CJ Patraw Photography

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Feel super down and self loathing right now. I hate my brain and body so much! Nothings helping today either 😒

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Ended up re-editing this pic like it a lot more but realized focus is off :( oh well I start feeling better and Ill retake it. #japanese #japanesedolls #dolls #photoftheday #videooftheday #art #kawaii #style #beauty #artist #geisha #kimono

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Well LMFAO wig 19 no makeup tired as shit 21 full but crap makeup 25 heavy liner but light makeup 30 I dont think so but I guess Ill take it since Im turning 35 in Oct.

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This stuff for #bai Is pretty damn good and it a whole lost of thing like vegan, no artificial sweeteners, gluten free etc I have the hardest damn time not drinking fizzy stuff! So I've really fallen off the goals lol go figure. Got to do some cleaning and sorting but thats hard to do when you are a night person with a school age kid and live in an apartment. #life lol 3am did the dishes was think about trying to clean but probably not a good idea. Was thinking to since Im slacking on my photography if might do pictures of making soaps and lotions. I really need to learn to shut off my brain its 24/7 and my bodys like fo we aren't doing shit today. Tho I did get stuff done today like chipping 2 inches of ice off the inside of our bedroom windows. Oh well off to rest PS if you noticed I try not to # personal photos a lot because they are really more just update for followers verse trying to gain more.

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Mug o'mead this one is honey blackberry something and much better then the last one I had

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Gal that works with my hubby made us xmas treats! Her sugar cookies are so good! Horrible breakfast tho lol well Im off the sleep hoping maybe on Christmas to bust out some new pictures since ill be home alone 😱lol

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Need to clean up my edges but just made this color yule inspired. #duochromenails #duochromepolish #manicure #nailart #nail #naildesign #beauty #instanails #fashion #nailstagram #nailsofinstagram #beautiful #pretty #nails2inspire #polish #photooftheday #nailpolish #picoftheday #instanail #nailsoftheday #prettynails #nailsdid (at Fargo, North Dakota)

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Traditions have been changed and adapted to religions and regions all over the world this time of year especially! But a a god yuletiding to all!

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Offically enter into a photo comp! My first food photo other then snaps with an iphone. No ones has entered a food item yet so...I dont know maybe I've got a chance. Everyone loves cheesecake right! #pie #instafood #food #dessert #photograph #foodie #delicious #cheesecake #chocolate #love #foodgasm #photooftheday #foodstagram #yum #eat #foodpic #foodpics #sweet #happy #picoftheday #sweettooth #sweettreat #chocolatecheesecake

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So peaceful at 4 am. Snow drifts everywhere lol The apartment guys actually brought a payloader not a normal little bobcat to push snow yesterday morning doesn't look like a bit of difference this morning. They will be here in about two hours to start. The pond froze over and is drifting up too sadly I think there was a goose that got frozen out there. Glad the wind is finally calming down a bit but Im not looking forward to the up coming below zero temps. Hopefully my truck starts today. #ndwinter #ndproblems #sopeaceful

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This is what happens when you dont run on normal hours and are broke! I needed light diffusers for table top shooting so I made one. tems used tape measure, pen, one dollar store project board, one glad force flex trash bag, packing tape and one mofo shape pocket knife. Total like ten minutes total now I need one more board and two cheap led desk lamps, so like $12 more materials and I will have a complete table soft light system. But I got a whole$3 in the bank so 💩 and ebay stuff will have to be put on hold because It took my last payment over a month to get to me for a sale and I cant afford to ship items or pay fees if I dont get the money asap! So yea bills first then if at the end of the month I have the money Ill throw items up to hopefully make more money. Fucking stupid really. Ive got a box of random stuff and a handful of little gems and stones to sell.

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Well I sat down and tried to square away my computer a bit. I got a huge chunk of photos re-edited and re-uploaded to flickr. When I reinstalled windows and LR something decided to go stupid and messed up a bunch of my photos but thankfully no lost photos. #frustrated

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This is how I feels right now. I need to raise money for medical funds! I will be selling some stuff on ebay and my go fund me is linked in my bio still. I will be posting picture here of items for sale and deleting as they sell. Stay tuned #ebay #ebayseller #ebaybuyer #medicalfundsneeded #medicalfunds #funds #fundraiser #needfunds #gofundme #medicine #health #hospital #meds #healthcare #doctors #buyer #shopper #sale #etsy #buyers #onlineshopping #thyroidproblems #factorfivelieden #fybromyalgia #plasminogenactivatorinhibitordisorder #antiphospholipidsyndrome #migraine #chronicpainsucks (at Fargo, North Dakota)

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Opps I crashed days of sleeping very little and I finally slept today to bad it was all day. I love this one! #accessories #bride #rings #silver #weddingring #engaged #diamonds #weddinginspiration #engagementring #weddingrings #engagement #bridal #bling #photooftheday #happy #picoftheday #romantic #sparkle #happiness #simpleelegance (at Fargo, North Dakota)

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Was just messing around with setting on my camera. Kiddo finished hanging ornaments on the tree. #photooftheday #happy #beautiful #picoftheday #fun #life #smile #christmastree #christasornaments #happyyule #yule #yuletree #blackandwhite #bnw #happyholidays #December (at Fargo, North Dakota)

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The pinecone strikes again 😂#accessories #bride #rings #silver #weddingring #engaged #diamonds #weddinginspiration #engagementring #weddingrings #engagement #bridal #bling #photooftheday #happy #picoftheday #romantic #sparkle #happiness #pinecone #winterwedding (at Fargo, North Dakota)

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Funny enough I used a red paper bag for this shot turned out kind of cool. Ring shots are totally new to me so its all creative thoughts and practice! #jewelry #wedding #love #diamond #beautiful #jewellery #rings #silver #weddingring #engaged #diamonds #weddinginspiration #engagementring #weddingrings #engagement #bling #picoftheday #photooftheday #weddingday #weddingphotography