lowkey crying in my friend's bathroom because i psyched myself into thinking everybody there hates me and wants me gone and that i'm a burden to them, and then feeling guilty when they come check on me and i'm being even more of a burden by fucking up the mood
i managed to wake up on time and go to school in the morning, even though i don't have anything to show my teacher, as i haven't started my project yet, and she was busy either way, so i stayed outside on the swingset, sorting through my youtube subscription. i chatted with a classmate who wasn't working either.
then i went to have lunch with my best friend, and his two other best friends who are in town for his birthday tomorrow. i drew them in my sketchbook because i'm supposed to hand over my finished sketchbook at the end of the week, and it's currently empty.
then i was supposed to go back to class, but it wouldn't have been much use, so i ended up going with them. we went to some stores, in a thrift shop where they sold old lps?! so i obvioulsy bought one. then we went to some museums and art centers in the city. it was truly awesome, i haven't had such a good time in...forever i guess.
my friend's best friend loved my drawing of her so much, she set it as her profile pick, and now she's asking if i can draw her and her bf for their anniversary?? like what? i'm so honored!
we did run into a lot of people we know, and that was awkward (like my old art teacher, and my middle school friend i haven't seen irl in years).
then i went home and kept sorting through my youtube and tumblr. i'm pretty much done with my digital decluttering, i still need to sort through my old pictures and my instagram saved posts and i'll be done.
anyways, i'm so so happy, i'm looking forwards for the fun stuff this week end!
alright i sorted through a lot of my apps and things, all i have left to do is : sort my tumblr subscription and posts, manage my youtube subscriptions and playlists (especially the watch later one lol) plus my instagram saved reels, and then the most daunting task which is to go through my gallery
what's your fav flower and when was the last time you cried ?
not a big flower guy, it used to be roses when i was a teen, now i'd say...dandelions? if that even counts. and i don't really cry anymore since i'm on antidepressants, but i came pretty close today
i'm sorting through a lot of stuff on my phone (old notes, old pictures, social media, etc) and i'm going to be changing some things around my blog like the theme, url, profile pic, archive old posts, etc. please don't forget me lol
hi everypony ! little update on me getting on testosterone (tw for talk of sh, depression and some medical transphobia)
so i went to all the appointments i was supposed to go to, the cardiologist said there's nothing wrong with my heart, and the blood work only showed a small issue with my vitamins (like most vegetarians i don't have enough b12).
but the psychiatrist appointment didn't go really well, basically he asked if i had already been to a psychiatrist so i told him about my antidepressants, he asked if i sh and i said yes, and so he kinda cut short the appointment saying "being a boy won't cure your depression" (i know), and that he didn't know if taking testosterone wouldnt make my depression worse (on pretty much no basis),
so now i needed a note from my current psychiatrist (who doesn't know i'm trans) that says i'm not too depressed to take t i guess. the appointment is tomorrow, wish me luck
hello! just finished my appointment! my psychiatrist said all the fucking terf talking points i expected her to say ("you do know it's irreversible" "a lot of neurodivergent people transition and then regret it" "but you seem so feminine, look at all your jewlery" to name a few) but in the end she did write me a note saying i seemed mentally okay and aware of the risks or whatever. unfortunately she did mention me being "asperger's" (very outdated term but whatever) so i'm a bit scared of that impacting the doctor's view. but it's done now, all i have to do is wait for my next testosterone appointment, give them all the paperwork, and pray for them to let me get on t.
also i'm decluttering my room to prepare for my best friend spending the night this week end. and omg it's so fucking stressful to get rid of things i've been low key hoarding for years. i'm so excited to have him over, and i really like how my room is starting to look, but it's still extremely stressful. also i spent like 2 evenings doing that till 3 am, and i haven't even done 1/6th of my room
hi everypony ! little update on me getting on testosterone (tw for talk of sh, depression and some medical transphobia)
so i went to all the appointments i was supposed to go to, the cardiologist said there's nothing wrong with my heart, and the blood work only showed a small issue with my vitamins (like most vegetarians i don't have enough b12).
but the psychiatrist appointment didn't go really well, basically he asked if i had already been to a psychiatrist so i told him about my antidepressants, he asked if i sh and i said yes, and so he kinda cut short the appointment saying "being a boy won't cure your depression" (i know), and that he didn't know if taking testosterone wouldnt make my depression worse (on pretty much no basis),
so now i needed a note from my current psychiatrist (who doesn't know i'm trans) that says i'm not too depressed to take t i guess. the appointment is tomorrow, wish me luck
i'm corvyn and i like foxes, ravens, deers, bugs (especially stag beetles), the color green, the goblincore aesthetic, frogs, mushrooms, bones, monster energy, strawberries, being emo, mcr, and much more!
i don't like feeling lonely, being left out, the bad symptoms of my disorder, loud noises, bright lights, being surprised, not knowing what's going to happen, and obviously everything about the current state of the world
Thanks @silly-fi5h for tagging me these are mine ↓ it's a lot I know but I'm in a lot of fandoms so it's not that many to me (I have more these are just my top)
TAG YOUR MOOTS AND MAKE THEM EXPLAIN THEIR USERNAMES LORE
Starting with me:
Hyyl18 because when i was youngest i had a group in a random app with some friends and i didnt knew qhat username to use so i decided to create one with things i used to read since we were talking abt fanfic in this group so: Hot Yaoi Yuri Lemon +18 stuff (i was in my dirty era dont dare to judge me). Hyyl18 thats it. Now i use it everywhere yay
@patroclus-is-the-bigger-person @b4rty-r0s13r-w1ll-fck-y0ur-m0m @cuntyteardrop @glassesgirlies @leninthestarlight @bardorsomethinglikethat anyone else who wanna join tbh yay
As a noob in the marauders era I was like these rosekiller dudes interesting as hell... And knowing next to nothing about any of them I was just like yeah. Barty would.
Macbeth was the Shakespeare play we had to read for english lit and honestly I got really into Lady Macbeth's role. And now I genuinely will not shut up about her, ever. And I think shes like crazy hot which is like an unpopular opinion but shes such a smash actually fight me
Hence, Lady Macbeth Is A Smash (ladymacbethisasmash)
And I'm very aware alot of people read it wrong first time 😭😭
Whoa thanks for the tag it’s been a hot minute since I’ve done a tag game
I wanted to join the officalverse but obviously I had to pick a cool thing to join under. I was almost pointeshoe-offical which would’ve been a lot different lol.
@madd-hatter @taco-bell-offical @afterdarkafternight @bacone-official @biologynerd13 @tuekytail @transmasc-offical @the-eldestdaughter @the-grassy-hill +anyone who’d like to join :)
so tldr flibbertigibbet means an extremely talkative person or like a group of people talking idk its one of the two and i found the officalverse cool so yeah
This is a side blog, so I already had a tumblr account when I named it this. Basically, I was thinking about a meme of how to do a keyboard smash and then I thought ‘wouldn’t it be funny if there was an offical named keyboard smash but they never did a keyboard smash’ and then I realized they could be me.
i made a vow to mother chappell roan to always have my user be inspired by on of her songs + i am the girl on the subway she’s singing about in the subway trust
@femmour @rennysglowinthedarkstars @art-i-ficiall @softclitoris @sydsquid08 @affectionatealbatross @grave-shares @jackalope-meadowsweet @lulapplee @pinaforepirate @pickledoesthetumbling @tinkerbelle + anyone else it’s 8am chat im dead
i have a longer explanation somewhere on this blog, but basically when i was a kid i was very very scared of whales and sea creatures in general. i'm not anymore but it's a unique thing about me so that's what i chose as my url !