unsaid truth (pt.2) - ahn keonho
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⤷ ゛long written + smau texts, nonidol!keonho x nonidol!f!reader
! brothers bestfriend, down bad/mutual pining, dual pov ˎˊ˗ warnings: cursing, skinship/kissing, | wc: 2.8k
synopis: You've had a crush on your brothers bestfriend for years now, but you doubt that he'll ever see you as more than just Seonghyeons little sister. Until one day you both get caught up in the heat of the moment and his feelings towards you change drastically but he still has to make sure Seonghyeon doesnt find out. Will you both ever admit it or keep it hidden as an unsaid truth?
After he said that, I realized that there still was something holding us back from fully admitting our feelings towards each other. Sometimes I forget that Keonho is my brothers best friend, because in reality to me he’s always been more than just the guy who frequently plays games with my brother.
I noticed that he always made sure that Seonghyeon was never alone. He introduced all of his friends to him, so that my brother wouldn’t have to endure any more lunch breaks without anyone beside him. He cherished his friendships so dearly.
He was the guy who would try and teasingly cheer me up whenever I was feeling down. That’s the Keonho i noticed.
“I’ve never been in your room before. It’s different from what I’ve imagined.”
“You’ve imagined my room before?”
My cheeks started reddening, due to him exposing me so quickly. I didn’t think that I’d start blushing so early on. I knew it was going to happen eventually, but I’d assume I would be able to resist it for a bit longer.
He was sitting on his bed waiting for me to finish examining his room. “Do you ever use your record player?” I ask.
“Oh yeah, all the time.” He stood up and walked over to me, now standing next to his vinyl collection as well. “Choose one.”
I take a look at all the ones he had displayed on his wall, and my eyes instantly fixated on wave to earths 01. flaws and all.
The memory of us quietly listening to the lyrics of their song “bad” spawned into my head. After what i assumed to be a study date, i went and listened to their discography, replaying various moments of us. I now dedicated every song by wave to earth to him— or us.
I picked up the vinyl and handed it to him. “I put you on.” He says lightheartedly, while placing the vinyl onto the record player.
Granted, we haven’t hung out as five in a while, but I surely wasn’t gonna leave y/n in the dust. Especially when I’ve been really enjoying her presence.
We’ve been comfortably laying on my bed for a while now, listening to wave to earths harmonies fill up the room, talking about anything that came into our mind.
“Y/n?” I ask to get her attention.
“Hm?” She responds, lifting her head.
“Are you wearing the hoodie I gave you on purpose?”
She shamefully let her head fall onto the bed. “I was hoping you wouldn’t notice.”
“How could I not? It used to be mine.”
“Used to?” She asks as she pulls out her face from my sheets.
I nod. “I want you to keep it. Looks better on you anyway.”
“Now I feel bad, asking for the alleged 10/10 hoodie I was supposed to receive.”
“Thank you for the reminder.” I stood up from my bed and walked towards my closet, opening the cabinet full of my hoodies. “Take a look.” I say.
She slowly stood up from my bed, and walked towards my direction. Her eyes scanned all the options, followed up by her tilting her head towards me, giving me a slight frown and look full of guilt. “I feel like one is more than enough.”
“I’m pretty sure I have better ones to offer.” I reply wanting to remove the guilty expression from her face.
It wasn’t working, so I step a bit closer, getting a hold of one of her hoodie strings. “See? It’s all worn out. The ends are completely frayed.” I mention, as I singlehandedly pull her even closer to me by tugging on her hoodie string.
She stared at me for a second, before looking down at her hoodie. “You’re exaggerating, it looks brand new.” She responds while avoiding any eye contact.
Fuck, I could not care less about hoodies and its condition and I think neither does she. Her face is only centimeters away from mine. Her scent is now fully melting into me. And even with her trying to shift her face away from mine, I can sense her cheeks turning every shade of red possible.
I stop fidgeting with the strings, and start moving my hand from her hoodie collar up to her neck, letting my fingers slide through her hair, tilting her face forward to face mine. She smiled softly at that move.
My eyes start studying every corner of her face, before fixating on the bottom half. I automatically gravitate towards her lips, but before I could execute any further steps, I remembered.
“don’t get too comfortable.” “don’t get too comfortable.” “don’t get too comfortable.” “don’t get too comfortable.”
Seonghyeons words kept replaying in my mind. Have I gotten too comfortable? I definitely have. I am so close to kissing her. What would he do if he were to find out? Fuck.
I exhale deeply, before completely moving my head. I slowly pull my hand away from her hair. Trying to fully stand up straight, before clearing my throat “It’s getting pretty late.”
She gazes at me intensely, furrowing her eyebrows in confusion but also disappointment. “Yeah, you’re right. I should get going.”
She awkwardly grabs her stuff, before immediately heading to the door. “Y/n.” I mumble, as she was about to open the door.
She unwillingly stops in her tracks, not even gifting me a glance.
“Let me atleast drive you. There’s no way I’ll let you walk home alone at this hour.”
The car drive consisted of awkward silence and occasional short lived glances. Neither of us even bothered to put on the aux, knowing whatever song we play, would haunt us by immediately transporting us back to the infamous car drive. The one right after I dodged maybe what could’ve been the most heart fluttering experience of my life.
“Pull over.” She says, catching me a little of guard. Unfortunately those were the first and only words said throughout the whole duration of this drive.
I pull over and unlock the doors, and it took her just a split second to exit the car. Didn’t even look back once.
I could not stand her being mad at me. Honestly I wasn’t even able to decipher if it was anger or disappointment or even humiliation for that matter. All I knew was that she could not stand to look at me, and I couldn’t stand that.
The thought of her racking her brain about what she might’ve done wrong wrecked me. Because how could she possible do anything wrong? I ruined it for myself. I ruined it for myself when I started falling for my best friends sister. Completely my fault. That’s why I didn’t want her to keep worrying.
Without registering, I step outside of my car, heading towards her front porch.
Since my parents were out on a business trip, we decided to hang out in my living room after roaming the streets, raiding every convenience store we came across.
I was about to walk up the stairs to get more controllers, when I heard someone unlock the door. I turn to see my sister walking into the room full on sulking. She didn’t greet me or any of the boys, she just tried walking past us without being noticed.
“What’s wrong?” I ask quietly, genuinely concerned.
She finally lifts up her head, looking at me teary-eyed. She wasn’t crying, not yet atleast, but you could notice the tears bottling up inside her eyes.
She tried forcing a smile, but gave up as soon as the first teardrop ran down her face. I didn’t think I’d be the protective type when it came to my sister, but seeing her face being overthrown with melancholy, stung.
That’s when I noticed. Something I wish I hadn’t noticed. But something I knew was inevitable.
I’ve seen the hoodie she’s wearing before.
Unfortunately not because it’s a hoodie she’s stolen from my closet, but because I knew who owned the exact same one. A part of me wanted to try and thing of another explanation but deep down I knew there could not have been another reasonable explanation.
Especially when I started putting two and two together. Keonho couldn’t hang out with us because apparently he was too busy exchanging hoodies with my sister.
“Yo, isn’t that Keonhos hoodie?” I overhear, Martin whispering to James.
I was too deep in thought to realize that y/n has left to go to the bathroom.
Well, I was still trying to fathom the situation, and trying to figure out how I could’ve been so clueless. How naive was I to assume a simple warning consisting of four words was going to stop him? ‘Don’t get too comfortable’ seriously what was I thinking?
“Is that Keonhos car?” Juhoon spoke so quietly, it was almost impossible for me to overhear.
I look through the window and immediately lock eyes with his car, and without second thought, I head to my front door.
As soon as I open the door, I see Keonho walking back and forth, contemplating about something. He stops instantly when his eyes meet mine.
All the guys have already gathered behind me, watching over my shoulders.
There was an increasing silence filling up the space between us, both of our bodies being incredibly tense. I felt my fist clenching up. I didn’t like whatever it was that I was feeling towards Keonho right now. I didn’t think it was possible for him to feel so distant.
“How long?” I questioned without hesitation. He only stared back in confusion. So I elaborate, “For how long have you been playing with my sisters feelings?”
His mouth drops, as if I have said the most absurd thing ever. “What?” He replies.
My sister had come back from the bathroom, because I could hear her voice quietly entering the conversation. “What’s going on?” She asked, while passing through Martin to get to the doorway.
“Oh my god, just in time.” Martin jokes. James playfully hits his arm to shut him down. “Dude, read the room.”
“What did you guys tell him?” Keonho exclaims in frustration, focusing his gaze on our friends behind me. Why is he bringing them into the situation?
“Bro, I swear we didn’t tell him about your crush on y/n, he somehow found out by himself.” Martin answers.
Keonho having a crush on y/n— neither shocking nor suprising to me. Could’ve seen it coming from miles away. Y/n however, was in disbelief.
“Martin, it’s better if you just keep your mouth shut.” Juhoon says, while exiting the room with Martin and James to let us sort it out privately.
Y/n locks eyes with Keonho, who looked like he had seen a ghost. “Is that true?” She asks. He kept his eyes on her, nodding reassuringly.
“Then why didn’t you— you know?” She says, now completely fixated on Keonho, fully blocking out the fact that I was still standing here.
I interrupt her before Keonho could answer y/n, because I knew whatever they were discussing was none of my business.
“I seriously have no idea what’s going on right now, i’m gonna be honest. All I know is that my sister came home shedding tears, while wearing your hoodie, after you claimed to be busy doing stuff.. that’s why im seriously debating on hitting you right now Keonho.”
“You were crying?” Keonho worries, his confused expression turned into a concerned one. Y/n lightly bit her lip out of embarrassment, moving her eyes from Keonho to the floor.
“Keonho, I mentioned that I was willing to hit you, and if y’all don’t fill me in right now, then I might seriously consider—”
“Shut up Seonghyeon, we all know your ass is not going to slap him.” Y/n butts in, in order to humble me.
All you hear is the three in the back breaking out into laughter thanks to my sister pulling me back into reality. “Someone had to say it.” James says while still laughing non stop with Martin and Juhoon. Every ounce of tension, has now left the conversation.
To be honest, I don’t even think the idea of them being together was what was bothering me. It was that I knew them being together was going to happen eventually, but I’ve dug myself too big of a hole by not being supportive of their feelings towards each other, which led to them having to hide it from me.
I would trust Keonho with my life, and I know for sure he wouldn’t purposefully hurt her.
When I first joined the conversation, I felt my heart skip a beat after realizing I might be the reason why they weren’t at ease with each other.
But I quickly came back to my senses. Because no matter how mad they were at each other, at the end of the day Seonghyeon wouldn’t hurt a fly, let alone his best friend.
I turn to him, “Seonghyeon, I promise you everything’s fine. You don’t have to worry.” I reassure him.
“If you say so, but I swear Keonho if my sister ever comes home teary-eyed again, it’s on sight.” He replies lightheartedly while stepping away from the door to enter the house.
I realize Keonhos shoulder dropping in relief, hearing Seonghyeon already joke about the situation.
After Seonghyeon left to go back to the guys, me and Keonho looked around anxiously at first until I started walking towards Keonho, wanting to close the distance between us. He also took a step closer.
He greets me with a comforting smile as he looks down on me, taking it all in by not taking his eyes off of me. “I was worried you might be upset, so I stood here, contemplating whether or not I should clear things up.”
“What were you planning on clearing up exactly?”
“Well firstly, I was planning on admitting that I liked you, but Martin kind of took that one away already.”
I giggled at the thought of him wanting to confess his feelings for me, but that chance being taken from him due to Martin’s big mouth.
“Second of all, I wanted to tell you that— I wanted to.”
“Huh?” I ask, raising my eyebrows. I knew what he meant, I just wanted to hear him say it out loud.
“Kiss you. I wanted to kiss you. I think I even dreamed of that exact scenario before.”
His ability to make me blush without fail, was truly admirable.
“But you know.. I didn’t because Seonghyeon made it very clear, for me to not go too far.” He hesitantly adds, while scratching his head.
“All im hearing is that my brother ruined my chances of experiencing a romcom-worthy kiss.” I reply, followed by a playful pout.
“He didn’t ruin your chances. I’m still here and very open to revisiting that moment whenever you want… not right now though because I can literally sense through your window that Seonghyeons eyes are piercing right through me.”
Being with her so casually, still felt so surreal. The fact that I was laying on y/ns waiting for her to finish her nighttime routine, felt like a dream come true. Might seem like a silly dream to some, but to me the sight of her untying her braid while wearing my shirt as a pyjama, was something I only ever dreamed of.
Every now and then, I’d catch her trying to lock eyes with me through her mirror.
“You’re done?” I ask, after watching her get out of her seat. She nods, in response, joining me on her bed.
Once she seated herself next to me, she started fiddling with my fingers, before immediately immersing herself onto my body by placing her body on top of my legs.
Our bodies were pressed together in a way I wasn’t used to. I became hyperaware of her breathing against my neck, causing the hair on it to stand up straight. Her warmth was both comforting but also intimidating.
The only thing keeping me sane were her dainty fingers still being intertwined with mine, stroking my hand ever so often.
My thoughts were interrupted by y/ns soft giggle. I blink, trying to revert back to my senses. “What?” Is apparently the only world I was able to get out.
“It was about time for you to be one that’s blushing, I was getting sick of it being me all the time.” She explains, letting go of my hand so that she could wrap her fingers around my neck instead, pulling me even closer to her face.
I take the next step, by tenderly pressing my lips against hers, letting the butterflies in my stomach loose, while my cheeks start to burn even more as before. I brought up my hands, letting them tangle in her hair, while taking in the softness of her lips. Both of us grinning into kiss.
BONUS: established relationship smau
Authors note: hiii, second and final part ;)) hope you enjoyed this one just as much!! WAIT LETS TALK ABOUT GREENGREEN literally banger after banger.. might be cooking up smth inspired by it… let’s seeeee @someonesmember
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