H.O.P.E
I just stop for a while and think of what I’m doing. Asking myself things like “do I need to try that hard?”, “am I putting myself under such high pressures”. People have their own different ways to live and life is not just one thing. How to balance them is still quite hard for me, at least this time. Three months ago was the high peak of one project of mine, and some others. I almost lost my sleep routine after the project because of the habit of staying up all night for meetings and brainstorming. Not being able to sleep at the right time is also a problem. It lasted two months till September, and everything turned back. Such a relief.
I took one more step on my road. Everything is quite hard at the beginning. But I definitely believe in what I’m gonna do regardless of how difficult it is. Life doesn’t require that we be the best, only that we try our best. Do not let life float normally. And life is not just that. … Stay at home almost all the time these days, and intend to call my two friends again because I missed their coffee in the morning. But suddenly felt down and just finished crying heavily when being overtaken by a long wave of tiredness before typing these words. Hear something that hurts me much and start to wonder about myself, about all what I’ve been trying to do so far, … Are they all quite tough to you, gal? It’s been a long time since I put my hands down. A little bit thinking and a lot of thanks & gratefulness for those who always support and motivate me.
(Hold on, Pain ends.)
