unsaid truth ﾉ ahn keonho ( 안건호 )
!. . ݁₊ ⊹ . ݁˖ . ݁ ⋆.˚𝄞 ⋆.˚𖦹 how could my day be bad when I'm with you? you're the only one who gives me love ₊⊹ . ݁˖ .. ˖ ݁⋆.˚𝄞｡‧₊ ♪𓍢ִ ⋆˚ ⋆˚𖦹
⤷ ゛long written + smau texts, nonidol!keonho x nonidol!f!reader
! brothers bestfriend, down bad/mutual pining !!!, dual pov ˎˊ˗ warnings: cursing, skinship, many idol cameos | wc: 2.3k
part 1 | part 2 /masterlist
synopis: You’ve had a crush on your brothers bestfriend for years now, but you doubt that he’ll ever see you as more than just Seonghyeons little sister. Until one day you both get caught up in the heat of the moment and his feelings towards you become more apparent. Will you both ever admit it or keep it hidden as an unsaid truth?
y/ns pov: ˎˊ˗
Everyone was busy talking to one another. Seonghyeon and Martin were teasing Yoonchae, while James and Hyein were trying every snack on the counter.
Across that table were Keonho and Juhoon who were showing Hanni something on their phones.
Minju was trying to talk to me but, I couldn’t help but keep glancing back to where Keonho has been standing. I felt his glance occasionally meet mine, greeting me with a slight smile every so often before returning to his conversation.
“Which movie should we watch?” Minju asked trying to talk over all the other voices that have been filling up the room. “Huh?” I was too focused on the boy across the table from me to fully comprehend what my friend has been suggesting. “Oh my God, you’re a lost cause. I’ll go ask James.” Minju mumbled.
“Can you guys start preparing the food?” Yoonchae asked as she was coming over.
“Oh, me and James need to decide on which movie we’re going to watch. Y/n can you do it?” Minju replied.
“Yeah that’s fine, I’ll do it.”
Yoonchae smirked before exclaiming “Hey Keonho, can you help out y/n with the snacks?”
And in a matter of seconds, Keonho was already walking over to my side of the kitchen aisle.
I refused to look back at him. I kept facing Yoonchae, knowing that as soon as his eyes met mine again, my cheeks would turn every shade of red possible.
“Where should we start?” His voice creeping up from behind startled me. I finally turn around to face him. Turns out he was much closer than I had expected. He was resting one hand beside me on the kitchen counter, which made him almost hover over me.
“Ehm- Hanni bought a bunch of fruit the other day, and she told us we should eat them before they go bad.”
———
“You don’t like apples?” Keonho questioned me in full disbelief while cutting said fruit. “That’s kind off putting not gonna lie.”
I gasped, immediately ready to justify my stance on apples. “Well, I can tolerate apples and I very much appreciate a good apple. However, a rare juicy yummy apple doesn’t make up for the countless bad mushy apples I come across.”
He bursts into light laughter. “I’ve never met someone with such an elaborate opinion on apples.”
“There’s a first for everything. Keep cutting them apples, please.”
He kept giggling while shaking his head and I didn’t realize how much the sight of him laughing excited me. The fact that something I said is the reason why he was smiling from ear to ear gave me a dopamine rush.
“Ow fuck.” Keonho called out, which pulled me out of my own thoughts. As I looked down to the board, I saw that he had cut himself accidentally. He showed me his index finger that had now been wounded thanks to his nonexisting cutting abilities.
“Follow me.” I said before grabbing his noninjured hand, dragging him to the bathroom.
———
“Sit down.”
“Oh wow, very commanding.”
“Please.”
He chuckled lightly before sitting down on the edge of the bathtub. “It’s really not that big of a wound. I’ll be fine.”
To be fair, the injury really wasn’t that pitiful, however any opportunity I can get to be closer to him, I will take.
“I know, Im more concerned about all the apples you’ve probably poisoned with your blood already.” I respond, while looking through the cabinets trying to find bandaids.
“Pretty bold statement, coming from someone who doesn’t even fuck with apples like that.”
I tried my best to hold back my smile, but he saw right through me.
I closed the distance between us, picking up his hand and letting it rest on my hand, while picking up a wet cloth with my other hand.
That’s when he slowly spread his legs, allowing me to close the distance even further, being swirled into his presence.
I started off by gently pressing the wet cloth onto the wound. “Does it hurt?”
He shook his head softly. I was able to feel his intense gaze on me, and it took every ounce of self respect I had to not lock eyes with him.
Unfortunately, I lack self respect. My eyes immediately fixated on him. I was completely overthrown by the way he looked at me.
Thick black strands of hair were laying so gracefully on his face. While the only beam of light from outside was hitting the bridge of his nose.
The increasing silence and his attentive stare were starting to unsettle me, not because he made me uncomfortable but rather because of the uncertainty of what might happen next.
I put down the cloth and grabbed a bandaid instead.
I wasn’t used to seeing him like this. Usually im the one looking up at him, which would also only last a split second before I broke off eye contact due to the amount of butterflies I would feel in my stomach. And this might be the longest we’ve looked at each other, meaning the butterflies are going crazy.
As soon as I was done putting on his bandaid, he cleared his throat and got up. “Thank you.”
———
keonhos pov: ˎˊ˗
I had to get out of there quickly. I hope every thought that had been consuming me the past few minutes never see the light of day. Seriously. Im really sorry Seonghyeon for everything I’ve been thinking about your sister just now.
/ Thank you universe for nerfing me with horrendously bad culinary skills, otherwise I might’ve never been blessed with such an outstanding view.
/ How is her hair so shiny it’s literally reflecting light while also laying perfectly on her shoulder with a few strands blowing through the wind. Straight out of a movie.
/ I really hope she didn’t put on any blush today and Im the reason why her cheeks are so red right now.
That’s pretty much the gist of everything that was going on in my mind these past ten minutes. I better not reveal any more.
———
Minju and James finally decided on a movie, so everyone was starting to seat themselves around the couch. Y/n however was still busy assembling the snack plates, while everyone else already chose their spot.
So immediately my mind tries to figure out a strategic plan, in which I get her to end up sitting next to me.
I’m assuming that y/n would want to seat herself at the empty space next to Hyein on the floor. So I made up some excuse to get Juhoon to sit there, so I’d be able to sit where he had previously been sitting, with plenty of room next to me for exactly one person. Having the only free seat, being the one to my right. Somewhat forcing y/n to sit next to me.
As she arranged the snacks on the table, I could notice her eyes looking around for unoccupied seats. Before she eventually sat down next to me, greeting me with a slight smile.
———
Me personally, i’m not the biggest fan of horror movies. I don’t think I would ever voluntarily gravitate towards a horror movie when given the choice. However, having someone next to me who might be even less fond of horror, wasn’t all that bad. Whenever I noticed her tensed up expression. I couldn’t help but grin, it was cute.
You might think, I’d be just as scared. But to be honest, I wasn’t even paying attention. If I were to take a quiz on whatever movie we had been watching, I’d fail miserably. And honestly I wouldn’t even care in the slightest. I’d be happy that I failed, knowing I spend the entire time admiring her.
There was a part of me that wanted to comfort her and be close to her, but the fact that her brother was within one foot radius of us, was the only thing holding me back.
Oh my God. It’s like she read my mind.
I started to feel her fingers brush mine. I looked down and noticed her fingers on top of mine. I doubt she registered that she had been fiddling with my bracelet. Her focus was strictly on the screen infront her.
I chuckled slightly, at the sight of her unknowingly playing with my bracelet. That’s when she realized, and turned her face away from the tv to look down at her fingers tickling mine.
“Sorry.” She said faintly, before removing her hand. She seemed embarassed. Her eyes barely met mine but her cheeks were as red as they were moments before.
“Oh no, you’re good.” I reassured her in a whisper. “I don’t mind at all.” I wanted her to keep fidgeting with my bracelet, but I don’t think she picked up on that.
I guess I have to take matters into my own hands. I gently took her hand intertwining them with mine.
She didn’t let go for the rest of the movie, and obviously neither did I. I’d occasionally run my thumb over her finger, whenever she’d squeeze my hand looking for comfort during scary scenes. Leading to me chuckling quietly to myself every so often.
Unfortunately, Martin who was sitting on my left, picked up on it.
y/ns pov: ˎˊ˗
at the café
E equals mc im fucking scared. Scared that I might genuinely fail this physics exam because no matter how often i keep rereading the text infront of me, I can’t help but think about the boy who is sitting right next to me.
After arriving, he made sure not to interfere with my studies too much. But I really wish he would. I can’t be bothered enough to care about the material.
He looked so peaceful, sipping on his matcha while wearing one of my airpods, queuing songs he thinks I might like. “Do you know this one?”
I shook my head, still pretending to gather information about mass - energy equivalence.
“It’s really good, pay attention to the lyrics.”
Face to face, we smiled […]
And I finally held your hands
Considering that he was grinning to himself as soon as this line came, he made me believe that the song choice was intentional and he was trying to hint at something.
We already know that we'll be together (we'll be together)
Do we?
How could my day be bad when I'm with you?
Actually, it is kind of crazy if you think about how he is voluntarily came over here witnessing me endure the pain that is physics, just for the sake of spending time with me.
You're the only one who makes me laugh
Thinking back to yesterday when he found out about my take on apples.
So how can my day be bad? […]
There's a brown hue in your eyes, How pretty it is,
Exactly what I keep thinking whenever im incapable of taking my eyes off of him because of how beautifully light reflects on his brown eyes.
I think I'm in love, ooh
Oh. Oh? Is he still trying to hint at something?
Keonho cleared his throat, taking me out of my own thoughts which have stopped being about physics a long time ago.
“Here’s the hoodie by the way.”
“Oh great, thank you.”
keonhos pov: ˎˊ˗
Whatever im doing here might seem boring and pointless to some, but to me it’s pretty compelling. Admiring y/n without her noticing while trying to communicate with her through songs has now officially become my favorite activity.
And now seeing her wear my favorite hoodie so comfortably is yet again a sight which shouldn’t excite me as much as it does.
“I think im done studying.”
“You understood everything?”
“No, im just done trying. Let’s go.”
———
BONUS: THROWBACK to 3 years ago
Seonghyeons pov:
I joined Keonhos swim practice today because we were planning on hanging out right after.
My mom told me to bring Y/n along so she won’t have to spend the day home alone. I didn’t understand why that would’ve been so bad, considering now she’s just sitting on the bench trying not to get wet.
I assumed that she’d be on her phone trying to fill the time until practice ends. But her eyes kept moving towards Keonho. Whenever it was his turn to swim a lap, her eyes were glued to him.
Well sure, Keonho was the best swimmer in the team and his talent was like no other. His performances are always intriguing to watch — if you’re interested in swimming.
My sister however had no interest in that sport whatsoever, it was Keonho who she was interested in.
Keonho doesn’t reciprocate those feelings. Right?
———
Practice had ended, and i was talking to the coach but out of the corner of my eye, I notice Keonho getting out of the pool, heading towards where y/n is sitting.
I wasn’t able to overhear what they were saying, all i saw was my sister being excited that he was coming her way.
As he stood infront of her, he started playfully shaking his head, letting the water from his hair get her slightly wet as well. Usually, y/n doesn’t enjoy being teased, well that’s what I thought at least. I mean if i ever dared to get her hair wet even in the slighest, she’d immediately run to our mom making me get in trouble.
But for very obvious reason, Keonho teasing her didn’t bother her at all. The opposite actually, she looked like she never wanted him to stop giving her attention.
Their conversation was still inaudible to me but i think the fact she has the biggest grin on her face right now says more than enough.
I waited for him to conclude his conversation with her, so we could go change in the dressing room.
He finally stopped talking to her and started walking up to me. “Why were you talking to my sister?” I ask.
“Should i have not talked to her?”
“No, you’re allowed talk to her.”
“Great.”
“But all im saying is— don’t get too comfortable.”
Authors note: very proud of this one cuz it also took soooo long.. but we still have some ideas left for this story… i know i promised to put it all in one fic but I didn’t want to keep you guys waiting and it’s already quite long ..
so if this does well and you guys like it I might make atleast one more part :) @someonesmember
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