sabertooth dream

dim asshole trans man casey / any variant of words pronounced 'see'

[cseycie]

idk why spelling it like cliff marleau bothers me so much. it shouldn’t but it just looks ugly to me, which doesn’t even make sense because even tho i read the books before i watched the show, i used the audiobooks so i didn’t even know how it was supposed to be spelled 😭 but guys. marlow forever. 😒✌️😝☺️

[cseycie]

me bc i feel a little stupid for not caring that deeply about phm…like i watched the movie with my friend the other day mb i was distracted or something bc i was just like oh ok. this nice i suppose. i cried once i cant remember for what i think it was the tossing the earth beanbag to rocky? if that even happened i don’t rmemeber but it was just a little leak which is disappointing for me, the Crying Connoisseur. and i enjoy the stuff on my feed, like it’s nice, let’s all parade aroace icon grace (didn’t catch that in the movie? is more prominent in book? i don’t care if it’s based off canon or not i don’t need anything related at all to canon to champion aroace characters), but i just don’t care….and i feel like soooo bad about it 😭 guys idk what’s wrong with me. why do i not care.

ohhhh. i don’t like sci-fi

[cseycie]

sun machine is coming down and we’re gonna have a party :)

[hrast-ika]

sleep deprivation is doing wonders to my creativity i guess. the price i have to pay to draw well. and it only took me 1 hour and a half to pop this one out wow

guess where i got the idea from? yes. the fanfic The Car's in Reverse (by @itsfrthebirds ) of course. honestly that whole concept of Robby giving Dennis his necklace has me in a chokehold, i hope you know that

[hrast-ika]

robby, my man, chill, or you'll give this man a heart attack at the age of 27!!

i am not done with making fanart for The Car's in reverse (by @itsfrthebirds ) just yet!!! and because i have no self control i ended up making a short comic for a scene from chapter 19

[mymultifandomhell]

ilya would either never change his wifi name or make it something unhinged like ILikeTitsAndHole

[puppiegracie]

whitaker is not robby's new langdon and he never has been. and robby does not see himself in whitaker. that's not the point of dennis regurgitating robby's teachings, "oh it's like robby when he was younger..."

it's to show dennis looks up to robby. and that's what gets robby. because dennis is a person who saw him curled up on the floor like a baby, crying and whimpering, completely breaking, and stayed through it. saw all of it. and still, still respects him, trusts him, likes him, looks up to him afterwards.

he saw robby at an extremely vulnerable moment and did not "abandon" him. thaaat is the root of the attachment. that is why robby is so careful to keep dennis from seeing the uglier parts of him. he is desperate to have at least one person who still thinks he's good. who still looks up to him as the "captain" of the ED.

I'm not saying this is a good thing, it isn't, for either of them, but it's soooo interesting. dennis is not langdon, dennis is not robby, dennis is dennis.

[cseycie]

i just listened to space odyssey (the album) and goddamn!! this might be my favorite album of his, maybe even better than diamond dogs it was just sooo good

[cseycie]

i haven’t had my period in so long i forgot it existed so it sprang on me and im currently sitting in pain in light blue shorts someone help

[gaynehollander]

I'm a firm believer that Cliff Marleau had to be told that Shane Hollander and Montreal Jane were the same person. I am of the belief that when the Fanmail video leaked, Cliff thought "oh, it must not have worked out with Montreal Jane but my boy bagged Shane fucking Hollander, so it's fine." He does think it's a little funny that both of the people Ilya's been seriously involved with are based in Montreal but he still doesn't put it together.

[cseycie]

trying to convince everyone in my life to watch the pitt. i’ve convinced 1 so far still working on my brother 🙏

[cseycie]

my binder arrived 🥹🥹🥹 so excited to try it on sassfnfjdjoeoedn

[cseycie]

yallll i got that fleece i got it i got it im typing this completely unable to see my screen so like if i fuck up the tags whatever

[speechless-typewriter]

Rabbot head-cannon — leaving notes for each other.

Okay so I was thinking, because of the nature of their shifts, Robby and Jack probably rely on text or leaving each other notes to communicate, especially when their sleep schedules are exact opposites. For things not as urgent, they probably prefer the analog way of writing things down.

For Jack, I’m picturing him writing on post-it notes and sticking them on the fridge, on their bedroom door, etc., for Robby to find when he wakes up. He probably has a stack of post-its on his night stand to write things down before he heads off for his shift.

For Robby though, he’s grabbing whatever pieces of paper he could find to scribble on, not caring what shapes or form they are in, as long as he can get the messages across. He would be putting pieces of tape on them so that he can slap these notes on random surfaces in their home for Jack to come across, a gift of pleasant surprises.

Please enjoy the notes situation I pictured in my head haha. 🫶🏼 They are so precious!!!

[cseycie]

i swear all i want to do today is cry, whether it be from happiness or sadness

my first pride month knowing i’m trans. soon to be my first pride month out to everyone important as trans. i feel

[nitrosplicer]

Reading wiki entries for historical trans men…

Dr. James Barry, Albert Cashier, Charley Parkhurst, Billy Tipton, and Dr. Alan Hart could have each written “I am a man and want to be recognized across history as such” and transphobes would still be like… “wow what misunderstood butch heroes… lesbian icons!!!!”

[angelescoffee]

interesting how they… didn’t all write that. across history women have disguised themselves as men in order to escape misogyny cus u couldn’t get anywhere much in life (much less become successful doctors) as women. and anyways, of course a woman constrained by sexism would prefer to be given the privileges of a man. i can’t confirm these women were lesbians, but you cannot confirm they were transmen either. 

[nitrosplicer]

Interesting how… I didn’t argue that women haven’t disguised themselves throughout history. I mentioned specific instances of historical trans men for whom there is evidence to conclude they identified as men and not women. I said nothing against lesbians in my post either, only about transphobes.

Anyways: 

Dr. James Barry had a close relationship with Lord Charles Somerset and was subsequently accused of buggery, which led to a court trial and investigation as homosexuality was illegal. He could have revealed that he was female at any time during the trial to escape condemnation, but he did not. Upon his death, Barry left strict instructions that his body was not to be undressed and he was to be buried in his bedsheets. 

Albert Cashier could not read or write, but lived as a man for 53 years, even after fighting in the uniform of a Union soldier, he maintained his male dress and presentation until he slipped and fell, breaking his hip. 

The indomitable stagecoach driver Charlie Parkhurst lived as a man from the time he was 12, and after retiring, maintained his identity as a man until his death.

Also it’s interesting that you said that I could not undeniably prove any of these men were trans: Alan L Hart was undeniably trans, as he sought out medical transition and pyschotherapy for his gender dysphoria, referred to himself as “one of the fellows,” legally changed his name, lived as a man from a young age, and continued to do so until his death, so yeah, you really can’t say “oh he’s a lesbian,” can you?

[gayknight]

while billy tipton might’ve initially identified as a lesbian, he later transitioned to presenting male full-time. he told his future female partners that he was a man and that his body was the result of a serious car accident. he went on to adopt children, and was known as a “good father”. at the age of 74, he refused to be seen by a doctor when he contracted emphysema, which caused his death. neither his later female partners or his children or friends seemed to know he was trans until he was forcefully outed at death

i’d also like to add

little ax broadnax, a gospel singer who performed in multiple quartets over the years with his older brother. while still living with his family, he was recorded in the US census as male. he was outed publicly as a trans man at death in 1992, having presented as male for over 60 years

[beachdeath]

#when albert cashier had dementia and was in an institution he used to take clothespins and try to make his skirts into pants #regardless of the trouble it caused his caretakers #being a man was so integral to him that even when his memory was shot he clung to his identity with both hands and refused to let it go #our history isn’t big but it’s vital and it’s present and it’s not going anywhere

[cseycie]

came out to my therapist as autistic i’m seriously winning today guys i feel like mel with her chant like ‘im strong’ shit but i can’t remember exactly what she said—whatever it was, it’s me 😝✌️🐺🙂‍↕️