-person dates are optional. Anything sexual is one hundred percent off-limits until Tenko’s twentieth birthday so you don’t get arrested. The contract mandates that you put together a wish list in case Tenko wants to send you gifts. It also mandates that Tenko give at least two weeks’ notice before terminating the contract, lest a truly ridiculous severance payment be yanked out of his account.

A few of the high-tiers stop by for a look at it, and all of them are impressed. “The boss was looking out for you,” Mayumi remarks. “This is a lot of good stuff for somebody who doesn’t have to put out.”

“Is that how you feel about it?” Hirono asks. “Having to put out? I think it’s fun.”

“Of course you do. Clients get off from kissing your toes. I’m the one who has to threaten to suck a guy’s balls off with a vacuum cleaner if he doesn’t eat me out right.”

“Okay, but you’re getting eaten out. I’m just getting my toes kissed.” Hirono glances at you. “I know Player One’s not legal yet, but you two spend a lot of time on the phone. What kind of stuff is he into?”

“That’s not really what we talk about,” you say. “I don’t know.”

You don’t know for sure, but you have some ideas, courtesy of Tenko’s responses to all the weird stuff you find in the mailroom. Lingerie is a yes, costumes are a no. Role-play, or at least the serious kind of role-play, is also a no. He doesn’t seem interested in heavy-duty kink, or you’d have heard about it the time somebody sent a full complement of high-end BDSM gear to one of the club girls. The idea of toys seems to interest him, but you can’t tell if that’s a sexual interest or just a basic curiosity. The workers call sex toys for men lube tubes. Sex toys for women are a lot more interesting.

In fact, now that you think about it, the only thing you found that really caught Tenko’s attention was a book of erotic short stories a client sent to one of the phone sex operators, hoping she’d read it over the phone the next time he called in. He asked way too many questions about it — where it came from, why someone would send that, what the stories were about, whether they were any good — until you finally snapped and told him to stop trying to trick you into reading them yourself. You couldn’t figure out why a guy like Tenko, who has an internet connection and a whole online database of free porn, would be interested in erotica read aloud. You still can’t, except —

Except he can’t see you. All he has to go on is your voice. The two of you talk about sex not infrequently — you work for an escort service, it always comes up — but it’s always joking or clinical, never actually hot. You wouldn’t know where to start and neither would he. Maybe he wanted to you to read the stories so you’d have a script to go off of. Or maybe he just wanted to hear you talk about sex like you meant it.

“I knew there was something,” Hirono crows. “Look, she’s blushing —”

“You’re going to be fine,” Mayumi tells you. She pats your shoulder. “This guy likes you so much that he locked it down sight unseen — and between you and me, I think he’s going to be pretty happy with the sight once he sees it.”

You don’t think so. You don’t look like anything special, and it doesn’t take much to tip you from ordinary to gross. Third-day hair and forgetting to wash your face will usually do it. You can cross that bridge when you come to it, though. Unless Tenko wants to video call, you’re perfectly fine to keep answering the phone in sweatpants.

Your brand-new work cellphone arrives towards the end of your shift, already set up. The contact list contains one phone number, which must be Tenko’s, and he’s also downloaded a ton of mobile games. You set your passcode, power off the phone and turn it on again, and then send your first text to the single number in your contact list. Hi. It’s me.

The phone starts ringing, painfully loud, and you answer it and hold it up to your ear, already missing your headset. “It got there,” Tenko says. You nod until you remember that he can’t see you. “What do you think?”

“It’s really nice,” you say. Nicer than your personal phone, for sure. “Thanks for not making it pink.”

Tenko snorts. “I’ll send you a case for it as soon as you tell me what color’s your favorite.”

Your instinct is to recoil, to duck the personal question — but as of a few hours ago, your time belongs to Tenko, and you’re supposed to provide the girlfriend experience. Guys probably want to know their girlfriend’s favorite color. You swallow hard and tell him, wondering why you feel like you’re selling your soul, then follow up: “You don’t have to get me a case.”

“Yeah, I do. I hear you drop stuff all the time in the mailroom,” Tenko says. “Your audio sounds weird. Do you have headphones?”

“I’ll go find a headset,” you say.

“I’ll be right back.”

You hang up, go to the reception desk, and beg, steal, and borrow your way into the headset you usually use. “You have a contract now,” Mizuho grouches at you. “Make Player One buy it for you.”

You’ll ask Tenko to buy you stuff when hell freezes over. You take a few seconds, connect your headphones via Bluetooth, and call Tenko back. He picks up on the first ring. “Don’t hang up on me again.”

“Sorry,” you say. “I just had to go look for one.”

“You could have taken the phone with you,” Tenko says. He’s getting clingy. Or maybe not: “I don’t hang up on you. Except that one time.”

“Maybe we should talk about that,” you say. “I read the contract. It’s really specific. But it doesn’t tell me what you want from me.”

“Isn’t it obvious?”

That’s not the answer you were hoping for. “If it was obvious, I wouldn’t ask,” you say. “This is all really weird. I’m grateful. Really. I would rather talk to you than any of the others.”

“Because we’re friends.”

Every so often, Tenko will ask you a question that feels like it has a wrong answer. This is one of them. “Yes.”

“I don’t have a lot of friends,” Tenko says. “More than I had before, but you were first. I’m not losing you to some string of assholes who are too pathetic to get a real date.”

It’s quiet for a second. “And you sounded like you were going to cry or something when you told me. I’d be the asshole if I let my friend cry.”

Your throat closes up. “I’m glad you have more friends now,” you say, swallowing hard. What is wrong with you? “You deserve that. You deserve people who care about you.”

“What about you?” Tenko asks. “Who do you have that you care about?”

“We’re going straight for personal questions, huh?” You should have guessed that’s what would happen. It’s not like you can have phone sex or something. Or that either of you would even know where to start with that. “Uh, so — there’s my D&D group, right? I’ve told you some about them. I met one of them through work and the other ones I know from high school. I haven’t had time to make friends in my EMT course yet. I’d like to, but they like to go out after class, I always have to work.”

“Not anymore,” Tenko says. “Go out if you want to.”

Sakura said to provide the girlfriend experience, but no boyfriend you’ve ever had or heard of has suggested that you go out with people, particularly not when you haven’t specified the gender composition of the group. “Don’t you want to know if there are going to be guys there?”

“No,” Tenko says. You picture him shrugging. You’ve been trying harder to picture him lately, and it’s not going well. His voice tells you nothing. “I’m not your dad or something. Do you have parents? Where are they?”

“Um — I’m an only child. My mom and I talk. Sometimes.” You can’t remember the last time you actually called her. Usually it’s just a text or two, here and there. “And then my dad, he — um, he’s the reason I’m here. He had — has — a gambling problem. He spent all our family’s money trying to pay back debts, so I had to get a job. So I guess you can thank him for the fact that we met.”

It’s quiet for a little bit. “Do you believe in fate?”

“Huh?” You try to switch gears with minimal success. “Why?”

“Or destiny, I guess. Sensei does. That’s why he chose me,” Tenko says. Who’s Sensei? You’ve heard him refer to a boss before, but never a teacher. “I want to say I wish your shitty dad hadn’t made it so you had to get this job, but if you didn’t get this job, I wouldn’t have met you.”

Oh. It strikes you as weirdly sweet. Maybe there’s something wrong with you. “Let’s say destiny’s a thing,” you say. “Even if I didn’t have this shitty job, we’d have met sometime anyway.”

“Then I wish your shitty dad hadn’t made it so you had to work for an escort service,” Tenko says, and you laugh. “I mean it. If we’d have met some other way.”

“We would have,” you say. “So, um — are you busy right now? What are you doing?”

“Not busy. I’m just in my room,” Tenko says. “Playing a few games.”

“Did I interrupt?”

“No,” Tenko says at once. “I was just — uh — hanging out. Don’t worry about that stuff.”

“About interrupting your games?”

“About interrupting anything,” Tenko says. “I want to talk to you.”

Right. He wants to talk to you. He’s paying a lot of money to make sure he can talk to you. “I thought we could play games together sometimes,” he says. “Even if you have to study, we can be on the phone. I won’t bother you. I want to hang out.”

“Just on the phone?” you ask.

“For now,” Tenko says. You’re weirdly disappointed. “What?”

“Huh?”

“You went quiet. Do you want to hang out — not on the phone?”

“I mean, I thought you did,” you say awkwardly. “I sort of thought –”

You don’t know what you thought. The girlfriend experience, like Sakura said, except that doesn’t seem like it’s on Tenko’s mind. He has other friends now, but he still wants to talk to you. Does he even know what you look like? Are you just supposed to treat him the way you’d treat your other friends? Your relationship with Tenko, whatever it is, used to be simple. Now it’s complicated, just like everything else in your life, and not for the first time, you find yourself wishing you could go back to the way things were before.

“We’ll meet up,” Tenko says into the silence. “Not yet. Right now I want to know what you want for your birthday.”

“You don’t have to get me anything,” you say at once. “Just sing me the birthday song and we’ll be good to go.”

“Me singing you the birthday song would ruin your birthday,” Tenko says. “If you had a wish list, I’d get you something from that, but since you don’t, you can just tell me. Pick something.”

“Um –” You cast about for something inexpensive, something you still couldn’t justify buying for yourself. “New dice.”

“Dice?”

“For my D&D game. Everybody has their own set, and the people in my group get ones that match their character somehow. I can only afford the plain ones.” Your face is heating up with embarrassment. “If you wanted to get me something I’d definitely use, new dice would be great.”

“I can do that,” Tenko says. He sounds pleased. “What does your character look like?”

Somebody in your group likes to draw, so you have a picture – but not on this phone. You spend an awkward few minutes texting yourself from the new phone so your personal phone has the number, then texting the photo from your personal phone to the new one. Trying to juggle multiple phones is going to be a pain. If you’re not careful, you’re going to wind up calling and texting Tenko from your personal phone.

You finally get the photo sent. Tenko must have his sound on, because you can hear the arrival noise from the message through your headphones. “This is cool,” Tenko says. He sounds surprised. “I thought it was going to be like – a nun, or something.”

“That’s what I had been thinking, but the person who drew it went the other way with it,” you say. “I like it better this way.”

“Me too. I needed something for your contact photo, anyway.”

So that answers one of your questions. Tenko doesn’t know what you look like. If he’s going to imagine you as somebody, you don’t mind if it’s your D&D character. “Then I need a contact photo for you,” you say. “That’s something else you can get me for my birthday.”

Tenko makes a skeptical noise into the phone. “You don’t want a photo of me.”

“Either you can send me a picture or sing me the birthday song,” you say. “Up to you.”

He must really not like singing. A second later, you get the photo.

You can’t see his face. Or anything in his background. He’s taken the photo from about a forearm’s length away when he’s mostly facedown in his pillow, and all you can see is messy blue-grey hair and the corner of one eye. You can’t tell what color his eye is. Just that he’s looking at the camera.

thanks, you text back, even though the two of you are still on the phone. i like your hair

“Don’t lie,” Tenko says out loud. But a heart-react shows up next to your message, and your stomach does an odd twist. “Use that one for now. You can take a better one when we meet up.”

It’s weird. The thought that he didn’t want to meet in person made you uneasy, but the thought that he does expect to meet up makes you nervous, too. But he said not yet, so you tell yourself not to worry about it for now. You’ll cross that bridge when you get to it. You try not to think about how many bridges you’ve crossed with this job that you never expected to get to in the first place.

“When we met up,” you say. You save the photo and set your phone aside. “Sounds good.”

<- Chapter 4

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[cheeseonatower]

I want to ask, what do you think Makimas superhero costume woukd be like in an MHA au? Where she's like a superheroine but probably from the HSPC or something

I don’t think she would be a hero at all tbh🤔 I feel like she would want to have control from the shadows, but she would def be with the HSPC! However this does make me think about what she would look like as a hero🤔🤔

[cheeseonatower]

“Long ass hair with the tightest jeans, My Chemical Romance on his tee”

[cheeseonatower]

Nobody wants to go to the beach with me😞

[scary-grace]

if I had a nickel for every time I blew my lunch break writing femura porn I’d have two nickels. which isn’t a lot but it’s weird that it’s happened twice. Explicit, reader POV, reader and Tomura are roommates, reader and Tomura are broke, reader is kind of a perv, toys are mentioned and used.

beg, steal, borrow

When you decided to become a hero, you weren’t expecting fame and fortune, at least not right away. Maybe never, and you were okay with that. The way you do the job doesn’t make headlines or earn sponsorships, but you feel like you’re doing something that matters, and that’s what counts. Do you wish it paid better? Sure. Especially when one of your five roommates — the one you share a bathroom with, in particular — is having a bad day.

You’re on the couch in the living room, headphones in, but the crash and heavy thud of Tomura throwing something against the wall is loud enough to startle you out of whatever midafternoon scrolling stupor you were in. So is her voice, which cracks with frustration. “Fuck! Fucking piece of shit —”

Something else hits the wall, a little quieter this time. A moment later, the door opens, and Tomura storms out of the room, face red and jaw clenched with frustration.

You avert your eyes in a hurry, but not enough of one. You get a good look as she heads for the kitchen. Tomura’s hair is messy, like she hasn’t brushed it since the last time she showered. She’s barefoot, wearing ratty pajama pants and an old tank-top that’s mostly holes, and she’s not wearing a bra. It’s Tomura’s typical day-off uniform, and honestly, it’s the same as yours and all your roommates’. The difference is that on Tomura, it looks unbelievably hot.

You knew moving in with Tomura was going to be a bad idea way before you actually did it. The two of you weren’t close in school, but your agencies are right next to each other, and in spite of her frankly star-spangled pedigree, she ended up going into the same corner of the field as you — which means she’s functionally broke, and needs somewhere to live where the rent doesn’t swallow a paycheck and a half even before utilities get added in. Adding her to the lease was a no-brainer, even though she doesn’t always get along with the other roommates. On the outside, they’d probably never talk to each other. Inside, though, the desire for affordable rent trumps everything else.

It does for you, too, but that doesn’t mean that living with Tomura isn’t a bad idea. Living with anybody you’re into is a bad idea, but Tomura especially, because the two of you share a bathroom and are constantly bumping into each other on the way in and out of the shower. You’ve seen a lot more of her than you would if the two of you were just friends, and it makes you feel like a perv. You must be a perv. Otherwise you’d have owned up that you’re into her and let her decide if she wants to move out.

The problem is, you’re also selfish. You like living with her, because you like her, and with how stupid your schedules both are, there’s no way you’d get to hang out as much as you do if you aren’t sharing an apartment.

You hear the freezer open, but it doesn’t shut. You unplug your headphones and set them aside. “Are you okay, Tomura?”

“I’m fine,” Tomura says. “Fuck!”

“You don’t sound fine.” You get up and make your way into the kitchen, only to be confronted with the sight of Tomura sticking her head in the freezer. “Uh — what happened?”

“My fucking vibrator died.”

You don’t know what you were expecting her to say, except that it wasn’t that. “I thought it just ran out of battery,” Tomura continues, “but the fucking thing wouldn’t even charge. It’s dead. So I —”

She mimics throwing something. You classify the first thud as the vibrator, and the smaller one as the charging cable. “That sucks.”

“No shit.” Tomura still has her head in the freezer. The rush of cold air is making her nipples stiffen, visible through the thin tank top. You’re officially in hell. “This is what I’m stuck with. Sue me for wanting a decent afternoon without the entire apartment hearing it.”

“Um, I’m here,” you remind her. Maybe she didn’t realize you were out there.

“That’s different,” Tomura says. She seems like she’s trying to close the freezer door on her head. “This isn’t working. How am I supposed to wind down?”

“You could always, like — finish,” you say awkwardly. Your face feels like it’s going to melt off your head. “With your fingers. If you’re close.”

“I can’t finish.” Tomura’s voice is quiet, frustrated. “Not without the stupid toys.”

Sometimes you can, sometimes you can’t. You try not to get too in your head about it when you’re alone. You try not to get too in your head about most things, and that’s probably why you say what you say next: “Do you want to borrow mine?”

“Huh?” Tomura tries to straighten up and hits her head on the roof of the fridge. She swears and stumbles back. “You’re going to loan me your vibrator?”

The way she says it, it’s like you’ve offered to loan her a used tampon. “Is that weird or something? They’re washable.”

“Not the ones I buy,” Tomura mumbles. She tilts her head, studying you. “I didn’t think you were the type to buy fancy sex toys.”

“The fancy ones don’t break as often,” you say. “And they’re washable.”

It’s quiet for a second. “Are you serious or messing with me?” Tomura asks. “You’d let me borrow it?”

“Yeah, of course,” you say. Of course? You’re a dumbass. “I mean, we’re friends, right? I’m pretty sure I’ve stolen your clothes on accident. At least this time it’s consensual.”

You should stop talking immediately. You should never have taken your headphones out in the first place. “I don’t care if you borrow my stuff,” Tomura says. “If you’re really offering it, I’ll take it.”

“I’m really offering.” You leave the kitchen and go back to your room. “Just a second.”

You open your box of toys, which is just the shoebox your hero costume boots came in, and come up with the lipstick vibrator that’s probably your favorite. You washed it after the last time you used it, but you should probably wash it again to be safe. When you get back from doing that, Tomura’s still in the kitchen. Her head’s back inside the freezer, and you’re half expecting her to tell you to forget about it, and she’s calmed down enough on her own that she doesn’t need to borrow her roommate’s vibrator.

Nope. She pulls her head out of the freezer as you come closer, and her eyes linger briefly on your face before going to the vibrator in your hand. “I don’t know what kind you had before,” you say, “but this one has like six different patterns. And it’s quiet. If you care about that.”

“Thanks,” Tomura says. She reaches out for it, and you hand it over, the tips of three of her fingers brushing over your knuckles. “Where’s the power button?”

“Here,” you point out. “It’s charged. I usually recharge them after I use them.”

“How often are you using them?” Tomura asks. “Our rooms are right next to each other. I never hear anything.”

“I wasn’t joking when I said that one’s quiet.”

“I’m talking about you.”

“Oh.” Your voice comes out in a strangled squeak that you try to cover with a cough. Or a sneeze. “I guess I’m quiet too.”

“Lucky. You can get away with it when people are home. I can’t.”

“I’m home,” you remind her. “Do you want me to leave? I’m fine with that.”

“That’s different,” Tomura says. She nudges past you, out of the kitchen. “Put your headphones in if you don’t want to hear it.”

You put your headphones in, as instructed. You don’t turn on any music. You go back to sitting on the couch, pretending to scroll, and fighting the urge to listen in. Tomura’s probably already switched on the vibrator, but it’ll be too quiet for you to hear, and you doubt she’s really so loud that —

Tomura moans, soft but unmistakable, and your mind goes mostly blank. You pull one earbud out with a hand that shakes, feeling disgusting, feeling perverted. Not feeling regretful, because Tomura moans again, and it’s all too easy to imagine what she’s doing. Is she on top of her covers or under the sheets? Does she have her hands down her pants or are her legs spread, leaving her exposed? You know which image you like best. You can’t even think about it without turning yourself on.

“Fuck,” Tomura mumbles from behind the door, her voice rough and breathless. “Fuck, that’s — ah —”

Has she switched to a higher setting? Changed the way she’s holding it? You picture her legs shaking as she presses the vibrator against her clit and slide your own hand down the front of your pajama pants. You’re wet, too, just from listening to her. You knew you would be. Is that why you offered her the vibrator? Because you knew you’d get to hear how she uses it?

You’re sick. There’s something wrong with you. But you don’t put your earbud back in. And you don’t stop.

Tomura’s not stopping, either. She’s moaning louder than before, and even though you can’t hear the vibrator, you can hear the way her bedsprings creak. She must have a hard time holding still. If you were going to eat her out, you’d have to hold her hips down. Or you could get her to sit on your face — or eat her out from behind — anything so that she’d hold still long enough for you to make her come. At least once. Maybe five times. Maybe not until she told you it was enough, and maybe you’d stay a little longer, just to feel her squirm and whine on your tongue.

Tomura’s moans split off in a harsh gasp, a silence that seems to stretch forever. You pull your fingers off your clit with an effort, forcing yourself to wait, and wait — and then Tomura’s half-sobbing through what sounds like a massive orgasm. It might be that she’s always this loud, but some part of you doubts it. Maybe because you’re not loud at all, and you’re covering your mouth with one hand as you come to the sound of your roommate using your vibrator to get off. You know you’re doing something wrong. You know you should have just left. But she sounds so good —

And she knew you were there. This whole time, she’s known you were there. That’s different. Why is it different? Because you two are closer than the others? Because she knows you’re not weird about stuff like that? Because she wanted you to hear?

It’s not the last one. You know it’s not, but that doesn’t stop you. The bedsprings creak as Tomura flops down, exhausted, and you finger yourself to a second, furtive climax, listening to the harsh sounds of her breathing. You have to cover your mouth for that one, too. Then you jam your earbud back in, lie back on the couch, and fake being asleep like your life depends on it.

You hear Tomura open the door to her room. A moment later, one of her hands, shaking slightly, pulls your earbuds out one at a time. “Wake up,” she says, and you open your eyes. “You need to tell me where you found that thing. I’m not giving it back until I have one of my own.”

“I’ll send you the link,” you say helplessly. Tomura’s face is flushed, her hair even messier than before. “You’re not giving it back?”

“You can borrow it,” Tomura says with a shrug. “Any time you need it, just ask.”

You have other vibrators. A few of them. You don’t need to ask for your vibrator back. You can’t, since that would mean admitting it to Tomura every time you get horny. You decide never to ask, and just use the other ones until Tomura orders one of her own — and then you open your mouth. “What if I need it now?”

Tomura’s crimson eyes are still dilated. She’s still breathing hard. But you see a lopsided smile pull at one corner of her mouth, and your stomach flips. “I’m not done yet. It’ll be a week before everyone else is out at the same time again,” she says. Her smile takes on a wicked tilt. “I guess we’ll have to share.”

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