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(he/him) 19 🩵🩷🤍 ~ GOT TERMED new accnt. block dont report. not pro. take care of yourself you deserve it

[cherrykitcatt]

im just gonna block every $h related tag on here because the bitches posting in those are so unbelievably annoying. i probably feel that way because im 19 now and i know i used to be annoying as shit about it when i was 15 but holy shit get good. like "i did it again......... :)" literally shut the fuck up

[cherrykitcatt]

" i found you in the mouth of vultures

and i found you in the grip of Cain "

[cherrykitcatt]

plateaus are fucking insane because i will stick perfectly to my mealplan and not lose ANYTHING but water w€¡g|—|+. and then ill b¡ng€ like crazy and start eating "normally" (or whatever "eating normally" even means atp) and i LOSE. god i am so tired. but i do look smaller somehow. ???????? ive been eating pancakes every day ffs make it make sense

[cherrykitcatt]

life update: ate 24 hours ago and slept for 18or 20 hrs yesterday. woke up like an hr ago. been eating pancakes every day. oooohhhhgghhgg

[cherrykitcatt]

PERFECT. FUCKING. PANCAKES. i gained some but hey! im happier!!!! i might be manic!!!!!! aahahahahsggqgsgagaaaaaa. they are really good even though i have not tasted them yet. i just know. possibly round about 700-800$ because i used zero sugar everything. syrup. artificial sweetener. im getting good at the almond... dad?.. life

[cherrykitcatt]

just watched "superstar" by todd haynes. a haunting documentary about karen carpenter's life acted out with barbie dolls. genuinely one of the best pieces of €D media of all time. it correctly portrays €Ds (especially karen's 4n0r€x¡4 in this case) as a product of a stressful, controlling, or unstable environment. karen's mother agnes was cold as ice, never seeing the incredible talent and skill karen held, while favoring her golden child – richard carpenter, karen's brother – all while their father was just kind of... there, as it seems to me. she would never even fully come to understand her disease, as €D awareness and knowledge of €Ds was next to none at the time of her struggle. she would pass away at the young age of 32 from complications caused by her €D.

i've become really fascinated with her and lena zavaroni recently

[cherrykitcatt]

i love your nicole pfp. and ur constipation tips. u might b the goat

AWWW THXX natural born losers (and every other nd album tbh) mean so much to me.

the constipation tips are probably like nothing groundbreaking but wow it was insane going from one extreme of the bowel issues spectrum to the other and i just compiled some stuff that helped me personally 🫶 a lot of /-\n4s dont like to talk about this kind of stuff because its not glam and kind of just embarrassing to talk about for most people in general but i think its a rlly important part of harm reduction. the pandy candies especially are amazing

[cherrykitcatt]

second gw reached :P im down ten |<¡l0s now in total from my sw

[cherrykitcatt]

what i ate today!! pita bread pizza (350$ total) with light mozarella and a sprinkle of parmesan, red bell pepper, red onion, arugula, and grapes!! (if youve never had grapes on pizza, TRY IT ITS SO GOOD)

and an afternoon snack/dinner ig (250$ total) with some tiny dried tomato flavored rice cakes with cottage cheese, red bell pepper and cucumber, some zero sugar chcoolate, strawberries, a rice pudding and salty liquorice candies from ikea.

total for today: 600$

thought about having a protein bar (150) but decided not to

i really gotta stop

also honorable mention the pizza i had the day before. 400 because of the olives on top even though they turned bitter and kinda ruined it :(

[cherrykitcatt]

some tips for constipation i've discovered. gross ik but |三Ds are not glamorous and if you've got one, you know the struggle of "poop w3¡g|-|+" and shitting like once a week (even if you don't, you are still absolutely valid in your struggles). share your own tips in the comments

-consume an insane amount of artificial sweetener. i like to make myself a strong coffee with a genuinely toecurling amount of sweetener. it's yummy AND will make you shit yourself. get some low$ sugar free candy and just eat the lot. if you're czech like me or live anywhere else where they might have these try Pändy Candy Fluffy Clouds gummies. 70$ per 50g pack and have 21.5g of fibre and only 1g of sugar.

-speaking of coffee, well, coffee. or more broadly, caffeine

-nicotine pouches. i only suggest you do this if you're a smoker and you've got a tolerance for nicotine already. otherwise YOU WILL HURL and feel like youre gonna ⚰️ ⚰️ . this works like a charm for me though

-blueberries! raspberries! in general low$ high fibre fruits! i find fruits work better for this purpose, at least for me, than vegetables do, thanks to the sugar content of my fruits of choice. someone said pears and apples work but for me they just make my stomach hurt :/

-stool softeners! never tried these but they are much better for you than if you were to take la><at¡v3s on the regular. avoid la><at¡v3s in general tbh if you're |三D'd

-multiple |三D support organizations offer anonymous advice, or at least the major one (anabel) in my country does. so if you've got some other health issues you'd like to talk about with someone who knows how to handle |三Ds, don't be afraid to look to these resources just in general

-unrelated to the post but PLEASE BUY SOME VITAMIN/MINERAL SUPPLEMENTS to minimalise the long-term damage you are already undoubtedly doing to your body. zinc, vitamin d, copper, selenium, iron, b vitamins, CALCIUM TO AVOID ANY FURTHER DAMAGE TO YOUR BONE DENSITY. if you P on the regular buy some electrolytes. coconut water is quite rich in electrolytes and also apparently does help some people poop (not me tbh)

-drink enough water. i know it can be hard because it can make you feel really big but PLEASE.

having an |三D sucks. stay safe.

like i said, feel free to share your own tips in the comments

[cherrykitcatt]

i love my best friend so much i want to get better for them but it's hard seeing myself finally succeed at something seemingly for the first time in my life and having to let go of that

[thelightfluxtastic]

I have a research background in weight stigma and I currently work in mental health, often with LGBTQ+ clients.

I've met nonbinary people who struggle with disordered eating because they only ever see androgyny depicted as featureless thinness.

I've met trans women who struggle with disordered eating because they've internalized the idea that girls are meant to be thin, dainty, and delicate.

I've men trans men who struggle with disordered eating, because they feel women are allowed to be soft/curvy but men need to be muscular or thin and flat.

So many trans people are convinced that weight loss is the key to appearing as their desired gender, even when they want radically different gender presentations.

The societal idealization of thinness and fatphobia falsely invades and derails people's idea of what their "ideal body" should look like.

[cherrykitcatt]

having pizza with my dad today for my birthday. kind of nervous about it but i love my dad so its ok

[cherrykitcatt]

god is real and god is good because artificial sweeteners exist. gaymen🙌🙌. im eating some yoghurt covered puffs and they lowkey taste like a slice of pizza slathered with mascarpone. hmm

[losingangelmarcy]

frantically walking around to bvrn cA44Is isn't enough i need to flop around the floor like a FISHHHH

[cherrykitcatt]

lunch today. orange tofu!! 20g (while raw) jasmine rice that i put like 50g lettuce into to make it more filling (because rice on it own is soo high in $), 180g marinated tofu with a sauce made of 50ml orange juice, 9ml sriracha, 11ml ketchup and 25ml soy sauce. spices not calculated because i cannot be asked

total: 400$

[cherrykitcatt]

boybossed too close to the sun it seems my meals were too cute and baby portion sized for the tumblr overlords 🤷 like the people in this community are the only ones still on your stupidass app so why ban us?

EDIT: my first ban though 🏆 thats gonna mean something