xKhaix

My digital diary :) Welcome to my life

[ctrlxicy]

Finding myself

In these past few months a lot has happend which resulted in me losing myself and trying to find who this newer version of myself is. I have lost a grandparent, ended up not getting my degree this year and my parent is going through a bunch of tests to find out whats wrong and if there is a possibility of it being terminal. I haven't told many people about what's going on, mainly because it will feel like I am consoling them instead so I rather keep it to myself. But if you are struggling right now and life is not going the way you planned, you are not alone.

[phantomvalkyrie05]

Please be someone that's normal. Please be someone that's normal. Please be someone that's normal for once!😬

FUCK!

[whitestreamrct2]

I don’t wanna marry Sonic the Hedgehog 😭

@bassyperson @zeldafloof @chezzitezzi + open tags!

[misty-skyz-after-a-storm]

I’m scared hold up

(under the cut cuz blood)

OHHHH HIMIKOOOOO YEAAAASSSSS

@calcium-is-screaming2 and open tags

[calcium-is-screaming2]

my amazing awesome beautiful fantastic wonderful wife robin

@stank-bugg @juno-the-great @creatorofscotchea350 @psyche-official + open tags

[queen-of-sapphics]

I guess I'm getting 2 wives

@waitingonabook @catlover-offical @small-bottle-of-expired-milk @ravengirl-luca + open tags

[small-bottle-of-expired-milk]

EW HE’S MY CHILD

@mariorat-the-aroace @the-bone-eating-vulture-kirin @catlover-offical @miko-gone-bad @violetrosiecookiesleepydragon @unicorngroundzero @loco-the-wolf @the-mycelial-court @littlechaoscryptid @ripplefoxx @itsuwari-no-kibo-offical @watermelon-flavored-dragon-candy @libertymutualadvertisement @libertymutualnsurance-blog @is

[emofuker]

Wasn’t tagged but wtv

OMG MY WIFEEE YAYAYAYYAYAYAYAYAYYAYAYAY

@squidswagbrainrott @riverthesillytherian @k-mart-hair-42 @izzie-of-suburbia-official @kaihasmoreswagthanyou3 @cheeseballman72 @veethevoyd +open tags

[cerciscanadensis]

i mean. sure ig? id rather have his gender but i could be poly with him and hyuna~

@jaydoesrandomstuff @rainworldobsesseddemon @fynchfire @gay-little-isopod @gloomurai-official @silentsupernova @engene-army-stay @iiinkos @p3rpetual-moti0n + open tags

[silentsupernova]

YES YES OMG MARRY ME NOW OMG THANK GOD

@k1tkatzzz @thefloppydisk08 @sidviciousssidk @spookydollsblog @coquette-corpsie @bookishsassqueen @evyyy77 @blacknailpolishoffical @be-more-silly @death-of-an-optimist @elijahcries2 @justmythoughts113 @permetutotheworld @academicloser69420 @austin003 @i-put-the-hyper-in-hyperfixated @shattered-starry-pages @hekate-offical @lilyyyevans @cerciscanadensis @destroy-the-binary @cabin13winion @skw1d @morrowsmotto @glamfreddyfan

[elijahcries2]

BOTH OF THEM???? 🤯🤯🤯

@evenmoremaee @ph03nix-by-th3-light-sw1tch @littlebeanantenthusiast @nerd-alerts @tabbykai @sage0clock @spikedradio @oliverisagaymuggleborn @twisted-mentally @honourofheresy @its-julessssss @zannabaefishwithlegs + any other moots !!

[nerd-alerts]

Oh. Um. @ringmaster-officialy Im sorry.

Open tags

[auth0r-unknown]

THIS IS MY OWN DAM DRAWING- anyway YAY:3 i love pyro and apo i’m fine with this <3

open tags:3

[withered--ivy]

I...

Do. . . I— do i get to marry them all?

Holy shit..? Let's go? Let's freaking go? Biggest W of my life?

@chaoticxsnowflake @phoenix--dawn @annasstarz @gacha-gamers-blog + open tags!

[chaoticxsnowflake]

Thanks for the tag!

Yeah I’m chill w this

@phoenix--dawn @ironspider-noctis @st4rrl1ghtwastaken + open tag

[ironspider-loki]

Thxxx

It’s good i guess

@sunny-funny-honey-pants @hdgepodgelovesfrogs @misswritealot @eyeballdango

[sunny-funny-honey-pants]

Thanks for the tag, twin!!

Aww Rosie!! :D I love Rosie she's so aunty

@thatdangspacenerd @quietlychaotic13 @joshua-flipping-washington @masaki-komi @lamarieederik + open taggssss

[pinkmourningdoll]

Erik! 🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍

Oh, he’s so cute. 🎀💔💕 @themuseinthewoods @angel-of-lucidity @celestialtreespirit @rosesandtheatre4 @lunetheweird @waverly-kils @leriklover69 @ironspider-loki @problemchildiculoustheridiculous @4thouglory @aurynne @the-monotone-angel @aphroditee222 @elliotsaqueenfan @krysoslov and open tags! 🩰🪽

[the-monotone-angel]

well...

considering that her actual crush has been oblivious for years... i will gladly steal her lol. move aoi, tsubaki is mine now!

@yeuseraph @moundane @americanlobotomy and open tags!

[americanlobotomy]

hilariously, it's from last tag game loll

i'm not complainingggg ><

@uglylittlesweetheart @applepieandcupcakess @angelic143rene @dream-girl-1n-shibuya + open tags<3

[angelic143rene]

Thank you so much for the tag💓💓

I saw someone up in the chain that married him and his full team so hopefully we can share (ﾟ-ﾟ⁠人⁠)⁠)

No pressure and open tags!! : @user24709 @rosaizfalls @uvanille @ginsengsstarrydiary

[rosaizfalls]

marrying the beauty herself

@daydreamz333 @da1stninjagofangirl @diaryofablackteen no pressure

[da1stninjagofangirl]

My fortnite skin is crazy (thx for the tag)

I never get anything good bro

@bruh37legolover @heesgirlie1009

@zanezanezane123 @sisaayjj

[igotyeonjunpregnant]

OEJENEICUWHEHYCUC

@rosxhii

[rosxhii]

Thanks for the tag luv @sisaayjj

@sooberrysoda @ctrlxicy @carabonarasauce @thestudywitch @tera-bhaiya-mera-saiyaan

[ctrlxicy]

Thank you for the tag luv @rosxhii

@moonstar36

[ctrlxicy]

welp

well it's official, I have a study delay. I hope it will be less than a year but at this point nothing is certain. I am so mad and upset, I worked so hard and have nothing to show for it. All the sleepless nights and missing out on fun activities for nothing. And one of the people I really wanted to show my degree is not longer here with me. Everything seems so pointless.

[ctrlxicy]

Falling behind

Due to everything that has happend, I have fallen behind with my scholing. I worked really hard to get where I am and to not finish yet stung a little at first. But I know everything will work out in the end. I just need to keep working hard and keep my head up. Even though it hurts, it isn't over.

[ctrlxicy]

I'm so frustrated anything I have is not taken seriously, but when my siblings have it a whole different story. And when they get called out on their bs they point fingers and say that they only react like that with them and not me. Are you kidding me?! My pain always gets minimalized and now you tell me that I get special treatment, please.

[ctrlxicy]

Grief

Grief is so weird, one second i'm laughing and the next I am sobbing. Anything can trigger a memory happy or sad both extremely painful. I just miss you...

[ctrlxicy]

Since I lost you

Ever since you left me, I have felt so empty. When I found out you were gone I cried so much, but after awhile a calm settled over me. I knew that you were pain free and happy and would still look over us. I love and miss you so much, more than words can describe. I am so happy you were apart of my life and got to see me be a responsible and happy young woman. I love you to the moon and back.

[ctrlxicy]

It's my birthday and people who I thought cared about havent even wished me a happy birthday, before you think maybe they are busy or something. They have literly seen my story with a repost of my best friends birthday post :(

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[ctrlxicy]

I use this place as like a digital diary. Now that I am finishing school, the adult life seems more and more near. I never thought I would be where I am today. To be honest I am beyond grateful, for the good and bad. I sound crazy when I say that, but it is true. Life is never a straight line from A to B. If it were that way it would honestly be boring haha. The more you accept life the way it is, the more doable it is. I guess this is my way of saying don't give up, there is a door waiting to be opend.

[ctrlxicy]

Pain is something I’ve learned that can be emotional/mental too through my family. They tend to make me feel terrible for reasons I don’t know. I try my hardest with everything yet, that doesn’t matter. I am the punching bag, the screw up, the lazy one, the terrible, the disrespectful, the list goes on. And I can’t say anything so I just stay quiet and let them keep going. Because what can I do…

[thereadmind]

[gospocki]

it is so

[ctrlxicy]

It’s so weird and funny to me that no one close to me knows I have tumblr specifically this account

[ttylchristine]

spending my evenings in the library writing letters to people who could not care less

[classycookiexo]

[ctrlxicy]

I don't know

I am so overwhelmed and i feel like a failure. Most people are so kind and understanding towards me, it makes me feel like i am letting them down. Whilst others fuel fire. I just don't know what to do...

[ctrlxicy]

Stressed out!!!

I'm soooo stressed out, I need to find an internship but either i get rejected or there arent any. It's so difficult to find one for my major, because they either want another type of major or a higher form of my major. I need to find one fast, but it just seems impossible at this point. I wanna cry.