Emma•Libra• ‘02• Bi• I like to draw Tomura Shigaraki, cute girls and Tomura Shigaraki as a cute girl• I have so so many regrets • Shigaraki simp and Carthethyia main •
[looking at people younger than me] you have your whole life ahead of you [looking at people older than me] you have your whole life ahead of you [looking at myself] its over
SWIM AT YOUR OWN RISK (pt 2) - a shigaraki x f!reader fic
You're a hero who specializes in water rescue, and you've been captured by the League of Villains. It only gets worse when you find out why.
my first ever MerMay thing! Canon-ish, hero!reader, reader has a transformation quirk, mild mortal peril, etc. there is a part 1. Dividers by @saradika-graphics.
part 2
You’re back to normal by the time Shigaraki reappears in a pair of swim trunks that look like they’re about to fall off him at any second. He looks you up and down, squinting in the sunlight. “What happened to your tail?”
“I only transform if I’m underwater long enough,” you say. “Once I’m out of the water long enough –”
“You go back to having legs.” Shigaraki doesn’t look disappointed, exactly. What he looks is pale, and way too thin, and like he’s going to burst into flames in direct sunlight. “I put on the stupid swimsuit. Now what?”
“Did you put on sunscreen?” you ask, and Shigaraki grimaces. “You should. Or you’re going to burn.”
“I don’t need –” Shigaraki breaks off abruptly when Dabi pelts him in the chest with a bottle of sunscreen. “What the fuck?”
“If you burn, you’re gonna bitch about it. I don’t want to hear it and neither does anyone else.” Dabi’s already wandering off down the beach. “Make the mermaid put it on you.”
Shigaraki’s face flushes. He uncaps the sunscreen, pours some of it into the palm of his hand, and shakes it off in a hurry, splattering your rashguard. “That’s disgusting,” he snaps. “I’m not putting it all over me.”
“And I wouldn’t be doing my job if I let you get heatstroke,” you say. “Either put it on or go sit in the shade.”
“That’s fucking boring,” Shigaraki says. “I hate that stuff. It makes me itch.”
“Everything makes you itch, Tomura-kun,” Toga says. She’s back to building her sandcastle, this time with help from Compress. “Just wear it. I picked a nice kind. It’s not bad for the fish and it smells like coconut.”
“I don’t want to smell like coconut!” Shigaraki’s starting to remind you of a kid throwing a temper tantrum. “I looked for one of those. There wasn’t one.”
He’s pointing at you, and your rashguard. It’s part of your hero uniform, something you wear to make yourself easy to pick out among the crowds on busy beaches, but it’s also UV-resistant, with long sleeves and a high neck. You’ve been in the sun long enough for it to dry out a little bit, and you’d like to get to the swim lesson sooner or later. And with how skinny he is, how narrow his shoulders are – “Here. Take mine.”
“Don’t take your clothes off. What’s wrong with you?”
“I have a suit on underneath,” you say, exasperated. It’s not a cute swimsuit, either – just a standard one-piece training suit in black, leftover from your school days. You peel off your rashguard and hand it over to Shigaraki. “Wear that. Then you’ll only need to put sunscreen on your face.”
Shigaraki’s expression clears, but only slightly. “I’m still not touching that shit.”
“I’ll do it, then.” At this point you’re out of patience for everything, including the shocked expression on Shigaraki’s face. “Put that on.”
Shigaraki struggles into your rashguard, and you beckon him closer. He comes closer without protesting, and he holds still, although he startles when you grab his chin to hold his face steady. You’re not unused to putting sunscreen on people, but usually those people aren’t villains who kidnapped you. Although you guess Shigaraki’s not the one who kidnapped you. Out of all the villains on this beach, he’s the one who’s least responsible for what’s happening to you.
Except for the part where he tried to drown himself to keep you from leaving. That part is probably going to piss you off forever, just like everything else Shigaraki’s doing. “Why are you putting so much on?”
“It’s not effective if you don’t use enough. Or if you don’t rub it in.” You do everything in your power to ignore the way Shigaraki’s eyelids flutter shut as you rub the sunscreen in at his temple, then across his forehead. “Most people don’t do it right. I spend half my time on shift dealing with people who’ve burnt themselves and gotten heatstroke.”
“I bet that just burns you up. Having to deal with idiots who can’t read instructions on a bottle instead of saving people.”
“If I have to go out into open water and save someone, a lot of things have already gone wrong,” you say. You’ve been on the job since you were fifteen, and your stomach still clenches when you hear a siren go off, when you see someone bobbing out past the surf, their chin dipping below the surface. “I want to stop things before they go wrong. Sometimes that means stopping people from getting heatstroke so they don’t wander off into the water when they’re not thinking straight. It’s all part of the job.”
“That’s stupid,” Shigaraki says, although you think there’s less scorn in his voice than before. Maybe you’re only thinking that so you won’t want to rub sunscreen in his eyes on purpose. “What do you do off the job, anyway? Go drinking with your friends and brag about how many people you saved? I bet it’s like a competition and you all keep track.”
“I don’t really know what other people do,” you say. “The people I saved aren’t the ones I remember. All done. Fifteen more minutes and we can start the lesson.”
You cap the sunscreen and set it aside, and Shigaraki opens his eyes. “Hold up. You can’t just drop something that cryptic and keep rolling. You don’t remember the people you save? What’s that supposed to mean?”
You decide you don’t owe him an answer. You turn your gaze out to sea, picking out the distant shapes of islands on the horizon. If it’s a clear day and you can see them, you’re within swimming distance. That’s where you’ll go, once you get this over with. You’ll get there faster if you dive deep and let your quirk take over completely. You’re thinking about that, about how deep the channel between this island and the others might go, about how far away from the light you’ll be, when Shigaraki’s hand comes down on your shoulder and scares the hell out of you. “What are you doing?”
“You need sunscreen, too.” The palmprint Shigaraki left behind on your shoulder is wet. You can smell coconut. He put so much on that you can practically taste it when you open your mouth to insist you can do it on your own. Shigaraki cuts you off. “You helped me. So I’m helping you.”
You probably need sunscreen more than you want to admit, with the way your face is heating up. “I thought it was too gross to touch.”
“Only if I’m putting it on myself. This is – fine.” Shigaraki pats gingerly at your shoulder, index finger lifted. “Now tell me why you forget about everybody you save.”
“That’s not what I said. I just said I don’t –” You decide all at once not to get into semantics. “I’m a rescue hero. That’s not the same as –”
“Oh, so you’re not like other heroes?” Shigaraki is doing a lot of sneering for somebody who’s still trying to put sunscreen on you. “Keep telling yourself that.”
“It’s not the same,” you say. “How many rescue heroes do you see on the charts? Can you name any of the schools rescue heroes come from? We don’t go into it for money or fame. And we don’t go into it thinking it’s our job to save everyone.”
Shigaraki’s hand goes still on your shoulder, and the fact that his index finger is still up is the only thing that keeps you from bolting. “What is that supposed to mean?”
“It means what it sounds like. I’m one person. There are limits on what I can do. If I push past those limits and get myself killed, nobody else gets rescued. That’s why we work on teams when it comes to big disasters.” You’re blabbering, but you don’t know what else to do. “There’s only so much I can do. But somebody else might be able to do more. And someone else can do what that person can’t. If we all work together, maybe we can save everybody. But we can’t do it alone.”
Shigaraki’s quiet. His hands lift away from your skin, and you collect the bottle of sunscreen and get to work on yourself, still talking. “Heroes who don’t specialize in rescue act like they can do more. They’re okay making those promises. They’re not the ones who have to explain to someone’s family why the person they loved didn’t make it.”
“They make you do that?” Shigaraki’s voice sounds weird. “When somebody dies on your watch, you’re the one who tells their family?”
“That’s why I remember the people I lose. I see what happens to the people they leave behind.” You remember when you found out about that part of rescue work. How sick the idea made you feel, how you swore to yourself that you’d never lose anyone. How fast the world made you break that promise. “It never gets easier.”
It’s quiet for a while after that. You set the sunscreen aside and settle in to wait for it to set. You decide you’re not saying anything else. Opening your mouth right now seems like a great way to get Shigaraki to kill you. This is simple. Teach him to swim, then hit open water and don’t come up for air until you’re past the twenty-fathom line. You don’t need to try to convince him that you’re different than other heroes. It doesn’t matter what he thinks of you.
“Tell me about one,” Shigaraki says, and you glance at him. “One you lost.”
“Why do you want to know about that?”
“I’m seeing if you meant it. Tell me.” Shigaraki is studying you intently. “You admitted you can’t save everybody. Who didn’t you save?”
Of course he wants you to talk about the worst part of your job. “I’m not talking about that. It’s not funny and I don’t want to listen to you mock me.”
“I’ve never heard a hero say that before,” Shigaraki says. “That you can’t save everyone. Every other hero lies. I’m not going to mock you for telling the truth. So tell me the truth.”
Can you trust Shigaraki not to mock you? Probably not. Are you telling the truth? Yes. And this is why you remember, right? So that person’s memory exists somewhere other than their family, so their name finds a home in someone else’s voice every so often. You might not want to tell Shigaraki. But it’s also the right thing to do.
“So – her name was Naoko,” you start. “Hamada Naoko. She was fifteen. Only child, quiet, kind of kept to herself. She was scared of the water. I swam all three of her friends out, but she wouldn’t come with me. She had asthma and she couldn’t hold her breath. I found an oxygen tank and went back in, but the ship was inverting, and everything was falling – and I was too slow. She was dead when I got to her. I couldn’t even bring her body back.”
You were going to. You would have swum Naoko back to the surface, tried your best to resuscitate her, hoped and prayed that the water was cold enough to give her a chance. But the ship was all the way under by then. Under, upside down, plummeting into pitch-darkness. You could only hold your breath so long. Only survive a certain amount of pressure. Your supervisor forced you to let go of Naoko’s body, dragged you out of the ship faster than you could have swum with Naoko trailing you. And then you watched, sickened and horrified, as the ship’s hulk vanished into the deep.
Shigaraki’s still looking at you. Waiting for you to say more. “Her parents were so angry,” you say, hating the way your voice gets quiet, hating how it almost shakes. “I saved the other three in the cabin with her. Why couldn’t I have saved her? Why did I let her die? I should have swam faster. I should have brought an oxygen tank in with me from the start. I should have grabbed two of the students at a time. I could have done so many things differently, and she’d have come home.”
“Students,” Shigaraki repeats. “That ferry sinking four years ago. You were there?”
“How do you know about that?”
“I can read,” Shigaraki snaps, but it’s half-hearted compared to the venom he spoke to you with before. “You were there?”
“It was my first big rescue,” you say. “Or – not rescue, I guess. The airlifts off the deck made the big headlines – that was Hawks’s first operation, too – but there were a lot of us in the water, or under it. The way the ship was sinking, most people couldn’t make it to the deck, so we had to go get them.”
“But not all of them.”
“There was no way,” you say. You aren’t the only hero who lost someone that day. Almost everybody assigned to the water rescue did. “They briefed us on the ship’s layout on the way to the wreck site, and as soon as we saw it, we all knew – open ocean rescue isn’t like any other kind, you’re miles out, it’s just you and your team and the victims – and there were so many victims. I’m not like All Might. I can’t save a hundred people in ten minutes. It was my first one, and I wasn’t fast like I am now – if I’d trained as hard as I should have been –”
You don’t usually verbalize this thought process, and if you were going to, you picked the wrong audience. “I sound like I’m making excuses. There’s not an excuse. People have died because I couldn’t save them. More people in the future will probably die, because I won’t ever be strong enough or smart enough or fast enough to save everyone. You should find a better swim instructor.”
“Somebody else would lie,” Shigaraki says. “I don’t like liars. And I don’t like people who pretend they’ve never fucked up in their lives. That’s not you, so – I think I’ll stick with who I got. Has it been fifteen minutes?”
“Close enough.” You glance down the beach, looking for a good access point, and find a section of calmer water, protected from the surf by a rocky outcropping. “Over there. Let’s go.”
As soon as you’re back in the water, you’re fighting your quirk, but that’s something you’re used to. Shigaraki follows you willingly into chest-deep water. “Now what?”
“You’re going to learn to float,” you say. “This is probably the most important thing about swimming. Everything else is nice to know, but you have to be able to float in order to do all of that stuff.”
“It’s the top of the skill tree,” Shigaraki says. Whatever that means. You nod. “How do I do it?”
“Watch.” You tip backwards in the water, letting your feet leave the sand, and extend your arms to either side, stiffening your torso so you won’t buckle at the waist and sink. “The goal here is to keep your body as flat as possible in the water. Because if you bend at the waist or try to sit up –”
You demonstrate and promptly sink, then return to floating and get your feet back on the sand. “Try it.”
Usually adults who aren’t scared of the water are easy to teach, but Shigaraki doesn’t even want to tilt backwards. “I can’t do the thing you did. I’m going to fucking drown.”
“I’m right here. I’m not going to let you drown.” You resist the urge to drop into the voice you use when you’re teaching little kids. You have a feeling Shigaraki won’t like it. “Just try it. If anything goes wrong, I’ll help you, okay? I’m here.”
Shigaraki aims a flat, frustrated glance your way, and you cringe – but he tries it, tilting his head and shoulders back into the water, arms extended slightly at his sides. It’s not bad, but then he can’t get his legs up, and the weight of his lower half sinks him. You reach out to help before his head can go under, and Japan’s most feared supervillain grabs onto you like a kid who’s just remembered that the ocean has sharks in it. “What the fuck was that?”
“Like I said. Your body has to be parallel, or –”
“Explain like I’m one of your dumb students.”
You’re pretty sure Shigaraki doesn’t want to hear how you talk to five-year-olds. You try to think of something else, and an example comes to mind. “Okay, you know the Titanic? When it was afloat, it was in a straight line on the surface of the water. Then when it hit the iceberg and the flooding started, the bow section of the ship started getting heavier than the stern section. It sank, and it pulled the stern upright for a little bit –”
“And then it snapped,” Shigaraki says. “My legs aren’t that heavy.”
“It’s not just about that. Even if they’re lighter than the rest of you, they’re still acting like a counterweight, pulling you straight up and down. If you’re straight up and down, you’ll sink.”
“You’re not sinking,” Shigaraki points out.
“I’m treading water. That’s like – level three,” you say. “Like I said, floating’s most important. Try it again.”
“Why, so I can drink more water and look like a clown?”
“This time I’m going to help you,” you say. “Tilt back the way you did last time, and I’ll get your legs up. So then you’ll at least know it works.”
“Fine.” Shigaraki gives you a wary look and tips backwards again.
You hook your arm behind the backs of his knees and lift them slowly to the surface, hoping he’s remembered to keep his body rigid. “Straighten your legs out,” you instruct. “Don’t sit up. Just, like – starfish.”
Shigaraki keeps his arms all but glued to his sides. “This is hard.”
“You just have to get used to it,” you say. He might be floating, but you need him to loosen up a bit. “Now that you’re on the surface, you can relax if you want to. I’m not going to let you sink.”
To Shigaraki, relaxing seems to mean sitting up. He’s not comfortable in the water at all. “Let’s try this,” you say. “I’ll support you – like this, with my hands under your back – and this way you can just focus on trying to relax. Okay?”
“Fine,” Shigaraki mutters. Even though you warned him what you were going to do, he still flinches when you touch him. “So – what? I need to move my arms out?”
“Just a little bit out,” you try to compromise. “You’re safe with me.”
Shigaraki snorts. “You wouldn’t have to worry about remembering my name. Nobody would miss me if you’d let me drown.”
At first you think he’s joking, but when you look down in his face, you see that he’s serious. It’s your turn to laugh, even though you know it’s pissing him off. “Don’t laugh at me. Why are you laughing?”
“Are you telling me you didn’t see –” It occurs to you that he didn’t. “When Dabi pushed you off the cliff, your other friends were angry with him. They were worried about you. They kidnapped me for you because they wanted to come to the beach and have a good time – with you. They’d miss you. I’d remember you for them.”
His gaze drifts away from yours. Something about it makes you sad. “I’d remember you for you, too. But I won’t have to. Because I’m not going to let you drown.”
“Sure you won’t.” Shigaraki won’t look at you, but his arms begin to shifts away from his sides. Your hands are still under his back, and you feel him beginning to relax. “How am I doing?”
“Better,” you say. “I’m going to move my hands now, and –”
Shigaraki sits up and immediately sinks. You haven’t taught him how to get back to floating yet. His mouth and chin dip under before you can catch him again, but you pull him upright before his face can submerge fully, and he twists in your grip to hold onto you again. Face to face with him, you can see that he’s not panicking. Not only is he not panicking, he actually looks pleased with himself. “Just testing you,” he says. You grit your teeth. “You meant it.”
“I meant it,” you confirm – and then your annoyance breaks through. “I meant it when I jumped off a cliff after you, too.”
“You didn’t know me then.”
“What does that have to do with anything?”
Shigaraki doesn’t answer. His grip on you is tight, even with his index fingers lifted. “I can float now. What do I learn next?”
“How to get from being upright in the water to floating,” you say. Shigaraki nods. “You’re going to have to let go.”
He scowls at that, but lets go. This time, he’s quicker to get from standing to floating, quicker to move his arms out to the sides and relax in the water. You don’t need to support his back this time, but you do it anyway, just to be safe. He might be an adult, but he’s not any safer in the water than a kid who’s barely able to swim. You can’t make the mistake of assuming he knows more than he actually does.
From there, you move on to a basic side stroke, one that will let him make progress without having to submerge his face. Shigaraki is a quick study when he wants to be. He picks it up fast, fast enough that you almost wonder if he was faking how much trouble he was having with floating before. He can float and he can swim – a little bit – and that means your job here is almost done. “Time for your swim test,” you say, and Shigaraki looks up, alarmed. “We’re going to go out a little bit past the waves – I’ll be right there –”
“Teach me how to do that first.” Shigaraki points at you. The tide’s come up a bit, enough that you have to tread water to keep your head up. “I learned two other skills. I’m at level three.”
“Okay. Treading water,” you say. “Then we’ll do your swim test.”
Treading water is intuitive for you, and the steady advancement of your quirk makes it easy, but you have to break it down into individual motions for Shigaraki – and then you have to explain why they work. It’s starting to strain your patience. So is treading water in a small pool, face to face with Shigaraki, close enough that your feet and hands brush against each other as you keep yourselves afloat. You’ve had a lot more physical contact with Shigaraki than with your usual students or the usual people you rescue. In some ways, it’s a relief to have the distance. In others, it makes you uneasy.
“You’re doing really well,” you tell him, and he scoffs. Either his face is turning red, or it’s time for him to put on more sunscreen. “Seriously. And if you ever run into trouble in the water, you can alternate between this and floating until someone’s able to get to you.”
“Only if it’s warm. What if it’s cold?”
“If it’s cold?” You don’t like that question. “Try not to fall in if it’s cold. If you drown in cold enough water, your chances of resuscitation are – okay. But that depends on someone getting to you fast enough. Cold water slows a rescue down.”
“Even for you?”
“Usually,” you say. “If my quirk fully activates, no.”
“You had a tail,” Shigaraki says. “That’s not fully activated?”
“No,” you say awkwardly. “If I transform all the way, there’s other stuff that happens. When it’s all the way active, I can handle most water temperatures. And more pressure than I can right now.”
“Show me.”
“No.”
“Why not?” Shigaraki asks. “I bet it’s cool.”
“It’s not cool,” you say. He gives you a skeptical look. “We’re in saltwater right now. If I stay here long enough I’m going to turn into half a tuna, and that’s not – see, you’re laughing right now. It looks dumb.”
“The way you said it is dumb. It’s actually cool,” Shigaraki says. You shake your head, and his foot brushes against yours in a way that feels less accidental than the other times you’ve bumped into each other. “So if I fell in cold water and drowned, you could still save me?”
“Don’t fall in cold water,” you say. “And don’t drown. Resuscitation doesn’t work every time, and little kids are more likely to make it back than adults.”
“How come?”
“Their hearts are stronger,” you say. “Don’t drown.”
“I don’t want to drown. I didn’t want you to leave,” Shigaraki says. This time, it’s his hand that brushes against yours, and it feels even less accidental than before. “I still don’t.”
“Why?” you ask before you can decide if it’s a good idea. “You hate heroes. I’m just some hero your friends kidnapped to teach you to swim. You should want me gone. Or maybe dead.”
You wish you hadn’t said that. Shigaraki’s expression shuts off. “You’re a hero. Maybe you want me dead. I should get out of the water before you come to your senses and drown me.”
“That’s not what I said. Where are you even getting that from?” you protest. You’re not even sure what you’re protesting – the absurd idea that you’d drown someone on purpose, the fact that he’s taking it so personally when all you’re doing is repeating what he’s said about heroes to you and everybody else, the fact that he’s splashing awkwardly out of the water. “Shigaraki, wait. I – slow down –”
You can’t catch him. Your transformation snuck up on you, and you might not be half a tuna yet, but your legs are close enough to fused that you can’t stagger more than a few steps before falling into the sand. It sticks to your arms, your swimsuit, your face, your hands. You look stupid, and no matter where you try to go next, you’ll be dragging yourself. This is awful. You shouldn’t care about this at all. It shouldn’t matter to you that you’ve somehow hurt Shigaraki’s feelings. He’s a villain. He probably is going to kill you. So where does he get off getting so mad –”
“Help!”
It’s not Shigaraki’s voice, and at least you think it’s saying ‘help’ – while there’s some shape to the syllables, it’s barely more than a wordless cry of pain. That’s not a sound you hear very often in water rescues. There are only two things that cause it. One of them is injuries from propellor blades, and you haven’t heard an engine. The other is animal attacks. Bites, if sharks are involved. Stabs, if it’s a swordfish or something. Stings.
The person screams and keeps screaming, and someone else splashes in from the shallows. Toga, with telltale stripes across her thigh and stomach, eyes filled with tears. “There’s something out there,” she gasps, and you lurch into motion, dragging yourself across the sand towards the surf. “Spinner told me to swim back – he said he was right behind me –”
He’s not right behind her. He’s out there, and there’s a jellyfish out there with him. You drag yourself towards the surf, faster now, shouting out orders that you don’t have a clue if anyone’s going to follow. “Stay out of the water. All of you! Get back above the tide line. I’ll get him!”
“Hey! Are you crazy? If you think we’re just going to leave our friend –”
“Stay back,” you snarl at Twice, who flinches back, cowed. “I’ll get Spinner. If any of you so much as touch the water I’m going to –”
Drown you when I get back, is what you were going to say, but then a wave splashes up and over your head, and you let your quirk take over, like it’s been trying to do all day. After this much immersion time, it happens fast. By the time you’ve cleared the waves, you’re already fully transformed.
You were wondering why this beach was so empty, and now you know. You know where you are, too, not that it matters now – there’s only one island that’s closed to swimmers thanks to a jellyfish bloom. The breakers and currents have kept them clear of the shore before now, but the tide’s coming in, and now the surface is covered in them, so many that you can’t count them all. You’re amazed Toga made it out without a couple jellyfish attached to her. There’s no way you can swim Spinner out of there without both of you getting stung.
Without both of you getting stung even more, because Spinner’s stopped screaming, his mouth and chin dipping below the surface. You don’t know if it’s the pain or the paralysis getting to him, but either way, you don’t have much time. You can’t swim him out along the surface. The surface is where the jellyfish are. You’re going to have to swim down. Which means the League of Villains is going to watch you drag their friend under.
It doesn’t matter what they think. You know how to save him. There’s only one way. You brace yourself, dive deep, and come up directly beneath the bloom.
At first you try to dodge the tentacles, but there are too many. They brush against your shoulders, your hands, your sides, sending jolts of agonizing pain rippling along your skin. Your transformation gives you some resistance, but not enough for prolonged exposure. You swim upwards, flinching as a tentacle brushes over your face, over your right eye. Your vision goes dark on that side immediately, and you close the other to protect it. If you were just a person, you’d be doomed.
But you’re not. Your flank and dorsal fins can pick up movement in the water, and you know exactly where Spinner is without having to see. You reach up one-handed, grab Spinner’s ankle, and yank him down. Once he’s at your level, you get a better grip on him and dive deep.
He’s not fighting you. You wish he was fighting you, but he isn’t, and you can’t even assess him until you’re both clear of the swarm. You find a deep, cold current, submerge in it, then let it carry you back to shore, close to the headland again, away from the swarm. As soon as you can no longer sense them in the water, you swim for the surface again. You need to get some air on Spinner’s face. And you need to start transforming back. Nobody on that beach knows CPR, and you have a bad feeling that Spinner’s going to need it.
You’re right about that. Once he’s on the surface, you realize that his mouth is open, that he’s been swallowing water. And once you drag him onto the shore, you’re right about something else, too – the League is ready to kill you. “You fucking drowned him!” Dabi snarls at you, when you and Spinner are barely clear of the water. “What the fuck – Compress, Twice, grab her so she can’t get away –”
“Spinner? Hey, Spinner?” Toga pries Spinner away from you. “Guys, his eyes are open, but he’s not – Spinner? Say something –”
“Don’t just stand there,” Dabi explodes at someone – not Twice or Compress, who you’re struggling to fend off. “Are you stupid or something, Shigaraki? Fucking kill her!”
“If I kill her, he’s dead.” Shigaraki’s voice is shaky, flat. “None of us know how to save him. She does.”
“She just drowned him. You think she’s going to save –”
Twice lets go of you. A second later, Compress does the same, and he gives you a push towards Spinner, who Toga’s struggling to drag up the beach. “Save him. Now.”
The eye you were stung over isn’t opening. You do your basic assessment through one eye, with hands that are still webbed and clumsy. There isn’t much to assess. He’s not breathing. There’s probably water in his lungs. He needs CPR. You lever yourself upright, open the airway, and seal your mouth over Spinner’s for two rescue breaths. Then you straighten your arms, fold your hands on top of each other, and start chest compressions.
The feeling of someone’s ribs cracking beneath your hands never fails to make your skin crawl, and right now is no exception. You swallow down nausea and keep a steady rhythm, thirty compressions, then two more breaths, then back to compressions again. Spinner’s young. You got him out of the water as fast as you know how. You know how to do CPR. He’ll be fine, right? The League will kill you if he isn’t, but that’s not what’s making you sick. You feel this same sickness every time you attempt a resuscitation, every time you’re scared it won’t work. Every time you feel someone’s life slipping away beneath your hands.
“Hey, he blinked!” Twice grabs your shoulder, disrupting your compressions. “He’s blinking! Look!”
You look, and relief swamps you in an instant. Spinner’s blinking. His mouth opens, then closes, but his shoulders are heaving. “Roll him,” you snap, and Toga and Compress grab him, pulling while you push until Spinner’s on his side. Not a second too soon, either – one more heave of his shoulders, and seawater comes spilling out of his mouth. You speak to him over the sound of his gagging, over the League’s questions and demands. “You’re going to be okay. You had some water in your lungs, and it’s going to hurt to get it out, but you’re going to be okay.”
More coughing and gagging. “You’re doing great,” you tell him, lapsing into hero mode on autopilot. How many times have you been here, relief tightening your chest, trying to hide the way your hands shake? “Everything is going to be okay. My name is Carpathia. I’m a rescue hero and I’m here to help you.”
You’re supposed to be conducting a neurological exam, but you can’t wrap your head around things enough to speak clearly. You can only see out of one eye. The villains probably still want to kill you. You and Spinner are both covered in jellyfish stings, and Toga’s got her share. Spinner coughs a few more times, then speaks. “It hurts –”
“Your chest hurts because I broke your ribs doing CPR,” you say. “Everything else hurts because you were stung by jellyfish. A lot of jellyfish. We need to – um –”
“I know!” Twice announces loudly. “We pee on it! Everybody start drinking water! I don’t have enough pee for both of them!”
“No,” you say at once, but they aren’t listening. You actually see Dabi and Shigaraki looking around for water bottles. You raise your voice. “You don’t pee on jellyfish stings! That’s a myth.”
“Then what do you do?” Toga demands. Her eyes are teary, and you remember that she got stung, too. “It hurts –”
“Do you have tentacles on you?” you ask. Toga looks puzzled. “Somebody check. Everybody check. Spinner first –”
He has one on his wrist, one around his neck, and another wrapped around his ankle. You’re about to ask if anyone has tweezers, but before you can, Shigaraki reaches in and grabs the tentacle with all five fingers. “Don’t,” you protest, but Shigaraki holds on until the tentacle’s disintegrated, then grabs the next one, swearing under his breath the entire time. “Don’t get stung –”
“You’ve got some on you, too,” Compress points out. You glance down at yourself and get lightheaded. Some? They’re everywhere. “Shigaraki, here –”
“Don’t –” You flinch away from Shigaraki, but Toga and Twice grab you to hold you still, and rather than thrash to get away, you try to recall the next steps for treatment. “We need hot water. Not scalding hot, but as hot as we can manage –”
“You should have led with that,” Dabi snaps at you. “Compress – tell me you’ve got a bucket somewhere in there –”
You lose track of whatever’s happening there in your efforts to stop Shigaraki from getting himself stung. “I already got stung. Stop it,” you protest, but he keeps at it, grimacing and swearing. “Hey! Stop. I can do it myself.”
“I can do it! I found the first-aid kit!” Toga shoos Shigaraki away, then goes after you with a pair of tweezers. “You got stung so many times. Even more than Spinner. How could you still swim?”
“My quirk,” you say. “Are there heat packs in that first-aid kit? We can use those, too.”
Twice goes digging through the first-aid kit, looking for them, while Toga peels off tentacles and chucks them away into the sand. “Don’t lie,” Shigaraki says, and you glance at him. He’s scowling, clenching and unclenching his fingers. “Your quirk turns you into a mermaid. It doesn’t make you immune to jellyfish stings.”
“No, but those were Portuguese man o’ war. Their stings really hurt, and they can be paralyzing if you get enough of them, but when I’m transformed, I’m – half a tuna.” You want him to laugh, but his expression doesn’t change. What part of it you can see doesn’t change, at least. “Tuna are way too big for them. I’m fine.”
Shigaraki is still glaring at you, and you can’t work it out. You didn’t ask him to use his quirk to get rid of the jellyfish tentacles. You told him not to. It’s not your fault, so why is he looking at you like that? “Tomura-kun,” Toga says, tugging on his shirt, “go help Spinner. He has lots of stings. You can hold the heat pack on them for him and that way your hands will get warm too.”
Shigaraki glares at you for a few seconds more, then makes his way over to Spinner, leaving you with Toga. She smiles at you, and when you smile back, her smile broadens. “I like you,” she says. “Tomura likes you too.”
You decide you’re not going to think about it. It’s not hard. You still have Spinner to keep an eye on, and your stings really hurt.
Your transformation is slow to fade. When you force it, it always takes longer to go back than usual, and you wait to treat your stings until after you’ve got human legs again. In your human form, the stings look even worse, and your eye still won’t open. On an ordinary beach, an ordinary day, you’d already at the hospital. Somebody else would have stepped in to cover for you, and you’d have doctors looking at your eye, taking care of you, telling you it’ll be all right. But it’s not going to be okay. You’re still kidnapped by villains. They still might kill you. They –
Something comes down over your eye and you startle. “It’s me,” Shigaraki says. “Spinner said he could hold his own heat packs.”
You think about pointing out that you can hold your own heat pack, too. You stay quiet, and Shigaraki adjusts it so that it’s covering the sting completely. You close your other eye, so you won’t have to look at him, and when he speaks, his voice is softer than before. “Carpathia, huh?”
“Yes.” You brace yourself, but he’s quiet. “What?”
“You knew you were going to get stung going after Spinner. You didn’t even blink,” Shigaraki says. “Saving me wasn’t proving a point. That’s just what you’re like.”
“That’s my job,” you say. “Are you disappointed?”
“No,” Shigaraki says. He’s quiet again. “I was right about your transformation. It does look cool.”
“You have weird taste in fish.”
“I have great taste in mermaids,” Shigaraki says, and you feel your face heat up under the sunscreen. You want to blame the jellyfish stings, but if you were going to have an allergic reaction, you’d have had it already. “I’m jealous of Spinner.”
“You – huh?” You twist away from the heat pack to glare at him. “Are you stupid? He’s covered in jellyfish stings and he almost drowned! Why would you be jealous –”
“He got to kiss you,” Shigaraki says. “I didn’t.”
Your brain stops working for a second. “CPR isn’t kissing.”
“It looked like kissing,” Shigaraki says. He shrugs. “The jellyfish aren’t great, but I could always go back out there and –”
“Don’t even joke about that,” you snap. “If you want me to kiss you, just ask.”
Shigaraki blinks. “Really?”
Your face feels so hot that you’re probably seconds from bursting into flames. “Yes.”
“You want to,” Shigaraki says. You nod. “You mean it. You’re not just doing it so I won’t –”
Shigaraki’s tested your patience so many times today. You’re officially out of it. You grab the front of his rashguard with a hand that still has webbing between its fingers, yank him closer, and press your lips to his.
His lips are chapped, rough against yours. His skin tastes like salt and sunscreen, which is what yours probably tastes like, too, and it couldn’t be clearer that he’s never kissed someone before. Swimming, kissing – Shigaraki’s doing a lot of things for the first time today. You wish you were even half as good at teaching someone how to kiss as you are at teaching people to swim.
Shigaraki doesn’t look like he thinks you’re bad at it when the two of you separate. His eyes are intent on your face in a way that makes sense, given that you’re pretty sure you still have pieces of your transformation hanging around. He’s still holding the heat pack over your eye one-handed, but the other hand lands on the side of your face, index finger lifted as he cradles your cheek. “It’s not like CPR,” you say awkwardly. “Do you believe me?”
“No,” Shigaraki says. He’s figured out the key difference, at least – when he leans back in and his lips part against yours, he breathes in instead of out, stealing a few molecules of air from you in the bargain. Not enough for you to blame oxygen deprivation for the way your head spins and your heart skips beats it couldn’t afford to miss. “Show me again.”
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