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Roxie | 26 | they/them | Bisexual | Appalachian Luke Skywalker Truther

[countryboyskywalker]

I want Tashi Duncan and Shane Hollander to meet so bad. They would make each other so viscerally suicidal just by being in the same vicinity. They wouldn't even have to talk to each other. 1 like and I will explain my tashi & shane analysis

[countryboyskywalker]

Okay basically I want them to meet because Tashi and Shane would bring out the worst in each other without even trying. They wouldn't even have to interact, proximity is enough.

Shane would hate being near her because Tashi's existance is destabilizing to Shane's subconscious belief that it won't happen to him. Every moment he spends in her vicinity reminds him against his will that at literally any point he could experience the same catastrophe and it makes him so anxious it feels like he's crawling out of his own skin. The idea of losing hockey, of subjecting himself to the torture of coaching (because he can't live without hockey but being so close to it without being able to be IN it would kill him day by day) is violently repulsive to him.

He keeps thinking "if i was her i would have killed myself" and he's totally unable to conceal it. Tashi hates him for it and understands him in equal measure. Even if his discomfort wasn't written all over his face, Tashi is perceptive and more importantly when it comes to sport she is a haunted house mirror of Shane. They understand each other far more deeply than either of them are comfortable with.

Their trajectories are parallel– both young prodigies in their respective sports, whose entire life has revolved around that sport since childhood. Both tokens, the Black girl in tennis and the Asian boy in hockey, constantly sought after for sponsorships. Both nearly unmatched in skill, truly generational talents with promising pro careers stretching out ahead of them. They are going to be internationally known champions. Except her path got cut short before she could really take off and his star just continues to rise.

Tashi hates being near Shane too, and jealousy is only part of it. Another part of it is that she cannot stand being pitied. Not from anyone, but least of all from someone who can truly understand everything she lost. But beneath that, the part of it that bothers her the most is that she KNOWS what Shane is thinking!! She hates that part the most because it dredges up everything she tries not to think about.

But now it's here at the surface. Why DIDN'T she kill herself? She should've. Instead she chose to build a career that's an inescapable reminder of the worst thing that ever happened to her. And now because she chose the "better" option, the "stronger" option, she's been rewarded with... fucking what? A life she hates, a husband she resents, a kid she never planned for or really wanted but had anyway because that's the kind of life she has now. The wife of an internationally known tennis champion. Why the fuck didn't she just kill herself if this was all she's ever going to get out of living?

So yeah, Tashi gets it, what Shane must see when he looks at her. She can't blame him. It's exactly what she would be thinking about him if their roles were reversed. But it does make being in a room with him a little excruciating.

[itscolossal]

The Japanese Mini Truck Garden Contest is a Whole New Genre in Landscaping

[forest-woman]

[laurierrose]

we need to start legally protecting these like make this kind of bathroom part of the national park system

[drawballa]

"I'd like to relax with you, for once"

[molabuddy]

really specific trope i like that i feel like can only be explained in a diagram

[fjordfjucks]

Dead ass tho. We sometimes forget, collectively as a group of people observing this franchise, that there are nasty dance clubs all over the Star Wars universe. The Galaxy. An entire system of worlds. There are places that play shitty dance remixes for 12 hours and where cross fraction hook ups probably happen every night.

Do not forget this. Beyond Tatooine, beyond stuffy meeting halls, the palaces of royalty, a storm trooper probably just had his 3rd drink and he’s bout to get the best dick of his life from something with 4 arms. He’s living the dream. Do not forget him.

[merlyn-bane]

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

Chapters: 1/? Fandom: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types Rating: Explicit Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Shane Hollander/Ilya Rozanov Characters: Shane Hollander, Ilya Rozanov Additional Tags: New York Admirals Player Shane Hollander, AHL Player Shane Hollander, AHL Player Ilya Rozanov, Trans Shane Hollander, Unplanned Pregnancy, Discussion of Abortion, Frankly Blunt and Sometimes Irreverent Discussion of Abortion, Abortion, Shane Hollander Ain’t Keeping That Thing, Road Trip, The Inherent Romance In Embarking On A Secret Abortion-Seeking Road Trip With Your Rival Slash Situationship From Hell, Other Additional Tags to Be Added, Cunnilingus, Face-Sitting Series: Part 2 of Admirals!Shane Summary:

“I’m pregnant.”

Ilya stares at him, unable to hear himself think past the ringing in his ears. He watches Hollander’s face screw up as the anger wins out. He feels like someone’s shoved his head underwater.

“Well? Are you going to say something, asshole?”

Ilya has to swallow three times before he can manage a response, glancing away for a second’s reprieve and clearing his throat. “What do you want to do?” Whatever he wants, Ilya will make it happen. Fuck everything lse.

“Obviously get rid of it!” Hollander snaps, goggling at him a little bit. “I can’t be fucking pregnant, Rozanov! There’s still half the fucking season left! And I’m not—what the fuck would I even do with a kid?”

“Okay, okay,” Ilya says, easy, holding up his hands in surrender. “If this is what you want, this is what we will do.”

Hollander stares at him for a beat, then, going a little quiet—a little unsure. “We?”

“Yes, I think so.” Ilya gives what he hopes is a reassuring smile, despite how fraught his own nerves are. “It takes two to make baby, yes? So we are in this situation together, I think.”

(The first part of this/set-up for how Shane came to be drafted by the Admirals can be found here.)

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[abstracteddistractions]

Sol LeWitt, Double Negative Pyramid, 1997,

Europos Parkas (Park of Europe), Vilnius, Lithuania,

Built from concrete blocks,

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[ottawacentaurshq]

HUDSON WILLIAMS APPRECIATION WEEK

favorite look: just... THIS

[whitmanic]

Harrowing: someone in your Fandom just made an innocuous and harmless post that nonetheless betrays a deep misunderstanding of the character and the character's narrative purpose and you just have to sit there and let them be wrong lest you be an asshole

[seek--rest]

[2well2water]

i am so sickkkkkkkk of people seeing misogyny perpetuated by a man and automatically going "well SOMEONE'S closeted" omfg you know that men hate women even when theyre attracted to them right??? why are you more interested in making fun of gay people than hating misogynists. you fucking freak

[xxsugardecayxx]

free use gf but she wants to fuck more than you can even keep up w so it’s kind of like having a fleshlight that whines and drips and complains if you don’t use it 3x a day

[gimmiekiss1221]

[naiviridae]

Faerie Haven by Devajoy Gouss & Julie Jumper

-via Faerie Magazine

[plumslices]

Obsessed

[tummywilliams]

shane fixing his hair at the hotel before he goes to ilya and ilya fixing his hair before he opens the door to let shane in and both of them wanting to look good for each other and being a bit nervous about it all because they both have a big huge crush on each other even if they can't or won't fully admit it to themselves yet let alone put it out there in the open but they still fix their hair like of course i'm crying over it

[tummywilliams]

just thought about how we're probably going to see them nervously fix their hair again in the future but this time the nerves and the slightly sweaty palms and the hearts beating fast will be because they're about to get married and spend the rest of their lives together :)))))

[ellisonwongparty]

the problem with rr is that she's like. really super hilarious.

[ellisonwongparty]

this was inspired btw by the troy barrett line "the last thing hospitalized children needed was to be forced to spend even five seconds with him" like what's wrong with her. that's so funny. i haven't even read role model yet i know nothing about it but that line is just such an rr classic.

[mymansmoon]

ilya accidentally hurts their daughter while playing in yuna and david's house one day, and little hollander-rozanov (we'll refer to her as Baby because she's like, two) ruuuuuuns to shane, crying, telling him what papa did to her. and ilya has trailed after her, is imploring her to believe he didn't mean to, it was an accident, he loves her so much. but she won't listen to him, refuses to even look at him, and only stops crying when shane picks her up and rocks her from side to side.

he tries telling her the same things ilya did in his calm voice (myshane doesn't use baby voice. he speaks to her normally) and she remains quiet as he talks, but even after he's done she won't look at ilya. eventually experienced mother yuna tells them Baby just needs a little time and takes her away to have a nice hot drink and maybe to do some drawing.

ilya looks CRUSHED. he feels absolutely terrible. shane ends up having to console him too:

"I didn't mean to, shane, the box slipped—"

"I know, baby, of course you didn't mean to."

"I'm a terrible fucking father."

"ilya, no you're not. you're an amazing father and she loves you."

"she has never looked at me like that. ever. like I betrayed her."

anyway, later in the day they're all in the living room together, david in the armchair doing a crossword, shane and ilya on the couch facing the tv, yuna and Baby on the floor playing with building blocks. ilya is only half-paying attention to whatever show is on; he keeps looking over at Baby, pained, and shane keeps stroking his hair comfortingly.

at some point Baby yawns.

"oh? feeling a little sleepy?" yuna asks.

Baby shakes her head. she moves some more blocks. then she yawns again and abruptly decides yes, actually, she's had enough of playtime, and stands up. rubbing her eyes, she turns towards the couch.

shane says, "hey, baby, you wanna go to bed?" and she nods as she walks. but she's walking towards ilya. and ilya is shifting up in his seat faster than lightning, hopeful—and when she stops in front of his knees and reaches up to him his face crumples. he sweeps her up into his arms and holds her close, one hand under her bottom and the other cupping the back of her head. he's murmuring to her in english, "my baby, my baby" and then in russian, "papa loves you so, so much. papa didn't mean to hurt you, baby. I love you so, so much, darling." and she murmurs vague baby things back, face hidden in his neck now and arms circling it.

the scene is so sweet there isn't a dry eye in the room. definitely not ilya's, and not shane's or david's or yuna's either.

maybe just Baby's, though. she's already fallen asleep.