Cobalt

Just a dude doing his best everyday to rebuild his life bit by bit. Will randomly post and draw.

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One of my Characters from Darktide, Thalia, an Inquisitorial Zealot.

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Time to get back into cooking

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Why, yes child, I am indeed drawing, please don't slither on the surface, also when did you get up here?

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Happy Pride!

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Me too buddy.

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Hahahaha. Just one of those days.

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Made an Profile Pic style of drawing based on a Cadian Inquisitorial Trooper

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First time playing schedule one with a friend. Hilarity ensues as expected

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I wasn't a good person. And it unfortunately took consequences for me to realize I wasn't. It took me hurting people, lying to people, hurting my loved ones and betraying their trust, their safety, their very identities. It took the very people I claimed to love to bring their wrath on and destroy my web of lies and deceit for me to realize I needed help.

I went to a Psych Ward, while there I got diagnosed with BPD and Bipolar 2 among other things. But that first morning in the Ward after I was admitted is something I will never forget. The realisation of the things I did hit me like a cement truck. I didn't know how long I cried for that day. I know it was bad enough they put an IV drip into me.

It's been 3 months since then, 117 days since I got out. 117 days since I started journaling my improvement. 100 days on that dot, as of posting this, on when I started to express myself using art so I don't hurt myself or anyone. 117 days since I committed to becoming a better person.

I will never go back to my old self.

I thought I had to burn every bridge and shred every part of my identity to do that. But I learnt that I can't. As much as I don't want to be who I was. It's still a part of me. But I learned something new.

I can be a better person In spite of who I was.

This hat was something I wore everyday before I was medicated. I took it off after being medicated because I didn't want to associate myself with who I was.

But now?

I'm wearing it again. Not because I'm becoming who I was, no. It's so I can face the consequences. Whenever they may arise. And that I won't run from them.

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Prior to using an iPad and Procreate, I started off properly drawing using a mechanical pencil and fountain pen, I still use them now, but man, rendering on an iPad is alot of fun. Here's one of my doodles using fountain pens! An old DnD character of mine

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Here's one of my DnD characters ive played last. A Bladesinger Wizard! This is also the first piece of digital art I've done!

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Welp! First post on here and it's Warhammer Art, go figure. Here's an Inquisition Trooper from Cadia!