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I’m so fucking sorry again. I haven’t written shit like this in days better said months but, I finally did something. I will also continue the fallen experiment…
This shit can be imagined with any character from genshin ig. So when it says your darling just think of a character.
Warnings: mentions of forced pregnancy, y/n being neglecting to her child, a bit of blood, yan!character x reader, grammar errors probably, whishing death on a newborn, mentions of forced breastfeeding, thoughts of killing a child and trying to do it, and almost dropping a baby on purpose.
This is also male!genshin charcters x reader
Y/ns child doesn’t have a name so it will be interpreted as s/n. Which concludes as “son name”
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Being your darlings wife wasn’t easy. Having to be stuck in a house 24/7 wasn’t fun at all. Why did you even let yourself know your darling in the first place? Right. You were clueless. You didn’t know that your darling would be so fucking obsessive.
But now you were thinking that being your darlings wife wasn’t so hard. While looking at the newborn you just gave birth to. Your darlings son looked like a almost full replica of him. But when he just opened his eyes, he had the same e/c eyes. Exactly the same of yours.
You fondly remember the time you realized you were pregnant. And you despised it. The happy face of your darling. You remember that he just kissed you on the cheek and hugged you tightly. Whispering such sweet things in your ear. Oh did you despite that moment.
When you were 6 months pregnant you remember going to the kitchen and grabbing the knife. Instantly thinking to kill that brat of your darling. That child of his didn’t deserve to live in your body neither live at all. You felt zero connection to it. Sometimes remembering you trying to punch yourself. Something just to kill it.
When you grabbed the knife you pointed it at your stomach. The tip of the knife already caressing your six month belly. You could feel it digging on your skin. It sended shivers to your spine. You hoped that the brat was going to feel all the pain you were going to go through. Just as you were going to stab your stomach consecutively your darling came in running and threw the knife away that was in your hand. Maybe too far away probably thinking you were going to get it again. Your darling then hugged you tightly whispering in your ear questions and lovey dovey things. You looked down at your belly and smiled.
You at least drew some blood.
But now you had zero chances. The newborn was alive and out of your stomach. All the pain that the brat caused wasn’t worth it at all. You despised that living creature. After the baby was born the one of the nurses tried to make you hold it. When they got it too close to your arms you pushed the arms away. The arms that contained that thing. You certainly wished that you weren’t so neglectful. But who could blame you? It had the bastards blood. And you were forced to carry it inside you for 9 months.
After pushing the arms away that contained the baby, the nurse almost let the baby fall. She looked at you in a surprised face but then in a pained expression. Looks like she understood you. But while looking at that expression of the nurse the newborn started to wail. Tears were flooding out of his eyes. Looks like it felt the neglect already.
But you couldn’t give two shits. You hoped the baby cried enough so it could drown on its own tears. The nurse then sighed she then went and placed it on it’s little bed. The beds that were for the babies. The nurse suddenly patted your arm, some way to comfort you. You then suddenly felt all warm and giddy. Were your feelings coming back again?..
The nurse then left and your darling came in running. All the giddy and fluffy feelings felt. Kissing your forehead and then looking at the his child. He then went to baby and asked you the name. You looked at him and then at the baby. Your darling then decided to grab the wailing baby and cradle it. Your darling smiled at you.
“Maybe our baby will stop crying if it was hold by his mommy…”
Your eyes opened. You definitely didn’t want to hold the brat. You saw his arms reaching out to you and the baby coming closer to you second by second. You then feel a sudden weight, you flinched. It was in your arms and that was the moment that the baby stopped wailing. You heard little giggles. You then looked down and that’s when you saw the baby smiling. The little brat was lucky that his father was there because if he wasn’t he would be in the floor.
Your darling would sometimes force you to breastfeed s/n. Oh boy. You almost dropped him the first time. On purpose. But your darling would never know that.
After all of s/ns baby stages he was finally a five year old kid. You were happy. A few more years and that brat would leave the house, you wouldn’t have to deal with him anymore in a few years. Happiness came flooding in. But, it was your sons birthday. Your darling and s/n thought you were happy. Happy that he was growing.
Yes you were happy he was growing but for a whole different reason and it was a sad one. S/n never really noticed your neglect until he was five. Your darling let you go outside alone since s/n always wanted to go outside with his mommy but alone. Without his daddy.
You and s/n found a park he wanted to go. A park that was full with other kids and their parents. He wasn’t nervous at all. He wanted to go running in but he then realized. Why were other people holding their child’s hands. Why did the mom have a smile on her face. Why did she even smile more while being called mommy. Why did they hug and kiss their child. Why? Was that normal?
S/n then looked at you. S/n realized that you didn’t have a smile on your face. You never hold his hand. You never smiled while looking at him. You never laughed with him. You never gave him hugs and kisses. You never even comforted him while he fell or anything. You never smiled even more while being called mommy, you only had a mad face. Was he doing something wrong?
S/n came running towards to you and hugged the upper down of your body tightly. You could feel his arms trying to surround your body. It felt horrible. But you didn’t want to show it on your face right? You knew that your darling was watching you somewhere.
You hesitantly hugged him back. Putting the good mom act.
That’s when s/n felt the nice comfort. He never tried hugging you, he just now wanted to replicate what the other people did just to see how his mommy would react. It felt so nice to him. He wanted the comfort all the time.
That’s when he also realized how good your comfort was. Just a simple hug made his world shine. He now wanted mommy’s comfort all to himself.
