I am afraid of discomfort, pain, and change. Even with all these happening so much in my life, especially recently, it still scares me. For so long I have been chasing an answer, an idea of fulfillment, and a time where there is no more struggle. I have been searching for a cure. I have begun to come to terms and accept that I may never "figure" it out. My illness is a disease and it will never truly go away. Life in general will always have struggle, will always have pain. This realization is important but I also can't let it defeat me. I have lived with this illness, with this struggle, all my life and some days I just want to give up. But the more I accept and live with it in harmony, the more it becomes manageable. Some people think I am nuts for this, but I really enjoy submerging in cold. The feeling is terrifying at first, it requires acceptance. Once I stop fighting the terrifying shock and accept it, the better it feels. It becomes exhilarating and I feel alive. I feel like I can conqure anything. The cold, in a lot of ways, represents that discomfort, pain, and change. There's days where it seems impossible, but I can and will live with it in acceptance. #wimhofmethod #mentalwellness #mentalillness #mentalhealth #coldtherapy #acceptance #change #overcomingfear #bipolardisorder #schizophrenia #depression #livingwithmentalillness (at Pritchard Beach) https://www.instagram.com/p/CJHtzldMuXu/?igshid=npvxjahhmnwh