My Mental Health Story

You know my name not my story. Just a small town girl trying to overcome serious mental health issues. Sometimes it gets too much and I’ll rant and scream and cry but I’ve learnt to accept it’s okay. I blame myself for lots of things that happened to me, I feel guilty, Worthless, and a burden on a daily basis. Just need someone to understand what it’s like to be me and listen to me when I’m having a moment.

[ciara-louise]

I’m off the deep end, can’t catch myself I’m drowning in misery 😭😭😭

[ciara-louise]

[depression-healthy-carrier]

[onlinecounsellingcollege]

“Sometimes your heart needs more time to accept what your mind already knows.”

— Unknown

[onlinecounsellingcollege]

“No relationship is all sunshine, but two people can share one umbrella and survive the storm together.”

— www.Livelifehappy.com

[onlinecounsellingcollege]

You know it’s time to move on when …

1. They treat you as if you are not important.

2. They prioritise other people and things over you.

3. They show more interest in another person.

4. They push you away when you try to get close

5. They deliberately hurt you – and don’t seem to care.

6. They complicate life in unnecessary ways.

7. They leave you feeling miserable, unwanted and upset.

[ciara-louise]

Too true

[ithelpstodream]

this

[ciara-louise]

I’m sorry.... that’s all I ever seem to say. Why do I feel so worthless to everyone but that special someone. He makes me feel complete. But I feel he can do so much better. I love him so much 💑

[20somethingandstilllost]

If you know her, you will understand the struggle of trying to survive in two feet of water thinking you are drowning. If you know her, you will be able to tell how much hell she has been living in by the way her silence sounds like thunder.

Zachary K. Douglas (A Journal From The Sea)

[ciara-louise]

Genuinely do not believe I’m pretty, beautiful or anything. I struggle to accept compliments and struggle with self esteem and confidence. Hate the way EUPD makes your emotions like a rollercoaster.

[justice-turtle]

You know, people think of PTSD flashbacks as being like movie flashbacks where you have to spend some time reliving the original event, but quite often it’s more like the whole traumatic experience has been compressed into a two-by-four that smacks you across the back of the head.

[meanwhilepoetry]

All these sparrows full of secret joy hiding in your chest waiting to be released with just the kind of love at just the right time, and here you are settling for less, keeping them caged, never knowing how very happy you could be.

Nikita Gill (via meanwhilepoetry)

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[ciara-louise]

This is what people find so hard to understand. We don’t do it for the fun of it. We do it for relief. Some of us do it because we feel we deserve it myself included. So before you judge someone get to know them and what they’ve been through. And finding someone who actually understand it and what your going through can make the most amazing difference. I’m so grateful to have met him 💖

[ciara-louise]

Of course I’m back to feeling like this. Having the crisis team back and wanting to put me in hospital. Should never have lied to get out. I just feel so defeated by it all

[ciara-louise]

Please. I can’t do this anymore. Life is pain. Life’s not fair.

[ciara-louise]

That’s it. No fighting back this time.