unsaid truth (pt.2) - ahn keonho
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⤡ ălong written + smau texts, nonidol!keonho x nonidol!f!reader
! brothers bestfriend, down bad/mutual pining, dual pov ËËË warnings: cursing, skinship/kissing, | wc: 2.8k
synopis: You've had a crush on your brothers bestfriend for years now, but you doubt that he'll ever see you as more than just Seonghyeons little sister. Until one day you both get caught up in the heat of the moment and his feelings towards you change drastically but he still has to make sure Seonghyeon doesnt find out. Will you both ever admit it or keep it hidden as an unsaid truth?
After he said that, I realized that there still was something holding us back from fully admitting our feelings towards each other. Sometimes I forget that Keonho is my brothers best friend, because in reality to me heâs always been more than just the guy who frequently plays games with my brother.
I noticed that he always made sure that Seonghyeon was never alone. He introduced all of his friends to him, so that my brother wouldnât have to endure any more lunch breaks without anyone beside him. He cherished his friendships so dearly.
He was the guy who would try and teasingly cheer me up whenever I was feeling down. Thatâs the Keonho i noticed.
âIâve never been in your room before. Itâs different from what Iâve imagined.â
âYouâve imagined my room before?â
My cheeks started reddening, due to him exposing me so quickly. I didnât think that Iâd start blushing so early on. I knew it was going to happen eventually, but Iâd assume I would be able to resist it for a bit longer.
He was sitting on his bed waiting for me to finish examining his room. âDo you ever use your record player?â I ask.
âOh yeah, all the time.â He stood up and walked over to me, now standing next to his vinyl collection as well. âChoose one.â
I take a look at all the ones he had displayed on his wall, and my eyes instantly fixated on wave to earths 01. flaws and all.
The memory of us quietly listening to the lyrics of their song âbadâ spawned into my head. After what i assumed to be a study date, i went and listened to their discography, replaying various moments of us. I now dedicated every song by wave to earth to himâ or us.
I picked up the vinyl and handed it to him. âI put you on.â He says lightheartedly, while placing the vinyl onto the record player.
Granted, we havenât hung out as five in a while, but I surely wasnât gonna leave y/n in the dust. Especially when Iâve been really enjoying her presence.
Weâve been comfortably laying on my bed for a while now, listening to wave to earths harmonies fill up the room, talking about anything that came into our mind.
âY/n?â I ask to get her attention.
âHm?â She responds, lifting her head.
âAre you wearing the hoodie I gave you on purpose?â
She shamefully let her head fall onto the bed. âI was hoping you wouldnât notice.â
âHow could I not? It used to be mine.â
âUsed to?â She asks as she pulls out her face from my sheets.
I nod. âI want you to keep it. Looks better on you anyway.â
âNow I feel bad, asking for the alleged 10/10 hoodie I was supposed to receive.â
âThank you for the reminder.â I stood up from my bed and walked towards my closet, opening the cabinet full of my hoodies. âTake a look.â I say.
She slowly stood up from my bed, and walked towards my direction. Her eyes scanned all the options, followed up by her tilting her head towards me, giving me a slight frown and look full of guilt. âI feel like one is more than enough.â
âIâm pretty sure I have better ones to offer.â I reply wanting to remove the guilty expression from her face.
It wasnât working, so I step a bit closer, getting a hold of one of her hoodie strings. âSee? Itâs all worn out. The ends are completely frayed.â I mention, as I singlehandedly pull her even closer to me by tugging on her hoodie string.
She stared at me for a second, before looking down at her hoodie. âYouâre exaggerating, it looks brand new.â She responds while avoiding any eye contact.
Fuck, I could not care less about hoodies and its condition and I think neither does she. Her face is only centimeters away from mine. Her scent is now fully melting into me. And even with her trying to shift her face away from mine, I can sense her cheeks turning every shade of red possible.
I stop fidgeting with the strings, and start moving my hand from her hoodie collar up to her neck, letting my fingers slide through her hair, tilting her face forward to face mine. She smiled softly at that move.
My eyes start studying every corner of her face, before fixating on the bottom half. I automatically gravitate towards her lips, but before I could execute any further steps, I remembered.
âdonât get too comfortable.â âdonât get too comfortable.â âdonât get too comfortable.â âdonât get too comfortable.â
Seonghyeons words kept replaying in my mind. Have I gotten too comfortable? I definitely have. I am so close to kissing her. What would he do if he were to find out? Fuck.
I exhale deeply, before completely moving my head. I slowly pull my hand away from her hair. Trying to fully stand up straight, before clearing my throat âItâs getting pretty late.â
She gazes at me intensely, furrowing her eyebrows in confusion but also disappointment. âYeah, youâre right. I should get going.â
She awkwardly grabs her stuff, before immediately heading to the door. âY/n.â I mumble, as she was about to open the door.
She unwillingly stops in her tracks, not even gifting me a glance.
âLet me atleast drive you. Thereâs no way Iâll let you walk home alone at this hour.â
The car drive consisted of awkward silence and occasional short lived glances. Neither of us even bothered to put on the aux, knowing whatever song we play, would haunt us by immediately transporting us back to the infamous car drive. The one right after I dodged maybe what couldâve been the most heart fluttering experience of my life.
âPull over.â She says, catching me a little of guard. Unfortunately those were the first and only words said throughout the whole duration of this drive.
I pull over and unlock the doors, and it took her just a split second to exit the car. Didnât even look back once.
I could not stand her being mad at me. Honestly I wasnât even able to decipher if it was anger or disappointment or even humiliation for that matter. All I knew was that she could not stand to look at me, and I couldnât stand that.
The thought of her racking her brain about what she mightâve done wrong wrecked me. Because how could she possible do anything wrong? I ruined it for myself. I ruined it for myself when I started falling for my best friends sister. Completely my fault. Thatâs why I didnât want her to keep worrying.
Without registering, I step outside of my car, heading towards her front porch.
Since my parents were out on a business trip, we decided to hang out in my living room after roaming the streets, raiding every convenience store we came across.
I was about to walk up the stairs to get more controllers, when I heard someone unlock the door. I turn to see my sister walking into the room full on sulking. She didnât greet me or any of the boys, she just tried walking past us without being noticed.
âWhatâs wrong?â I ask quietly, genuinely concerned.
She finally lifts up her head, looking at me teary-eyed. She wasnât crying, not yet atleast, but you could notice the tears bottling up inside her eyes.
She tried forcing a smile, but gave up as soon as the first teardrop ran down her face. I didnât think Iâd be the protective type when it came to my sister, but seeing her face being overthrown with melancholy, stung.
Thatâs when I noticed. Something I wish I hadnât noticed. But something I knew was inevitable.
Iâve seen the hoodie sheâs wearing before.
Unfortunately not because itâs a hoodie sheâs stolen from my closet, but because I knew who owned the exact same one. A part of me wanted to try and thing of another explanation but deep down I knew there could not have been another reasonable explanation.
Especially when I started putting two and two together. Keonho couldnât hang out with us because apparently he was too busy exchanging hoodies with my sister.
âYo, isnât that Keonhos hoodie?â I overhear, Martin whispering to James.
I was too deep in thought to realize that y/n has left to go to the bathroom.
Well, I was still trying to fathom the situation, and trying to figure out how I couldâve been so clueless. How naive was I to assume a simple warning consisting of four words was going to stop him? âDonât get too comfortableâ seriously what was I thinking?
âIs that Keonhos car?â Juhoon spoke so quietly, it was almost impossible for me to overhear.
I look through the window and immediately lock eyes with his car, and without second thought, I head to my front door.
As soon as I open the door, I see Keonho walking back and forth, contemplating about something. He stops instantly when his eyes meet mine.
All the guys have already gathered behind me, watching over my shoulders.
There was an increasing silence filling up the space between us, both of our bodies being incredibly tense. I felt my fist clenching up. I didnât like whatever it was that I was feeling towards Keonho right now. I didnât think it was possible for him to feel so distant.
âHow long?â I questioned without hesitation. He only stared back in confusion. So I elaborate, âFor how long have you been playing with my sisters feelings?â
His mouth drops, as if I have said the most absurd thing ever. âWhat?â He replies.
My sister had come back from the bathroom, because I could hear her voice quietly entering the conversation. âWhatâs going on?â She asked, while passing through Martin to get to the doorway.
âOh my god, just in time.â Martin jokes. James playfully hits his arm to shut him down. âDude, read the room.â
âWhat did you guys tell him?â Keonho exclaims in frustration, focusing his gaze on our friends behind me. Why is he bringing them into the situation?
âBro, I swear we didnât tell him about your crush on y/n, he somehow found out by himself.â Martin answers.
Keonho having a crush on y/nâ neither shocking nor suprising to me. Couldâve seen it coming from miles away. Y/n however, was in disbelief.
âMartin, itâs better if you just keep your mouth shut.â Juhoon says, while exiting the room with Martin and James to let us sort it out privately.
Y/n locks eyes with Keonho, who looked like he had seen a ghost. âIs that true?â She asks. He kept his eyes on her, nodding reassuringly.
âThen why didnât youâ you know?â She says, now completely fixated on Keonho, fully blocking out the fact that I was still standing here.
I interrupt her before Keonho could answer y/n, because I knew whatever they were discussing was none of my business.
âI seriously have no idea whatâs going on right now, iâm gonna be honest. All I know is that my sister came home shedding tears, while wearing your hoodie, after you claimed to be busy doing stuff.. thatâs why im seriously debating on hitting you right now Keonho.â
âYou were crying?â Keonho worries, his confused expression turned into a concerned one. Y/n lightly bit her lip out of embarrassment, moving her eyes from Keonho to the floor.
âKeonho, I mentioned that I was willing to hit you, and if yâall donât fill me in right now, then I might seriously considerââ
âShut up Seonghyeon, we all know your ass is not going to slap him.â Y/n butts in, in order to humble me.
All you hear is the three in the back breaking out into laughter thanks to my sister pulling me back into reality. âSomeone had to say it.â James says while still laughing non stop with Martin and Juhoon. Every ounce of tension, has now left the conversation.
To be honest, I donât even think the idea of them being together was what was bothering me. It was that I knew them being together was going to happen eventually, but Iâve dug myself too big of a hole by not being supportive of their feelings towards each other, which led to them having to hide it from me.
I would trust Keonho with my life, and I know for sure he wouldnât purposefully hurt her.
When I first joined the conversation, I felt my heart skip a beat after realizing I might be the reason why they werenât at ease with each other.
But I quickly came back to my senses. Because no matter how mad they were at each other, at the end of the day Seonghyeon wouldnât hurt a fly, let alone his best friend.
I turn to him, âSeonghyeon, I promise you everythingâs fine. You donât have to worry.â I reassure him.
âIf you say so, but I swear Keonho if my sister ever comes home teary-eyed again, itâs on sight.â He replies lightheartedly while stepping away from the door to enter the house.
I realize Keonhos shoulder dropping in relief, hearing Seonghyeon already joke about the situation.
After Seonghyeon left to go back to the guys, me and Keonho looked around anxiously at first until I started walking towards Keonho, wanting to close the distance between us. He also took a step closer.
He greets me with a comforting smile as he looks down on me, taking it all in by not taking his eyes off of me. âI was worried you might be upset, so I stood here, contemplating whether or not I should clear things up.â
âWhat were you planning on clearing up exactly?â
âWell firstly, I was planning on admitting that I liked you, but Martin kind of took that one away already.â
I giggled at the thought of him wanting to confess his feelings for me, but that chance being taken from him due to Martinâs big mouth.
âSecond of all, I wanted to tell you thatâ I wanted to.â
âHuh?â I ask, raising my eyebrows. I knew what he meant, I just wanted to hear him say it out loud.
âKiss you. I wanted to kiss you. I think I even dreamed of that exact scenario before.â
His ability to make me blush without fail, was truly admirable.
âBut you know.. I didnât because Seonghyeon made it very clear, for me to not go too far.â He hesitantly adds, while scratching his head.
âAll im hearing is that my brother ruined my chances of experiencing a romcom-worthy kiss.â I reply, followed by a playful pout.
âHe didnât ruin your chances. Iâm still here and very open to revisiting that moment whenever you want⌠not right now though because I can literally sense through your window that Seonghyeons eyes are piercing right through me.â
Being with her so casually, still felt so surreal. The fact that I was laying on y/ns waiting for her to finish her nighttime routine, felt like a dream come true. Might seem like a silly dream to some, but to me the sight of her untying her braid while wearing my shirt as a pyjama, was something I only ever dreamed of.
Every now and then, Iâd catch her trying to lock eyes with me through her mirror.
âYouâre done?â I ask, after watching her get out of her seat. She nods, in response, joining me on her bed.
Once she seated herself next to me, she started fiddling with my fingers, before immediately immersing herself onto my body by placing her body on top of my legs.
Our bodies were pressed together in a way I wasnât used to. I became hyperaware of her breathing against my neck, causing the hair on it to stand up straight. Her warmth was both comforting but also intimidating.
The only thing keeping me sane were her dainty fingers still being intertwined with mine, stroking my hand ever so often.
My thoughts were interrupted by y/ns soft giggle. I blink, trying to revert back to my senses. âWhat?â Is apparently the only world I was able to get out.
âIt was about time for you to be one thatâs blushing, I was getting sick of it being me all the time.â She explains, letting go of my hand so that she could wrap her fingers around my neck instead, pulling me even closer to her face.
I take the next step, by tenderly pressing my lips against hers, letting the butterflies in my stomach loose, while my cheeks start to burn even more as before. I brought up my hands, letting them tangle in her hair, while taking in the softness of her lips. Both of us grinning into kiss.
BONUS: established relationship smau
Authors note: hiii, second and final part ;)) hope you enjoyed this one just as much!! WAIT LETS TALK ABOUT GREENGREEN literally banger after banger.. might be cooking up smth inspired by it⌠letâs seeeee @someonesmember
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